Today “she” called called me by this vile name.
Today “she” told me God would punish me.
Today “she” told me that travesties would befall me.
Today “she” told me one day I would need them, and no one would be there for me.
Today “she” told me that I gave her the most trouble between my sister and I. I a quiet anxious, depressed student did this. I am not a good person, but this statement is ridiculous.
Today “she” stormed into our shared bed room threw open the curtains, and tore back my sheets.
Today “she” demanded I go with her now that […]
So, do you have faith? I wanna know. Like, do you believe in God or something?
I’ve just cut my leg after being almost 1 year free of SH. I’ve been trying to hold on this past month, because it was hard, but today I’ve just broke down.
I used to be a person who had faith in God, like c’mon, I am almost 21 and I haven’t had sex yet because of church. I did everything that a nice person and a religious one would do, but everything in my life doesn’t go the way it should. Everyday I get more frustrated, sad and suicidal. It […]
You’re most likely wondering why I so boldly asked for you to read this post. Well, I did so because I have something to say that I believe will benefit you, no matter if this site applies to you or not.
I’ve had an unbelievable amount of personal experiences in my life that in reality could have shattered me from the start but instead, here I am writing this […]
My mother is always helpful and so is the rest of the family. But if I do something they don’t expect, even they lash out at me. I don’t want to let them know how I feel. Maybe because my brothers and parents have always been so strong. I don’t think they will ever understand my condition.
I have multiple reasons why I feel like suicide is better idea. One of them is my religion. I hate it. There is too much violence. If I breathe a word against the belief of my religion, I might be burned alive. And yes that is allowed in […]
As I’ve been facing depression, all people have been telling me was turn to your Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. But what people don’t realize is that the only thing I’ve been praying for is for Him to take my life.
How can one asked to be saved from themselves?
My biggest enemy is the I see in the mirror. Every time I see myself, I always picture not being in that moment. Whenever I do something with a group of people or I go to class, I always picture myself not in that moment. I can picture myself out of this world and I’ve became very […]
I can’t really remember the last time I thought there was a God. I don’t think I was ever really into following God or the whole religious thing, either. The only thing I specifically remember that set my atheism in stone is existentialism. That shit changed me.
I’m wondering how many of you are atheist? I know there are some. Did you ever believe? If not, what changed your mind on the whole thing?
I would also like to note that I’m not your typical atheist. I would not be the person to push atheism in your face and tell you that you’re wrong for believe in […]
I was brought up pagan and chose the pagan path for myself, one of the beliefs in paganism is resurrection. I strongly believe in past lives and that i have had multiple, i am an old soul. I don’t feel i am from this time, i think that plays a huge role in me not liking this life and all my hate of the new age. I always imagine how peaceful and nice it would be to just be in a village with my loved ones and friends, to be a mom and to clean and cook and welcome my husband back from his hunts. […]
Is religion real? if so, which one? i was raised christian, and i still am even after everything that has happened. I believe he was around to save the world. But many religions have key figures. What the heck? what does it all mean? does it even matter to try and figure this stuff out? does heaven exist in any form? Im poor, we dont ask ourselves these kinds of questions, we just try to keep living. I honestly dont want to live anymore (if i cant get my health issues fixed, or find a job), but what is the point of it all? i […]
I hate business !
I hate money !
I hate capitalism / capitalist !
The main reason is because business kills creativity & ideas . money kills creativity & ideas . capitalism / capitalist kills creativity & ideas !
There are a LOT of good ideas , creativity , imaginations , inspirations , dreams , & even good deeds that business / money kills ! simply because of a petty, shallow reason “it doesn’t make a lot of money or profits ! ”
money makes the world unfair ! business makes the world unfair ! capitalism makes the world unfair !
plus , the world becomes a boring […]
So, I’ve always thought that I was straight, and female, and Christian. I’ve been lately questioning these things. When I told my mum about it, she got really angry. She started yelling, and she got out the hand smacking ruler even though I’m a teenager. She’s a Jehovah’s Witness kind of person, so a dumb move on my part, I know.
