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Sad and Mad/Mad and Sad

by DovaKitten 7/22/2020

written by DovaKitten

I’ve been thinking about things that have happened to me a lot lately, and I have realised that I am stranded, stuck, lost, alone in this world now.

My parents, as much as I love them dearly, have no idea about what I’ve been through, and wouldn’t (couldn’t) understand if they did.

My friends don’t understand why I am not the same, why I am not the old me. They have noticed that I am not miraculously better, even after being given time and space.

The only one who does know, is the one that left me like this, and they don’t care. They just went back to […]

7/22/2020 5 comments

Shattered Life

by BrokenNSad 7/21/2020

written by BrokenNSad

Hello. I randomly stumbled across this site. Maybe it can help or maybe it its a waste of time. who knows, but here goes nothing.

I am a 30 year old African American male in Columbus Ohio. I recently moved back after my mother passed last month. It has been very devastating to me physically, emotionally, and psychologically (like death usually is from my understanding). I cant sleep well, I have to force myself to eat, and many days I dont even want to get out of bed. This stems from so much in my life while on the outside looks as though I’ve achieved much, […]

7/21/2020 2 comments

Agree to Disagree

by Scatter Shot 7/20/2020

written by Scatter Shot

Are you dead yet?. Cause I am, I’ve been dead on the inside for as long as I can remember but the sad truth is that I don’t want to die. I want to be alive so to live and smell the sweet aromatic fragrance of flowers and the fresh air above the mountain peaks…Where can I go to find solace? Is there any place on earth that I can just move to? How do I exist in a new land? Am I going to conform or rebel?

Or maybe the sanctuary is within me, my bodily temple that I’ve neglected to appreciate.

Shall I seek revenge […]

7/20/2020 1 comment

If you could…

by WolfieDepressionWorld 6/1/2020

written by WolfieDepressionWorld

If you could restart, would you?

I have a debate with the voices in my head on this question. The reason I’m still alive is because I know I’ll be missed. I don’t know why they would miss me on some days. I find myself useless. But sometimes I think about how I am a survivor of all the bad times and all the times I wanted to hurt. I am a survivor to all the times I wanted it to end, of the times I was assaulted. I still stayed, and yes I look around and think to myself all the ways I could stop. […]

6/1/2020 2 comments

I wanted to leave this prison of a world more than anything

by Thorium 232 5/26/2020

written by Thorium 232

This isn’t a story about how I almost killed myself, but it certainly paved the way for me to experience suicidal thoughts in the future. The fall semester of 2019 for me was by far the most stressful and demoralizing period of my entire academic life up to date. If there was one good thing to come out of it, it’s that I discovered I’ve been dealing with depression and other mental issues for many years now. Never the less, this particular semester caused me to reach my breaking point where I just felt like I wasn’t good enough, that I am completely worthless, that […]

5/26/2020 3 comments

does it get better? i fucking hope so.

by c-note13 5/20/2020

written by c-note13

i’m gonna swear a lot, bear with me. it’s 22:22. no one’s enjoying this lockdown. but i seem to like it. university’s shut down, i’m away from toxic people. i’m on my phone, laptop and ps4 for almost the whole fucking day. i’m an 18 y/o guy btw, but it’s super tough living with my family. maybe you’ve heard of a “conservative hindu” family, maybe you haven’t. i REALLY don’t like talking about my family to anyone. not even my closest friends know exactly what i’m going through. i have a strained relationship with my dad from 2011. fucker used to beat me a lot, […]

5/20/2020 6 comments

Birds in flight

by EmbalmedHeart 5/19/2020

written by EmbalmedHeart

Birds flying too low

from a bird’s eye view,

can you see them too?

The few,

the abused.
The broken the miserable
coming to you all on cue.

The lay of the land,

the eyes above the trees,

like tinfoil soldiers,

and the lions’ mane, the dandelion seeds.

The sandy waters of rivers with no name,

to you bastardous birds,

I guess life is just a game.

Omniscience must be a *****,

to see all this agony and become immune,

to the pain of others,
Even you above us apathetic,
I hope your soul can still be exhumed.

I hope you are not too far gone,

I think to say for all the shame and the horrific memories,

the clocks that mock […]

5/19/2020 2 comments

Only a bridge.

by EthxrealPoetry 5/8/2020

written by EthxrealPoetry

Today, on this website, someone said that everyone is sad.

I fell on that person that was convinced that, after reading the rants of all the people here, that every person on this platform was sad, and that was why they were here.

I do not agree (but I understand their point of view and I respect it), simply because I am the proof that their theory is not true. I am here today, and even if I have my own problems, I am not sad, I am happy even.

And I am not here to rub that fact in everyone’s face. Each of us is different and […]

5/8/2020 0 comment

On the Search for Meaning

by Sbilko 5/6/2020

written by Sbilko

I found this person: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Viktor_Frankl

He specialized in the psychology of depression and suicide; his project managed that not even one more student (of the widespread student suicide in Vienna) commit it during that year. He wrote on the meaning of life and humanity’s attempts to answer the question:

https://www.amazon.com/Viktor-E.-Frankl/e/B000APVZJU?ref_=dbs_p_ebk_r00_abau_000000 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Unconscious_God
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Man%27s_Search_for_Meaning

Surely this will prove invaluably useful!! I myself searched for meaning for 3 years; and I found that the question “What is the meaning of life?” to be faulty, but in the process I found the answer to all I need.

5/6/2020 4 comments

Continue the Struggle 2 Live

by blacknduglycaligirl 5/3/2020

written by blacknduglycaligirl

I haven’t been here in a while. Today is tough for some strange illogical and unknown reasons. I’m depressed today but I’m experienced enough to know that not every day will be like this. Just keep breathing and existing.

