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Why?! I loved you. Why hurt me like this?

by beautifulmonster 8/31/2017

written by beautifulmonster

why B? Why? What did I do to deserve you cheating on me? Especially the way you did. Why did you drive me to do that?! you honestly believe I’m happy how I retaliated? 15 years of my life came crashing down on me that cold Monday. You tore my soul out. I don’t know who I am anymore. Millions are praying today and I feel nothing. The devils I’m thinking how do I get the angel of death to take me.

This is isn’t right. None of it. I can’t get away from it. I try and try. Ultimately I get screwed. That’s what I’m good […]

8/31/2017 1 comment

I don’t understand

by swoobat 9/2/2016

written by swoobat

I promised myself it wouldn’t happen again.
I told myself I wouldn’t be groomed again.
Yet here I am, In the same position I was in years ago.
All the memories and feelings are coming flooding back.
The fear, the guilt, the shame. I feel so disgusted with myself.
I feel so dirty.
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t understand how I’m back where I started.
I don’t understand how I broke the most important promise to myself.
I dont understand.

I feel like a failure again. I feel like a disappointment again.

I don’t understand how I’m here again.

I can’t believe I’m a failure […]

9/2/2016 3 comments

it gets better.

by Procel 5/25/2016

written by Procel

i am, by all accounts, a survivor, an old school member of this place, and it gets better it gets so much better that i drink, just co i can fall asleep, that my writing talent, the book im going to write, is used up here and on members via email. my way out is a book i can never write, but hay, it gets better,it always gets better…

5/25/2016 4 comments

by NicoleK 5/16/2016

written by NicoleK

I think I’ve finally decided suicide is the only option for me. It used to be one of a few, but those seem to have disappeared. I just can’t take it anymore. I am exhausted and at my threshold of pain and bullshit. I’d do it tomorrow if I had enough pills. I will have to wait for a refill. Time to plan and get things in order.

5/16/2016 5 comments

Distant

by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany 5/15/2016

written by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany

Lately I’ve been skeptical
Silent when I would used to speak
Distant from all around me
You witness me fail and become weak
Life is overwhelming
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
I’d love to be the one
Disappoints you when I don’t fall down

But you don’t understand when
I’m attempting to explain
Because you know it all
And I guess will never change

But you might need my hand when
You’re falling in your hole
Your.disposition
I’ll remember
When I’m letting go of You and me
Were through
So rearranged

5/15/2016 2 comments

a poem,

by quietcheep 5/3/2016

written by quietcheep

I breathe, I cry, I disappear,
breathless, stoic, forever here,
heart echoing, thundering,
cold and scared
I swear it’s living
I swear it’s beating
I swear it’s working
I swear, I swear, I swear,

if it hurts, it’s there
it is and has to be
an ache isn’t where it used to be
just give me time
and why and where
I’ll be good
I’ll be better
I’ll be fine
I swear, I swear, I swear,

5/3/2016 0 comment

Live like you’re…living?

by fitzgerald 5/3/2016

written by fitzgerald

I’ve been living like I’m dying for awhile now. Ready to take the plunge any day. It’s depressing but so relaxing. No fuss, no planning for the future, no caring what people think. Temporary.

I’ve been offered a nursing job. Going to be staying alive and seeing how it goes. No use in ruining everyone else’s lives right now.

It’s stupid, but I had just gotten used to being a walking corpse. A sick part of me is a little disappointed.

5/3/2016 0 comment

feel like I brained my damage..

by Soco 5/2/2016

written by Soco

Theres so much I feel like saying today, but then I try and there’s nothing. I go blank. Been feeling like this most of the day, my vision has been all jumpy and strange, & there is no cohesion to my thoughts.
Kinda feel like staying on this train forever ( Im on my way home from work), and dissapearing and starting all over again. Or just dissapearing. I feel like ive past my used by date sometimes. Like I somehow missed my date with the grim reaper. Probably slept thru it, knowing myself. Hiding under the doona and he couldnt find me.

