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the end

Something about the end of February..

by alina_01 2/28/2016

written by alina_01

Idk what it is but I’m depressed again like I was last year, only this time I think it’s worse. I do pretty well all other months but right after that second week of february hits so do the feelings. I feel such sadness, disappointment, loneliness, and confusion and it literally sucks the life from me.

Not a single person knows this about me but I need sex to keep me sane otherwise my whole world crumbles. I’m not an addict I don’t have sex with anyone nor do I necessarily do it all the time. I’ve only been with 2 people one I was dating […]

2/28/2016 1 comment

No End In Sight

by Alan Ominous 2/20/2016

written by Alan Ominous

What can I say, that hasn’t been said a thousand times?

How can I be at the end of the road, when I’m stuck in a damn round-a-bout?

Why bother doling out advice, I don’t even follow?

Does it really matter if the chicken or egg came first, when they’re both in existence now?

Does anyone really care what’s in my wallet?

2/20/2016 9 comments

I dont know what to say so i’d rather just leave a song that describes how i feel

by Asyrel 2/11/2016

written by Asyrel

rain falling around me
can’t tell if weather is warm
or why I am cold?

fame falls all around me
can’t tell if I should just hide or run
some people hold onto their misery,
a token of their lives
painted faces, warlike, they march on
feel the end near, blinding and screaming
for blood they’d do anything

got two tickets to Peridon, just can’t sleep
I’ve got no reason to worry ’cause it’s just a dream
on my way to the classroom
lit the fire
it’s a burning desire
murder
water is needed

hate seems always following
can’t tell if I can run, can’t find my way […]

2/11/2016 0 comment

Long exposure deth

by luka 2/6/2016

written by luka

I’m thinking of killing myself at the next train station. Trains pass by at high speeds. Just one step in front of it and it’s all over. I thought of taking my camera and make a long exposure photo of me jumping in front of the train. Would get a great photo as the end of my life. At least something to be remembered for

2/6/2016 5 comments

Bravely follow until the end.

by Mikemike 2/2/2016

written by Mikemike

I thought I wanted to die, and I guess I still do. But I will not go on their terms. I will follow bravely until the end, with my chest out and my head held high, no matter what hurdles I face, when the time comes I will grasp death by the hand and tell him “Thank you for waiting for me”

Philosophy

2/2/2016 2 comments

Here’s the thing

by exmachina 2/1/2016

written by exmachina

Alright guys and gals, here’s my two cents. I’ve been thinking about offing myself for, say, two years give or take. I wasn’t really sure how I’d do it or anything, but it seemed the most logical outcome of my life and here’s why:
I’m one of those people who, for some reason or another, have been blessed (or cursed) with a high degree of sensitivity. Now, I’m not saying that I get upset over little things. Far from that, I let most shit slide. When I say sensitive I mean there’s always this intense emotion and love towards other people -that’s why I find […]

2/1/2016 6 comments

Trying to end it with N – A Social Anxiety story

by Slipknot83 1/26/2016

written by Slipknot83

I have Social Phobia ( aka social anxiety), I always been the shyiest guy in school, college,diferent jobs. Missed classes in college cause of it, quit jobs cause of conflit due to bad comunication with others. Been to many job interviews and failed because of being so nervous, that since 2010 I tought I have to quit life, didn’t know when or how, but had to.

So I just tried to meet new places and walk a lot, while also searching for ways of dying. All of them seem painful so I ended up thinking maybe I could just buy some syringes with a large width […]

1/26/2016 7 comments

to be honest i have no desire to live to see the end of this day

by spvnalittlelie 1/18/2016

written by spvnalittlelie

but i will be forced to anyway, because i simply don’t have the means to end it in a way that won’t fail spectacularly.

here’s the truth; i’m ugly, and i’m going to die alone. nobody’s ever going to love me the way i need to be loved. i tried loving myself but i just couldn’t. i can’t make peace with something i hate so much.

i look in the mirror and i see a monster, not a 19-year-old girl. i’m so grotesque.

so i figure, if i’m going to die alone and unloved anyway, why not make it happen sooner rather than endure the pain […]

1/18/2016 7 comments

Sorry

by beaubri 1/7/2016

written by beaubri

I’m sorry I haven’t been here for a month. I wont get into detail.

But I’ve though a lot and it’s gotten me this far.

I miss sp though, I miss everyone here. I’ve been working a lot, and drinking. It’s been depressing me. And not to mention it’s that time of year again for my depression to settel in. My birthday is in a few days, january 11th. And I’m not looking forward to it.

