My Suicide Note

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not again

June 14th, 2017by alexusdemi

I don’t want to be that post that you’re probably sick of reading, about falling into depression and healing from it. Three years. Three years of constant debating on weather i can stand myself or not. Starting to slowly fall back into a constant mind of self loath is so difficult. I’ve put my body and mind through to much shit to start being like this again. Scary thing is i don’t think im going to fight as hard as i did the first time.

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Is this life?

June 14th, 2017by Grass

Sometimes I want so badly just to do something. To create. Instead of that, I do nothing. I sit here in my lonely hole, and try my hardest to empty my head and hands of everything that troubles my soul. My words don’t even come out right anymore. As the years pass, I grow more reclusive and distant from myself. It’s as if I’ve almost disappeared sometimes. Am I even real? Am I even alive? And what does living mean anyways?

I posted something here a couple years back, and its as if nothing has changed. I’m just as miserable. If anything is different, its that …

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I may go take a long hot bath and bleed out

June 11th, 2017by rayonhousefly

Im just not feeling capable of handling this amount of drama and stress that seems to always find me. I just want it to stop. I finally found a place where people understood, and despite their problems they were happy and genuine. Then i had to leave. I hate this place, i hate where i am, i hate everything and everyone around me. I need it to fucking stop already. And im not going back to drugs, thats just a bandaid, if i want it to stop im going to do it the right way. My life is bullshit, and i make it thst way, …

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I tried once, I will try again.

June 11th, 2017by Suicidal13yrOld

I tried to commit suicide. I failed, got sent to CCU , I am now back home, and ready to try again. I will hang myself and slit my wrists. If not today then another.

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My Suicide Note

June 8th, 2017by Eversolonely

Dear whomever this may concern,

I’m sorry you were the one to find this. Sorry you had to read this letter from a dead person. Sorry that I wasn’t strong enough to stay alive. I’m just… really sorry. I guess the bullshit just ended up being too much for me. If your name isn’t below then you weren’t important enough to be mentioned. That’s neither a good nor bad thing. Live with it.

To J: We had a good ten years. Eleven this summer, wasn’t it? I’m sorry we grew apart, I wish we stayed closer, but at least now this won’t affect you as much. Don’t …

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Test Posting

June 7th, 2017by adeblanc

This post is to allow me to see where it appears on the website and what it looks like when it gets there.  I want it to appear in the “My Suicide Note” section.

There are choices on the “edit post” page which I don’t understand.  Is there anything I need to do manually before posting or can I live with defaults?

Thanks.

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To the ones who know loremaster

June 7th, 2017by My life is over

He is in the CCU and he tried to slit his wrist open and failed. He almost died he is in the hospital. Sorry for the death the hospital just called and said he is in critical condition.

 

loremaster82@gmail.com if any questions

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Goodbye

June 6th, 2017by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

 

 

It will be rope this time

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Done with Life

June 3rd, 2017by hopelesslonelydepressed

I am not entirely sure where to start. I have been depressed for several years and have been contemplating suicide since I was 15 (3 years ago). I have finally reached my breaking point and I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live either. Everything is going wrong and it is too much to handle. This past year both of my grandparents and my two month old cousin died and I was devastated. The one friend I could talk to about anything doesn’t talk to me anymore. I have lost interest in all of the things that …

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July 17th

June 2nd, 2017by july17

That’s my date. Other people have others but that one is mine. I’m determined to end it all on that day, but I’m scared that I won’t carry through. I’m scared I’m going to flake like Aysel in My Heart and Other Black Holes. 

I literally have nothing to live for except my cat. But I know Reimi loves everyone so he won’t miss me for long.

I keep thinking of ways to end it rather than if I’m going to end it. According to the psychologists of the internet, that means I have “major depressive disorder”, and I’m a “high risk of suicide”. Who cares though? They didn’t tell me anything …

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My note when my time comes

June 1st, 2017by The riddler

So this is just a copy and paste from a song that i found. This portion is extremely relevant to me, and maybe you can find this relatable to what youre going through.

