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can i let myself go??

by 4beyondhelp 3/7/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

ok before anyone thinks I’m trying to off myself again, I mean let myself not get stuff done.

I have exams in 3 days and have done quite literally nothing to even begin preparing for them. I need to study and get organized in order to be get the grades I need. I didn’t do anything yesterday after I tried to kill myself but it didn’t work (I’m physically fine just a little inconvenienced) and I didn’t do anything after classes today either. Thinking about how much I need to do and how I have done nothing is reinforcing all the reasons I want to off […]

3/7/2016 1 comment

I’m really really scared

by such catcat 3/7/2016

written by such catcat

My step dad is drunk, he keeps yelling at my mom and saying how much he hates me. I was in the basement and he started yelling at me and calling me an asshole. My mom tried to get him to stop but then he attacked her and he grabbed by neck and pushed me against the wall. He’s never done this before, he keeps saying he’s getting a divorce and that it’s half my fault. I really don’t want him to hurt my mom or my sister.

3/7/2016 27 comments

by Drowning 3/7/2016

written by Drowning

Isit wrong to say that iv had enough of living ? I feel iv done enough and seen enough life sucks now how the hell isit going to be better the olderI get ? even as I child I didn’t want to live a long life Im kind of greatful I made it to 26 let alone 62 that means iv lived two life times in my eyes thought my time would come when I was 18 I wanted to die then and I still do now a decade later I’m still here by gods will I’ll live up to 99 I bet no physical […]

3/7/2016 2 comments

The addiction

by SkareKrow 3/5/2016

written by SkareKrow

Suicide is an addiction. Once you’ve done it. It is always in the back of your mind. Everyday it is another option you can put on a to do list. As if you quit smoking and crave it everyday but you just don’t fire one up even if you desire it so much.

3/5/2016 8 comments

For everyone that feels their life is done..

by BloodShallShed 3/3/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This is one of my favorite songs to listen to when I’m down. I hope that you all like it. Stay safe everyone.

-BloodShallShed

3/3/2016 5 comments

Help Myself.

by GTSuicide_6 3/2/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

I wrote a previous post about me finally having the opportunity to see a psychologist. I also mentioned how I am going to end it all in a month.

Please hear me out:

I want the answers. I want to hear it from a real psychologist, the things I have. I want to know if there’s something else. I want to know if I have OCD or if its something else that makes me react at times. I want to hear the doctor confirm that, yes, I do have depression. Yes, I do have something. Yes, all my self-diagnosing was correct. I want to hear that I […]

3/2/2016 10 comments

A poem

by Hampshire_Girl 3/2/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

This is attributed to Elizabeth I –

I grieve and dare not show my discontent;
I love, but am forced to hate;
I do, yet dare not say I ever meant;
I seem stark mute, yet inwardly do prate.
I am and not, I freeze yet am burned;
Since from myself my other self I turned.

My care is like my shadow in the sun;
Follows me flying, flees when I pursue it;
Stands and lies by me, does what I have done.
His too familiar care does make me rue it.
No means to rid him from my breast,
Till by the end of things […]

3/2/2016 1 comment

Protected: It’s official.

by whiskered-fish 2/28/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

2/28/2016 46 comments

I’m done.

by canadiansunset 2/27/2016

written by canadiansunset

I’ll start this post by telling you my story. I’m 19 years old and I have been depressed my whole life. I’ve always felt like I don’t belong here and I’ve wanted to kill myself ever since I can remember even though I didn’t have a good enough reason. Nevertheless, I wasn’t strong enough and I never got the courage I needed to do it mainly because I didn’t want to hurt my family especially my mom. Nonetheless, ever since this year started I feel I can’t take it anymore. I had to drop university which I loved and finally was making friends (which got […]

2/27/2016 2 comments

I need something to believe in again. one thing, something

by tiredthoughts 2/27/2016

written by tiredthoughts

Can i stop talking. My words are useless. I am numb and cant love even if i wanted to or when i done before

2/27/2016 12 comments

Option fucking 2

by NiDDA 2/25/2016

written by NiDDA

I made a death cocktail so strong (if crushing a total amount of 525 pills into strawberry juice counts strong – most bitter juice that I have ever drunk) that I blacked out when I was done with the half of it. It was on Saturday night on the 13th of February. My mom woke me up on Monday and insisted me to go to a mental hospital, and I did. I was in a ward which had cameras in every corner, every room. We were allowed to smoke only 3 times a day, and this was the worst for me. I fucking love smoking, […]

