I’ve wanted to die for such a long time but now I’ve fallen apart so badly and I have no idea of how I can hope to survive…
He hurt me, he really really hurt me. I’ve been left panicky and scared of everything because of what he did and I just cannot deal with it at all, I have no idea what to do anymore…
I hate myself and I think I have a lot of psychological problems. I think I am really pathetic. My parents got divorced when I was 7. Lived with my dad after that, but I wish I had stuck with my mom like my sister did. I only saw my mom once or twice after that before she died when I was 10. I have never had a female figure in my life. Whenever girls are kind to me, I confuse it for love only to find out that I am being retarded and stupid. I feel so pathetic whenever this happens, I wish people would […]
So today I’m suppose to go on a date with this guy I think I like. But I’m freaking out. I’m terrified that he’ll turn out like my exes and try pressuring me into doing things or try to take advantage of me. There’s also the fact of what if I don’t like him as much as I think I do. And what if I screw this up. Like whenever I have a a good thing going I do something to mess it up. I’m so scared for today. It’s also my first date ever.
I bought what I now know was a cheap tongue piercing a month ago.Earlier I was at a friends house & the plastic on my piercing came off but I didn’t know.I was drinking water & felt It going down my throat. I drank a lot water to swallow It but I couldnt.I tried to throw it up but I couldn’t.I felt my breathing & heart beat start to slow down.I started to get terrifed,I was seconds away from telling my friend to take me to the hospital but I didn’t wanna seem like a *****.Plus he didn’t have a ride.I was sitting there scared […]
I am very sad and I am very scared but I am trying. I don’t know if this site is helpful to me because everyone here is so sad. Which makes sense. But I’m sad too, and no one understands. I’m living with my boyfriend, and every time I tell him about my thoughts and feelings that scare me he gets upset and quiet. He doesn’t want to talk about it, but I need to. I feel like a time bomb. I feel like one day something will happen that I just can’t handle and that’ll be it. I try to think of my little […]
So, I’ve never used a site like this… I don’t know if this post will even publish, knowing my luck it won’t and I’ll have got all anxious for nothing. Okay, maybe I should start with the suicide story?
I don’t know what has led to me becoming depressed (or, as my psychiatric nurse calls it “in low mood, because depressed is such a negative word”) I’ve never suffered any traumatic experiences and I didn’t have a bad childhood. I can’t even pin point the first time I ever felt so low. I can tell you though that each time I hit a low point, it […]
How do you fear your own mind?
Your own actions?
Your own feelings?
I have no control
I just feel and think terrible things unwillingly.
Help
I want to scream
I want to Cry
I’m just scared
Everything I do to help me hurts other people.
I don’t want anyone else to feel this way.
I just don’t want to either.
Can anyone hear me.
I feel like im screaming in room filled with people but no one can hear me!
Im right here.
It hurts. I’m scared
I DONT WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS
IT ISNT MY CHOICE
PLEASE MAKE IT STOP.
I’m not crazy !
I’m not a freak
I’m Scared !
Why wont anyone listen?
Why Am I alone ?
Why don’t you care?
I love theater. Â I love musicals. Â I love singing and acting. Â So what do I do? Â I take part in my school’s musicals every year. Â We had our auditions for next years play today and I think I messed everything up. Â After I did my lines they told me I did a good job but then came the singing… Â I’ve listened to the song so many times I have it memorized! Â I’ve worked so hard yet during my song they had me stop early! Â They gave us a stopping point so the audition didn’t take too long and I didn’t even get to that point! […]
I spend a lot of time thinking about the future. Wondering of ill travel the world, make it in broadway, get married and have kids, or give up  before I get the chance.
