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On my 22nd birthday I made a promise to myself, I said that this was it, I refused to have another birthday as somebody else.
Fast forward a few months I went back to the way things had always been and days started to blur into each other and I even forgot my own age.
22 years of a life I desperately thought I needed to forget when in reality I just needed to let go.
But it’s finally happening, I won’t give up this time.
I can not.
I am done letting fear dictate my future.
Letting it hold me back from a real life, a chance of happiness.
No more […]
Which type of pain do you withstand better: physical or emotional?
i want to stop thinking.
my opinions, my thoughts, they disgust me more than anything in life. i know that i didnt say anything wrong, but i can’t stand my opinions, my thoughts, the way i speak. i’m pressing the unsend button but internet won’t let it go back. it was just a simple “bro what thats crazy”but i hate the sentence, i hate how its written by me, i shouldnt have sent it, i shouldnt have published this post either, i forgot to use ‘ in shouldnt, holy fuck i can’t stand the way i do things. if i were anyone else i would come […]
i have 2 friends. one i dont talk to anymore but i will never forget. he moved away when we were in school together. but thats aside the point. my bf at the time had betrayed me. he told our friends about my depression. i didnt want to here it. i didnt want to be there. so i walked away. my friend came running after me. i knew he was there but i didnt turn around. i didnt want to hear it. he grabbed me by the shoulder and spun me around. he hugged me and then help me at arms reach with his hands […]
This is a historical photo of a woman who jumped to her death from a tall building onto the roof of a limousine.
It’s funny how everything about it is contrary to what one would expect –
it’s the scene of a suicide, and it’s beautiful.
She looks so elegant, grasping at her pearl necklace, and the limo roof looks voluptuous, like it’s billowing around her. One almost wouldn’t imagine she was just smashed to death on it.
Then there’s the morbid face of a man in the distance trying to catch a glimpse of her corpse, luxuriously sprawled on the gleaming death bed.
He is me, […]
I just have a lot of anger issues, The Medication does greatly help I take Depakote i also take lexapro and some other one and lorazapam, I just want to fuck up some people, But i already been to jail a few times and it aint worth it there trash , there my past , and im so so so so above them …………………………….. gotta stay focused
Im just filthy depressed man, im a 28 year old decent looking girl from california. I turn 29 in Novemeber. Theres a lot to my background story BUt I have been taking Anti=psychotic meds and depression meds for about a year and a half now ,I have took them when I was younger I also currently receive disability insurance with the state Many problems Right I now I live with fam ,I have three duis I just got out of jail in Feb, Many things ill eventually share more later but had to spill this now !
“However mean your life is, meet it and live it; do not shun it and call it hard names. It is not so bad as you are. It looks poorest when you are richest. The fault-finder will find faults even in paradise. Love your life, poor as it is. You may perhaps have some pleasant, thrilling, glorious hours, even in a poorhouse. The setting sun is reflected from the windows of the almshouse as brightly as from the rich man’s abode; the snow melts before its door as early in the spring. I do not see but a quiet mind may live as contentedly there, […]
sucked up and dry ,enough
Four fucking attempts in three fucking years. That was something!! Now what? The old me is just a pathetic alcoholic, with zero real attempts in ten years, wishing to eventually get sick and die. I truly hate myself.
getting high and drinking coffee liquor (which tastes amazing with chocolate milk). and feeling hated because of it. which just makes me feel worse and want to drink more. its an awesome cycle of fuck it.
Id say Im sorry but I dont know what it mean 🙁
Throughout our lives people come and people go.
Some we can do well without, others we will miss.
But one person remains with me no matter what that I wish would just go the hell away.
Me.
I tried to kill myself I got really drunk and I jumped of 58 feet cliff in Niagara Falls and i survived people around me cared for a day or two and they just forgot about me they abandon me my father told me I wish you died and didn’t survive my ex didn’t even care my friends are scared of me they called me a psycho they don’t even want to visit me and they cut me off I’ve been in the hospital for 45 days and I’m still there no one comes to visit me no one talks to me I have […]
Going to college has always been my dream but after 1 year I can’t afford it and I refuse to work my ass off in a minimum wage slavery job until the day I die. There is absolutely no happiness in this world without a degree and without the money that comes with it, and I’ll be damned if I’m going to serve stuck up pricks burgers for the rest of my life I REFUSE!
The financial aid office offers no help to independent students and my drunk deadbeat dad cannot cosign a single loan for me, and I have no biological mother in the […]
I still remember the reason why you become couple with your girlfriend
Its because she is the one who told you first that she likes you
Because she is brave enough
And she is the one who help you forget about me
But when you walk your days with her you realize that you cant forget me
You guess that she dump you because you never there for her
You never search her or ask her day
She always reach you first
Yes she didnt say the reason why she dump you
Are you going to repeat your fault again
I think you will
And […]
I already give you chance
2 times
But you ignore me
2 times
Dont blame me if you lose me
Dont regret your choice
Im not going to back to you
Im going to go far away
Far faar away
Dont hold me back
Dont tell me you love me
Cause love is not like this
Or at least this is not the love I want
I think
Maybe you are the one
But even if its true
This is not the future i want
You only give more pain and loneliness to my heart
I dont want to suffer more because of you
Its enough for me
I use to like it here. It was a safe haven filled with encouragement. Everyone helping another out when they are down. Now….its filled with hatred. Telling others it’s better off to keep things to themselves and death is so much better. Even going as far as actually helping them die. This isn’t the site it use to be.
I can’t tell if my life is falling apart, or if it’s falling into place.