I Will Survive

I believe in the Biblical God. I’m just upset about the fact I’ve been brought into existence atall .I feel incompatible with it. I find this life insufferable but its not due to my current circumstance I have a job,family and friends but im still unhappy. I think its my childhood that ruined the will to live bit honestly but im tired of dredging up trauma i just don’t think its worth the hassle? Like what would i be healing for? To have a house some kids and a 9-5? Or maybe to travel the world? Make art or something. Sounds awful. Helping people could […]

I was in Hawaii with a bunch of friends. Great time – right? Too much booze, lots of laughter. Until I did something silly and one of my friends yelled at me and told me to stop being childish. I immediately shut down and went to my room – on the 29th floor. Sitting out on the balcony bawling I started seriously thinking about jumping. That would teach him, right? I sat there thinking yes, no, yes, no, yes, no. Thankfully the “no’s” won out.

I never thought too much about revenge suicide until then. Other times, other reasons. But revenge suicide is […]