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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

My Dream Is Crashing Down

by GerbzBaby 6/29/2015

written by GerbzBaby

Ever since I was little I’ve always wanted to be an artist. An artist who could draw anything or anyone if I set my mind to it. I would always fantasize what It’d be like to be one of those ‘famous artists’ who people look up to (no one has ever looked up to me for anything and when people have ill tell you it’s a real honor). But it’s been years now and my art skills are starting to lack more than it ever has before.

Every time I come across an amazing drawing I start to feel angry and sad.. wondering why my art […]

6/29/2015 6 comments

by ashley 6/28/2015

written by ashley

my friend acts like she has bigger problems than everyone. I’m not discrediting her depression, but considering the fact that I used to self harm and am on 187.5 mg of antidepressants, I think she needs to step back and consider the fact that other people have problems. it’s all dandy to talk about yourself but it’s a major trigger for me to talk about it, so maybe she should save it for her therapist.

i need people who don’t define themselves by their depression.

whoops I’m totally sorry that I decided to share my opinion. I guess this site is for people who want to try […]

6/28/2015 9 comments

Lost it.

by cre5 6/28/2015

written by cre5

Im a 20 year old male and this is my story, i dont really feel like commiting suicide but i just want to share this story. I have never cutted or harmed myself in any way possible.

Ive been a normal kid before someone told me i got a tad fatter in a matter of weeks (im still 2mteters talls and i weigh 75kg..). Since that day my life went downhill really fast, i started to look away from people and the real life because i fellt like i wasnt good enough in others peoples eyes. Since that day i just felt like anything i did […]

6/28/2015 1 comment

helping someone with depression/potentially suicidal person

by someonewhoexists 6/27/2015

written by someonewhoexists

I guess everybody has been in a situation where they didn’t know what to do. I have been in many, too. But this is something only you, people who are going through similar things, can help me with.

This post isn’t going to be about me, but about my aunt. My aunt has lost her son (my cousin) 2 years and 7 months ago if I’m counting correctly. He was only 17 years old at the time and he killed himself one night, somewhat out of the blue. The whole situation and his full reasons are a mystery – he didn’t leave any suicide note, he […]

6/27/2015 2 comments

It’s not enough.

by lulereign 6/26/2015

written by lulereign

I never believed when people said cutting was an addiction. But now it’s just not enough. I used to do baby cuts – just little ones – but a few of them at a time. They were small enough to go unnoticed even though I still wear short sleeved clothes. I didn’t want anything to be too obvious to people, but recently I’m noticing the are getting more inflamed and irritated – it kinda stands out too much.

Also I’ll admit I was scared of the pain. Initially that tiny pinprick was enough, but now it doesn’t hurt ENOUGH anymore. I want to cut deeper, but […]

6/26/2015 1 comment

Life is tricky

by Pretend Girl 6/26/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I want to share with you a story about my father. I want to share it because my depression is deeply affected by my family relations. The pain and hurts created a Pretend Girl who has been so very sad, so very alone and so very confused. Geee, a build up like that, who could turn away? 😉 I also want to share it because I think we are here in this crazy world to help one another. I want to share my story/stories and if you see part that can help you, I’d be so glad. I am going to write, to publish, to […]

6/26/2015 8 comments

determined

by 134kuub 6/25/2015

written by 134kuub

I just want to die

I have felt this way nearly 5 years now, i am so unhappy with every aspect of my life. I don’t know what to do with my future, i don’t feel excitement or motivation to do anything. I got diagnosed with an illness but it’s not even a condition that could kill me, it just makes me constantly tired and sore. I gave gotten to the point that i don’t care about being selfish and if it hurts people, I’m in so much pain all the time and i feel like it’s my only solution. Sometimes i want to reach out […]

6/25/2015 2 comments

by AKidWithAName 6/25/2015

written by AKidWithAName

Well, if anyone cares, here it is:

When I was in 5th grade (age 10), my father was deployed to Afghanistan for 6 months. During these 6 months, my mother drank every night. Because she didn’t take care of me or my siblings, I attempted to take care of them to the best of my ability. Needless to say, I failed miserably. We also didn’t go to church at all during these 6 months, because our mother didn’t take us. When my dad got back, I got in trouble for not raising my siblings correctly and not taking them to church […]

6/25/2015 6 comments

I want it to end

by 2sick2care 6/25/2015

written by 2sick2care

I’m tired I’ve been tired, I’m a walking fuckin skeleton with nothing left to give you can look at me and see I’m no longer here anymore. 24 years old or 4 this is all I’ve known, a never ending black hole I’ve gotten fuckin stupider and have ultimately fucked myself up even more. I’m sicker than sick, I’m fuckin sick and feel like nothing in this world can “fix” me. I honestly believe this is it no heaven or hell we had a choice to make this world our heaven or hell, the more I look around and the longer I choose to stay […]

6/25/2015 3 comments

Humpty Dumpty

by LooneyLou 6/24/2015

written by LooneyLou

I moved out of my mum’s house to get away and have a chance at living. There I was falling behind in school, and I had to raise both of my siblings and take care of them even though one was three years older than me. I did all the house work, cooking, and cleaning. I played Mum because no one else cared. Finally, ten months ago, I moved out and in with my aunt and cousins. I don’t know which place is worse. Everyone here hates me. I’m the ***** that moved in and ruined everybody’s life even though I’ve been generous and I […]