I was depressed this week, I still am. But I hide it very well from the real world. I all usually winds up at the end of the night that I despise […]

1/7/2016 2 comments

Thinking Ahead

by YoungGods 1/4/2016

written by YoungGods

It’s getting closer and closer to the end of the academic school year for me and I need to be focusing on careers and colleges. I should be choosing one or the other by the end of the school term so that the next two years will be college courses focusing in my major. But I don’t know what I want to do. Obviously I need to go to a college since I’m in the early college program or what would be the point in being here? I’ve messaged a few cousins and classmates about what they want to do after graduating and it seems […]

1/4/2016 5 comments

The start of another shit year

by Adorano 1/1/2016

written by Adorano

So new year is here and not 5 minutes and bullshit happens already.
I vomit at a friends party and lose my midnight kiss, by the end of the night i embarrassed myself infront of the people whose opinions i actually care about and just feel like shit.

Bring in more shit this year

1/1/2016 0 comment

Protected: Flood of emotions

by daitya1989 12/23/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/23/2015 3 comments

Where is your safe haven?

by nextime1988 12/2/2015

written by nextime1988

We all have a safe haven a place where we can be away and safe from all the agressions world throws at us.

Mine is my living room couch even in good days if go to bed whthout spending half an hour there ill have a hard time trying to sleep its the, for me only way to calm down at the end of the day laying there in the dark watching tv or listening classical music.

Where’s yours???

12/2/2015 14 comments

Everyone is doing it….

by Salesman 11/24/2015

written by Salesman

My uncle killed himself last week. Drove out into the woods about 10 miles from his house and parked at the end of an old logging road. Tied his belt to his seat and hung himself. He had been missing for a few days before they found him. I wasn’t super close to him. I feel nothing. I want to hate myself for not feeling bad but it is hard to when I feel nothing. It’s hard to judge or hate when I have been considering the same thing for a while. How long did he think about it? What finally pushed him to do […]

11/24/2015 11 comments

Protected: Lonely, raving lunatic.

by whiskered-fish 11/18/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/18/2015 6 comments

keep fighting.

by L0STgirl 11/10/2015

written by L0STgirl

there is always a dawn, you just have to last the night.

11/10/2015 3 comments

Depressed

by boxofchocolates 11/5/2015

written by boxofchocolates

Hello everyone!!! I am really depressed. I have been thinking about killing myself for about a week now. Really it’s been going on for months, but lately I can’t help but think (why am I still here). Loft a week I wake up in deep emotional pain and physical pain and think “Why?!” Why am I trying to hold onto another horrible day.

I’m divorced, sad, lonley, and depressed. I don’t like it here anymore and I don’t see the point of living. I don’t have any family and so it really wouldn’t matter. Plus now that I’m divorced and alone, I’m not sure if I […]

11/5/2015 4 comments

Could this be the end?

by NavyVet 11/3/2015

written by NavyVet

Im 30 years old and have realized my mental problems started at a young age. Now being married for almost 10 years with 2 kids i feel like i cant go on anymore. Im socially irresponsable. Cant hold a job down. Have no savings and just down right a sorry excuse for a human in every aspect of the phrase. Ive cut off pretty much every relationship ive ever had with anyone because i got tired of letting people down. Ive been a manipulator since being malested by a neighbor at age 7 and never speaking up about it. Ive contiplated this for some time […]

11/3/2015 3 comments

This is the end… And the start

by hogpotter 10/25/2015

written by hogpotter

Pretty soon the time is coming for me to leave. I began doing things to ensure that I will lead a peaceful life ahead. I deleted all useless photos, chats and notes. I am spending the last six weeks breaking every bond I have with another human being. For all traces to be removed, and there will not be a single hint as to my existence in the light. I am not popular so no one will care when I’m gone. I don’t have friends or loved ones here so one will be sad. No party is needed because no one will attend. No goodbyes […]

10/25/2015 3 comments

How can this be happening again?

by desert_bomb 10/19/2015

written by desert_bomb

Okay, I will confess: I’ve only ever written on post of this site from a long time ago and then kind of forgot about this site. But here I am again.

Basically what happened in that time was I got through high school and graduated with pretty good grades and all that, despite the rough patches throughout the years. I got accepted into my dream college and moved across an ocean to get here. These past two months at college have been amazing and I really shouldn’t have any complaints. I have friends, my classes are great and amazing and intriguing (I go to an Arts […]

10/19/2015 2 comments

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