I don’t know what I am going to write. I am very acutely aware of everything that happens in me. That’s my property, that’s my specialty. What I am incapable of is- changing it. Life is hell for person who knows he is a hypocrite. The loops and spirals this reflecting produces. An endless blame game. Yeah, I did it. I left this goddamned city one morning and went to the place from where Himalayas start. There they were, vast, majestic. Fuck it’s too embarrassing to even tell what happened next. I came back. Yes, I FUCKING CAME BACK. The loneliness that dawned to me, […]
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I hate it so bad. Somebody kill me. I don’t think I can love. I’m such a horrible person. I feel like crying every minute of my life, but I don’t want to.
Girls don’t like me I’m average looking maybe better than average to some girls. They don’t like me. Guys don’t want to be friends with me girls don’t want to be friends with me people don’t want to hang out with me because I’m not cool enough for them. That being said I’m a nice guy I give money to people I buy ************’s coffee at Starbucks I give money to hobos I treat people with respect I’m companionate why isn’t that enough?
Im a sophomore in college. Please excuse the lack of correct punctuation and grammar because I really dont care.
First my parents are having problems. My dad was an alcoholic when i was younger now he quit drinking but is verbally abusive to my mother which may cause them to divorce.
Its hard to focus in classes because im depressed so my grades are reflecting this.
I had a friend that dumped me over me finally putting boundaries down so she couldnt use me anymore, this same girl sees the same therapist i see. She dumped me as a friend when i wouldn’t upgrade her computer to windows […]
“I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies [..] I’ll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife” (hozier)
written by freedomseeker
Her voice is like a falling leaf sliding upon the air. Don’t get mistaken, this is not about any notion of loss or death. Rather the contrary, actually. It is about harmony, subtle embrace of goodness upon the universe. It is about some softness, lying flat on the elements. I love hearing her voice. It is soothing. Beautiful and soothing. Gentle. Please, talk. Don’t look at me. Please, just speak. I don’t know who you are, I don’t know. But just speak. You certainly are some sort of peace of mind. Quiet life. Good for you. But I just love the way you speak.
The truth […]
Hello world,
My name is Max. I here to share to story and hope it is an inspiration to someone who is depressed or has ever had of suicidal thoughts, ever wanted to relate to someone who is in the same position as you. Anyone watching please share if you think this video could be helpful to them.
So here it goes.
My story. I have had suicidal thoughts on and off for the last 15 years of my life. From what I hear was a really nice child. I thought of others and was kind, but I was uprooted from my mother, when I was around 8 […]
I’m a 15 year old girl, who’s life seems like a trashy piece of shit. In the past year, I haven’t heard anything else from my parents other than the fact that i’m a fat flob. They always compare me from those who are as thin as sticks, and complain as to how I got so fat. Particularly, those bitches who they think are as innocent as kids, but are as slutty as some weird Miley Cyrus shit.
They should be happy I haven’t been banged yet.
Since i’m on my junior years, they expect me to lose about 15 kg when I’m stressed as fuck. My […]
I have only made two posts on this website, I have not received a lot comments in response, but the ones I did receive made me feel better. Not all of them were comforting or anything like that, some were just understanding and a sharing of pain and the same sense of being out of place. Every comment I have received on here has brought me comfort. I’m not a person who hears a lot of people positive things from people I know, or someone who has a lot of support or good people in their life. I just wanted to tell everyone on here […]
I ran out of a burger shop last night. I was all set to gorge on some grade “A” Canadian ANGUS beef, but then I saw that the cashier I (kinda) like was working that day. She smiled and waved at me, even though I was all the way at the back of the line, and so I freaked and got out of there. I’d love to take her out, but I’ll never have the courage for anything more than nervous small talk, with her or with anyone; I’ve only ever dated girls I met online. Not like it matters anyway since I’m such a […]
It’s hard for me to BE here…It’s hard to BE a person. I’ve been sad, hurting and lonely for so long, it’s changed me…… Forever. I don’t say the right things. I talk to much when I’m with “people,” because I’ve been desperately alone suffering for so long. I WAS a people person. People are mean. Life is mean. Kids are mean. Husbands are mean. I feel like I’m never good enough, there is a list being written. It’s a long list of my faults, of my mistakes, of my inadequacy. It’s like the damn Grocery List my family keeps adding to. It gets longer […]
So I found a place to live, in an LGBT household and I know I’ll have support here but I feel so empty and painfully alone because I lost my best and closest friend in the sense that he truly doesn’t give a fuck how I feel, refuses to listen to how I feel and will cut me out of his life if I say how I feel, shits all over my feelings and acts like I don’t exist and we were never as close as we were and constantly pushes me away and trivialize my feelings and barely says anything to me […]
I really need a safe (free ) anger outlet that no1 will notice around me (parents /friends ) bcoz I have a LOT!! of built up anger that one day I’m afraid I won’t be able to control and I’ll direct towards the wrong person and it’s just not good so can someone help me ?
