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I’m on another website kinda like this one. It’s called teenhelp.org. People keep telling me to call a hotline, I’m way to scared. I don’t know what the heck I’m going to do. I just hate my life.
If I have to take any more of this I WILL shatter and I’m afraid where the shards will fly. They might end up hurting a person I don’t want to be affected by this.
A few minutes ago I just hung up with my friend. She called because of a nightmare she had had. In it, I had killed myself and she was scared. She knows some parts o my issues so she’s afraid it was one of those phychic dreams. I think he might be right but I don’t have the heart or the stability to tell her. She was already crying. So […]
Hi. I’m 22 years old now, a french-speaking canadian guy too (gotta have defaults). Two years ago, I was knee-deep in suicidal tendancies; I lived only to die and I wanted it to happen pretty fast. Nothing really meant anything to me, I had no real ties to this world and felt like I just didn’t belong to this place. I’d hurt myself in a lot of ways to feel alive, to be special and not just another simple drone. I had a lot of reasons to die for and nothing to live for…
When I left psychiatric ward in 2006, I had only one idea in mind; I […]
I was discharged from the adolescent psych ward about 45 minutes ago. I was so mad at them at first for forcing me to leave even though I told them that I’m going to kill myself tonight , but now I’m filled with relief. Tonight is the night. If I wake up I’ll say that it was stupid and that I’ll never try it again. If they send me to the psych ER to see if I’ll be admitted I’ll just tell my mom that I’m going to the bathroom and rip off my bracelet and run out of there. And this time I’m not […]
To everyone out there that wants to give up and end their life, please don’t do it. I don’t know your stories, or what you’ve been through, but I know that their is no situation that can’t get better. You may not believe me when I say that, but it’s true. Last year I was suicidal, I took large amounts of pills, I cut myself, I cried myself to sleep everynight. But one of my best friends encouraged me, and he gave me hope and I will always be grateful. You don’t know me, and I don’t know any of you and i’m only 15 […]
just enough for s0me booze, plenty of xanax and charcoal. can’t fail.
I’m so fed up. With myself and with life in general. There is nothing to live for. I feel like I dont deserve to live, I dont have a purpose here. I don’t offer anything to the world. I’m only ‘average’ at everything, there’s nothing special about me. And for some reason I can just not be happy with myself. I always cry, I’m so FED UP with myself. I’m fat, ugly, worthless. No one wants me. I’m too shy, too anti social. I can’t even describe how I feel. I just don’t belong here. I want to die. I have thought about suicide since […]
for as long as i can remember i have never wanted to live. even as a kid i have just always felt uncomfortable living, and just being me. i tried killing myself a lot in high school. i tried pills, knives, and a gun. i know a gun and im still writing this. the dang thing didn’t fire. don’t know why. so i figured that im just immortal so i started burning my self with anything i could heat up and stick to my body. now i am 23, i still hate living, just even more now. i have given up hope on all my […]
I am a recovering 15 year old female. What am I recovering from? Suicide! For the past few years, I’ve been suicidal and didn’t think things would get better. Man, was I wrong. When my boyfriend stepped into my life, I just knew things were getting better. He is the love of my life and I wouldn’t trade him for the world. I actually attempted suicide, I didn’t just have thoughts. I am judged nonstop because of my problems of suicide in the past. Even though I would never judge anyone else, they still judge me. We […]
Hi, I am a 15 year old suicidal female. Judging me because of my age isn’t the brightest, since you don’t know my life.
Anyway; my parents got divorced when I was 13. It was hard for me and since the divorce and what happened to cause the divorce, I’ve been suicidal.
