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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Sweet Simple Death

by Libby 11/16/2011

written by Libby

Pain

Oh sweet pain

You come to me in every way

Mentally you crush my thoughts

Physically you cut my legs

Emotionally youÂ destroy everything.

If there were a way to escape your grasp

A way to be free from what you cause me

A way to never again feel your torments

To enjoy what I have

To be happy

I would take that way in an instant

There is a way

To escape you

It’s feared by most however

A way witch most would never dream of

Never think of

Never long for

It’s horrible final way

No way to fix it

No way to change it

It’s everything I want

It’s everything I need

It’s Death

In death there is no pain

There is no feeling at all

Just death

Just […]

11/16/2011 0 comment

The dictionary states that to be alone is to be separate,Â apart,Â orÂ isolatedÂ fromÂ others. I find this very untrue. Here I sit across the hall from my sister, down the hall from my parents, on the phone with my friend and yet I am still alone. Alone does not mean you are isolated from others physically, it means you are isolated from other mentally. In my mind I have no one to talk to about anything because I am alone. I have no friends and no one that cares. Everyday I walk into school I’m surrounded by hundreds of people and I still feel alone. A very common […]

11/14/2011 3 comments

How I would do it.

by Wubble777 11/14/2011

written by Wubble777

6 months ago I came to terms that my boyfriend of 9 years was verbally abusive and didn’t really care about my feelings. In july I finally got the courage to confront my mother about SSI money she was getting in my name but lied to me about. Me and my family were kicked out on the streets for a week and the day after we were kicked out I found out I was pregnant with our 3rd child.Â In Augest, my brother and his wife ( both I was close to) got in a fight with me and instead of working it out they told […]

11/14/2011 5 comments

Sweet Dreams

by Libby 11/13/2011

written by Libby

Sleep, then only escape I get from life. As I drift off into a world of nothing I have no worries and no cares. Everything is just so peaceful. Half the time I don’t remember it but thats the best part. I feel like every-time when I sleep I die. I fall into a space of nothingness and I’m gone. Lost forever. But then I wake up and everything sucks again. If only I could sleep forever…..Oh wait I can. And I want to. Every-night I wish I never have to wake up again. That I never have to breath another breath and my heart […]

11/13/2011 7 comments

Burden’s to bear

by Libby 11/12/2011

written by Libby

I am stuck in a world in which I can not leave

All the pressure is there but I just can’t end it

I have my own burden to bear

I have no real friends, my parents: they don’t care

I have no one in this world. Everything makes me want to leave.

So what’s my burden? Why can’t I leave?

My life is perfect. Everythings good.

I have two paretns who get along

I have a roof over my head and three meals a day

My grades are good

I’m good at sports and other things in general

So what’s making me wanting to go?

well honestly I don’t know

I have all this fucking good stuff […]

11/12/2011 3 comments

Sexually abused, mentally abused, emotionally abused.

by ssuryeon 11/12/2011

written by ssuryeon

When I was a kid, I already had arguments with my mom. Thus, I grew up hating her and her hating me. Can you imagine that?! Instead of having a lovely mother-daughter relationship, we just want each other’s death. My mom is not that bad actually, it’s just that, she is pretty immature. She wants all of the attention and she wants her to be right all the time. If our house was a country, it is absolutely under a dictatorial government. Your opinions doesn’t matter, and if you go against her will, you are dead meat. Even if you just talk to a boy, […]

11/12/2011 2 comments

This is just all too much

by slut.failure.justme 11/11/2011

written by slut.failure.justme

When I was in the 7th grade my brother was sent away for therapy because he was dealing with alot of problems (ocd, tourettes, drug/alch abuse). In the 8th grade I started to feel neglected and hated by my parents, so i started cutting after every fight we had, which turned into coming home from school every day to cut my self. I stopped for a while, but then relapsed in the 9th grade. When this happened, i told my dad i was depressed and really considered killing myself and that i needed therapy. He said okay, and never brought it up again. After that […]

11/11/2011 6 comments

Pls read my blog and hear my story.

by careyan46 11/11/2011

written by careyan46

http://howibecameayoungwidow.blogspot.com/

11/11/2011 1 comment

She is my Reason….

by ASpilledCanvas 11/11/2011

written by ASpilledCanvas

My Mom is the main reason why I want to die….

She makes everything so much harder and frustrating. Honestly, when I am around her I feel as though I should just be a piece of shit. That I am not good enough and never will be. Because I am not like her and I do exactly what she wants. I hardly get to go out… I can’t go shopping, can’t be me, or creative. She makes me feel like, I should just die.. and with the way things are..

….I honestly can’t think of a reason to keep holding on right now…

11/11/2011 5 comments

How Are You?

by Libby 11/10/2011

written by Libby

How are you?

good

Really?

yupp

Are you ok?

Yup

Are you Sure?

yes

Positive?

mhm

Are you lying?

