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for fucks sake…

by Alan Ominous
written by Alan Ominous

So yesterday, I was pretty stoked. Got some good shit planned for today. Got some cool future shit unrolling. It’s cool

Wake up, 1st indication everything’s going to hell: the sun is shining. Fuck!

Then it happens. The succubus calls…. Double Fuck!
I need to quit my job so I can be home for her.
I don’t even bother trying to explain again why that’s beyond stupid.
She doesn’t say it sarcastically, she’s stone faced dead serious demanding.
Cue the barge of insults, I’m not a man, I’m not a dad, I’m not a husband… OK? So why are you calling?
Then some more demanding, make it […]

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The only reason I ever had to live

by disgusting
written by disgusting

My cats….

10Cats

Let me tell their stories…
Top row:
1. Heidi – she was my grandma’s cat, which made me want to get a cat. She passed away a good long time before any of mine did.
2. Salem – my first baby. 3/1/98-11/5/11. She passed away from FIP.
-skipping ahead for a reason-
5. Gypsy – my 4th baby. 7/25/03-3/3/12. She passed away after eating a cat toy, having surgery to remove it, and then getting a blood infection. She was only […]

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f-ing luv…

by claritee
written by claritee

I was depressed before I fell in love. I have to remind myself of that so I don’t think that I am even more crazy to want to kill myself because I lost the person that I love. I. was. depressed. before. I. fell. in. love. I had suicidal thoughts before I met him. I have been anxious and depressed for a very long time. Probably since childhood.

It’s not like I’ve never been in love before. But this time, I thought he was last one I would ever have. We match. He understands me. But I didn’t give him what he wanted. […]

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I f*%ked up so bad

by headupunderdarkcloud
written by headupunderdarkcloud

Not looking for sympathy here, what I did is what I did. I should have just been there for her as a friend, shouldn’t have given into her subtle advances, taking it to the next stage I knew I’d surely regret. I should have recognized her vulnerability and kept respectable distance with compassion, but I didn’t..

I allowed the night to progress, one beer, 2 beer, 3 beer, talking closer and closer at the arcade bar, her warming up to my unfurling pinball skills, as laughable as that may seem, close contact is close contact.
Suddenly the air is charged. The familiarity of our past, the […]

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Goodbye :)

by Costy
written by Costy

Hey guys, I want to erase everything that made me depressed and start a new life. This site makes me depressed and stuff. I will erase everything and try to live life no matter what. I wish you all the best and hope that many of you will get rid of their demons and try to live life.

Farewell,

Costy

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Reparations

by Resentment
written by Resentment

I didnt recieve any hope from these doctor visits, though I know have Cymbalta, so there’s that.

I’ve decided on a way to go. I know I’m not allowed to share. What I’m stuck on is the note, or if I need one. I’ll think on it on my way to work, or in the waiting room, and it eats at me like another inevitable arguement- but of course, this time there wouldnt be.
So why leave a note? They should know of what plagues me if they listened, and if they haven’t, fine. What of the other reparations.

Can I just have everything monetized, perhaps give […]

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suicide note

by dhamrait
written by dhamrait

i am fed up with my life. i loose everything in my lyf, i lost my 1st love he dumps me after that i lost my 2nd love u can say 4 years relationship break up. he dump me very badly cant tell u everything, but my 2nd love is my real love. i am tottaly break. and my brother left me. i am doing mca. but can’nt concentrate on my studies due to this i have lots of supplies. and now i lose my job. my mom alwyz teasing me because i am not inteligent and also that because i have bf, not bf he […]

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Random Sadness

by filmg1rl
written by filmg1rl

More and more these days I’m overwhelmed by just an omnipresent sadness that coats everything.  Even my stock answers to “how are you doing?” can’t even mask my intense sadness as people realize I really mean the opposite of what I’m saying.  Most times during the day I’ll just find myself uncontrollably tearing up.  I’m not upset or distraught, more just a resigned moroseness that in itself is defeatist and depressing.

Even my daughter comes and hugs me several times a day just to remind me how much she loves me because she can sense my complete lack of joy.

I don’t know how much longer I […]

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All By Myself.

by canadiansunset
written by canadiansunset

Today I feel lonely and depressed. I woke up and I don’t even know why I’m still here. I overthink about what happened and I can’t help but cry. I still miss that stupid asshole and my baby so much. I’m crying while typing this post. I feel that it’s all my fault. That thought haunts me. Plus, I don’t have friends IRL and therefore no one to talk to. My family doesn’t help me. If anything, they make me feel worse about myself. My mom won’t let me go out or do anything to alleviate the pain I’m feeling or at least distract myself […]

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Storytime.

by Midnightcrisis
written by Midnightcrisis

Sometimes I scroll through the project and read all the different titles, but never read any further, nor click on any links. Just now I saw consecutive headings saying ‘Rest in peace my dear friend’, ‘My Daughter’, ‘Should I do it tonight?’ and ‘Clarity’. Its funny how they all make a little timeline, a little story even though none of the posts are related. They all make me wonder just how similar and different all our problems are. I suppose it’s all just scale though, isn’t it? Two things could seem so different, but when compared to something that’s completely ‘out there’ the first two things would seem […]

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My Guilt.

by GTSuicide_6
written by GTSuicide_6

My guilty sentiments are very vulnerable.

