Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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I’m a Boring Human Being…

  July 30th, 2018 by GerbzBaby

I felt so bad today for my friend. He came over to hang out with me and I hardly had anything to say. I hate being this way, my mind drawing a blank everytime I try to talk with someone. Now I’m crying and feel like shit about it. I always want to get away from situations like this but I can’t, I’m always stuck. In these moments, I look back on my nightmares knowing it will eventually come true. I will always and forever being alone. No one ever liked me anyways.. I guess I should embrace it if thats the way my life …

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I hate myself

  July 30th, 2018 by dsemfodi

I hate myself. I hate my face, my body, my hair, all of me. I hate how I can’t be like other people. I feel so insecure with what others have. I hate how weak my body is. I got admitted to the hospital thrice last year and twice this year. I had gastritis and PCOS. I also had undergone check ups for my scoliosis. I’ve had many examinations and I’m still continuing my medicine. I feel sorry for my family especially my Mom. We had been struggling financially due to schooling and my medication. These past few days, I’ve been suffering from pain in …

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Ugh

  July 30th, 2018 by Sardonyx

I can’t tell if I was abused or not. It’s hurting me so much I can’t feel anything anymore. I’m ruining my relationship with my boyfriend and I’m pushing people away. I don’t even like being around them, it’s so shallow and fake.

If I could just know if i was abused I could get some help. I’m overreacting and probably deserved whatever happened to me because I’m not a good person. I’m a disgusting fat ugly freak who really just needs to hang off a noose

 

Love yall

Feel better

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I’m feeling like a zombie with no movitation to find brains even though I need brains to live

  July 29th, 2018 by sugarcoated

I have lost all movitation. I’m just coasting through my last year of school only barely passing my tests. This is where grades matters the most, but I’m just so fed up. I’m exhausted emotionally and physically. I just don’t care. Not only that, my friendship group has broken up. I have no more support from them. I barely see them these days. The only person that is supposed to be my “friend” always makes fun of me and puts me down, when she is bullying me I ask her to stop, I always do, she says she will stop, but she doesn’t. But I …

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yeet

  July 29th, 2018 by theironbiggo

uhhhh don’t come on here anymore but i don’t really know what to do. my girlfriend can genuinely do better, but she’s got the low self esteem™ so she doesn’t think she can. or maybe she does! not sure what makes me feel worse; her pretending to like me to protect my feelings or the thought that she honestly thinks i’m the best she can do. i hope she cheats on me. i wouldn’t blame her, anyone in her position would. im short and chubby and gross and boring and a complete fucking freak. im not exaggerating, she’s completely amazing and she’s settling for a

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After 5 years .. I am back again at suicide project !

  July 24th, 2018 by jano.19

The Last time I posted was FIVE years ago ..

I never though I’d ever come back .!

Yet here I am

I guess we never really change !

no matter how hard we try to change ourselves deep down we will always be the same .

I fought hard .. and I’m still fighting .. I’m not really willing to surrender not before not now not ever

yet still my inner self , my flaws , my weaknesses.. are catching up with me ..

spend the last five years in what I developed to br a stable life .. it is actually to most people it’s what they want .

I got …

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Advice on lessening impact of death?

  July 20th, 2018 by windydoor

No suicide methods or details regarding method will be posted here. I want to share my pre death plan and receive advice & input.

Context & reasoning

I’ve been suicidal even since childhood so I knew it was an eventuality. Now I am an adult with no dependents (other than my pet rats), and I am ready to follow through on my plan.

I know I do lots of good things for others and there are people who want (not need) me in their lives, but I hate being alive. I don’t see the point in living when it only benefits others. I don’t expect anything more from …

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My mom killed me

  July 16th, 2018 by izzuh

I know she’s the reason i hate myself. I wish I could just shut it off. but her nasty mean voice has gotten ingrained in me. whenever i tell myself that im not enough or that nobody cares, or i wont get anywhere in life, it’s in her voice.

 

the worst part about her lasting impression is like, most of the time i feel like im not even allowed to be sad. Whenever I would get upset or start crying it was always ‘stop feeling sorry for yourself’

any time i get depressed i just tell myself im feeling sorry for myself and i should stop because …

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Sharing/Oversharing

  July 13th, 2018 by itsallsmallstuff

I want a healthy relationship. But part of opening up to someone is talking about wanting to die. Then this perverts the relationship with either a)flirting with the idea of a suicide pact or b)becoming its gravitational center. Has anyone else walked this line? Possibly even successfully?

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‘The Me Show’

  July 10th, 2018 by hyperballad

to start: I’m an alphabet soup of disorders. Three of those are bipolar, borderline tendencies (whatever the hell that means), and Asperger syndrome.

 

My closest support is my partner who is also financially tied to me. And I even feel her slipping through my fingers and this turning into an uncomfortable situation where we only live together because we can’t afford to live without any kind of plan which we currently don’t have and can’t foresee.

