Do you ever feel like you have done it all?  You wake up to face the day, feed the dog, dress yourself, brush your teeth, eat some food and go to work.  At work your totally disrespected by your peers and Friday you pick up your check.  At the end of the day you come home and let the dog out to use the bathroom.  Jump in the shower and make yourself believe you are washing away the hate, lies, disgust of the day gone by.  You get into bed, mentally numb in many ways and fall asleep after an hour of thinking about how much you […]
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grrrr gonna brush my teeth and play some cod
8:01am
still haven’t slept and slowly coming around
drinking coffee thinking about a post i deleted
2:33am
12/29/12
there’s so many reasons why i’m alone :'<
Fucking brilliant. I have a tooth infection. Second one in two years, despite excellent dental hygiene (I’ve been a nazi about this stuff since I was 16 and had a prolonged nightmare involving braces and tooth enamel). I’ve had a migraine for two days straight, unrelenting, very little sleep, and now I’ve figured out why. Tooth infections are the most fun, amazing things.
So… probably going to the hospital. Again. I think I should just rip my goddamn teeth out of my head so I don’t have to put up with this shit anymore. They’re more trouble than they’re worth when you don’t have insurance. Either […]
I know this is ridiculously long and most of you won’t care about what I have to say. That’s okay. I just needed to release some depression somewhere. I’ve been feeling worse and worse lately even though I know I’m trying to head in the right direction. I just needed to vent some frustration. I always say I’m doing this for me, changing for myself, but it still kills me when my family shows me how worthless I am… so here are my thoughts for the past week.
I’m amazed at how well I’ve become at wearing a mask. I’m able to conceal my emotions so […]
i don’t always remember the days very well so when my psych doc asks  how i’ve been for the last week i don’t always know what to say.  i’ve realized that i can tell how the last week went by how furry my teeth are.  anybody else have any things like that?
That familiar pain in my chest of something trying to burst out…. Does anyone else like feel that?
written by silver_teardrops
Today was a relatively normal day as far as my life is concerned. I went to school, got on my friends bus and went shopping for halloween treats for the little kids that I teach during my work experience. Well the first turning even in the day was mum flipping out at  me coz I didn’t make it to the checkout in time with a jar of curry. this didn’t bother me much it’s typical, however it did cast a shadow over the great day it had been so far. Then I get home to my father watching countless traveller shows on telly.Stupid pathetic **** […]
I came across this website randomly browsing the internet. I couldn’t help but get caught up reading some of these stories. I couldn’t help but feel the need to share mine. I can relate to a lot of your stories. The family problems, being made fun of, not wanting to live, etc. I grew up in an abusive home. My father used to beat me up everyday. Up until the day he walked out when I was fourteen. Not only did he beat me up, he beat my mother up in front of me, he beat my sister up..until the day when he became sexually […]
I am a 38 year old loser. I have a degree in nursing I know the signs of depression. Seven months ago I quit my job I just couldn’t get up, I didn’t want to get up. I didn’t want to do anything but lay there. Ok so I was already depressed how was not showing up to work going to make me happy. So I lost my job now I am sad and I have no job. At this point I don’t even care I should care but I don’t all I want to do is to lay down. I cry over everything but […]
It just seems I cant get a break recently. After all the drama and problems last week, I find out I`ll possibly need another root canal, which my mom cant afford. Shes been slamming stuff around and crying, just upset in general. She keeps saying all I asked you to do is brush your teeth, my credit is maxed out, your dad isnt going to help and then she quits talking to me period.
Its just stressing me out..I feel horrible I keep adding all this pressure, with my appointments and medicine..I cant even get myself to cry anymore. Im sick of being a burden to […]
I’ve been moving on lately. Not in the way one would imagine. I’ve become raw and uncut in my creativity. I’m exposing myself to the world with photos of what i see, thing I model in a virtual space, things i may draw by hand and music. Oh no I’m still not happy. But I’ve decided to keep pretending.
