General

Right, I haven’t been on here for a while. My life has not improved despite everyone saying it would. I hate it, I hate it all. My head is a war zone, I hate who I am because Im not me anymore, Im a freak, Im going through hell because of thingsout of my control, things inside my head that I can’t cope with. I don’t care about anything anymore, so many things, have happened that I never want to remember, I thought it was just a phase I was going through but as time goes on Im realing that without noticing Im planning my own […]

huuuuh i hate this … i just want not to exist..not go to heaven not go to hell just erased…

Im 21 years old and have never really asked lot all ive ever wanted is to just be happy how hard is that to ask really. I recently split up with my girlfriend of 4 years who i loved to pieces and adored i treated her very well and did all i could.now she doesnt love me has left me and is being so horrible. we have had problems before but not this bad. She lives miles away from me but still insists on going out on the […]

Just been allowed out of hospital, i don’t understand why i fail everytime. And whoever is emailing me saying that i’m only 15 and don’t have any real problems, i hope you die a slow and painful death. I don’t want to deal with you. Does it make you feel big? Harassing a 15 year old girl, telling her she deserves to die so no one will have to listen to her complaining anymore? You don’t know one single fucking thing about why i’m this way or why i try and escape. The amount of other people that have come onto this site since i […]

I don’t know why I’m posting here, it’s just more of the same self-pity I don’t need. But here goes anyway: I was accepted last year to a one-year grad school program for something I really wanted (and still want) to do, but for various reasons I have effectively dropped out, have a chance to return but it would be part-time I would know no one and get shitty classes. I found a wonderful girl here and have driven her away; on Monday am moving back to my mom’s house, a place where I know I will be bored and evermore depressed. I think about […]

This is my third post here on this site. Honestly, I love this website. It has saved me from resorting to more foolish coping mechanisms. This time around I find myself faced with…an abnormal (for lack of a better term) amount of stress. I am hoping to study abroad in Japan next year, but have no money to do so. I need scholarships for the trip, but my grades have been slipping lately. My grades continue to go down the drain because I’m lacking motivation. I lack motivation, because I, like many of the rest of you here, can’t seem to stop thinking about how […]

Hi- stumbled across this today. Had a hard life growing up, Mom a schizoprenic, dad an alcoholic, murdered in jail at the age of 46. So lot’s of people had it tough too I guess. Did all the right things, went to college, got married, had a house, dogs, and husband.

Had a good paying professional career. Got divorced, bought my own place, got laid off, lost my house, sold all my stuff, moved to a different state to start over. Credit ruined now. I live in an extended stay hotel. I look for work but am so damned depressed I would pay someone to kill me […]

Suicide can be prevented. If anyone here needs to talk, I am here for you. I am currently going to school studying the human brain and anthropology. I would be very willing to assist anyone that needs help or just wants to talk. I have been down the suicidal road before- I want to prevent another family from going through what I went through. Please let me help you. Contact me on this website or ask me for my email. Thanks. You are not alone.

I lost my brother in law sept 8, 2009 to suicide, I remember being at home starting to cook dinner,and the phone rang, it was my sister she was frantic just screamin he’s dead, he hung himself, he’s dead! I didn’t understand it took a couple minutes for it to sink in before i started to puke from the shock. She was crying hysterically, He had committed suicide and nobody knew, they found his body a day later. My sister and I were married to brothers, so as soon as I got off the phone with her, and told her i would be there for her […]

Hi, so hows life treating you all? Well I hope fine. As for me well to be honest not good.I don’t even know how to start. I just can’t stop thinking and feeling this pain that is killing inside of me. Well he its goes. My name is Roy Rico and i live in Mission, Texas. When I was sixteen years old i try to kill myself, which is overdose. To be honest i have told no one told about this what was going in my mind when it happen. I was in high school and in sports. Iwas good in sports and smart.I just don’t know what […]

I’m exhausted. Tired of feeling this awful burden upon me. Every night I fall asleep with hopes to never wake up. I have no drive to see my friends, to go to school, to do things I used to love. I wish to just sleep. My family says I am selfish, and feeling sorry for myself, and I want so badly for them to see how much I hurt. My acne has made me so self-concious, I feel ugly, homely, and alone. My friends are beautiful, they have boyfriends, social lives. I feel like stereotypical girl who sits at home on prom night. I hate […]