I wonder what what it is inside of me that makes my body ache and makes my mind fill up with hate. I don’t know how to stop it. I know that I should probably get help. Tell a parent. But in reality if I tell them all that goes on in my head they’ll send me away because “I’m a danger to myself.” And I wouldn’t be able to handle that. I […]
Please someone, Anyone….Help me….I wanna die so badly right now, and i have no one to talk to…Please… Just Please….Talk to me…Don’t leave me alone….I don’t wanna be alone anymore…
I don’t really know what I’m doing here… Â Am I just seeking ways to escape reality? Â Or am I just trying to find someone who will listen? Â Maybe both, I don’t know. Â But what I do know is that I’m tired of being invisible to people. Â My main issue is I’m a passive aggressive type of person, so I won’t fight back if someone picks on or bullies me. Â Which is also an issue because, since I’m passive aggressive people like to pick on me. Â I’ve been abandoned by my friends so many times that its hard for me to get close to people and […]
I feel so alone. It’s like IÂ have the perfect boyfriend, friends and family. So why do I consistently feel this urge to harm myself. It’s been 6 months since I’ve cut and smoked. So why do I still feel this way. Why can’t the thoughts disappear. I want it all to end. I don’t always want to cut myself. I want to stop being so tired and sad all the time. I hate it. I hate myself. I’m not skinny enough or pretty enough. I just want to feel okay again.
I’m afraid to ask so I don’t instead
I’m afraid to walk, get out of bed.
I’m afraid to soar right through the sky
cause suicide is my kryptonite.
I’m afraid to tell you that I love you so
cause if I do I’m sure you’ll go.
I’m afraid that if I tell you something
you’ll treat that secret like its nothing.
I’m afraid of a lot but with fear
comes strength.
scared nobody will like me
scared to be alone
scared more people i love will die
scared my life will get worse
scared people wil see my scars
how can i not be affraid
Life is a battle that we all must eventually lose. Each and every one of us is constantly at war. Fighting for survival. Some have a more difficult battle to fight and some lose before they’re ready…
I guess what I’m saying is that life is difficult. There are so many risks. People die everyday… A lot of people. Death is a part of life. It’s inevitable, but sometimes it comes too soon. The lives of peoples children, peoples mothers or fathers are taken every day without a choice. And here I am… Wanting to throw it away… and for what? What would I benefit from killing […]
It’s 2 AM now in chile.. I just can’t sleep, these days I’ve haven’t sleep well. I noticed that I’ve been on 4 differents schools in the last 3 years.. and the last year and a half had made me the person I am. I just don’t get why i’m empty inside.. why smile its becoming harder or why I feel like I’m going mad.. I just can’t tell anybody what’s happening with me.. im just stucked in the centre of my life drawning my tears and showing me happy as usual am I.. nobody suspects that something is happening
I’m scared of keep like […]
I have to wake up early in the morning to go see a pyschiatrist.
I’m really scared though.
I mean, what if he/she thinks I’m some crazy person? Or thinks I should be locked up in some mental hospital?
My anxiety is being a big bother at the moment, and I have no mecidine to control it at the moment.
Wish me luck for tomorrow .. er.. today I guess since it’s 12:00 a.m.
Hi Guys,
How are you? How’s your life? How is your day? Don’t forget to comment down below how you are! I do want to know!
NOTE: Really sorry for this being a long post… I didn’t really try to… Writing is the only way I can get my feelings out.
How am I? Does it even matter how I am? Does it matter? Maybe it does. Maybe it doesn’t. How am I? Physically? Sore. Bruised. Hurt. Scarred. Mentally? Broken. In Pain. Hurt. Scared.
My physical state… I keep getting headaches… Waking up this morning I hit my head on my wall and it hurt like crazy, but […]
Scared to hang out with people people from my highschool and past because im still kinda awkward
Im so done with life and all the nothingness shit it has to offer.So im out on thursday.I dont really agree or disagree with suicide.Im a little scared but i figure fear is a natural part of death.If i wasnt scared i wouldnt be human.
I got test results for my heart that landed me in the er weekend of my birthday.Guess what they found?Nothing! normally i wouldnt be bothered by this but im in pain a lot and im a bit tired of this.doctors trying to make me out to be some type of liar or crazy ass *****.fuck them all.ill self medicate and […]
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