I mean. I can easily leave in a month’s time because my mother passed this June and has apparently left me a hefty inheritance. But my partner can’t. She is on …

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Dear Best Friend

  July 9th, 2018 by -mR-

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I haven’t been able to make things okay for you.

I’m sorry that I haven’t helped you ad much as you need.

I’m really trying to help.

And I’m sorry you don’t know what’s going on with me.

But I don’t want you to deal with my problems as well.

I’m sorry I can’t tell you how much I want to cut again.

How much I want to make myself throw up.

How I choked myself this morning until I couldn’t breathe.

How I look out the window and the voice in my head screams “Jump!”

How my mind seems to get more toxic by the day.

But I can’t tell you …

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He is gone…But was never really mine…

  July 9th, 2018 by FallingSlow

He is gone now,
No longer will I see his smile,
He was here for just a moment,
Silence fills his place,
He is taken by another woman,
She is beautiful and wise,
I was a fleeting moment,
Now, not even a thought in his mind…

He was just like every other man in my life. Beautiful yet toxic… Why did I love him in only the short time I knew him? Why couldn’t I just walk away. I screw up everything… Now I have lost 2 friends I hoped would be around for life.
I lost their child, a beautiful angel I won’t ever see again… She was not mine but the joy …

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Reaching out.

  July 8th, 2018 by Piratemermaid

Everyone says reach out for help when you feel suicidal. A couple celebrities die and suddenly everyone cares so so much. What happens if you reach out and nothing happens? I’ve reached out. At 16 I told my doctor. “Hey, I don’t feel so great. My head feels heavy and I’m scared of everything and I thought it was just a phase, but I’ve felt sick for a long time now and I’m starting to feel like it’s not just my age anymore.” She told me I’d probably feel a lot better if I lost weight. If I attend her expensive nutrition classes and exercise …

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Should I?

  July 1st, 2018 by imsosorry2468

I feel like my time is getting close. It’s as if I am ready to go now. I know how I will leave. Just have to put a few things in place…

I am just not sure if I should leave a note behind. What do you think about it? would It help those left behind or do you think it would just make it worse?

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My problems

  June 22nd, 2018 by blue_pink

I’m new to this and I don’t know how to do this. So I don’t want to say my name but you can call blue. Friends are the main reason for me being on this site writing all this right now. My friends are not like normal friends. normal friends aren’t meant to ignore you whenever you try and talk to them. normal friends are meant to invite you places mine don’t but I don’t mind really. coming home on a Friday is worse than the week days my family hate me and I know that for sure. dealing with these problems on my own …

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Procitaj me/read me

  June 21st, 2018 by life aint worth livin if you got no love

All right, this is the end of the road, what you have been looking for all along. I know you wanna read this, so lets get started. This is both my last note and last letter. Reason it has come to this is what you have done to me. I’m sorry for ever meeting you in the first place and happy I am leaving a world where “people” like you exist. I have decided to end this once and for all. Why did you do it, that night? Why? What did I do to you to deserve this? After almost a year of my life …

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Done. Fucking done

  June 17th, 2018 by NumbExhaustion

So I want to die. Like honestly. I’m so done with everything. Mom’s banning me from watching Criminal Minds (Because it’s “corrupting my mind”) and my parents took all the locks off my doors and I really just want to cut. I’m tired of living here and I’m already sick of summer break. Goddddd. Just frustrated.

I can’t figure out my gender either. Like I thought I was agender but then what if I’m FTM trans? I dunno. I’m just realizing this now too. It’s not something I ever knew from a young age. Is that even possible? Also, can you be FTM trans without bottom …

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dad

  June 17th, 2018 by tearsgirl

my dad is dying and i’m sad and happy for that. he always was a asshole with me and my mom and finally i’ll let me in peace but i love him. it’s so sad that he wasn’t a good dad. i wish he wasn’t a chemical dependent and a alcoholic of shit but i cannot change that. he even didn’t apologize for turned my life in a fucking hell. he manipulated me and he assaulted my mom. he deserve all the pain that he’s getting now but it’s not fair with me to see him dies.

xx tearsgirl

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disappointed

  June 17th, 2018 by tearsgirl

i’m so disappointed with everyone. my best friend, my mom, my grandma, my dad and myself. literally everyone. people are asshole and this sucks. i’m so fucking tired. i visited my psychology yesterday and it was horrible. i just can’t take this anymore. i failed with myself. it’s clear that i cannot handle the weight of life. i just wanna disappear.

 

tearsgirl.

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I cant anymore

  June 15th, 2018 by ctrz

I’ve sat here, countless days, haven’t left the house, haven’t DONE anything, I have no purpose, nobody is willing to hear my cries, even my best friend, whom I thought was exactly like me cant see anything wrong. Im leaving to go to Japan in 12 days, and after that, when I get back, Im going to go see her and then, then Im done. Im done not having a reason to live, im done being hurt by everyone, im done with my deadbeat family who always bash on me. there is no way that im going to sit here and let this happen. so, …

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