Hi, I’ve never posted anything like this before, but the way I can relate to some posts is so uncanny that I thought I’d share a bit of my story. Maybe someone has advice? Suicide is becoming more plausible to me than ever, which scares and saddens the rational part of myself because my death would hurt my family. Still, I have been emotionally isolating myself from them for some time now, I hardly understand why they would still love me other than the fact that we’ve shared a history together, and this makes me think that they could get over my death. I don’t […]
I dont usually join forums online just because they are for people who have nothing else to do than to ***** about life and hair and other issues. Yet here I am. And Im gonna *****. And I have a very simple comment to make in regards to the whole suicide business. IF SOMEONE WANTS TO END IT THEN HE SHOULD. Why is everyone bringing in morals and god and lights at the end of the tunnel and other bs.. everyone has the right to do whatever he she wants, he just has to accept the concequences. A long time ago I was going to […]
I’m a 32 years bachelor working as an executive in a local firm. I had a traumatic childhood. My parents always had physical fight and argue with one another. These traumatic events had cause tremendous effects in my mental health. I had several nervous breakdown. Nowadays, I find it difficult to get into any relationship. I hated the idea of having my own family. I do not want to have similar arguments like my parents did. Those childhood memories still haunts me today. At times, I felt I’m emulating my parents abusive ways. I’m becoming more aggressive verbally and physically. I felt hopeless and useless […]
I think I’m drunk enough to do it. I just can’t take it anymore. Will someone please help me? I want to die so bad, but I don’t want to die. I’ve been reading this site for a while, but this is my first post. Nobody will take me seriously, I have no one to talk to.
I am only 12 but i have bad grades and every body is mad at me and i just wanna end it all. 🙁
everyone please stop…i wish i could read everything everyone writes but i honestly cant i dont have it in me to sit and read long message as much as i wish i could, as you can see yes i do wanna be gone i do wanna die but the 1 thing is i dont want anyone to feel the way i feel and i dont want anyone to do it, so please stop im here i could never live wit knowing anyone did that and never wrote to me so please contact me if u need me i’d love to hear from you!!!! please!
e-mail-mkafan12@yahoo.com
First I am not sitting here with a rope around my neck or gun in my hand BUT I do want to kill myself all of the same. I am just too cowardly to do it yet.  A little background. I am 45 year old man with all of the trappings of reasonable success. I have a wife and two daughters. I love my daughters but not the wife. I have been married for over 22 years and double I ever loved my wife for more then a year or so spread out over that time but mostly in the begining only and only sort […]
Why can’t I snap out of this? I’ve never had any real obstacles in my life except for myself. Without going into specifics: I’m young, I’m educated (finishing grad school), supportive family, etc. I guess when it comes down to it, I just really hate myself. I hate the way I look (most of the time–there are days, few and far between, that I feel happy for no reason, just so hopeful, and on those days I might think I look okay until the next day and then I won’t). I spend the day dreading everything: running into people I know, going to classes, teaching […]
Over the past couple months, it seems I just can’t go one day without thinking about ending it. I suppose there’s some hope in the fact that I want it to be quick. Most methods leave too much of a margin for just fucking my life over even worse. I can’t think of an impaired life. For example, if I hang myself and only succeed in depriving my brain long enough to retard myself. Wouldn’t that beat all?
Its not as if I feel like this all the time. I can be happy. But it always comes back to something that just makes me say “Hey. […]
the thought of death has been on my mind lately. as much as i want it to go away it never leaves..since i was a kid… things happened the way it shouldn’t..one you would never imagine your child going through it…since then on..people go in n out of my life..using and taking advantage of me left and right…how can any human being do something like that to someone when you give everything to them..whatever they wanted it was given right then n there…i let go of all those memories and tried to clean my mind as i started this new relationship…she was everything i could […]
I am thinking more drastically this time. I failed twice two years ago because I was too impulsive.
The guilt is the thing that is the worst for me. I feel so guilty for wishing for the pain to be over. so guilty for not being a better daughter, a better friend, a better sister. So guilty for not being able to make my mom’s life better. Im a waste of space. A waste of time. A waste of a being. When your so young and you start to write about death, it seems like it dooesnt matter. the m0ment will pass. But it goes on until im almost 18 and watching my clock tick down until it dies. Its so shelfish to […]
hi i to have suffering from severe depression since I was 25 years old all so i have a lerrnning and spelling disabily and naver can sleep . I will be 48 this year im planing on commit suicide some time this year as I have wanted to this for over 10 years all be so glad when my life is over and i now longer have to suffer sorry this is so long how can i do it i want my life to be over
I dont even know where to begin, all i wanna say is that im freaking out i dont know what to do anymore i just want to be dead but what i know that will kill me i cant get right now, so im stuck, stuck by myself where nobody understands, some people think they get it but they really dont i just cant take no more someone please write to me because if anyone knows how you feel and understands, its me and im here, because i dont want anyone!!!!!! to feel what i feel, feel alone and hurt and depressed and all that […]
i decided to go out last night..
everytime i decide to go out with the lads , i realize what kind of a pathetic excuse i am for a man ..
Im the guy who hugs the wall the entire night u kno? Im too fucking nervous to talk to anyone , to girls especially.. im the fella that is not looking for one nite stands , im the kind of guy that wants true love , that wants some1 to hold , and to be held, someone to protect.. i envy all of you people who write that my boyfriend or girlfriend is always there for […]
I will be 38 this year. It appears to be that there is nothing to look forward to except death. I’m suffocating from the loneliness. I don’t have the money to improve my appearance to what men want. I’m black and ugly, and stupid and nothing will ever change that. I’m getting to the end of retaining new information without losing something else. I hate being born to die. I hate that I place my self worth in the hands of others.Why do I let the marketers get to me? For now I’m chicken shit but one day I think I’ll be able to get […]
Im a 22 year old Marine looking for ways to make a suicide look like an accident. The reason behind why it has to be an accident is so my sister and her kids would be able to receive my life insurance. I’ve been to Iraq and Afghanastan and have been call upon, and have took multiple lifes. When it comes to my own life however I just can’t seem to do it. I’ve thought about a drug overdose but I don’t know if that would work because I’m in the military. There might be some kind of void in the insurance if that was the case. My other […]
i have always known that i do not belong among the living. i dont hate the world, and the world doesn’t hate me. Its the people in it that will eventually force my hand to cut deeper than ever before.
And i give up. I can’t watch all of the sorrow i create around me. I have ruined so much. I’ve used up my attempts at having a good life, being a good person. I go through the work week so numb and on the weekends i sit alone, numb, in bed. I drink till i fall asleep. and then do it again. i can’t go on with this garbage. and so i deserve death. no more pain for those around me. no more wasted time and others money. Ill live alone and die alone. goodnight.
Please someone read this and give me feedback
my name is Ciara and i am 19 yrs old, Ever since i can remember back to when i was 5yrs old my life has been one snowball effect that just keeps growing larger as the years go by. i was sexually molested by two of my cousins when i was between the age 7 and 9. i never spoke up because i thought it was okay in the sense this was the way my family showed they loved me. in a real fucked up way i allowed it because better to be negatively loved than not to be […]