No matter what you go through in life you always hear, “It will get better”. It didn’t and it won’t. I have no one to turn to and no one who would even care at this point. It’s not that I’ve ruined all of my friendships or I’m particularly mean, I’m just forgettable. I’m the person who will never be the favorite friend but would do anything for the people around me. Even my family I try to impress throughout all the abuse, sexual assault and negligence, I faced as a child I’ve still always tried to strive for their approval. In friendships, betrayal has […]
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My Suicide Note
To: Sister with a flower in the head
You are really greedy huh? You have been living well, have many friends, have lovely boyfriend, have your youth life without studying, hang out friends, eating good food, top three doctor college, but still you said you are jealous of me…
You said its not enough and you still need 1% of my happiness. How can you be so cruel as a sister huh? You want to play music like me, you want to be loved by parents like me, like me, like me, like im living with the best live more than yours.
Everyone can see even […]
It’s simple and I’ve come to accept that my life is a failure. I agree that not every living body has the ability to play this game. “Living” (game of life)
Mentally and physically the older you get the less you can control. What boosts your chances of having success is adopting early to the challenges we typically face has humans. Being social enough to have friends, learn to speak with strangers. Work hard and bring value to share with your family. Express emotions with the opposite sex to love and protect.
Ive took it all for granted.. didnt bother to learn from my […]
What’s on your mind, bud? Talk to me.
I know you came on this website to see what people have to say, to see if you can leave any comments. And I also know that you want to leave comments on people to help them with the shit they’re going through.
SCREW THAT. THAT’S NOT WHY YOU’RE HERE. YOU’RE HERE BECAUSE YOU NEED HELP, YOU NEED SOMEONE WHO’LL LISTEN.
I WILL LISTEN.
Leave a comment, let’s talk. I’ll listen. No judgement, no problem-solving (unless you want it). I’ll try my best to understand, I’ll try my best to here you until you’re through, and most importantly I WILL NOT LEAVE […]
Just waiting for the right moment when I can end it all. I am done and soon it will be over. I will finally be free from them. I am done being told what to do, who to be, and tired of everyone’s bullshit. I am angry and hurt and its all I feel these days. I have no one and I have told no one how I been feeling, and the only person that matters to me I cannot burden them. I just need this to end and to get it over with. I Should have killed myself years ago.
Goodbye
Dont cry
You dont have right to cry
Oh why
Because you already know but you only asking why
Just try
I am enough with all these try
Ill die
Just shut up and let me die
I HATE YOU
THIS ME
THIS FAMILY
THIS WORLD
I just ingested about 70mg worth of cyanide, in the hopes that I won’t wake up in the morning.
After a shitty life full of betrayal and hatred, it may finally be coming to an end.
Last night I got PTSD, and earlier today I learned that literally all my friends, my boyfriend included, hates me.
I don’t really know what I want my last words to be, assuming I do die, which I probably won’t, Google says the minimum lethal dose is 100mg. But I guess I’ll just come up with something on the spot.
Alice, Richard, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I had to leave you at such […]
I met her when she was in bad shape. Living in a spare bedroom of a disaster of an older woman, after she fled her abusive husband. She was a stripper, and I was a lonely man. To me, her body was perfect, irresistible, but it wasn’t just her body I wanted. The night I met her, we talked for hours. It wasn’t just a pay your money, that was fun, and let’s be done with it type of thing. We connected, and I wanted her soul. We began seeing each other outside of the strip club, and she told me her past and struggles […]
It’s not as bad as it was before but there is never a week that goes by without me questioning whether I’m even worth anything to anyone around me. For a time I truly believed that I wasn’t worth anything and that I was a nuisance to everyone around me and that the world didn’t need me. I’ve seen all these online articles about how the world needs you when you’re questioning your worth but during this time I felt that the world would have been better off without me as that would’ve been one less resource sucking carbon-emitting sack of organic molecules. I’ve heard […]
Well in 2014 I lost the girl I thought would be wife. My fiance. And I let her down… I wasn’t good enough to make her happy and so… She found someone better than me. I don’t blame her. I always knew she would see me for what I really am. Worthless.
Here I am 6 years later looking at the empty space next to me in my bed… Wishing she was still here every night.
I thought she would be different. That maybe this time I would be enough. But it fell apart like always.