It’s hard to stay alive when you have nothing to live for. When the person you loved the most left and now you have no one by your side. You want to have a chance but you’re scared it won’t work. You’re scared to let go and that’s when you start to build walls around you; to protect yourself from others. You can never be the same again and it’s hard. Hard knowing that the person you were back then won’t come back.
Am I okay? I don’t know. I feel lost and alone. I have people who love me but they could never understand what […]
So I stumbled across this site on one of my darkened days. I haven’t slept, ate, or drank anything in two days. My world came crashing down the day I found my mother outside dead from a shot gun to the chest. At first I was in shock, never saw that coming in a million years. my momma was the type of person who loved life, cherished every moment of it. but just like that, she decided she couldn’t take the pain away. she left me, alone, in this world with nothing and no one. I cant bare this pain that I’ve been going through, […]
Hi. Hopeful title I know.
So I’m a 21yo male with aspergers. I live with my mom, I can’t communicate, I have no friends, and I barely interact with my family. I do not want to feel happy, I want 100% with every fiber of my being to die. I’m not taking antidepressants because I figure if I’m sad all the time that will give me more of a motive to kill myself. I was on them for a while, and every time I tried to socialize I just got suicidal again. My dad is own antidepressants because I can’t hold a relationship with him.
You might […]
you know, i posted a few times, and i got really nice people commenting, but then there’s the others blunter ones. i’m not hating on yall, i’m not blaming on yall, in fact, i like your bluntness, don’t lose your bluntness. but when you tell me i need to “learn how to enjoy life without depending so much on other people”, i’m sure you meant to help me. i’m sure you’re just sick of this person who is so fucking needy. but do you think i haven’t tried? how can i depend on myself when all i do is make myself feel miserable? do you […]
i want someone to physically wrap their arms round me and hold me. Dont say everything will be okay i need someone to tell me we cant always be strong. I dont have anyone to love or be loved by. My parents dont take my depression and anxiety seriously they think i want attention. i dont want attention i want to be loved but i dont act out to be loved. My attempt was a attepmt but also a test. If i killed myself or atleast attempted i wantd to see who will go out of there way to make sure im okay and make […]
I’m not really sure what I want to say here…I feel like I’m doing better now, I’m out of counseling, back in school, still facing challenges. I’m still trying to be the person I want to be, but I find it difficult since I’m stubborn and always focus on the past, and I still get anxiety around people I don’t know, and I still have vengeance for those who hurt me or are hurting, and I don’t want to be like that… Anyone know good tips or advice to help me be a better compassionate person?
I absorb negative emotions so quickly and frequently. I don’t even have any reason to be upset at life. I’m just physically drained all the time.
I remember back in high school and earlier, I was always bright and full of life etc, but HS just ruined me. That’s not to say I had a rough time through it, I’m an average dude, had friends and did okay on subjects. But I was always invested in the idea of having a partner. Having someone to love and care for. And that want has slowly been stripped back piece by piece and I just don’t even try […]
Please send your support for my video documentary venture, Our Dead Buddy’s Bucket List, a series I have started in support of suicide awareness and mental health awareness, in honor of my friend Skyler Atkinson, lost to suicide in January 2015. I film our first episode on September 12th @ Mt. Trashmore at the Hampton Roads 2015 Out of Darkness walk. I can’t make the event its potential without the support of other suicide and awareness supporters behind this effort. DONATE, every little bit counts. Join us in our first person documentary as we take Skyler’s guitar to explore the world all in support of […]