You never talk to me anymore. Yet, you still talk to everyone else. Everytime I see that you’re online, I send you a chat message asking you to please talk to me again. You reply to me with silence, or you just go offline. You dont know what you’re doing to me when you dont say anything back to me. I dont know what happened between us, we went from being the best of friends to complete strangers. I feel I am the only one trying to rebuild what use to be our friendship, but you stop me everytime I try. You never listen to me. […]
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I feel like SHIT today. I could berely get out of bed. And today is supposed to be ”family day”. Great! I don’t wana go anywhere or do anything or see anyone. I just want to be aloneee. The cuts that I did a few weeks back are now scars. But I cut pretty bad so the scars are very noticable, even with my newer cuts. But I like them. They remind me. And in some way, make me feel a bit better. But they also make me wana cut more, and make more just like that. I make sure I pick the scabs so […]
Make sure you have read My Story.. Before reading this.
Back when she still talked to me, but after we stopped being “brother & sister”, I went into a desperate attempt to get her to be my sister again. She told me no. So I asked her why and she said that it was too stressful that I hurt her too much. So the reason that she did everything else was becuz of what I did to her. I harassed her with questions, stressed her out, and worst of all, I hurt her. I never meant to do any of that to her. I deserve everything […]
Anyone who said that today, after what’s been happening lately in the world, needs to be shot in his/her head.
This is exactly why there’s so many society problems nowadays, and so many stressed, depressed and even suicidal people on the left and right everywhere.
This is also why society nowadays is so in a mess, education fails, but wars thrive on.
Fuck it.
Deep down inside we should know that we’ve been brainwashed a lot and a NEW theory needs to be rewritten if humanity wants to survive for BETTER future.
Deep down inside each and every one of us I’m sure know that human’s […]
[Natalie] Anything you wish to say at this very special moment?
LIAR. FAILURE. FAT. WHORE. USELESS DROPOUT SHIT. TOXIC PREGNANT CUTSLUT. JERKOUT TRUCK WOMAN WITH A MANUFACTURED EGO. HOPELESS AT LOVE. WORSE AT LIFE. MENTAL WASTEOUT COCKEATER. DETATCHED MUTE GIRL. SEMI AWAKE REJECT. RSA ENCODED GOVERNMENT SECRET. NAUGHTY NAUGHTY FINGER FUCKIN HORNY LITTLE NAUGHTY PANTY CAM GIRL.
[bleach the girl][a bleach bottle on an empty cabinet]
[comatose[corrode[Clorox[low
Imgonnatearyouapart[imintearsasireadthis]
peroxide. mechanical surveillance culture. misery butterfly. studio meds.
i think youre conceited[and i dont believe you do care]
next to you [they [sic] love you] in the mirror
in the bar. then outside. i fell into the trap. i am a child in playboy bunny […]
Im a 13 year girl. I live in Puerto Rico. I go to school. My Family: Mom, Dad, Brother(older)and my grandparents(divorced)ect… My Mission is helping other that have been through the same pain, anger, hatred, and sadness which that cause Depression or Suicide Attempts. The most important thing is to reach them out and say ”Never Give Up” because you are not alone, If you need someone to talk to, to hear you, I’ll be here. Remember ”Never Give Up”
im 14 and i tried slitting my wrists but it didnt work……..i even took a REALLY hot bath before i did and…well……yea didnt work. my moms a ***** she calls me names all the time and hits me, my dad raped me when i was 5 then left i have litterally no friends everyone calls me “sooty suicide” because of my large scars on my wrists, i just wanna die so i dont have to dream of all the horror and shitty-ass memories i had. my boyfriend of 3 months cheated on me, with my best friend…. im uglier than the child of rosie o’donnel […]
for those who want to commit suicide, what you really need is perhaps just be more open-mind & keep searching
by niki
written by niki
And maybe *that* is your ‘Purpose’ for your existence, for YOU to ‘feel’ all these ‘sensitive’ things. to USE it, to HARNESS it, and to connect with similar, like-minded souls (you will find! as already proven in this website, of how you can seemingly relate with each other here.)
Also, somebody said it right here that sometimes all you really deeply need is just this piece of information(s),..that might open your mind, and change your perspective when viewing this earthly Life (internet is great. use it).