I’ve always thought I liked guys, and I never questioned that. It was an empty feeling though, but I followed it through, believing it to be true. After a while, I sort of got confused. All my friends (I go to an all-girls school) had […]
To start off, my parents divorced when i was really little. My dad remarried almost 4 years ago. In those 4 years living with my dad and stepmom, my dad started to really force his religion on all of us. My stepmom had 5 kids in her previous marriage, but only 2 live with us. Z (male) and K (female). My dad is mormon, and from what i’ve heard from my friends, when i told them my dad’s religion, they all groaned and said things like “Oh my god, Mormonism? Really? I feel so sorry for you. Mormons are super controlling”. From my experience, what […]
Box of terror and fear and double-standards and self-loathing and discrimination and thumping and rejection
According to a certain book of love, you can own slaves, capture hot women and make them your wives (a.k.a rape them and call it marriage), force your wife to swallow dust to ensure fidelity (if she fails, you can kill her), tear open pregnant women’s stomachs if they don’t agree with you, burn to death a sinful man’s property (a.k.a his children)… there’s a few others.
I’m not discriminating against Christianity – there’s nothing wrong with it, nowadays. Many Christians today are pretty kind. But look at that friggin’ source content. […]
Our eyes met,
and for some reason I just couldn’t resist you,
I fell fast and so did you.
But then the sweet words you called me turned sour,
the touching wasn’t so gentle anymore,
you left bruises and scars,
but somehow it felt better to go through this pain with you,
than without.
I never believed in God,
but I started praying for death,
hoping some greater power could take me out of this misery.
Your mean words became my reality,
and my bruises you left on my body never healed,
they were permanent.
I left you, with swollen eyes and a heavy heart,
never knowing if I would find someone that would make me so miserably happy.
…When someone posts and they never post again. I’m left wondering, “are they still here?” Everyone here seems like intelligent human beings with so much on their minds, to even think that one of them is no longer here is heartbreaking. Did they get what they want? Was it painless? We never really know do we? I’m not really religious or superstitious but I hope you guys are alright. Know that there’s someone out there who cares. Please stay safe, everyone.
I hate life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very boring, and especially nowadays become only very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, & very LIMITING life / world / reality ??…
does God (if there is indeed one…!) play such a cruel sick joke for especially creating human’s IMAGINATION inside our heads?? .. especially often the very creative, artistic, […]
I hate the way that when someone mentions suicide, people automatically assume they have a mental illness, or are in sone emotional state clouding their judgement. This isn’t always the case, and certainly not for me. I think people find it hard to grasp the concept that human beings aren’t perfect creatures, that every now and then genetics, hormones and the environment come together to make a mistake; an incoherent individual. This might present itself in many ways; dysphoria with your body for instance. Unfortunately we haven’t fully mastered the human body, and there is still plenty that cannot be changed to ensure coherence. do […]
Okay so I’m a newly converted atheist at my catholic high school. Some people know and some people don’t. the problem is whenever someone I know/have a high level of respect for walks up to me and ask I deny it… Why why can’t I be myself it makes me feel awful because quite frankly I can’t even tell my folks who are adventists. it so hard. Im totally accepting towards their faith seen as I’ve been Christian for 16 years but no one is respecting of what I believe in sigh. I hate lying about who I am for the sake of some uptight […]
Don’t get me wrong,  i don’t think a little faith can hurt anyone, but my views on church tbh? kind of pointless.  i do in fact believe their is a God but going to church, I feel like  i’m surrounded by hypocrites. If your going to love, praise and worship god than why not do that on your own time? Just being around  people just makes things worse because as soon as you leave no one is the same person..  i just pray to god that when I finally leave this earth he will take me..
So this is my first post on this board. I’ll start by stating that I am not going to even edit this. I’m just going to speak straight from my extremely damaged heart. I often wonder, how many of you are like me? I mean I’m here because yeah, I have thought about suicide. I continue contemplating it.
Why is it that “good people” want to take their own lives? And why is it that society and others are so quick to judge those who have attempted or do commit suicide? Don’t they understand the amount of pain and torment one goes through for them […]
Do ya’ll believe in God?
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