Dude, please don’t look at me right now. I don’t want to hear what you have to say. Sure, I tell you everything that happens, but you always have to witness it here too. It’s not just me being the ass here. You see him right?

Boy– I fucking get it, I’m a complete *****. And don’t you fucking basically point the finger at my friend, she’s sitting RIGHT HERE. >_> I change around my friends, get over it, if you can’t handle it–  get the fuck out of this house. Oh wait, you live here and depend on my father even though you’re a 26 […]

So I think I want to start writing poetry. Seems kinda gay though. But I think it will help me express how I’ve been feeling. I really have no clue how write it so if u kno how please comment.. But yeah, the feeling toward putten off have gotten kinda worse. It don’t matter though I guess,right! Ha. Ohwell. We all have to die sometime, just sometimes suicide is the best way…. Please comment if u have any tips on writing poetry.

My friend knew that i want to kill myself.And i know he wants to do the same. He made me promise to not kill myself which my stupid self agree too. Today we were talking about birthdays and junk. Then i told him and all the other people who was there;” I want to be like William Shakespeare. Die on my birthday.” One of them laugh thinking it was some kind of joke when i was being serious then i came out and said.”Im thinking of ending my life on my birthday.” He yell and told me to keep my fucking promise. But i just […]

I don’t really know why I am writing except for the fact that I have contemplated suicide a few times before this moment, but I haven’t really gone through with it.  I suppose I don’t take enough pills or wash them down with the adequate amount of alcohol to get the job done, and, probably, I am scared to do it as well.  I feel that I’d be doing everybody in my family a favor if I weren’t around.  I have a 9 year-old boy whom I love dearly, though, and a 13 year-old step-son who my husband and I recently got full custody of […]

Are there those moments where you feel like crying for no reason? Or punching something with so much force you could practicially brutally damage a body part?

At this moment I feel like crying, with the help of so many thoughts and images racing through my mind.

I may be young for my age but I know my fair share of torture, yes I have it great in others eyes, but can they honestly see past my disguise, hiding what I’m truly feeling and not telling a soul?

I’ve been in so much pressure lately.

I’m moving in less than a month and we have to clean, paint, stage […]

My fingers tremble, knowing you’re planning on suicide.

My thoughts race, hoping there is something that I could say to change your mind.

My heart aches, though, we didn’t know each other.. It doesn’t matter, I care for you.

Everyone loves you on this site, and you making this choice shreds our hearts to pieces.

But not specifically knowing when you’re planning on going, is driving me mad, or the more.

I wish we could change your mind.

I wish you would stay.

I wish this wasn’t your choice.

I wish you can be ok.

Though it’s a wish, one that only you can make come true.

So, with all my love, and with all […]

My craving for suicide has never been this strong.

I’m afraid I might lose this time.

Or should I say win?

For the past six months, I’ve been having to watch a family slowly disintegrate and severely upsetting a very precious child with their nepotism and rancor. I’ve taken care of and watched over this little girl since she was a baby. She is now almost three years old, but even at that age they are affected deeply. She is a very intelligent and sweet, but devious child. However, her mother is being frivolous and completely manipulative. She wants to take away any chance of the child being with the father, who she loves to pieces and happens to be those rare fathers that care very […]

I don’t know why, but I want to take all the vidodin I have, I want to create more scars on my arms and leg.. I just want to watch the blood drip off my arms. I’m so sad right now. I’m sad and alone. I have no hope right now that things will get better for me.. But yeah..
I feel like my ex’s were right to beat me.. I wish they had killed me then and there. I wish the bruises were scarred on my skin. On my neck, arms, stomach, legs..

Hello, I will call myself C.
I am halfway to 20 years old this year. Things haven’t been going too well.

I went off to college last year. I was studying Computer Science. I got a job at the University I attended.
I had a girlfriend that I loved very much. We were together for 4 years.
She visited me when she could. Making the 2 and a half hour drive often to see and spend time with me.
Things seemed to be alright.

Somewhere down along the line my life took a few turns for the worse.
She left me of course.
I was arrested and […]

An update into my situation;

I have now checked with the Taxi company, and they are villing to deliver the gass tank for me. It fits nicely in the backtrunk of the taxi. ******** is a regularly used gass for many things, and non explosive, and thus not dangerous in any way!