6/24/2015 2 comments

tired

by unloved-by-all 6/23/2015

written by unloved-by-all

I am so tired of living this way. I am 29 no job no home. Living with my fiances mother who hates me… I don’t know what to do or where to go… I honestly believe that if I died tonight no one would even shed a tear… they would all party…

6/23/2015 2 comments

Pathetic

by identitycrisis10 6/23/2015

written by identitycrisis10

When my mother died I was eight years old. When this happened my father turned to drugs and proceeded to neglect and somewhat abuse me and my brother (non-sexually). Every since then I have looked for some affection from any man, just to have them be kind to me or even love me. I was later molested by two men I was manipulated and broken.
Everyone says I’m beautiful, but I’m always ridiculed by guys for many reasons. And whenever I proceed to tell a guy I like him, he acts like i’m the most disgusting thing in the world.
But then I finally found […]

6/23/2015 3 comments

This is what happens when you stop caring…

by meh82 6/22/2015

written by meh82

I’m the youngest child of a survivor who made multiple attempts on her own life. How bad is it that I really really wish she had succeeded? I hate her with a passion. She is the worst narcissist I have ever met, myself included. She is extremely manipulative and it may be possible that she is trying to drive me into a nervous breakdown.

My father is a recovering alcoholic, and I have heard from many people (my mother’s own siblings included) that she literally tried to get him to drink himself to death. He has no idea how I’m feeling, apart from my anger towards […]

6/22/2015 0 comment

I hate business ! I hate money ! I hate capitalism / capitalist !

by niki 6/19/2015

written by niki

I hate business !
I hate money !
I hate capitalism / capitalist !

The main reason is because business kills creativity & ideas . money kills creativity & ideas . capitalism / capitalist kills creativity & ideas !
There are a LOT of good ideas , creativity , imaginations , inspirations , dreams , & even good deeds that business / money kills ! simply because of a petty, shallow reason “it doesn’t make a lot of money or profits ! ”

money makes the world unfair ! business makes the world unfair ! capitalism makes the world unfair !

plus , the world becomes a boring […]

6/19/2015 4 comments

I am bold and strong because..

by RealTalk30 6/16/2015

written by RealTalk30

…that’s what my sister would have wanted.
If she was alive today.. she’d be the strongest and smartest in my family. She is truly the missing link in our world, and what it’s become.
There for i remain strong.
Nothing will stop me from being happy and at peace with this life.
I do this for you, Angel. I know mom still misses you very much.
I know you are watching over me..over all of us.

And I will never give up

6/16/2015 3 comments

For some reason…

by nothingisrightanymore 6/16/2015

written by nothingisrightanymore

My parents have always been super harsh on me, always yelling whenever I do just one thing wrong or forget to do another. They wonder why I never do anything when I have a mile long list of chores. (which they promptly tell me isn’t bad at all and that I need to quit my complaining. 10 chores compared to the one thing that each of them does? Hm. I don’t know, but that seems pretty bad to me.)

One night, it was really bad. It was Sunday, actually. We had just seen a movie together and it was almost dinner time. Now, my dad knows that I […]

6/16/2015 20 comments

I Don’t Want To Hurt My Teacher

by Lovebug4142 6/13/2015

written by Lovebug4142

When I was kind of living all over the place, she stepped in and helped me, even though I didn’t really like her. When CPS came and saw me, I went to church with her that day and spent the night with her. I was TOTALLY freaking out and she talked with me and stayed up with me till 1 in the morning. She laid next to me and played with my hair to calm me down. She took me for the weekend to her home town and we stayed at her parents and met her siblings and aunts. They were totally nice to me. […]

6/13/2015 1 comment

How have you materially prepared for your Passing?

by Industrial Solvents 6/12/2015

written by Industrial Solvents

I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that i’m ready to leave. The only thing that keeps me here is the responsibilities I feel I owe my family. I’m 19 years old, and the only boy in my family. 2 sisters and my single mother. So you can imagine the huge amount of pressure I’m under to succeed. We have always been broke. Growing up my mother had many boyfriends come and go, many of them physically abusive toward her and me. (never my sisters though). As a child growing up I had Enormous potential, I’m extremely intelligent, there’s no denying as I have […]

6/12/2015 3 comments

Keep enduring!

by uni_4802 6/11/2015

written by uni_4802

“Endurance” what does endurance mean? Hi everyone! I’m new to this site, but I’m sure we are all here for the same reason. We have suicidal thoughts or have actually attempted to take our life. I was diagnosed with ADHD at 9. At age 11 I was diagnosed with depression. I was never abused nor was I bullied in school, but I was always lonley when it came to socialize with others, I never thought that being alone was a bad thing. I actually liked being alone, but I came to realize that I had no friends. I have a family who cares A […]

6/11/2015 5 comments

A light in the dark.

by Unremembered 6/10/2015

written by Unremembered

I went out with K again, and it helped a bit. I don’t know why. We didn’t do anything special. But we talked a lot, and now I know she’s like me. She sees the problems like I do. Well, not as much as I do, but a lot more than most people I know.

I still feel strange. Out of place. Like I’m from somewhere else. I still see the problems. The issues. But now I don’t feel hopeless. I feel like there’s a solution. Like there is a way out. A light in the dark. K showed me that.

I still have near to no faith […]

6/10/2015 0 comment

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