Hi Mercan,
I know that I’ve made a lot of letters like this but this one is more important than the others! Remember when we all got added in the same gc just because we followed the same person? I’m so lucky that I got added there. I love almost everything about it. Amazing people and amazing conversations. I also remember you ignoring me sometimes but I always forgave you even tho it wasn’t a big deal haha. You know, I was scared to write this bc I thought that it’ll be too hard but I feel relieved now, knowing that I’ll die after writing […]
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My Suicide Note
It all feels blank most of the time. I am suicidal but i don’t plan or have a plan to kill myself, but the thoughts linger. I’m in the grey area, constantly In the grey area.
I don’t want a future, i don’t want to get a job and i don’t want to get out of bed each morning, i don’t want to brush my hair, i don’t want to eat. eat… eating is something that i haven’t done now for a few days. i have such disgust for my body and the numbers on the scale. i haven’t eaten and my body is so […]
Idk why I am posting. It’s not even really suicide related nor do I plan to.
i found this website out after trying to find tools to cut with more since I was getting bored with it (as sick as it sounds…) and found this website. Originally, I thought it was a dead website since the look of it looked like it was stuck in 2010 as well as the only post I saw dating to 2013. However, I saw the recent posts dating back to an hour. All my life I struggled with my identity, depression, anxiety as well as now my cutting addiction just […]
I overdosed on insulin yesterday at about 11am. I took enough to kill about 10 people, let alone 1. Somehow I’m still fucking here. Not even in hospital. What the fuck!!!! I wish it worked but now I’ve run out of insulin so I can’t even do it again. It’s a fucking joke, someone just kill me. I hate life. I hate all of this. For fuck’s sake.
I think I’m going to kill myself this week. I said the same thing about a year ago, and things have only got worse since then. I can’t cope anymore. I have no friends, I don’t get along with my family, and life isn’t worth it. I’m done.
As the title says, please take care.
You all are important.
As for me…. Not so much….
This here is my final good bye…
I am not worth while remembering.
I’m nothing but a terrible person.
I’m sorry it has come to this……
I really am…..
I’m saying my final good byes…..
May the world treat you kindly.
Bye bye and take care.
(I just hope that I have enough willpower to end my pethetic life)
I’m tired of being this. I know I’ve only barely told you that I needed help, a therapist or medicine, that any would do. I didn’t have the heart to tell you exactly why since I didn’t want to be more of a burden than I already am, that doesn’t matter anymore though. Don’t feel bad for making me choose between therapy or that investment of yours. Therapy wasn’t working anyways, it started okay but after a couple of sessions I noticed I couldn’t be open about what has been bothering me for more than four years now.
The chances of me changing or getting better […]
I once decided to end my life at March 15. But then some things have turned upside down and I decided to live. But now, a month after that day, I decided to end my life too. Not now, I say, but soon. Soon. What I have in my mind is after my boyfriend and I’s anniversary, May 17. I just want to feel what it’s like to have a one year relationship. I just want to make him feel loved too, even for one last time. But if things goes out of planned, then maybe earlier. I just need to finish this school year, […]
i’m still here
i hate it
i fell in love
but she’ll never get it
i want to die in her arms
i hope she’ll understand it
maybe one more day
maybe
i gave her my heart
but she dont know it
its on her table
she’d never see it
ive been through enought
to know i wont have it
i guess it is time for me to sleep
for a long time coming
goodbye
i might be back
I don’t want to bother anyone with my problem. And yet I feel as if I’ll explode. For the past week, I’ve had to watch my abuser walk down my same hallways, spend quality time with his friends in his new clothes (guess his mom spoiled him), while I with in my usual frustration, jumpy whenever I feel anyone come near me, wanting to run away and having no one that understands because I CAN’T TELL.
but what if i killed myself? what if i fell out the window? in my letter, i’d blame everyone that protected him, everyone that made me feel like i […]
Every day is terrible, but today really pushed me over the edge. I can’t take it anymore. I’m going to try ODing on my iron pills and finally dying. I hope my family disposes of my body and not leave it there to rot because they’re some horrible people, I tell you. All rotten, all abusive, all evil people.