This is what always happens to me. When some one ask if I’m OK or how I am: I lie strait to their face. They don’t know I’m lying, no one does, no one can tell. I wish some one could, I wish there was some one I could talk to, that would always know when I’m not OK. Some one who cared, some one who would listen to what was actually wrong and help me,or at least try to. It’s too bad my wishes won’t come true. Every day I’m upset and people ask whats wrong, […]

11/10/2011 10 comments

It’s your fault…

by destroyed1997 11/10/2011

written by destroyed1997

This all started about 9 months ago, you had been flirting with ne a lot, or so i touhgt… One night i decided to call you and you came over. I was babysitting and our friends were upstairs, you dragged me into the bathroom and made me give you a blowjob, you never asked, you only said; c’mon please, just please do it. And knowing I can’t say no, I did it. The next few days you called and asked me to meet you at our friend’s house. I came to his house and you were there to invite me in, they were upstairs.. I’ll […]

11/10/2011 11 comments

I am living with rape PTSD

by Auna 11/9/2011

written by Auna

I couldn’t sleep so i took sleeping pills. They didn’t really sleep it was more like beingÂ paralyzed. I could feel hear but couldn’t stop him from having sex with me like that. I confronted him and he denied it. We fought and he said it would never happen again. I had no where to go. I was trapped. He went where I went. My first break Â at help was a cop who said a husband can’t rape his wife. 5 yrs later some one stepped in. I had a child with him.

They lied said i was a druggie whore and other stuff and my lawyer […]

11/9/2011 5 comments

Why do you want to die?

by mystory 11/9/2011

written by mystory

personally.. i want to know what pushes you to this thought process. i wanna know why you want to die.. not like life sucks i cant deal.. but concrete events history.. i want to know the jist of your story.. please

11/9/2011 20 comments

today

by noonenowhere 11/9/2011

written by noonenowhere

im feeling really bad today.

11/9/2011 5 comments

Free

by LanyK 11/8/2011

written by LanyK

Today I caught myself being annoyed because a guy I am seeing doesn’t call me. I started thinking about relationships and how nice it would be to meet a guy who called/texted throughout the day, was fun to be around so I didn’t have to keep the convo going…etc. Then I thought wait a minute why am I even bothered by this? I have a year to get my affairs in order and then thats it. Do I really wanna spend the my last year bogged down with something so meaningless? NO. Same thing with money, I am still paying my bills but I have […]

11/8/2011 5 comments

Extremely Pissed & Heartbroken.

by ASpilledCanvas 11/7/2011

written by ASpilledCanvas

I lost my Daddy almost 7 months ago at the end of April.

I miss my Daddy, though he use to be extremely abuse, I use to scream I hate him and we fought all the time, when I was a baby, he was an amazing Daddy, even when I was going teenbitchmode and he was going crazypsychdadmode he still took care of me and loved me for me. Despite all the scares I have and all the dreadful things I have done he loved me. My daddy always encouraged the creative side of me, despite the depression writings and photos, he still encouraged me no […]

11/7/2011 3 comments

I’m Scared…I hate myself for this…

by ASpilledCanvas 11/7/2011

written by ASpilledCanvas

At first I would like to start, I have a very off background that I would not like to get into at theÂ moment, I wanna get straight to the point.

I’m scared right now.. and I hate myself for it.

I am trying to think I am pretty, I am, I started to wear short sleaves again and not hide under my bracelets. I have scares, deep scares, and the word “perfect” scared on my arm, all the way up to my elbow. I don’t worry about my other scares because they are in certain other spots but I want to not be scared. I wanna be […]

11/7/2011 5 comments

Don’t You Dare

by Libby 11/5/2011

written by Libby

Don’t You DareÂ think for a minute that people actually care

They will shrug you off the second you ask for help

Don’t You DareÂ trust people as they beg you for your trust

They will give away all your secrets in the blink of an eye

Don’t Â You DareÂ believe any of the “sorrys” people give you

They don’t really mean it

Don’tÂ You DareÂ be naive in the world

Â Â Â Â Â Â Its a cruel horrible place

Don’tÂ You DareÂ try to fit in with everyone else

When they find your flaw they will turn on you

Don’t You DareÂ go along with the shit people put you through

You don’t need it

Don’t You DareÂ pretend to be happy when your […]

11/5/2011 12 comments

Waiting and Hating

by Kizzy 11/5/2011

written by Kizzy

NowÂ I sit alone at the library. The question keeps running through my head “Were is there to go when you can’t go home?”

Â I had been getting better. The seroquel, miracle pills, had been working. Yeah I wasn’t normal, not even close, but they helped. While they do nothing in the way of suicidal fanticies they had helped my be less violent, less angry, less of bitchy me.

That time is gone. They stopped working. I’m not weak. I’m not the kind of person who sits and cries. I don’t feel the need to whine about it’s not fair. I’m just… pissed.

So I’m stuck here. Waiting and […]

11/5/2011 3 comments

The dream

by Scissorhands 11/4/2011

written by Scissorhands

This post contains a single curse word, I try to keep my posts clean, but for the sake of accuracy I have used a single word, I’ve starred it out. I apologize if the language offends, and if this post must be removed, I understand.

I dreamt of my love today, I laid down for a 2 hour nap, I closed my eyes and she was all I saw. I dreamt she had moved on, there was no room for me in the picture any more. A lot of it is foggy (as most dreams are for me) but I clearly remember being on my knees […]

11/4/2011 4 comments

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