5/2/2016 8 comments

I want it to be over..

by TheStruggle2016 4/29/2016

written by TheStruggle2016

I’m a 24 year old guy and I’ve been in so much pain emotional for about a year. I’m financially struggling and in debt. I’m going to be starting college just now at 24. I have no job. I am also ashamed of my body because I have small wrists and only 5’4 tall. I moved out of my apartment and live in the basement of my aunt and uncle’s place. I don’t hang out with any friends and don’t talk to them much anymore. I feel like such a loser! The girl I care about has changed so much within 2 and half months. […]

4/29/2016 7 comments

I have to stop putting make up on

by kupo95 4/28/2016

written by kupo95

So like every time I put on make up I end up crying it all off. Why am I crying today well it started off ok. The house was fliped the girl I live with refuses to clean the bathroom properly but whatever. Im crying because it my fucking husband mother fucking birthday and I have barely any money to buy him somthing . but keep in mind I the spouse that makes money. He buys me somthing with my money in his pocket. Or he brought what ever it is on a credit card which I pay …won it at the casino my […]

4/28/2016 19 comments

question?

by brighteyes77 4/27/2016

written by brighteyes77

I feel silly asking this :’) but im still getting used to SP and in my notifications on here it says I have 2 pending comments? Neither of which I wrote or were written to me, can somebody explain how I get rid of the notifications please? I thought I recieved a personal message at first but I think its this pending comment thing?

4/27/2016 6 comments

I think the way we live in society these days…

by Rotted_Flesh 4/10/2016

written by Rotted_Flesh

has become more complicated. Face-to-face communication used to be vital, but now we can live our lives being online all day.

However, the truth of the matter is, we still need to see each other’s faces, read their expressions, hear their voices, so we can fully understand their emotions.

To coexist.

4/10/2016 5 comments

New Kid On The Block

by silence_littleB 4/9/2016

written by silence_littleB

I was just reading “I Was Here” and they talked about this website. It introduced me to it and honestly: I’m glad.

Safe place to talk? YES PLEASE!

Safe place to talk WITHOUT JUDGEMNT? I wish I found a place like that before now.

Ive read some posts you all have made and I know I belong here, which is sad. It makes me sad that we’re sad. Why is happiness so hard to find? Can’t it be as easy as it used to be? What happened to the world that suicide rates and depression/anxiety rates have increased dramatically? But a slightly more important question I personally should […]

4/9/2016 3 comments

Time to Move On

by 13vida 4/8/2016

written by 13vida

I don’ feel any more butterflies in my stomach when I think of him anymore, all I really feel is pain and that makes me sad. This used to make my world, he brightened it and made it so beautiful. Now, it feels gray and dank and disgusting. Now, when I think about him, I wonder if he even loves me at all, and if he doesn’t then when did he stop. I wonder if it was easy for him to replace me and I pray to the Universe that it isn’t, that if he truly loved me then he won’t be able to -selfish, […]

4/8/2016 2 comments

Friend long gone. Other thoughts.

by Seneca 4/4/2016

written by Seneca

I live in a south-american country with lots of social problems. One of those, connected in a way to all, is poverty. I was born in a fairly wealthy family, not rich, but in a country were some some didn’t make enough to eat, certainly more than enough. My family didn’t live always as well as they did by the time I was born, and still lived in the same “low-class” neighborhood. In this neighborhood, lived a much poorer family, and my grandmother were friends with them. I was about 7 when I was introduced to the other old lady’s grandson, a kid older than […]

4/4/2016 2 comments

Nothing to live for..

by GerbzBaby 4/2/2016

written by GerbzBaby

As far as I know I have nothing left. My friends, my family don’t even care for me. Day after day, night after night I just lay in suffer age while my friends beat me down further. The friends whom I’ve considered family have used me until they come across someone to replace me. The ones I trusted now ignoring my cries. I have nothing to live for… I have no one to live for. I can’t feel any emotional love anymore..

4/2/2016 1 comment

I’m never used to it

by 4beyondhelp 3/30/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

the realisation that I deserve to suffer and to die. I’ve realized it time and time again but it hurts the same every time. every so often I feel myself loosening, thinking, well maybe I deserve a chance to live at least until I’m 18 or 21 or 30, but I know deep down I’m wrong. I know that every day I continue to live is another unforgivable sin.

3/30/2016 6 comments

Depleating over time.

by beaubri 3/30/2016

written by beaubri

3/30/2016 7 comments

I wonder

by Drowning 3/28/2016

written by Drowning

i wonder why the drug company’s stopped making sleeping pills and other pills as lethal as they used to be ? I think a lot of us wouldn’t be here today it’s like the government want to keep us alive for what reason ? I think we should have a choice to go into a forever sleep if our pain and suffering is for more then a few years and we are really unhappy with life that’s my opinion

3/28/2016 6 comments

Quick update

by disgusting 3/18/2016

written by disgusting

On the “passive aggressive office person”. Yeah, there’s 3 of us that work here. Any mess left in the fridge or microwave was from the people who used it – 2 of them are not here anymore. The 1 of us that does use it is the one who complains and so now the boss yells at the 2 of us who don’t use the fridge or microwave ever at all!

3/18/2016 0 comment

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