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My Suicide Note
I have a bully. And they’re really f#%kin mean.
My bully wants me dead.
My bully is called me.
I vaguely remember feeling alive. Like things were actually happening. Things mattered, I thought things through, but then one day somewhere my mind woke up. “Oh f@$k I can think”. It was all downhill from there. I deteriorated slowly at first. Little realizations. “This doesn’t feel right.” “I was only 8”. Minutes and hours with my mind consumed by the things that went wrong before. Dwelling on the trauma that I didn’t understand until the beginning of The Collapse. The doctor says I need pills. We’ll try Dexmethylphenidate, we’ll […]
Hi, I’m new here. Let’s cut to the chase, I’m a college student have been struggling with this stuff for a while. I’ve got in trouble two times in college for drinking the last 2 weeks. I’m never going to make the same mistake again but I can’t live with my pain plus this all going on. It’s going on my record and I can’t bear it anymore. This struggle of mine has been going on for years and it’s only made it worse. I feel alone and scared but I’m finally ready after all these years. How do I write my note to be […]
My fate was sealed on Wednesday 28th August when a govt psychopath took away the last bit of autonomy I had.
Going to college has always been my dream but after 1 year I can’t afford it and I refuse to work my ass off in a minimum wage slavery job until the day I die. There is absolutely no happiness in this world without a degree and without the money that comes with it, and I’ll be damned if I’m going to serve stuck up pricks burgers for the rest of my life I REFUSE!
The financial aid office offers no help to independent students and my drunk deadbeat dad cannot cosign a single loan for me, and I have no biological mother in the […]
So I just got home today after I didnt go home last night
Too much.. my head cant contain it
I dont want to go home
Then he come to save me
I cry in his shoulder and he pat my head gently
I go to his place and it took 1 hour to arrive
He try booking another room
But we ended sleeping in the same room
He said he usually playing game and sleep on the floor
I know he was lying
He fall asleep and often wake up to change his position
So I told him to sleep beside me on the bed
i thought about it for too long
just do it
well
i fucked up once again
i hurt someone who means a lot to me
again
Im sorry N.B
to anyone who might be reading this
i’ll do it on Wednesday when my sleeping pills is here
if anyone wanna talk hit me up
minglin2272@gmail.com
good night everyone
Hi. I’m not sure if I want to live right now. I’ve been rereading a suicide note that I wrote a while back, trying to change its meaning into something less bleak. The problem is, I’m a fairly good writer, (even though it hurts to do so). I’m scared to die, but I can’t stand this. Would anyone be willing to lend a counter-argument to it? I know it’s not much, but I can send you a few dollars over PayPal as a thank you if you want.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1igVZfUQq7IbhJDjGhZ9qyEGVGbAbIpyy9or04P1Xd9s/edit?usp=drivesdk
Ive thought it over time and time again but can never figure out the words to put out on paper. I just think it’s time I move on and just pray that God will forgive me when I see him. And today is the day. I cant live with this chaos within. I cant hold on for more hope. Their eyes all say the same thing. I will give them the realease of the burden Ive become. These pills make my heart thump hard and I can feel it becoming harder to breathe. Im trying to be brave and believe that this time they work. […]
What is this feeling?
Maybe I fancy you
When you try to search me when im disappear
When you insist to call me when i jail myself
When you try to make me laugh
When you wonder what happen
When you ask if i cry
When you tell your story
When you always hear my story
When you always there
If i keep this as a secret
Until that time come
Will you still be there for me
Will you still fancy me
What should i do
I started to like your voice
Again
It doesnt matter who like who first
Right?