Everything makes me feel guilty.

From the smallest things like knocking over a pencil,

To blaming myself for the Holocaust,

I don’t kid.

I am burdened with my own blame. My own Guilt.

Everything makes me guilty.

I am the cause of everything bad and I deserve to die horribly.

What the most recent experience? Take ten seconds ago. A peer at my school e-mailed me asking what questions we had to do for class. I wish I wrote down her parts on my paper, not just mine. But I only wrote my parts, because its only my responsibility, right?

Wrong.

I’m a selfish bastard who only considered myself […]

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Tired.

by BloodShallShed
written by BloodShallShed

I’m about done, I’m tired of being the last child, I’m a twin, we’re the oldest, yet she gets everything, he gets everything, the baby gets everything. “How come I didn’t get to go to the restaurant?” -me. “Because we thought you were going to go outside.” -mum. “You don’t let me outside, I’m not allowed outside. Things would be easier if you didn’t have four kids, you could easily take care of us all, and maybe love us equally.” Then of course I get sent to my room. I’m tired. I’m tired of being tired of this life…

-BloodShallShed

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Giving Up

by JiminyCrispies
written by JiminyCrispies

I can’t live like this anymore. Is it even living? It’s not even surviving. I’m barely existing. My depression is getting worse again. It was just starting to get somewhat better.

My moods are fluctuating terribly, but there’s been some sort of ‘okay’ in there for a couple weeks. Now it’s all just came down so hard and fast over the last few days. It’s making everything else spiral out of control.

All of the voices are constant, including the Angels. The figures are everywhere. I can’t eat. I barely sleep. I don’t want to leave the house. My suicidal thoughts are overwhelming, and I […]

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by Drowning
written by Drowning

I know everything happens for a reason but I would like to know the fuckin reason

when I was 18 I lost a good friend of mine I alway wanted God/creator or the universes what ever u want to call it to take me instead I prayed that we could change places cause I know I ain’t shit and I going to be shit 8 years later I’m more suicidal and I’m still here suffering more and I know my friend would of done more with hes life I still don’t want to be here but I feel I don’t have a choice

do u think it’s […]

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i want to give up.

by red_queen_of_lies
written by red_queen_of_lies

my whole life feels like i’m living a lie. i wish i could run away from it all. most nights i cry myself to sleep, sometimes i want to die, but i’m always so damn depressed. school is hopeless. nobody cares anymore. i need to get away. get away to a place that i can finally belong. why does everything seem to make it worse? people pretend they care but i know they don’t give a shit. i’m sorry if i sound like a whiny ***** but i need an outlet for my pain…….

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An extremely unfair situation.

by Martin1987
written by Martin1987

Since 2003 when I was 16 years old I’ve been wanting to die. I prayed for death to bring me peace almost every day since 2003.
I wanted…… no, I BEGGED for death to come to me, but death has been avoiding my call all these years. The reason why I want to die is because my health, both physical and psychological are fu*ked up beyond repair, and on top of it all I never had a single friend nor a girlfriend in my entire 28 years of existing.

Now comes the unfair part, and this really pissed me off when I found out about it.
There […]

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This is long, but please read it

by I love you all
written by I love you all

I’m not gonna reveal my name, but you can call me Justin. I’m 13 and I’ve been secretly depressed since I was 12. My life is good as a whole, I have loving parents, and a loving brother (and family), but I still don’t feel loved. They don’t know I’m suicidal, but they might suspect it. I’m not asking for sympathy, but I have been thinking about suicide ever since I entered this new Catholic school. I am 95% convinced that I’m bisexual, and I’ve told some of my friends. They support my sexuality, but I need someone. Someone to love. Someone to hug. My […]

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Goals

by Woozi
written by Woozi

I have done everything i wanted to do.
I got a decent job.
Some materialistic desires.
The guy.
Money.
And repect?
Its not enough. I dont feel anything. In fact i feel worse.
Instead of climbing out of the hole im just making it deeper.

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I FEEL SO LOST…

by dying.inside
written by dying.inside

Some days your fine and the next your so broken… I seriously  don’t know what to do I have a lot of anger inside me I hold everything in cause I really don’t have anyone to talk to. I’ve been looking at the site for about a year now and I finally joined yesterday and to be honest im so glad I joined. I would talk to my best friend but I feel like she’s tired of hearing me or sometimes I just like to be alone I just shut people off idk why… Today I wokr up thinking positive but now that the day is passing […]

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