I”m doing light work. Work as in making amends to old flames if I possibly can. Maybe an offer of friendship or two. I’m learning to forgive my parents even though they still bait trap and subtly belittle for effect, and myself because I keep making mistakes. […]
I have gotten nothing but bad news for weeks now. One huge kick to the teeth after another. And it would be difficult for life to throw anything else at me that has not already been done. However, I have done a lot of thinking and have decided that I will NOTÂ just sit here and let all of these people take away my soul, my dignity, my self respect and my life. I am going to make a stand and become more proactive in these problems one at a time untill I reclaim what is rightfully mine. I want my life back. Sitting here […]
the little bitchass demons that come along with my voices keep staring at me with that •-• face and give me teeth grinding, fist clenching, head pounding, random pains…its hard to explain…it hurts…and im tired…and pain is one of the most misused words on this site…jus sayin…
he always keeps me up waiting, says he`ll text me, but hhe never does…it feels like someone took my heart and shredded it…he always says he loves me on fb…but never in person…he dosent love me…he never wil…
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9:20A.M:
I have summer school. Haven’t been able to get into a habit of sleeping earlier so I’ve been tired. Drank a monster today, but still tired but also wide-awake. I’m the fastest in my class of World History. I finish my work earliest due to my full year of review in my sophomore year that I failed. I sit alone at our 20 minute breaks.Â
They (campus supervisors) try to corner us onto the quad and I get anxious. There’s a lot of fucking kids from 4 highschools being crammed together.Â
I’m attempting to keep my mind blank from those thoughts about it. My memories are […]
I just keep on going, but I’m so very tired of it. My family loves me, my girlfriend loves me, none of them want me to give up and go. But it’s all I can do to just brush my teeth or eat something.
I lost my job a month ago. It was my first real job out of college. It was full-time, paid very well. I was so happy. Elated. I wanted to do my best, and my boss wanted us to be best friends (she said as much). I should have known better. Your boss is not your friend. I confided in her, relied […]
42, lost, and really unsure where I belong, or even if I do belong. I bring to much pain to me and others
by wstock7
written by wstock7
Can anyone relate? Can anyone understand? Am alone?
I am 42, and have battled with success and failure all my life. I am a high school drop out, who has struggled my whole life, but have always held roles in the financial sector primarily mortgage related. A few years ago the industry was totalled with the fall of the economy, and many blame it on mortgage’s and I cannot disqualify this. However I have always walked the line, doing what is right, and what is honest, while watching those around me, become wealthy, and having no concious. Sometime I really regret, being the stand up guy. […]
Each day the pain gets worse and worse and you act like I’m not Ben there… You act like my feelings don’t matter… Is it insane for me to just want peace?? To let everything go?? I’m trying to help you with her… It’s like you don’t realize that I may still not be over you??? You can’t just fall out of love with someone… You said you loved me. You lied through your teeth and I was stupid enough to believe it. I can’t handle the pain anymore… It just hurts too bad. I really just want forever peace from all pain and all […]
Interesting video. Thanks for being honest and clear in this one. I understand what your saying when you say you have lost your power.
I think you believe power tis what ever you held dear, It was the reason you went to work, the reason you brush your teeth, the reason you lived for.
Now what every that power was has been either taken away or you lost it some how. Either way you believe it is gone. And the only person who can tell you what to believe is power is you. We all hold different things in our hearts. It because of that i dont […]
Don’t you hate it when you take a dump and ur dick falls asleep along with ur leg? Happenes to me all the time, probably poor blood circulation for a 17 year old…
I wrote this 3 days ago and since wordpress doesn’t let me write on my iphone without lag, I just copy and paste it which is easier.
My dad pissed me off a bit. Between the facts I know and the facts he knows, we are both ignorant of each other. I tell him what I heard and he tells me that he’s older and therefore he has all the brains and […]
You come from a family that throws the word love around like it is going out of style. Hugs and kisses aplenty. Very stable as far as emotional content. Ah but there is not always food. You have to attend school in rags. Your friends enjoy their toys and games but you have little or none. Not because they lack, but to teach you independence. To teach you discipline. To teach you responsibility.
Oh and when you are attacked an abused on multiple occasions over several years, you are told to suck it up and man up about it. Because you are a boy and not […]
What a way to kick me in the fucking teeth and drag me around from the back of your chariot…
by Infektious
written by Infektious
So…the one person i trusted…i spent almost two years working hard to stop cutting, stop drinking, stop hurting myself for someone I though i could trust…in three words he destroyed everything. I’m back to nothing. i have nothing. i am nothing. But do you know wahts fucked up most of all? I love him. i fucking want him here I want to hug him and never let go and feel the pain go away like it used to when I was home but I can’t cos I can’t even look at him. His name makes me want to bleed out every ounce of blood because […]