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Defeated

by Lost_Again
written by Lost_Again

I look at my gun and I am so tired, Im 22…been feeling this way for so long, Ive tried everything and it does nothing..I really have no idea why I even registered, will someone care? Why should they? Will it mean something when they desert me like everyone has every done. I dont fear death…hence it adds to my confusion why I am here, if not fear it then why go? I have nothing to live for..just more blood and more pain.

Im tired of getting my ass kicked because I am gay.

Im tired of having no friend or friends to merely use me.

Im tired […]

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MY Story

by meece24
written by meece24

Hello, My name is Michael Meece and this is my story.

Over the past 15 years, I have tried to end my endless suffering and has failed.  I believe there is a true reason for that. But I am not sure what it is, yet.

The first time I tried was when I was probably in the 7th grade. I took alot of tylenol and hoped to die. All I did was permanently screw up my liver. I was committed for 3 months in a hospital psychiatric facility for minors.

In 2006, My future fiance broke up with me. I was trully and painfully heartbroken. I […]

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light is finding me!

by xXBloodyRoseXx
written by xXBloodyRoseXx

i dont need this website anymore. my mom and i are fine. i have a new boyfriend and my friends are taking me to icon for the anime fest. my mom n i are moving away so no one will piss us off. i might get a new dad. i got a new car. ive been excepted to 4 major art school. and i got a new puppy. hehe life has turned around for me. im happy now. and no longe worry abut suicide. =)

im free… finally free of the darkness. hehe i still miss my daddy but hes with me. hehe i can feel […]

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Value of Life

by Heldogtertjie
written by Heldogtertjie

I was planning to commit suicide for quite some time. And on the 17th of February 2011 I decided that it was time. I arrived at college at about 13:00, just before my class started and told my friend I was going to the bathroom. I sat on the toilet and took a handful of my anti depressants with some alcohol.
When I noticed it wasn’t acting quickly enough, I decided to cut my jugular with the blade of an NT cutter. All this time my friend got pretty worried about why I was taking so long, so he asked the receptionist, who was sitting […]

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Lost And Insecure

by LonelyEyesOfLostness
written by LonelyEyesOfLostness

So lately my life has been nothing but a drag. I have clinical depression bi-polar disorder aniexty issues and panic disorder. Everything will go great for me for a couple months and then shut the next day. I’m starting to feel like friends family and my boyfriend aren’t enough. I need help. I’ve been cutting since the 7th grade and have attempted a few times.

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losing myself

by xXBloodyRoseXx
written by xXBloodyRoseXx

nothing feels right anymore. happiness comes and goes. but at night.. i feel like im falling. i wish i could rip my heart out and lock it away so no one will ever hurt me. im in a state of depression that scares me. i cut up my leggs so my mom cant see my cute. ive carved “hopeless’, “worthles” “slut” and “no one loves you” into my leggs over the past month. the person i love doesnt love me. the family who said they would always be there for me never is.  my mom crys everynight. she doesnt smile anymore. my house is full […]

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Demise

by RogueShadow1281
written by RogueShadow1281

My demise… I wish there was something I could do to be remembered, but I am just lost. I wasted so much precious time playing video games, going to school, all that crap. That doesn’t mean I’m already past all that. I’m still wasting time. Wish I could go down with a bang, but I won’t, unless I suicide with a pistol of some sort. Hopefully a Colt… Or maybe a Revolver, just so my neighbor will remember how his favorite gun killed someone he knows. Ha, anyways I want to live and die fighting. I want to lead an army of outcasts(or some army) […]

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Suicide

by Kizzy
written by Kizzy

When I don’t take my Meds I lose track of my myself. I sink in to a depression. The darkness takes over. All I can think of is my demons. All the mistakes I’ve made, the people I’ve hurt, those who I’ve lost are stuck in my head. The memories replaying again and again until I want to die.

I hate all those how rant about how suicide is a sin. I think they just fear death and that makes them feel weak. They hide their weakness behind walls of hate.

Suicide is not a sin. It is not a weakness. It takes strength to do. So many times I have […]

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Sinking.

by Kaybabyy
written by Kaybabyy

Have you ever felt like you’re sinking deeper and deeper into yourself and you can’t seem to find a way to resurface? I feel that way everyday. At first i used to be able to find a way out. All i had to do was run the shiny, sharp razor down my arm, marking the unmarked skin. Each cut tells a story. Cutting used to be my escape for everything wrong in my life. It seems now that i’ve gotten used to that pain, i need a better outlet. Drinking and drugs helped me escape reality for the time being, until they started to wear […]

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still hear

by xXBloodyRoseXx
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ok so im still hear on this stupid fucking earth. my mom and i are planing a month to get away from home. i cant say where were gonna go but its warm, with beautifull mountins and forists.

im ok right now. ive been drawing atleast 6 drawings a day.writing 4 poems. 2 stories and about….7 different songs. doing all this is making me very happy and calm.

my mom and me are laughing again. she still has no idea i almost killed myyself  the other day.