This is “her last words” by courtney parker.
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She sees the note and unfolds it with care
All she does is stare, “How can this be fair?”
She starts reading as the tears roll down her face
“I’m sorry Mom but this world is just not my place

I’ve tried for so long to fix this and fit in
I’ve come to realize this world’s full of sin
There’s nothing for me here, I’m just a waste of space
I’ve got …

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THIS IS IT. MY NOTE.

May 31st, 2017by Baked13

I know the pain that I have left behind.

I have felt it before.

I’m sorry. That’s all i can say.

It’s not your fault.

Never has been.

My only request, Is to grant me peace.

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Poison

May 31st, 2017by Niko

You’re my poison. You really fucking are. You are a pill covered in sugar. The poison is not in the pill but in the sugar. I get a taste of what I think I want and it ends up turning my inside into sludge. I pretend in my head that I don’t see your flaws but who am I kidding. Only myself.

I wrote you a suicide note last night. I didn’t get past the part where I said I hate you. I’ll work on it tonight. Maybe it will be be as simple as “are you happy now” will you be when all is said and done. …

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What Hurts The Most.

May 29th, 2017by kellinandrew

Many things can happen in life,

This I know.

But what do you do,

When the pain is to much to bare.

You hurt yourself,

And call It fair,

You tell yourself that it is your you fault,

That you should have cared.

Now it’s to late.

I didn’t think it would happen to me. At all. Why would it happen? That is what I don’t understand, he tries to help, and I know he cares. It hurt him too, but why? Why does it hurt? Why am I so upset? The baby, can I …

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Goodbye

May 26th, 2017by Suicidal13yrOld

I’m gone. I’m sorry but I’m gone. Before I go I want to thank mehikka, photographyismylife, and the one dude who’s name I can’t remember for trying to stop me. Hugs to you guys, it didn’t work for me but keep it going and it may work for someone else.

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I tried to get help

May 23rd, 2017by Milestiba

I went to group yesterday and today with a bag of clothes to go to the hospital. Yesterday, I could not bring myself to talk to the therapist. I have been on my phone every night with two and three different crises lines. But I always say that I will be safe even with the racing thoughts and plans to attempt suicide.

Today, I asked the therapist how do you push across the point of knowing you need help to actually taking it. She told me that the only person who could answer that question was the one asking it. She thanked me for coming to …

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last goodbye

May 23rd, 2017by Quiet1064

How does one start a letter of this sort? do i just say my goodbyes? Do i explain why i have decided to do this thing? My regrets? my hopes? i honestly don’t know. should i have told anyone? wouldn’t that have defeated the purpose though?

Well its my letter so i guess there are no rules, i can decide what goes on this letter and what does not. So… Suicide.. plain and simple.. people say its the easy way out .. that people who commit suicide are weak, stupid, doing it for attention? like really? and what ever else they decide to call it, but …

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My Vows

May 22nd, 2017by BlueDiamond

That I will never get married

Never have sex with another fellow human being

If I’m to become homeless, that I will slit my carotid artery.

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relate? No. Not really.

May 19th, 2017by _lost._.one_

?

 

Why do we fear death, why do we fear the thing that will come for us all one day? Love and hate are intertwined with death, and when it grips you all emotion is lost as you flow into the interstellar’s of death. Soul and mind are empty and all thoughts are heavy. Death is powerful, wooing you into an insatiable thirst for life; for knowledge.

 

I wish that it was easier to love and to hate, I wish saying goodbye didn’t always mean forever; especially not in death. To be rid of all woo and worry, to be …

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Demon Road

Though we find ourselves alone in our pain and blackness we are many. Funny how demons push and guide us individually, but we are many. Alone in the dark we cry for deaths sweet release, but we are many. Hopeless am I here by myself, but we are many.  We are legion