As you lie there falling to sleep
I can’t help but think
what’s left to loose
I’ve lost you
many time
your friends said don’t talk to him
“maybe they are right”
what if they are right
what if me leaving is the best for you
for both of us
so I can get going
and you can get better
I don’t know why you are still here
for me
I don’t know why I’m cared for
I don’t deserve you
you are happier without me
I caused you troubles
pain
it’s just one step to one small step to take
by the train platform
just one small step
and I can’t hurt you anymore
just one more heart ache that you will get over
one more
i don’t know […]
i went through lots of shit. im the unluckiest person alive. i lost my parents. i lost my best friend. im always being bullied, and was borned with an ugly face and being autist and bipolar doesnt help. and when i always searching in the net, they just saying it gets better, just hard work(yes and i didnt mentioned business fails, its pathetic) and other stuff. they act they know the other person. and what if im cant be happy? what? i know i should be dead. and i will do it, but i just needed it, for last time.
So I drank some vodka popped like 3 barbiturate pills and snorted as much heroin as I could manage before passing out and I still managed to death rattle 4 fucking hours to be “saved” by my mom. Fuck my life. This is like 4 times failing to die overdosing on heroin. Yes it’s definitely heroin as I found out in the 2 weeks of being restrained first at the hospital and then at the mental loony bin that was worse than jail. If I had known it was this hard to die from heroin I would have been a lot less carful in the […]
here i go again
trying to say things
to make it all easier
to help hurt less when the day comes
being an asshole
another bottle
another sleepless night
the words of hers stuck in my head
ringing
i was just trying to do you right
but i can’t
learn from your mistake they said
i’m trying
i’m like a bomb but i’m constantly exploding
i was just trying to get you out of the blast zone
but i can’t
i need you here to hold down the switch to stop me from exploding
one last time
not enough tears can say i’m sorry
all of this just tells me
Im so depressed right now
And no one care about me
No one appreciate my existence
Should I just runaway from home for a few days?
So I can think whay i really want to do in my life
And my parents can think what they need to think about
Im stuck and I realy dont have a will to live anymore
Help me guys..
What should i do??
I will just runaway for some days and going back home again
I think with this plan all of us can think properly and not stuck here forever
I need a place to be alone and […]
I’m sorry to trouble you with my problems. I’m sorry for having you deal with anything related to my issues. I’m sorry for putting any of this on you. There are turns and every other turn is suicide or self harm. Every other turn is some kind of way out. I don’t know which turn to take, but I know I will take a turn. So I’m sorry if I take the wrong turn since I’m bad at directions.
A note to anyone who has no experiance in feeling suicidal. It always shocks me when some people say they have never felt this way. For me, it is summed up as this:
Just because someone takes their life before you are prepared to lose them does not mean that they went before their time. Neither does it mean that they were in any way selfish. It simply means that they are not suffering anymore and the pain you are feeling now may never even scratch the surface of what they had to endure for probably longer than you will ever know. They are at peace […]
People look at us like a pitiful person
Sometimes they call us crazy
Then they laughing at us
Make a joke of our pain
When we cry
We cant tell anyone
Cause we are afraid of how their eyes change
The way they look at us will change
We make war with our mind
We want to give our soul away
And we stuck there
With a plain look
And feel bored
How we ended up here
And how we cant get out
Anymore
Who to blame
Probably ourself
Take me home
For us expecially myself with depression
“They told me pratice makes perfect. But then they told me nobody’s perfect, so I stopped practicing…”
I thought that if I had to fail time after time, if I had to be the Girl Who Got Her Boobs Handler By Her Brother In her Sleep and the Girl Who’s Step-Father Abused Her Mother In Front Of Her and the Girl Who’s Friend Tried To Kill Herself, I could at least be the Girl Who Succeeded Despite Everything. At leats that. At least.
But then I walked into the exam room and only made my already bad grade worse. I finished about four pages before realizing that […]
It’s been two years since I’ve looked at this website. But today, and lately, for a while.. I’ve been thinking about how it’d be if I wasn’t here. It’s not like anybody would notice I’m gone. I lost custody of my daughter for having an eating disorder. I lost my family for failing at treatment. I lost myself trying to recover and pretending that I’m okay. And now I’m left with nothing and nobody and I’m just done. I want to die. I want to be alone forever and not have to eat or drink water or move or think or cry. I wish I […]