Tag:

no one

I’m Tired

by JustReallySad 6/22/2015

written by JustReallySad

I’m such a fucking idiot.

I’m tired of not being able to manage my moods.

I’m sick of the fact that I have zero social skills,

and can’t really “read” people.

I’m tired of pills that don’t really fix anything.

I’m tired of not having the balls to kill myself.

(I’ve come pretty close though)

I’m tired of doctor’s who think they can heal me.

(They can’t)

I’m tired of the voices I hear, which I’m convinced are demons.

I’m tired of people not believing they’re real.

I’m sick of the fact that they’ll never stop until I’m dead.

I still believe in God.

I still think I’m going to heaven (but not certain anymore)

I sometimes don’t think […]

6/22/2015 5 comments

Why a failure of a father should not live anymore

by Loser82 6/21/2015

written by Loser82

Today is Father’s Day and here I am in solitude because I’m such a failure as a father. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety over a year ago and I’ve been struggling with it for a long time. I had it managed until recently when my medication ran out and with no health insurance, I’ve fallen back.

Today’s supposed to be a celebration of one’s father and a celebration of me being a father…but depression reared its ugly head and I yelled at my son and in turn everyone has turned their backs on me. I’ve laid here for hours thinking about the butcher knife […]

6/21/2015 3 comments

What is going on?

by LooneyLou 6/21/2015

written by LooneyLou

Whenever I get depressed or really upset, I get the shakes, and involuntarily rock back and forth, the itches start, and I suddenly need to fidget. These don’t always happen together. Different emotions trigger different things. When I cry, sometimes my brain feels like it completely shuts down and I don’t even think I’m breathing anymore, though that’s impossible. All I know is there is a wall in front of me, and I finally know what it’s like to not feel. I want to cry for days sometimes, but I apologize when I do cry, even if no one is around to witness it. I […]

6/21/2015 1 comment

I Want to go ‘Home’…Whatever that Means

by LooneyLou 6/21/2015

written by LooneyLou

I just don’t want to be here anymore. I want to close my eyes and wake up far away from here. I want the ocean to roar around me with every wave, as I watch them crawl up the sandy shore. I want to be in a dark hole in the ground. I want to have a place to hide, a door to shut, a place where no one can ever make me feel this way. I want things to just stop and go away, I can’t take it anymore. I’ve been so nice, and accommodating, but people still say I’m a ***** even though […]

6/21/2015 1 comment

Idk

by l23 6/20/2015

written by l23

Nights like this I wonder why I’m here
I have so much to say to cry for and of course no one is near
I feel everything but fear when it wins.

I just wanna end everything at once
I don’t see a reason to why I’m still around. Not one fuckin reason.

Everyday it’s something new.
It’s not anyone’s fault, but I do wish you knew
I yell and scream the pain away
But when it’s inside I can’t bare but to stray
To stray to a place where no one can go

There, no one can make me smile or hurt me
No one can say […]

6/20/2015 2 comments

I hate business ! I hate money ! I hate capitalism / capitalist !

by niki 6/19/2015

written by niki

I hate business !
I hate money !
I hate capitalism / capitalist !

The main reason is because business kills creativity & ideas . money kills creativity & ideas . capitalism / capitalist kills creativity & ideas !
There are a LOT of good ideas , creativity , imaginations , inspirations , dreams , & even good deeds that business / money kills ! simply because of a petty, shallow reason “it doesn’t make a lot of money or profits ! ”

money makes the world unfair ! business makes the world unfair ! capitalism makes the world unfair !

plus , the world becomes a boring […]

6/19/2015 4 comments

–

by One Million Masks 6/18/2015

written by One Million Masks

You know, I’ve always been quiet; I don’t get heard because I’ve never said a word that I thought people might actually listen to.
You know, I’ve always been forgettable; I blend into walls and make myself small, and people don’t often even see me– they believe what they want to believe and I get lost in the mystery of who are we talking about?
You know, I’ve always been gentle; no one gets hurt because the only pain that lurks around me gets buried in laughs and pulled-down shirts, because no one besides me deserves to gain new scars.
You know, I’ve always been […]

6/18/2015 6 comments

I don’t know..

by tteia 6/16/2015

written by tteia

So this is probably the only time I’m gonna use this, account. I just needed it to get out. To vent. Anyways.. here it is.

I think I’m starting to accept the fact that there’s something wrong with me, and that I’m a terrible person. I feel “empty,” don’t know exactly what that means except, you feel I dunno dead inside? None of my emotions feel real. I’m beginning to think I’m not normal, crazy even. One of these days, not today, nor tommorow I will end it. I just don’t belong here, I shouldn’t be here, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, my mind […]

6/16/2015 4 comments

I’m help

by shellyyy16 6/16/2015

written by shellyyy16

i am not on this website because I’m suicidal, im here because I want to help someone who is. I want more than anything I’ve ever wanted, is to be the difference between a life and a suicide. Drop me a message if you want and please know that you aren’t the only one that feels this way. Everyone at some point in their lives thinks about killing themselves, but some people let it turn into a reality. You may feel like it’s the only escape, but it isn’t. There are 7 billion people in this world so there can’t be no one to talk […]

6/16/2015 4 comments

What’s the point?

by Tiredandlonely 6/13/2015

written by Tiredandlonely

I’m 23 years old still living at home with my mom. I have no goals or ambitions. Everyday I sleep, eat, work, repeat. I have no social life, never even had a girlfriend. I only have one friend and we’re drifting apart. Im suffering serious depression and anxiety everyday but have no one to talk to about it.

