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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

I can say it, but you won’t believe me.

by Noodle12 9/1/2011

written by Noodle12

Guess what guys? Great fucking news!

The girl I was taking to the concert on sunday can’t fucking make it!

….

I’m in my bedroom right now. I don’t want to get out of bed. I don’t want to go to school tomorrow, and I don’t want people to talk to me Â unless I want to talk first. I’m not crying, too much (I’ll cry more tonight though), but I don’t want to fucking socialize or do anything right now, other than be on facebook and MSN and pray that one of my closer friends will pick up their computer/phone and fucking HELP ME RIGHT NOW!

She can’t make […]

9/1/2011 2 comments

losing strength..

by lone wolf 8/29/2011

written by lone wolf

Today is one of the days I donÂ´t know, why I am still around. The whole day I wondered about being here and I wondered about my life so far and what the future might bring for me. The conclusions are not good.

My family is a growing pain in my ass. It was bad for a long time before, but since my dads death in january it is getting worse and worse. I wonder when IÂ´ll reach the deepest dark. And if I am able to stand up again. Right know, I donÂ´t think so.

After July I felt really good and confident â€“ I met […]

8/29/2011 3 comments

Gah

by Jasminexhelpme 8/28/2011

written by Jasminexhelpme

So i took 40allergy pills on purpose obviously . its just been so rough i really dont give a shit any more say blauh thats stupid why werent you knocked out cold?!?!?! allergy pills make you sleepy idfk! okay but what ever on one hand i want to live because of certain peopl on the other im just tired of shit!!!! my family !!! my grandma my best friend just died & my father the reason i was living to see him again died also ! with in 7 months !!!!! what the fuck!!! i just like to swera and th […]

8/28/2011 2 comments

My Last Breath (Reply to gothicgirl and imyouroldman)

by Diamondonalandmine 8/27/2011

written by Diamondonalandmine

To be honest I have SO much pressure on myself for the future.
Not by my parents, not by my friends, no from myself.
I have an autistic brother who has stage 3 autism (basically can talk like a baby but is really smart, most of his classmates are abl to talk but not my brother.) and I have to take care of him when I’m older.
Meaning I have to get a good job and right now in high school I’m in all applied classes cuz I’m too dumb to gras anything academic, including math….ew.
But I just have so low self woth that […]

8/27/2011 5 comments

I don’t know what to do….

by Disenchanted 8/26/2011

written by Disenchanted

This month has been surreal.

On the 31st of July an old friend of mine took her life.

It’s so strange because out of the two of us, I thought it’d be me.

I feel the need to share this with people who understand suicide and depression. I’ve changed all the names as this is pretty recent.

Sunday 31st July 4:00 pm

I’m watching TV with my mum, we are about to head over to my Nanna’s. We watched the end of the show and leave. I don’t remember exactly what I was thinking the moment before,Â but something caught my eye.

The railway police, were stopped by a crossing. My […]

8/26/2011 4 comments

Could it be suicide?

by iwiwd 8/25/2011

written by iwiwd

Today I just realized that my husband’s death of 5 years ago may have been a suicide. There was no autopsy because it was thought to be heart failure at the time, and his remains were cremated. But looking back on the events of the last two days of his life lead me to believe that he may have been testing me to see if I would stop him from dying and that I failed the test. No wonder I was so angry at him after he died! He was playing a game with me, and I was unaware of it […]

8/25/2011 0 comment

All about timing

by riiowop 8/24/2011

written by riiowop

I was going to write a story like so many before me detailing my previous suicide attempt and how I failed at even that but my story isnt worth retelling.

My life has been one of deprivation, whether it was food, clothes or an education Iâ€™ve missed out on pretty much all of it. I did get my state funded high school certificate though, yay me. Essentially Iâ€™ve reached a point now where im unemployable, I have skills and abilities and an intense drive to succeed in whatever I do yet with these attributes still no one will give me a chance.

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8/24/2011 1 comment

3AO1 (upside down)

by RogueShadow1281 8/22/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

I drown myself in my own self pity. All I want to do now is be with a girl, hold her tightly, kiss her, anything as long as I show deep appreciation and sincerity towards her. Of course, this is just my desperation for happiness that I believe I deeply deserve, but I don’t actually deserve anything. It’s not my mind that I’m telling myself I need a girlfriend. I might be having hormones or maybe anxiety or lust. I don’t know, but I have cold chills at the thought of school starting in less than one day… I thought I had at least 4 […]

8/22/2011 4 comments

Yup, depressed again…

by RogueShadow1281 8/21/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

Either I’m depressed again. Or I just hate when people take away my mic for ps3 because I spoke loudly or the firt time the whole day and she flipped out. Now I feel depressed again. I feel happy that it’s back, in a way. Probably because I believe my old habits make me at ease. Or that’s how I interpret it. I allow myself, with my 16 year old and oxygen deprived mind, to believe that is why… My uncle came home with bloody hands (I of course am not British, I am Mexican and not proud of it) because he got in a […]

8/21/2011 2 comments

I Was Nothing

by Chelsii 8/16/2011

written by Chelsii

I thought I was nothing once…
It seemed I was a small, insignificant part of the world, and when I died everything would keep moving forward as if I didn’t ever existed in the first place. My hopelessness… my struggles… they were all too much for me. I was ready to die, not knowing what was on the other side, but hoping it was better than the hell I was living.

