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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Acceptance

by tentoone 2/6/2020

written by tentoone

Would it be considered giving up to accept that I cannot fly? Or, that I cannot breathe underwater?

We have this crazy idea that, if we just try a little harder, we can push through anything. That it will always pass. That things inevitably must get better. Because, surely, it can’t always be this bad, right?

I know someone who uses the threat of suicide to blackmail people into complying with their wishes.
“You can’t leave me, I’ll kill myself.”
“How dare you disagree with me! Your mean behavior makes me want to die.”
On and on. Every other day. I’m not saying that person doesn’t need […]

2/6/2020 1 comment

I regret..

by Itscolourlife 1/9/2020

written by Itscolourlife

I regret..
Should die that day..
I regret..
Believing there is a light..
I regret..

I REGRET I CHOOSE TO LIVE
I REGRET..
MY BIGGEST REGRET

1/9/2020 1 comment

Alone

by Jaspersghostclub 1/8/2020

written by Jaspersghostclub

I just feel so alone and empty. It’s like no matter I do I’m just a ghost, a background character, irrelevant. Im so tired of it. Im tired of being alone and empty and crying all the time. It would just be better to end it then continue like this

1/8/2020 1 comment

forever the bad person

by sadako 1/4/2020

written by sadako

1/4/2020 0 comment

Family and The End

by LiquidHuman 1/1/2020

written by LiquidHuman

Hey.

So this is kind of a very belated response to my last post.

I wanted to say thank you to everyone that responded to it. I was in a very dark place. Still am, actually. But it helps to know that there are people who actually took the time to acknowledge someone who is quite literally facing their own mortality. I won’t say I have it as bad as other people on here, but I’ve never been an emotionally sound person to begin with, so I guess this just hit me harder than it should.

I’m still going through with the plan. I know a lot of […]

1/1/2020 3 comments

When someone you know commits suicide

by flyloww 12/26/2019

written by flyloww

I have been a long-time lurker on here, several years perhaps? It’s all a blur… I’ve never felt the strong desire to post, until now. A classmate took his life recently and I am still coming to terms with it. I was never particularly close to him. I mean, we were friendly, but nothing more than classmates. However, as life would have it, I started getting to know the guy a bit better a few weeks before his passing (at least the parts of him he wanted me to see and vice versa). We talked for hours. Cliche as it was, we were really warming […]

12/26/2019 2 comments

Being a good and nice person is not enough

by niki 12/17/2019

written by niki

You also must be ‘smart’ especially in terms of knowing how to make money. And often times, that also means you also have to be opportunistic, follow the system & rules (just like everybody else), even be cunning, sly, ruthless, brash, full of tricks, greedy, selfish, ready to step on other people who are ‘weaker’ (eg: poorer, etc).

Money is everything in our modern society today, unfortunately. It’s all about money nowadays. And if you can’t beat the system, then you have to join them. Everyday you are forced to survive, or for survival. And if you’re not strong enough to follow the system/rules, then too […]

12/17/2019 3 comments

Sometimes

by Left-on-Dead 12/16/2019

written by Left-on-Dead

12/16/2019 2 comments

Frustrated

by Jaeline 12/8/2019

written by Jaeline

I constantly feel sad but with antidepressants somehow I manage to seem happy, but I feel sensible, I feel attacked and my parents sometimes tell me things that make me cry, and their solution to that is giving me pills and if I don’t calm down they say that I’m like that because I don’t control myself and that I’m just throwing tantrums, and then they just ignore me.

Sometimes I cut myself or hurt me, I really try to hide my lesions but sometimes they see them, and they get angry at me and say that I’m selfish that I hurt myself and that I […]

12/8/2019 1 comment

(C)Rude

by Been Here Too Long 12/8/2019

written by Been Here Too Long

I’ve managed to screw up everything good I had going and turn it all into a bunch of fucked up shit, like always. I’m shit at my job, and I accidentally fucked some shit up because I’m too fucking stupid and cowardly to ask for help. I’m too much of a coward to speak to my college advisor and schedule my classes for next semester. I’m going to fuck up my French final because I am too fucking stupid to understand which verb tense to use and I’m apparently fucking too incompetent to even understand the review. I’m too much for a close friend of […]

12/8/2019 5 comments

Everyone’s stressed

by clinicallydepressed 12/5/2019

written by clinicallydepressed

Ok this is my first post on this website, and it’s pretty much going to be a little bit of a rant. Nobody I know understands me, and hopefully someone online will…
Two days ago, I attempted suicide. I won’t go into detail, since I know that’s not allowed on this website. I’m a senior in high school, and two years ago my parents found out I was self-harming. I’ve been safe since then, but this year, my depression returned, worse than ever. I am well aware that I am luckier than most — I live in a two-parent, middle-class household, get straight As, etc […]

12/5/2019 4 comments

On asking for help

by tentoone 12/1/2019

written by tentoone

What kind of person criticizes you for finding it difficult to ask for help, emotes anger and frustration with you for not coming to them, then rejects you when you finally work up the courage to ask?