Sure it would hurt a couple people a lot if I killed myself but if this is all my life is, what’s the point? I’m existing for the sake of existing

6/13/2015 5 comments

I Don’t Want To Hurt My Teacher

by Lovebug4142 6/13/2015

written by Lovebug4142

When I was kind of living all over the place, she stepped in and helped me, even though I didn’t really like her. When CPS came and saw me, I went to church with her that day and spent the night with her. I was TOTALLY freaking out and she talked with me and stayed up with me till 1 in the morning. She laid next to me and played with my hair to calm me down. She took me for the weekend to her home town and we stayed at her parents and met her siblings and aunts. They were totally nice to me. […]

6/13/2015 1 comment

Nothing in the Dark

by keeprunning 6/12/2015

written by keeprunning

I write stories to cope with depression and suicidal feelings (see my post “dream”). Here’s one of them.

Some days it’s bleak. It’s hopeless, and hurting, and she can’t erase that numbing, painful, hard-to-swallow ache in her chest. And on other days she’s bright and shining and happy.

No one believes her.

Sometimes she doesn’t even believe herself.

“How can she be depressed,” people say, “when she’s so happy all the time?”

How can she be suicidal when she wears her beautifully crafted mask?

She remembered how people reacted when she was first admitted for a psych consult. There had been outrage from her family, who didn’t believe it for a […]

6/12/2015 5 comments

Lonely And Forgotten

by Nihilism000 6/12/2015

written by Nihilism000

It’s lonely tonight. I’m sitting here completely alone, no one to call or text. No one to say I love you, good night or good morning. And I’ve never been happier for some strange reason. I’m not a social person anyways, I hate crowds, I hate being at social gatherings, and I have a hard time conversing with people. Possibly I was made to be alone for life. A cold but comforting lonliness at least for now.

6/12/2015 8 comments

Keep enduring!

by uni_4802 6/11/2015

written by uni_4802

“Endurance” what does endurance mean? Hi everyone! I’m new to this site, but I’m sure we are all here for the same reason. We have suicidal thoughts or have actually attempted to take our life. I was diagnosed with ADHD at 9. At age 11 I was diagnosed with depression. I was never abused nor was I bullied in school, but I was always lonley when it came to socialize with others, I never thought that being alone was a bad thing. I actually liked being alone, but I came to realize that I had no friends. I have a family who cares A […]

6/11/2015 5 comments

broken down

by silvermoon 6/10/2015

written by silvermoon

broken down

all i hear is your voice

no one to care

nobody there

broken down

noise trauma, battered brain

no one to hear, i am rage filled/insane

can’t take anymore

of this cruel ass life

pain, trauma, false guilt, strife

voices viciously attack me day and night

god’s love? surely you jest?

sick ************ putting us to a tormenting test

tired, insane

soon blow out my brain

nice knowing you

glad you could destroy

your own

daughter

6/10/2015 0 comment

by dollydolls 6/8/2015

written by dollydolls

Eurgh im struggling again, I’m sick of my life being robbed due to bipolar and anxeity. I try to be a good Mummy to my four children but with two babies aged 17 months and 4 months I just can’t cope. I’m feeling under pressure to be a good mum and wife, no one appreciates me, I hate what I see in the mirror now I miss my barbie doll looks and perfect figure im just a fat depressed mum 🙁

6/8/2015 6 comments

I don’t know anymore.

by Nihilism000 6/8/2015

written by Nihilism000

Why does no one want me? Why do my friends always leave me? Why does no females like me? Am I doomed to live my life completely alone? What am I doing wrong? Is it me? Or are people ignorant assholes? I’m not perfect, no one is. I have flaws such as every other human does, but not so much that no one should like me…what is so wrong with me? It’s been like this my whole twenty years of existence and it just keeps getting worse every day. I don’t want to live a lonely loveless life, I want joy. I want to experience […]

6/8/2015 3 comments

idk

by nikkirae 6/8/2015

written by nikkirae

I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I get so upset over everything these days, when I’m at school I nearly start crying, I’ve been going home from school and haven’t been staying the whole day because I don’t feel like I belong. my best friend has just became my friend now because she’s started hanging out with a new girl and it doesn’t feel right. I just feel so alone and like I have no one.

6/8/2015 1 comment

Decomposing

by kinziek 6/8/2015

written by kinziek

People say ‘just give it time, hang in there’ etc but what’s the point? It’s just more time to decompose, for your mind to deteriorate.

10 years ago someone said to me ‘you’re on the cusp of a really great relationship’, now that person is married and I haven’t had one relationship since. If that’s not a sign to slice your throat and let the blood pour out until you’re gone I don’t know what is.

None of my ‘friends’ talk to me anymore, or invite me anywhere, I never go out anywhere. When I texted everyone that I was changing my phone number no one responded. […]

6/8/2015 8 comments

September 2014

by secretz180 6/6/2015

written by secretz180

This will be my last note to everyone. I lay awake waiting for something to happen, waiting for someone to text me, waiting for forgiveness, waiting…. That’s all I’ve done with my life. I’ve been waiting to end all of this. Everyday I wake up, I go to school because it’s easier not to think there. I’m sitting at a table where no one wants me there. I’ve gave up with wanting to fit into a group. When I’m not there no one thinks about me. No one loves me enough to call them theirs. Theirs no place for me here. I started thinking about […]

6/6/2015 1 comment

Newer Posts

Older Posts