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No Sleep

by JiminyCrispies 4/11/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I didn’t sleep Saturday night. I slept for 3 hours last night. I haven’t slept tonight – it’s 5AM. And I’m so energetic I couldn’t care less about the loss of sleep. I have done so much stuff tonight (this morning I stayed in my room because I couldn’t calm myself down – I was extremely happy and was thinking about all these great ideas to do, and I annoy people and get into arguments over it).

For the past couple hours I’ve been doing a sketch for a painting I’ve put off for almost 2 months – surprisingly I’ve been able to focus on it […]

4/11/2016 3 comments

Fuck you real life people, fuck you supermarket you too hairdressers

by Sui the Bunny 4/10/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

>:( I understand that my hair may look really coool now but seriously don’t fucking come up to me and fucking touch my hair and then get me kicked out of the supermarket because I hiss at you because you don’t listen to the words “don’t touch” or “fuck off” honestly for fuck sakes really now I have to show my face in the supermarket to get the rest of my fucking shopping

I hate life… FUCK YOU REALITY

4/10/2016 80 comments

I wish I were dead

by disgusting 4/10/2016

written by disgusting

I’ve seriously had to think about jumping or hanging myself at work or jumping in front of a train because this is such bullshit and I’m getting abused on top of it. My job’s become unbearable because of the coworker who’s decided to have a problem with me and trying to get rid of me. Well yeah it’s fucking working. She’s been lying and complaining about me to the boss saying I stink, that I’ve filled the coffee pot with my coffee mug that I drank out of, that I fart and burp the whole day at work, and that I don’t shower and smell […]

4/10/2016 32 comments

Please kill me

by Metalgore 4/10/2016

written by Metalgore

In the past month my life seems to have gone from about a five (being ok and slightly happy) to a zero real quick. Almost all my friends have moved and I am actually alone for the first time in a while. I almost forgot how terrible the feeling was. Everyday day I’ve been repeating in my head “I wanna shoot myself, I wanna shoot myself, I wanna shoot myself, I wanna shoot myself, I wanna shoot myself..” I’ve also started to imagine me killing myself at school in the bathrooms or somewhere like that and wondering if anyone would actually care. But its not like they would…they don’t […]

4/10/2016 2 comments

That moment when you realize you dont have the time you think you do.

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 4/10/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

Edit:
I like this video it makes me feel less sub conscious about my looks. The girl makes me a bunch of good points now onto the post

I said in a previous post that i would kill myself in 18 (now 17 1/2 months) then i realized its more like 11 1/2. You see if im in the home strech at the same point I’m at I’m going to do it. Don’t get me wrong im moving forward still working out i have an interview tomorrow in the new city im moving to (about an hour and a half away this makes the 3rd major […]

4/10/2016 18 comments

Screwed, totally screwed and panicking

by chelle428 4/10/2016

written by chelle428

So my work only scheduled me 9 hours next week. I don’t even know what the fuck I’m supposed to do, I can’t live on that, that’s not even 70$ worth of pay for me. And usually when they start doing this to people then they keep doing it every week. I have to find a different job probably and I’m so stressed because finding a job here is so hard, our states economy is in the shitter and there’s almost no jobs and no one hiring. Like how am I even supposed to survive? No idea what I’m going to do, it seems like […]

4/10/2016 4 comments

Why do humans exist?

by blank-clutter 4/9/2016

written by blank-clutter

It’s your typical existential thought but I think there is a perspective that no one has pointed out. All the good in the world and everything that people consider good is true by their own standards. Humans only have self justification and nothing else. Those who judge suicidal people and think we are wrong for thinking like that dont really have anyway knowing that we are wrong.

For all we know, wanting to end your life is the best thing one can do

4/9/2016 4 comments

Feeling like today is the day (Update)

by Blood_Lotus 4/9/2016

written by Blood_Lotus

I think, my mind is ready. I have been constantly thinking about suicide for, I can’t remember how long. And I tried to get better but only got steadily worse. Now instead of dreams where I am killed by other people, for the last 5 days it is myself that is throwing themselves into the void over and over again.

I have an outdated suicide note in my nightstand. Written a couple of weeks ago… not sure if I should revise it last minute or tear it up completely.

I feel no words could explain why I want to off myself. I failed to convey it to them […]

4/9/2016 7 comments

Damn it

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 4/8/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I didnt want to post but im starting to feel like absolute shit. I hate the way the mind works. Do you know why you/we have emotional triggers? Evolutionary psychology. Your (subconscious) mind doesn’t want you to cause yourself danger. As a result it reminds you of a (perceived) danger when you see something that signifies it. In the past you could see an area of your surroundings that meant there were dangerous animals or that you had a previous encounter with one in the area youd scare yourself to know not to continue. Now a days if you see a reminder of your past […]

4/8/2016 3 comments

MRI results

by Cordless 4/8/2016

written by Cordless

Cerebral Atrophy.
“Generalized brain atrophy.”

http://www.healthgrades.com/conditions/cerebral-atrophy

It isn’t reversible. As you can read from that link, there is no cure, and no way to restore the lost brain cells.