Only 2-more things that i need;

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/b/b2/Gas_bottles_in_Finnish.JPG

http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2011/04/27/suicide-kits-the-91-year-old-woman-selling-instant-death-on-the-internet.html

After that’ it’s all finally OVER!!!

I feel so FANTASTIC! It took time! Took me money! Infact i wasted 200€ in the WRONG KIND of flow fittings, but it DOESENT MATTER! Because now im SO CLOSE!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL EPIC!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g89NxTTycxc

I’ve just lost the most important person in the world to me because of my depression. My boyfriend of one year broke up with me last night. One of my best friends says that he did it because he was afraid that he would lose me to suicide. He was afraid because he doesn’t know what it’s like to be at rock bottom, and therefore doesn’t understand which led to that fear. That makes sense, I guess. I’ve been doing a lot worse lately emotionally. I still haven’t cut or taken any pills in like a month though, but god, I just feel like such […]

I’ve finally hit a milestone in my journey through Life today.  I’ve been blessed with the realization that nobody truly cares what happens to me.  The rational part of me has known this for a long time, but the emotional part of me has always  resisted this notion.   As of today, however, the emotional side of me has finally been bought around to the obvious truth:  that no one really, truly cares about me…at all. 

I now find that this makes it so much easier, by leaps and bounds, to not care about myself.   I know now that when I decide to to leave this existence, […]

I’m only 16 years old. I live in a loving LDS family with 4 brothers, a lazy dog, and a couple of gerbils. My brothers and I are all very gifted in the “learning process” and have been called smart throughout our entire childhoods. When i was in 6th or 7th grade, i decided to be like Jesus, try to be perfect. In order to do that, i had to regulate my emotions. I withdrew from friends and family and observed how people were supposed to act in society. I created a “character” for me to play when out in the real world. A quiet […]

I’m addicted to it again. Every morning and night I have to do it. I tried telling my friend, Rian. I tell him everything. This time though, I know he’s sick of it. I feel bad for doing this to him, I’ve dumped it all on him. But he didn’t have to react like he did. He could have pretended to care. So now I have thick red lines all down my arm. Good thing it’s winter, or I would have to take my jumper off. And the guy I like…  well, nothing yet. We had a strong eye contact, but that’s about it. I […]

This is my first post on this board, but i’ve been reading peoples posts for a few months now.  I have been depressed, with thoughts of suicide, since i was about 12 years old.  I am a 19 year old male.  For the same period of time, i have suffered from crippling insomnia brought on by an inability to shut off my thoughts at night.  Most of these thoughts are about death, and I have reached a decent conclusion on what i find life and death to be.  Following are some of my thoughts.  Wondering if anyone else feels the same way.  Also, this is […]

Let’s face it: the real-world, especially one invented by normal mainstream society, can be boring dull as hell.
I often feel like I don’t belong here in this real world, and probably belong to other planet/universe/dimension.. already I’ve tried to find & browse for some clues that there are so much more mysteries & even magical things outside of our dull, limited earthly-sensed physical body called human.
and maybe I’ll migrate there, perhaps even sooner.
Although I still love the Earth (as a planet),
and admittedly even some Good citizens of it, ie: the warm, light-hearted, the intellectual, the ‘philosopher’ kind who can exchange conversations […]

Seems like every day when you take 2 steps forward you get pushed back 4. Like a battle that can’t ever be won.
I look at my life and what I see is dead end, go nowhere same old crap.
-I’m 200 lBs overweight.
-My job seems Like every day could be the last.
-My fiancé lost her job again
-I’m 44 and my back is so bad I can hardly walk
-In middle of divorce that is a mess.
-I take Gabapentin for my leg and I’ve been addicted to it for 15 years.
-I owe the whole world $$ and am filing bankruptcy.

About 2 weeks ago. I just don’t know what to do anymore…I can’t fucking stand it..every fiber of my body is screaming every second of every day. I’m only 23 but my daughter was about a year old and I met her mom way before that, years ago..money is so tight at the moment..I can’t afford any method of suicide that will be even moderately humane. I won’t mention what I’ve chosen since the mods for some reason decide this board has to be “method free”..even though people talk about it every day…anyways..jesus…I wouldn’t wish this kind of pain on my worst enemy.

hey folks, am 23yrs old male. i dont like to be social.. coz i hate this sick society..i had many bad experience, i dnt talk with anyone i sit in my dark room…waiting for the right time.. im looking for buddy, if anyone interested plz mail me.. s.tck40@yahoo.com