At the time, I figured by 30 Id be able to fix […]
Bye. I’m sorry that I got to this point. I’m just so fucked up, and the world is the same way. My parents are great. They’re amazingly supportive and everything. I wish they had a daughter that was worthy of their love. The world is just so utterly screwed. I love my cats and that’s about it. Thanks to everyone reading this. Honestly, even though you don’t know me, I’m amazed that you’re so empathetic. Thank you. I hope everything ends up better for you. Good luck, y’all.
Love, Lacey
I wrote on this blog in 2017 and in 2018 and this is 2020 almost nothing has changed. I still hate my life and everything it entails.
I had a short adventure with a guy living in Cameroon and I got pregnant. He rejected the pregnancy and abandoned me to my own fate. I didn’t want to abort because that would just have been adding sin on another sin and that would have made me a coward like him cus running away is always the easier way out. I kept the baby knowing how much it would penalize me financially, emotionally and even professionally […]
In the state if Arizona, there is a tunnel known to grant you wishes. If you drive through it, hold your breath until the end, you can make a wish and only hope it to come true. When I was younger, I’d always wish for a bike, finding my soulmate, or a house, camera, etc.
When I was 12, my wishes started to change. I had started wishing for a permanent home to stay, for someone in my family to show me love, for me to be happy; I gave up on that quickly as things were always getting worse. So I started wishing for my […]
I’m feeling hopeless. I hate my life, I hate myself. I want to get away from these people, my family. They’re all racist, homophobic, sexist, and just hateful people and I don’t want to be around that. Yet they make fun of me because I care about people, how can they possibly think I’m wrong and they are right when their views are so hurtful to other people. I can’t wait until I’m old enough to move far away and never have to live here again, but I don’t know if that can ever happen. I know it’s my own fault but I’ve felt so […]
There are so many events that stain the soul,
That create a mental prison of infinite pain and remorse, a chasm in my mind deeper than Mariana’s trench.
How does one undo their own terrified actions wrought with the confusion of age and inappropriate exposure?
How does one reconcile all the feelings of self hatred for things they don’t understand and didn’t.
How do you live with yourself even though you attempt to define your moral compass with the utmost ethos possible.
How do you live with yourself?
How do you ever come to accept yourself as a person […]
Apparently I have been placed in a suicide program of some sort.
It began years ago but kind of ebbed and flowed over time but came to a dramatic and sudden head more recently, where acoustic audio and psychological torture weapons are being used on me, the same kind you hear about the military using on foreign soil.
I’ve realized I don’t have much power in the situation and the ‘perpetrators’ even offer an ‘assist’ in the suicide. Meaning, they are able to pull the trigger for you, remotely. They have demonstrated this for me. I guess that helps with some of the remaining troubles I would […]
Most people who die are emotional about it. I’m not. I give zero fucks. I’m not confused, I don’t need therapy to help me “figure it out” because I already fucking know. It aint rocket science, shit is simple.
I hate the fucking Suburbs, first off. I was not supposed to be born in this hellhole where fuck all happens. I belonged in the fucking city actually growing myself. But instead I just got the same houses over and over and over and the only time I’d see the real world was for a night on the town. Everyone here is the same. Nobody talks like […]
A. Have difficulty understanding or expressing emotions
B. Not know how to cope with trauma, pressure, or psychological pain in a healthy manner
C. Have unresolved feelings of rejection, loneliness, self-hatred, anger, or confusion
D. Want to “feel alive”
E. Self punishment
F. Explain it…
To: my ?
Its not your fault, its not my fault, dont you remember what you said?
Yes, I agree with you, its how nature works
Dont grieve to long, Im happy, I mean this is what I want
Die without so much blood or pain
Actually im not sure if I was happy or sad with you
But I want to believe that Im happy
Looking back I smile more, I love more, I want more
This frozen heart finally can feel emotion again
Happiness, sadness, annoyance, yearning, love, so many..
Deep in my heart I feel sorry to you
For making you going through all this […]
Hello, I see that this is a site where people share how sad they are and there are some helpful people out there. I hope I can get some nice feedback from others. I want to start off by saying that I am 21 years old. My grandma had passed away and it took a big toll on me. My family too of course, but for me I wanted to die. Ive attempted to kill myself and this sweet genuine old lady passed away and in my eyes it wasn’t her time to go. It honestly should’ve been me. Recently I’ve been kicked out of […]