I will share some of my ‘findings’ that I’ve found during my life-journey, and really wish/hope it could perhaps provide […]
I stumbled upon this site one night, and I have been lurking for months. I feel it’s time to share my story – to try and talk and relate to someone. I’m sixteen years old, and these feelings ARE real. I’m not your ‘average’ teenager. I have been feeling depressed and suicidal for many months now and it’s getting to the point where I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve had a good upbringing – I go to school, have a job, money, a car etc. Everything a teenager could want right? But at the end of the day it is all meaningless, it […]
My whole life has been one traumatic event after another. Most of my young childhood memories are of my mother beating on my older brother and sister. When my older sister got married and moved out of the house my mother then turned her aggression towards me. It wasnt so bad as long as i stayed out of her sight. So that is what i did. We moved to texas when I was 12. The first couple of months mother was oddly pleasant. It felt like things may be getting better. Guess again! It was just the calm before the storm. Mother on top of […]
I am a 21 year old male college student. At age 16 I was very depressed and thought suicide was a way out. After some counseling and some time, I was “better.” Then I went to college and met the woman of my dreams. Quite literally, I had this image of the perfect woman and she fit perfectly. It took a lot of effort but I eventually ended up dating her. This was the happiest I had ever been in my entire life. Don’t think me so naive, I have dated women before, but this time it felt RIGHT.
She met me when I had no […]
I am A 16 year’s old boy I have been suicidal for almost 2 years now. I am taking depression pills but that isn’t really doing anything to help me. I became depressed because my best friend was killed 2 days after Christmas by a drunk driver who had several DUI. After his death everyday after school I just came straight home came in my room and thought about way I could commit suicide. I didn’t want to stab nor cut myself because of the pain I just wish i had A gun so it could be fast and painless. I’m one of those kid’s who […]
so. this is my second time posting something here.
i had a panic attack last night. and drove 30 minutes away to my family’s cottage where i then spent the night. the whole way there i was driving at at least 85 mph. there were a few times where i actually almost went off the road. and i dont think i cared very much.
my best friend was supposed to come visit me at college tomorrow. but we got into an argument because i said some stupid things. and now he isnt coming. and i’m extremely upset by this.
we got into an argument about a month ago. […]
To start off, i’ve had a history of mental disorders and depression issues for countless years of my life, but never thought of committing suicide. My grandmother committed suicide before i was born, and i saw how it effected my mother, and my grandfather, and never ever wanted to do that to someone else. No matter how bad it got, i stuck in there.
On December 7, 2007, My best friend committed suicide. I wasn’t aware of any deep trauma or depression in her, so of course, it came as a total shock. I can still remember where i was, what i was doing, and […]
Hey guys, been off this site for awhile, i was actually pretty proud of myself, been over 2 months since i have self hurt, or contemplated suicide. that was quickly overturned a few days ago, when i learned i was going to a school, a school that contains a girl that used and abused me. she was supposed to be my best friend, and be there for me, i hadn’t had friends in so long, or really ever for that matter, and she was there for me, hung out with me, and made me feel good. but in all this joy, there were tiny red flags that […]
Im 13 years old and ive been thinking about suicide for a while now .. my grandad passed away in april and i was a huge fan of michael jackson who died at the end of june .. i keep crying at the tragic things that have happend to me .. i want to end my life so i can rest forever instead of my friends mocking me and saying that im obsessed with michael jackson .. i cant even talk to my best friend about my suicide attempt because shel just get mad and think im being silly .. ive always wanted a child […]
It’s been a while since i’ve been here….i wonder if that’s a good thing or not. Still, im glad there’s some place i can vent all of this.
Really, i don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want there to be a name for this feeling…Im not sure what i should do next.
I still cut. I don’t know why they just set it aside….im trying to ask for help, really i am. It took a lot for me to take that step and ask, but all they did is ignore it and act like it doesnt matter if i disappeared from the face of the planet. […]
I don’t know where to start. All i know is at 29 i should be further in my life than this. I’ve had SEVERE anxiety issues since i was in elementary school. I had to quit school and get my GED because of it. I went to cosmetology school and didn’t take my test because i was too nervous and was scared i was going to make an a** out of myself. Anyway, my dad who has cancer pays my rent. They denied me for food stamps so i have no food and no way to pay my bills. I’ve tried to work but because […]
i dont really know why i’m doing this. i really want someone to help me i guess. i’m turning to everyone i know and theyre just leaving me. this is the only way i can talk to someone. and i realize that most of the stuff that has happened to me is not as severe as some other people. but it still hurts. and i want someone to listen. and all of this is so scattered. i’ll apologize now for the random parts. and skipping around. i just have so much to say. and i dont know how to fit it all together.
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so my best friend […]
this evening i randomly got in the worst mood ever. i became dangerously violent and angry, and i was so close to ending it. i sat up in my room for a good hour or 2 sobbing my eyes out, basically letting out 10 years of anger. between being used as a dishrag in my what used to be best friend’s life, and from being pushed down by my family. this isn’t the first time that i’ve randomly became depressed, but this is the first time it’s ever been like this. i can’t even explain to you how i felt. and i can promise you […]