5/3/2020 1 comment

QUIZ: Why you do cutting?

by Itscolourlife 4/19/2020

written by Itscolourlife

A. Have difficulty understanding or expressing emotions
B. Not know how to cope with trauma, pressure, or psychological pain in a healthy manner
C. Have unresolved feelings of rejection, loneliness, self-hatred, anger, or confusion
D. Want to “feel alive”
E. Self punishment
F. Explain it…

4/19/2020 2 comments

I decided. And I chose him

by Tryingtoholdon123 4/12/2020

written by Tryingtoholdon123

If it wasn’t for my boyfriend idk where I would be at. I’m honestly so blessed to have him. as some people know that have read my rants and stuff I’ve been crying everyday for a couple of months and almost 2-5 times a day and just been hurting really bad and hating who I am and suicide was a heavy thought on my mind. But if it wasn’t for him I’m pretty sure I would be gone. He deals with my mental break downs and when I cry and when I get angry and when I’m numb. We do argue a lot but he […]

4/12/2020 0 comment

“Life is a gift! Live, laugh, love! You only live once (YOLO)! Thank God! Life is beautiful!” etc etc. Well, not really. Wake up and open your eyes to reality.

by niki 4/11/2020

written by niki

Only those people who are lucky & fortunate in life who can loudly say that life is a gift. The reality is, not everyone is fortunate. In fact, most people on this planet live in pain & sufferings just barely enough to survive. And then, even if people live in the first-world developed countries like in U.S or Europe for example, there are ironically still people who are depressed, and even suicidal/commit suicide. If life is a gift, like most people nowadays keep saying, then why all those reality exist? The only answer I can think of is: it is human’s nature perhaps for (most) […]

4/11/2020 5 comments

Decisions decisions……..

by Tryingtoholdon123 4/7/2020

written by Tryingtoholdon123

This constant hate for myself has been getting overwhelming. Honestly suicide has started to become a huge option. I try to think positively of myself and about my life but I can’t and it’s really hard. I know there are peoples life’s worse than mine but I just don’t like myself and I always feel like I don’t deserve to live. I’ve been crying everyday of my life for the past couple of months non stop about 2-5 times a day. My body has become so weak and I always feel exhausted for all this crying but get 4 hours or less sleep a day. […]

4/7/2020 2 comments

Crying Everyday And So Confused

by Tryingtoholdon123 4/4/2020

written by Tryingtoholdon123

So for a while now, probably a couple of months I’ve been crying every single day about something it could be the littlest thing but I just start crying and I just going to this episode of hating myself and wanting to just be alone and away from everything and everyone and then it turns into anger and then anybody who tries to help me I give a attitude to. And I do know that I’m clinically diagnosed with bipolar depression But for years it’s been under control and I’ve learned how to control it so much that years ago the Psychiatrist felt like I […]

4/4/2020 4 comments

I don’t know what to do please help I need advice

by Tryingtoholdon123 4/4/2020

written by Tryingtoholdon123

Well I used this website before and honestly it’s a really helpful and supporting place and I’ve never experienced any type of hate being here so I decided to use it again and I thank the people on this website for being so nice to me when sharing my feelings really means a lot and would gladly do the same . I don’t even know how to put all that I’m feeling into proper words. I’ve been going through a lot in my own head. I constantly put myself down and I’m always saying that I hate myself. And the worse part is everything I […]

4/4/2020 2 comments

Life sucks and then you die

by niki 4/1/2020

written by niki

Some people are lucky; Some people are not.
The more you learn about this world and society, the more you will realize that Life is random (chances), and yes, Life is not fair. Reality is depressing.

Most people who still always keep saying that “if you work hard, you will be successful!” are naive, ignorant, and simple-minded typical “optimistic/positive/happy-go-lucky” people you always see everywhere. And even for those people who realized it and therefore said that what’s important is to “work smart”, it also usually often means to be sly, cunning, opportunistic bastards who are too often selfish, pricks, ruthless, cold, heartless, and only care about […]

4/1/2020 4 comments

Soul Cancer

by cloud 3/31/2020

written by cloud

yes, this shit is a soul cancer, depression is even worse than body cancer, it kills your soul , and once ur soul is dead, u are dead even if ur body keeps moving. and thats where we start thinking of commiting suicide cuz thats the only option we see, we are dead, so we want to kill the only thing left which is the body.

that bing said , i hope i dont reach that stage , am getting worse evveryday but am trying to fight back even tho i lose most of my battles vs depression, anxiety, overthinking and negativity . i am having […]

3/31/2020 3 comments

i’m back and worse than before

by robin1244 3/26/2020

written by robin1244

Hi guys,

Its been nearly two years since my last post and I’m in the process of therapy but its not helping me out the way I expected. Until 7 months ago I was physically and mentally abused for over 11 years and it has left it’s scares. I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD and depression and I’ve learned to accept it. But the reason for my return is that I was about to attempt to kill myself again, but I used a technique I learned in therapy to stop my attempt. I thought of the last few attempts and I started crying, something that I never […]

3/26/2020 2 comments

Perspective

by Hiccup 3/20/2020

written by Hiccup

Looking back on what I’ve posted here a year to a year and a half ago, it’s so weird to me. As if I’m not the one who actually wrote those things. The negativity in those posts made me cringe, but I guess it can be good to vent sometimes. I’m in a better place now, though I still have my lows and struggle with insecurities. Despite this, I’d like to think things will turn out okay.

3/20/2020 3 comments

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