So, goodbye. This 18 year old is finally breaking free. No more nerve pain, no more mental illness, no more abuse. Nothing. Hopefully I’ll finally be successful this time. I can only pray.
so i tried because i was so tired and i couldnt care less about anything else, i dont give a fuck weather anyone would be sad or mad, i texted goodbye two friends and wrote the rest letters, one tried to stop me but i told them this is what has to be done. so after cutting many stupid cuts on my stupid leg i looked at my arm and got too weak to cut it open so i opened the pill bottle and ate it all. i was already dizzy from blood loss and fainted on the bathroom floor. a tiny while later i […]
I honestly don’t even know why I am still here. I look back and think of how many times I have been up at night crying, sometimes for not much reason at all. I look back and wonder why I have been so ready to go but haven’t yet. I don’t have the energy to be here anymore. I dont have the social capability to function here anymore. It has taken me too many rough patches to realise that there is nothing keeping me back here anymore. I just know that I can’t handle being here for another hour longer.
Last night i had a party at my house with a few friends. I tried to get all my coworkers and friends there, and luckily for me most of them showed up. I kept bringing it up and reminding people that it’ll be my last outting. The last time I will really be out or see people. What they didn’t know was i was planning to kill myself after they left.
The party was fun. Lots of drinks and lots of laughter, so when everyone left I originally thought i was just over reacting. Until i tried to actually fall asleep. All i kept thinking bout […]
Hello everyone, I’m not a native speaker, so at first I would like to apologise for any mistakes I’ll possibly make in this post.
I don’t plan to leave any suicide notes, because I don’t have anything to say to most of the people and those to whom I do, wouldn’t want to listen. I’m writing this journal, because I don’t want people to freely shape my image after I die. Especially that they only see me as an idiot, or a monster, or a silly fool. Or a failure (that part is true though).
I found this website, while searching for the most suitable metods on […]
fuck this shit fuck this country i hate my country’s educational system,, so many kids attempting suicide and no one’s doing jackshit FAST about it.
well, i guess i’ll just be another dead body in the morning. i hate living. i hate life. bye.. see you all in the afterlife…
fucking tired of humans,,, i hope i get reborn as a loved and pampered cat or dog because i just don’t want to think!!! im sick of using my brain!! even when people tell me im smart, im fucking dumb and fail tests and fail to pass my homework on time!! fuck this shit!! i just want […]
Throughout the course of my life, I have experienced a string of failures and have only occasionally managed to make the occasional breakthrough.
I wasn’t able to pursue the career I really wanted due to me not being skilled and experienced enough and there being a lack of entry level jobs to break in to the industry. Currently, I am unemployed and every job I interview for has 20 other candidates also campaigning for the same role and thus I keep getting rejected.
I don’t have enough money to go back to school and at this point, I regret ever going to school at all.
This natural spark […]
Every time I have been faced with multiple options for decisions, I have picked the wrong one. Every. Single. Time.
Ten years ago I decided to go to a school that was more expensive than my family’s socio economic status because I thought the investment would pay off and I would get a good job. I had a great experience, but everything came to a screeching halt when I graduated, was hit with my first student loan debt bill and I found myself unable to find any sort of entry level job in my field.
I made the mistake of staying in my home state, which isn’t […]
This note is just a formality. I know damn well most people won’t care that I’m gone, or why I’m gone. But leaving without an explanation is still sort of a dick move, and I guess I don’t want the last thing I ever do to be a dick move.
Well, what can I say really? Just that there’s an obvious negative correlation between how much someone knows about me and how much they want me around. Sure, I might seem OK at first. But I’m anything but OK. I’m awkward. I’m stupid. I’m oblivious. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to come off as rude. I […]