It was Mother’s Day when my dad came home and told my mom he was cheating on her, with her best friend. It tore my mom apart and she laid on the floor, crying horribly. My dad got in the car and went to the house of the woman he was cheating with, leaving […]
im 21 n hav been married an getting my divorce, my husband would beat the shit out of me every single day at least once if not more in the same day n still trys to get to me so im not srry for feeling like this i think i hav a right to wanna off myself, since everytime i go to bed i hav nightmares bout wat happened n cant sleep n cant even b round ne guy witout freaking out, ive went from a nice out going girl to basicly a suicidal shut in, i just don hav the energy to do this […]
There isn’t anything for me, and what little I manage to obtain I quickly ruin. I’m not close to family at all. My abusive father threw me out at 19, and I haven’t spoken to him since. My mother is too busy with her own life to really be concerned with my problems. I went to college for 6 years and amassed a debt that I’ll probably never be able to pay off. I was fired 9 months into my first job, and after 10 months managed to land my dream job. Except my boss has no respect for me and hardly gives me anything […]
I hate it when the ones you always turn to, cling-on, leave you for someone better. Im always afraid to introduce my fren from work/college to another fearing they’ll get close and ditch me. Jealousy?Things like this happened before and it will happen again. But i dont want to be childish and selfish by thinking like tht..so i let it happen. And now i’m all alone.
How am I even close?! They keep telling me if I graduate next week, I’ll be right on track. NOT EVEN CLOSE! Even to get there I have to go through hell and back with so much make up work, how can I accomplish all that by then? Hell, even to graduate it should’ve been done by then. But I’m just so depressed. Not only about this but everything. How can I ever get anything done if all I want to do is curl up and die? I don’t want to wake up and do work. I just want to sleep. Sometimes I just wanna […]
so tired of havin to put a fake smile on so ppl will leve alone, n i don think its fare for sumone to pump ur stomach wen ur trying to kill urself , i just don kno nemore im so tired of the memories i hav that wont leve its like a moster tareing me apart from the inside, its so hard to make it thro a day all i can think bout is ways to kill myself thats all that goes thro my head sumtimes that an that im ugly n no one will ever want me i hate having these scares remebering […]
I feel as though I’m choking on air
Being strangled by the breeze.
I’m locked into place
I will never be free.
I’m lying in my bed afraid to go to sleep but also afraid to stay up because my moms in a foul mood and hates when I stay up late. Little does she know, I hardly ever sleep anymore. Only when absolutely nessicery (I’m sorry I can’t spell). I feel consticted and alone. Like an evacuated holocaust camp. Abandoned because help came too close and hated for what it was used for and what it was forced to do and who it was forced […]
I find myself to continue to be suicidal because of my objective views of life. I recognize the emptiness of every moral, value, or principle and I can’t seem to adopt enough of them for myself because I hardly find any of them reputable enough to call my own. I’m so sick of the subjective morality of this place. I’m sick of hearing about how I need to find Jesus, I’m sick of the constant reverence and respect for a deity, and I can’t seem to find anyone that thinks the way I do. Anytime I express that, I’m always torn down with, “well, you […]
I don’t know why I always feel like this. I can’t even remember when it started but now all I can feel is empty. It’s like there’s nothing inside me anymore. The only emotion I feel is sadness and I don’t even know if that’s real anymore. Everything I say sounds stupid even to myself. I have no value in my own eyes because everyone has degraded me way past the point where I could ever have any respect for myself ever again. I’m a freshman in high school and have been cutting on and off since I was in 7th grade. I constantly feel […]
Hi I’m Nick. I’ll try to keep this short, sweet, and to the point. I started having suicidal thoughts 4 years ago. I really didn’t have a good reason. I just wasn’t happy with my life and I felt really alone. Over time things got better and I wanted to live. I started being around my family more which really helped. And after I blew my knee out playing football I started to coach Special Olympics football and basketball. I found my passion and that was to be a coach. If something was bothering me and I felt depressed, sports was always there and it […]
Hello I was reading all of your lives and how everyone is feeling and I just wanted to say hello, and that I too have had a very interesting live when it comes to it being a happy one. I have had allot of good things in my life, but I just don’t know why I can not get away from this poor me feeling. There are days that I can be on top of he world, but then all it takes is one or two items to bring me back to earth and I just want to close my eyes and keep them closed […]