I was two years old when my parents divorced. I was the daughter of a 24 year old Sunday School Teacher and a beautiful 18 year old High School Graduate, but others in our community […]

8/16/2011 18 comments

by unbecoming 8/14/2011

written by unbecoming

Out of sight, out of mind
Swept beneath
Laid to rest
Out of sight, out of mind
It will not hold
It cannot be contained

Let the waves carry you

Let it flow

Let yourself be taken.

Swim against it

Keep moving forward

Push it all away.

Some waves lift you up

Others will pummel you down.

You choose your direction

Should you stop, all is undone.

You will lose energy

You will lose air

Get up

Keep going

Falling […]

8/14/2011 2 comments

Headaches are back

by RogueShadow1281 8/14/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

i choked and the headaches and sensitivity at night to sound are back but at least I’m helping someone learn how to suicide properly. I’m a 16 yearold boy with a brain filled with information “Not for the weak or faint-hearted” like the ranger handbook I got that is close to worthless but still okay. I know more than him about the cartoids even though I don’t know if it’s an artery or what, probably, but I do know from common sense that if you block it you knock out and I do that on a nearly daily basis. I went a good 3 weeks […]

8/14/2011 26 comments

A bad week.

by ThatPsychoBitch 8/13/2011

written by ThatPsychoBitch

Too much fighting, yelling, crying…

Greed, death, loss…

I’m sick of everything.

I’m close to losing it…

My fiancee finally got his personal injury settlement… Which was less than half of what was anticipated…

My father was pissed because he wanted more than 800$ but we couldn’t give him 1500$ unless he wanted us to be broke…

He basically called my fiancee useless, and that he wasn’t his kid evenÂ thoughÂ 2 months ago he said he was like one to him,

we ended up giving him 2300$ out of the 400$ in the end… I officially hate my father and want to gtfo the second I get my fucking GED.

My fianceeÂ threatenedÂ to leave me […]

8/13/2011 2 comments

I’m thinking of a title… My life is just beginning? Naw idk

by RogueShadow1281 8/10/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

Today, I woke up from a dream that I had an older brother that I could look up to, he was thought to be cool and all that. In the dream, I thought of how much of a disappointment I would be to him. First time in my life I, or my dreams, thought how pitiful and disappointing I am by actually addressing it. I felt sad about it, and woke up afterwards disoriented and sad. It’s 2 am again and Ive decided to post again. My uncle was making fun saying how in that dream did that older brother rape me or do stuff […]

8/10/2011 3 comments

just dont know anymore

by aroxx 8/8/2011

written by aroxx

well im 16 but ive been through a lifetime of hardship and heartache i mean ive been down and out for yars and writng or typing it out helps and ive never had anyone to are to see if that would help i men i truely have wanted to commit suicide and yes ive cut myself and tried pill but i just cant do it because of my fiance i think she cares but she just dousnot understand what ive been through well to start off my dad was a heavy alcoholic and he had an accident when i wa sin 5th grade and then […]

8/8/2011 1 comment

Confused…. As usual

by RogueShadow1281 8/7/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

my depression, like the scar on my forehead. It is stuck with me. It will never go away. Except my depression comes and goes as it pleases, makes eme sad and angry occasionally and normal and content other days. Never truly happy though, but I’m better than my major depression a few months ago. I’ve choked so much, my past is new to me. Reality and dreams are hard to comprehend and I can’t figure which is which. Music from Matisyahu reminds me of Nycolle. My brain is completely set on the idea that I have no reason to live. My morals and values are […]

8/7/2011 3 comments

A bit of a dilemna

by sheggy6 8/6/2011

written by sheggy6

Have any of you guys ever moved countries?
Like full country moving not within the same country?
I have 4 times in my life (If anybody wishes to know it’s Germany [Born there] Scotland Australia Canada and Switzerland [current]) already and am only 14 years of age.
The sad thing happens to be the fact Â whenever I’m in any of the schools I have this wierd stroke of the first year always being the one I fight for.
I have the tendency of straightening my hair and putting it in front of my left eye. This of course sparked the typical response of “Hey look […]

8/6/2011 4 comments

Heroin Rope

by screaminfetus 7/30/2011

written by screaminfetus

Welp James you couldnt kick heroin so you went and hung yourself… i guess you are not such a loser… you finished life… man this sucks he died by suicide 07/29/2011

7/30/2011 2 comments

Idk what a good title for this would be… World’s Greatest Dad (movie)

by RogueShadow1281 7/30/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

I hear the heartbeat in my ears and neck. I haven’t choked in a while. Its hard to breathe (but I could be just thinking I am). I’m watching World’s Greatest Dad about a guy who has a hard time with his son. His son calls everything a fag as in gay or bad. His son is really into auto-erotic asphyxiation and he got caught doing it. The sad part, the dad sees him dead because he choked for 2 long. He decides to make it look like a suicide, with a not and him hanging from his closet. Probably to hide the shame that […]

7/30/2011 0 comment

suicide thoughts

by diddyman 7/26/2011

written by diddyman

My best friend last year died in a suicide.Â His wife had cheated on him and I knew he was dangerous and I tried to save him and his career without involving authorities.Â One day he failed to check in at work and I suspected the worse and visited his home.Â I opened the door and he was laying in front of me where he had shot himself with a very high powered rifle.Â The stuff was everywhere. My heart hit the floor.Â Ever since then I made contact with an old close friend that happened to have been a married woman.Â At that very […]

7/26/2011 3 comments

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