Sometimes it can worsen into Alzheimer’s Disease, which is what my grandmother died of.
It was a hell of a horrible way to die.
Before it was all over, she spent years knowing NOTHING, and not recognizing anyone, not even her own children or grandchildren. The police found her walking down the highway in the middle of the night, carrying a towel and a bowl of potato salad. She couldn’t remember anything from one minute to the next. She […]

4/8/2016 47 comments

listening to bloodhound gang, some song about getting picked on, I think¿

by Mr Angry-mosta tha time 4/8/2016

written by Mr Angry-mosta tha time

Looking at you Al, its on triple J at 4:15am and making me feel a hell of a lot happier as i sit out front in the night looking at nothing but sky and sitting in despair…
But now with good tunes on its a chill nite

4/8/2016 4 comments

Protected: I know I’ve already said it a million times…

by whiskered-fish 4/7/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/7/2016 13 comments

Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing

by HakunaMatata 4/7/2016

written by HakunaMatata

I’ve suffer from anxiety and depression for months after my relative just keep telling me “not to worry and let karma do the rest” about my neighbour from hell next door. Things didn’t get better but escalate for the worst. He never listened to me to be about being careful about those people trying to harm us/seek revenge and it is always better to stay safe than to be sorry. I tried very hard to stay positive and always strive to protect my home from these sort of jerks that try to provoke us with their words, kids playing on our driveway, and petty revenge […]

4/7/2016 3 comments

Ground Hog Day

by Nusu Nusu 4/7/2016

written by Nusu Nusu

I made an unsuccessful attempt three weeks ago. Just told my doctor, been signed off for three months. Waiting for the crisis team to show up in the next couple of hours. I scare myself.

4/7/2016 4 comments

by Alan Ominous 4/6/2016

written by Alan Ominous

https://youtu.be/gR7LJsMLetY

May I have your attention please?
May I have your attention please?

Did you ever read Voltaire’s “Candide”?
He says live life at Benny Hill freak out speed
Not a quote of what he wrote but a paraphrase
Make it up as you go Keyser Soze
Highlights yes but don’t underline ’em
Just live for N.O.W. like Gloria Steinem
Life is like Marion Barry
It’s not all that it’s cracked up to be
Like Fred Sanford when the big one comes
Find the meaning of life is there is none
It’s twenty-four hours when you call it a day
Be Frank and say “I Did It […]

4/6/2016 3 comments

I don’t know.

by mentally conflicted 4/5/2016

written by mentally conflicted

You know what sucks tbh?
It’s the moments where you’re doing fine-in fact, better.
You feel like you can get through the day and that things will be okay.
But then something happens.
It could be the smallest thing.
The feeling when it all comes crashing down.
The moment you feel like it’s all gone wrong.
Honestly, you just wanted to have a decent day-maybe just a “neutral” day.
A day where it doesn’t suck too much.
Just the days where you can actually breathe.
The routine-sleeping, doing whatever it is you do, then sleeping again.
Forgetting how shitty you feel, even if it leaves […]

4/5/2016 6 comments

Musings of a Pill Popping Loser – Part II: If Only I Weren’t Lonely.

by Shephard 4/5/2016

written by Shephard

Hurry up and fuckin’ wait — oh, how I despise that phrase/former way of life. I don’t like sitting ’round on my arse doing nothing (besides exam prep) but that’s what I’ll have to do for now. Things should be bearable as long as these folks working my case stop making it all about money and meeting these stated outcomes of theirs, because otherwise I’m going to turn violent… and that won’t end well for whoever happens to be on the receiving end of my violent gestures.

…but I’m not a violent person by nature. Of course not. I’d much prefer to reach a compromise […]

4/5/2016 6 comments

The Accident

by Cordless 4/4/2016

written by Cordless

Most of you are probably gone now, and maybe it’s better that way, since I don’t know if this is a very good side of me.

I was in high school back in the 1980’s.
I was driving on one of the highways into town, and I was listening to a tape of Howard Jones’ “Little Bit Of Snow”.
The song is a plea against suicide. It begs people not to destroy themselves.

I remember listening to the song over and over, loving the poignant music but disagreeing with the message (because of how depressed I was).

There was a car which had stopped in the middle […]

4/4/2016 22 comments

Friend long gone. Other thoughts.

by Seneca 4/4/2016

written by Seneca

I live in a south-american country with lots of social problems. One of those, connected in a way to all, is poverty. I was born in a fairly wealthy family, not rich, but in a country were some some didn’t make enough to eat, certainly more than enough. My family didn’t live always as well as they did by the time I was born, and still lived in the same “low-class” neighborhood. In this neighborhood, lived a much poorer family, and my grandmother were friends with them. I was about 7 when I was introduced to the other old lady’s grandson, a kid older than […]

4/4/2016 2 comments

Last one for today

by Drowning 4/4/2016

written by Drowning

as I’m in the drawing more il keep drawing for a few day til I burn myself out or feel depressed again

but I think depression is a bit like alis in wonderland but with a darker twist Continue Reading

4/4/2016 5 comments

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