My friend Matt saved my life again. and my new friend Alvaro is helping me as well. matt ran to my […]

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i feel dead.

by xXBloodyRoseXx
written by xXBloodyRoseXx

im alive as in everyone can see hear and touch me…. but what they dont know is on the inside im dead. my heart is black and broken, my sole is cold. each night i cry myself to sleep. i want my daddy back. my dad was a good man. he never did anything wrong. he was kind and loveing (when sober) he was my best friend. i want him back,. this isnt fair.

why did god have to take him. im tired of hearing that everything happens for a reason or god has a reason for everything. if that is true i want to know […]

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im so lost..

by xXBloodyRoseXx
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without my daddy i feel so lost….. i miss him so much…. all my mom does is cry and worry about us…. my life that was once a living hell has now becom a living nightmare… i wanna wake up… god someone wake me up from this nightmare and pull me out of this hell!.. the only think keeping me alive is music…. but even that wont keep me hear for long….. God just kill me…. i cant take this hell anymore! someone please kill me.. i dont want to live anymore.. i just want to die.. my dad looked so peacefull…. let me be […]

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I’m not…. Supposed to be this type of person!?!

by Riley jo3
written by Riley jo3

I’m not saying I should be dead because of my depression but what I am saying is that why am I depressed… Apparantly depression runs in my family. I just happen to be the person who catches a severe case -.- … FML … anyway it wasn’t bad until the 6th grade when me and my x had a 4 yr relationship ( I know to young for love at the time but still ) we broke up and thats when I started to cut and think of suicide. And on top of all that I have anger issues when it comes to certain things… I’m paranoid […]

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did death skip me?

by sammywick
written by sammywick

in my life i did alot of things. i cut myself and i tryed to strave myself and my friends just diched me. i want to talk to someone who has a life like mine and who been threw whaat i been threw in my life. the other thing that happend in my life is a tryed to kill myselff i no some people say not to do it you will go to hell and stuff but i just dont beilve that kinda stuff i mean if i kill myself i just die thats it…talk to me if you have the same way i think;) […]

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i;ve had enough

by lost419
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i am a 40yr old woman and i have had P.T.S.D for 5yrs.4yrs ago i jumped off a cliff to kill myself but landed on a ledge 100 foot down and survived.ever since then i have regretted not dying that night.i have been in and out of psychiatric hospital and have a whole load of mental health professionals,housing support,alcohol support and work support and of course friends and family supporting me on a daily basis yet i still cant manage to feel any better.i gave up drinking 162 days ago and i assumed i would feel better but i dont.i am on the brink of […]

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Suicide rantings

by LongDropBelle
written by LongDropBelle

This is my first time here, I have been suicidal for…most of my life, when I was 7 i tried to stab myself.  I have tried many times since then, and as I am in life a complete failiure.  No doctors have helped me, but then I don’t consider myself to have ‘Mental Health’ issues, I just don’t like life. Just like some folk don’t like tomatoes.  I have tried and tried and like everything else I have failed.  I didn’t have a great child hood, I have had two mentally abusive relationships, and the last one has turned me to ice.  I am now […]

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a glimpse of hope

by apfriedm
written by apfriedm

I have just recently found this website. I navigated around on it a little and decided to make an account. For now I don’t want to share my full story but maybe one that will help bring at least a little hope to some people out there.

Ever since I was younger I had depression issues. I remember the times where the worst when I was probably in 8th or 9th grade. It got to the point where I would play games with myself, I convinced myself that no one cared about me and therefor my existence was pointless. I would go to school and actually […]

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why?

by xXBloodyRoseXx
written by xXBloodyRoseXx

Where was God when I needed a friend? And where was God now that im coming to an end? Where was God when I lost my mind? Where was God Now that im wanting to die? Memories consume me it feels like there opening the wound’s that leave scars on me. This pain is picking me apart again. You all assume I’m safe here in my room and things will get better. but your wrong. The pain is trying to start again.I don’t know what’s worth fighting for or why I always have to scream.I don’t know how I got this way. I know it’s not alright. After school i run […]

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the end is near..

by xXBloodyRoseXx
written by xXBloodyRoseXx

My father has been sent back into the hospital about a week ago.. he could catch his breath at all. The day after he went into the hospital, his Dr called my mom and told us that we should go to the hospital and see him.. he said he wasnt doing to good. So we went. At first i didnt want to go. I didnt wanna see him like that. But i thought that this could be the last time i see my daddy.

So i went. And me and my mom stayed at the hospital for abotu 4 hours. It was tiering and depressing.. Each […]

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