And, if you have the nerve to remind them they said you should ask, are offended that you would bring up something like that and throw it in their face to make them feel bad.

What kind of person accuses you of expressing genuine pain as a means of hurting them, instead of asking you what’s wrong?

People don’t ask for help for the same reason they don’t seek love and […]

12/1/2019 2 comments

Is it worth the pain?

by Jaeline 11/27/2019

written by Jaeline

I’m not sure how to describe this feelings, but if you’re here, is almost certain that you understand, I’ve been here since two years ago but I never took the courage to write until today that I just felt the necessity, I take antidepressants and people tell me I’m doing better, but I just feel that I have my emotions on stand by, it just doesn’t feel right.

11/27/2019 5 comments

A miracle.

by anonyy 11/18/2019

written by anonyy

May 15, 12:44AM

it’s a school night, i was supposed to sleep early to work on my important project, but something happened. i took 7 tablets of (?), i don’t know why i took them, shoved them down my throat and casually went to bed, after 10 minutes i felt this terrible pain in my stomach and my eyes were about to burst “it’s nothing” i said, and tried to sleep, but it only got worse so i decided to ask for help. searched the tablets name on google, “the lethal dosage could be as low as 4 tablets for a grown-up” “Do not […]

11/18/2019 1 comment

What You Put Here

by DogCat 11/12/2019

written by DogCat

I’m just bored. You know?

I knows it sounds stupid, “I want to kill myself because I am bored.”

I also know it is always more to it than that. I have a 4 year degree in psychology.

I want to get my masters, but I have to pay off the state from my previous failed attempt at a Master’s before they will release my transcript and allow me to try again. One of thousands of dollars I owe people.

That’s the thing. I fail at everything. Well, not really. I don’t fail…I quit. I am a quitter.

I just can’t do things. I can’t stick with things. Either chronic […]

11/12/2019 4 comments

19:49

by plasticflower 11/4/2019

written by plasticflower

to say i’m stressed would be an understatement.
these days have been so hectic, i feel like i can’t keep up with everything, but everyone is constantly telling me to keep up, to cheer up, to calm down, to just stop feeling stressed. mental health has been a mess lately, and today is just not working for me. sometimes i wish i caught a cold so i could rest in bed, but then i remember that even if i’m too ill to get out of bed, i’ll still have to do everything.
the problem isn’t having stuff to do, the problem is having to do […]

11/4/2019 1 comment

Light

by LightWillow 10/20/2019

written by LightWillow

She hugged me today.

She’s hugged me twice before. On my birthday, and again, on a day when I was miserable.

But today… I wasn’t turning a year older, or falling apart inside.

She just, hugged me. For no reason. Because, she wanted to? Because she thought I would want her to?

I don’t know. But for once, there wasn’t a clear reason..

Maybe now I’ll finally be brave enough to hug her. And not feel restrained by the necessity of needing a reason.

10/20/2019 5 comments

Its so sad how I like you

by Itscolourlife 10/20/2019

written by Itscolourlife

Today you save me again

Why you always come and save me when im at my limit
Why you always give me hope and light
Why I cant let you go

Even tho I always try to forget you
Even tho I try to suppress this feeling
At the end I always end up reaching you

Sometimes you look like you dont care about me
Sometimes you chat and ask about me
You keep gping back and forth

Why we have different principal and life
But why we like each other
Why I just lke you more and more
Why you like me
And we know if we are […]

10/20/2019 0 comment

Am I as messed up as I think I am?

by icaaa123 10/16/2019

written by icaaa123

Ok so I’ll try and keep this as un dramatic as possible, as I hate melodrama. I guess I’m a pretty normal girl from a pretty normal English family, but lately I’ve been feeling like I don’t want to go on and it’s tough. Anyways, when I was 15, I was probs living my best life and starting to blossom out of my awkward pre teen all girls school nerdyness into a pretty social being. That summer my dad started to get pretty ill, he’d had depression all his life. I would be a bit dramatic to my then boyfriend I guess for attention, speculating […]

10/16/2019 3 comments

Funny

by genesis0987 10/16/2019

written by genesis0987

I try to take others from the edge but

I’ve learned a lot about myself during the 6 years I’ve been away from this site and I’ve learned things that sometimes make me want to stop moving forward and instead give in to what once was a gentle craving to what is now a frequent temptation.
The more life I live the more death pulls me back.

I wanna cry for the life a version of me could’ve had but I won’t ,. I’ll cry for my parents as I should’ve done this sooner and let them live more life to themselves.

10/16/2019 1 comment

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