2/25/2016 7 comments

by Drowning 2/25/2016

written by Drowning

Was meant to go college today set my alarm but when it was time to get up I couldn’t get up iv had enough of this shit everyday waking up tired everyday no motivation I could easily sleep 12 hours I don’t even like college ok it gets me out the house and I’m almost done well I think I’m planning on another attempted once I finish college I don’t even no what to do with myself my life has fell apart I’m rock bottom I can’t live like this anymore

2/25/2016 1 comment

randomness

by Kaylee_Bush 2/19/2016

written by Kaylee_Bush

as anyone ever had there earphones go out to where they can only hear out of one side? omg mine have done so, and I beyond highly annoyed at there hour. I mean I live in the UK for blokes sake, am I suppose to run down to my local Wal mart and pick up a new pair:? I spent 30 pounds on these…I am so not happy right now.

2/19/2016 8 comments

Im falling apart

by 2717_ 2/18/2016

written by 2717_

lately ive been crying and i hate myself so much, ive done horrible things to myself im seriously thinking about suicide with some pils. im fat af and ugly and all the bad things that someone could ever imagine. IM starting to vomit after every meal, im losing my mind lately, and no one notice.

2/18/2016 4 comments

Hey folks, it’s everybody’s favorite depressed, semi suicidal dickhead

by thelost 2/17/2016

written by thelost

I’ve not been the greatest lately, and I haven’t paid nearly enough attention to all you wonderful people on this site. I don’t recognize half of your names, makes me feel old. Nonetheless, this site is for the suicidal, and I guess I can be counted among their number. I want to die, hell, not a day goes by that I don’t want to stick a gun in my mouth and paint the walls around me red. Thing is, I can’t do that. There are people out there that would die if I committed suicide, and I can’t let that happen. I don’t give a […]

2/17/2016 5 comments

Self-Hate and Lovely Death

by Lorelei X 2/9/2016

written by Lorelei X

I want to overdose and die

I want death

So badly

I almost crave it.

How do I stop these thoughts? All I seem to think about is death. Suicide. Being pain free. Am I wrong for that? Am I being selfish? Don’t I have a say in my life? Yes… I am being selfish. And, yes, I am wrong.

Where has the time gone? I’m losing track of everything and I can’t seem to grip onto something and stay focused and keep moving with life. I feel so stuck and out of place and away from myself, from the world, from reality. I’m so lost and angry and horribly sad and I […]

2/9/2016 6 comments

A life changing experience

by Lsari 2/5/2016

written by Lsari

So it has been a while since I last made a post on this site. Some of you may know that I was in a severely fucked up state. I came very close to trying to kill myself again but being on the edge of the abyss allowed me to do something I wouldn’t of been able to do: Lie with all I had.

Some of you may be confused by my last statement, let me try elaborate. I had completed my degree in IT, majoring in Software Development, over a year ago but in my final year of uni I suffered a mental breakdown and barely […]

2/5/2016 7 comments

Despite all of my moping, I did manage to get something done today.

by whiskered-fish 2/3/2016

written by whiskered-fish

Nothing big. But I thought it was kind of nice and serene, and wanted to share it. Maybe somebody will get something positive out of it.

Edit: Realized that is was very small. So here it is zoomed it, if that helps.

2/3/2016 13 comments

Patterns

by DaylightFades 2/1/2016

written by DaylightFades

I feel terrible for pushing him away; for the way I push and shove and keep him at a distance.

I’ve done this dozens of times. He won’t let me do it to him, he says. I laugh because they all say that.

I self-destruct. I don’t know what to do with my pain, and so I turn it back on myself. I make them leave, then I tell myself I deserved it, that it was bound to happen.

It’s been three months. Three months of calling me beautiful, inside and out. From stopping my wounds from bleeding out with his bare hands. Telling me he can handle […]

2/1/2016 2 comments

I Don’t Want To Be Alone Again

by GerbzBaby 1/28/2016

written by GerbzBaby

It’s my senior year and I’m afraid of losing touch with my friends… That’s all I can think about and it scares me. I don’t want to let them go like some of my old friends. Please, how do I keep updated and in touch with them when I’m done with high school?

1/28/2016 3 comments

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