Not suicide related, although the constant judgement when one is poor might be enough to feel that way.

Endless examples of what kind of judgments can occur:
Y: you, yourself
O: the other person

Y: sorry I can’t afford to go to a cafe for a coffee together with you
O thinks to themself ‘what a pathetic person, can’t even afford a coffee!’

Y does not look ‘rich’ enough, looks ‘poor’ =
Constant judgement from friends (if you have such) and family, and strangers who look down on you because of your appearance.

Y: sorry I can’t afford a day out with you
O thinks to themself ‘gosh, what […]

Distracting myself until I die is the only thing I can think of doing…

https://www.lhlic.com/consumer-resources/green-burial/

https://www.buzzfeed.com/sallytamarkin/things-you-can-do-with-your-body-after-you-die

A reason for suicide, one may feel, would be to stop hir carbon footprint.  the average carbon footprint for someone in the US is 16 tons!  one may feel the world is overpopulated, and in some cities, it is.  Human beings are causing massive damage to the earth and the oceans are being flooded with our trash.

if one doesnt go through with taking ones own life after all possessions given away and donated, then you can make an impact on the environment and lesson ones carbon footprint by driving less, consuming less products, recycling, cleaning your local trails and parks, stop eating meat

Act like a […]

This panel speaks to me today. Poorly Drawn Lines is the comic, in case you want to look it up yourself.

People saying “unaliving” (ex- he tried unaliving himself) instead of “he tried killing himself” or “he tried to commit suicide.”

Anyone else find it super annoying that on some sites, we can’t even say “suicide” or “killing” or “died”? Not just the use of the word “unaliving” but other new made-up words in lieu of suicide words. I mean, changing the word isn’t going to do a goddamn thing about depression and suicide. If people ACTUALLY wanted to help depressed people, they would do it. Simply using different words doesn’t do anything, and it doesn’t change anything.

It took me 8 disappointing years to get the job I have right now. 4 months into the first opportunity and I’m on the brink of suicide. The sense of failure is somewhere buried beneath an urgency to escape the job itself as soon as I can. But there is no back up plan after quitting. Having to start over again, interviewing and pretending I’m well and put together long enough to find another job is something I literally can’t image surviving. It would be my 4th time starting over in a year.

Things I did before no longer seem to be options. There is a day […]

I have lost what mental fortitude I have. I feel like my life has only served to hurt others and am just two cowardly to kill myself. I have a objectively good life which I don’t deserve. I have friends who put up with me out of the kindness of their hearts but whom I know I drag down every time I see them. I see every day that I am a burden to my family and my only wish in life is to be of some use somehow. I am unintelligent, and this only burdens others further, as they have to constantly keep me […]

A very brief list of celebs with depression.
There’s MANY MANY more.

Katy Perry
Jon Hamm
Lady Gaga
Michael Phelps
Kristen Bell
Bruce Springsteen
Gwyneth Paltrow
Ashley Judd
Naomi Judd
Ryan Phillippe
J.K. Rowling

Lili Reinhart
Miley Cyrus
Jared Padalecki
Sarah Silverman
Cara Delevingne
Jon Hamm
Owen Wilson
Demi Lovato
Wayne Brady
Kerry Washington
Sheryl Crow
Neal Brennan

As of now, I am in recovery. At least I like to think so. Looking back, it crushes me to realize that didn’t know I was suicidal. So much of my suffering was spent without knowing I was suffering. Well I’m glad I know now. To give more context, I was officially diagnosed with depression in around september of 2022. So, kind of recently. But I knew I’d been depressed for a lot longer before I even got diagnosed. I’d tried everything to feel better. I consistently exercised, had a good diet, straight A student, great friends, wonderful partner, and an amazing circle in general. […]

https://pagesix.com/article/celebrity-deaths-2022/

Holy cow, there’s A LOT of celebrity deaths just in 2022 alone.
Many of them don’t list a cause of death. Only three explicitly is listed as suicide. Many of the young ones we can probably assume was suicide/drugs/etc.

I have a collection of hundreds of these pictures, mostly to print out and tack to my walls…. but I rarely share. Somehow, I think some of you might enjoy them too

You see, I believe that the horrors of this world are us, we are the thing humanity fears and averts it’s eyes at. If there is supernatural evil, it would ally with creatures such as I. Secrecy and fear, it’s all any of us really have going.

It occurs to me that to some these might be nightmare fuel. Life is the nightmare, this is the wake up call. Also I didn’t make most of […]

I can’t believe I never heard of her before.
She is the the actual singer of Never Enough from The Greatest Showman

Loren Allred- You Say

https://www.yourtango.com/2012128420/heartbreak-real-says-new-research

Whelps, it’s real folks. We can actually die from heartbreak.
“In 2018, researchers from the Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center found that a person’s risk of suffering from a heart attack increases by 21 times in the first 24 hours after losing a loved one.”

And if we can die from heartbreak, I’m sure we can die from loneliness, depression and despair too.
But sadly for depression, it is SLOWLY killing us, slow and torturous, rather than the instant peaceful death many of us wish for.

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from author of this video…

“We live in a world plagued with toxic optimism where people are pressured into taking the position that “life is good”. Those who claim otherwise are labeled “negative”, “defective”, or “mentally ill”. We are programmed to feel ashamed for even entertaining the idea that life may not be worth living.

This is why I came up with the “honk experiment”. A part of TRTNLE is to create an environment where people can speak honestly about their distaste for life without judgment… even if it is communicated by a simple car horn.”

Here is the video:

What do you guys think?

I feel that reading the lyrics to DSBM songs helps me to understand my depression and feelings of despair more.

I think this genre of musick is so beautiful but sorrowful, and full of deep emotional pain and Catharsis.

Home again, safe, and everything is calm, quiet even.

I always thought I was anti ascetic, self denial seemed like an easy escape from failure… and I’m not saying that’s wrong.

What I’m noticing is how going without makes having the sweeter. I won’t impose it on myself, we’re entering the season of spiritual fasting, lent. Silly, silly idea. I just lived without my bed, my dog, and my computer for seven days. It wasn’t too bad either, because we were all dealing with missing our comforts of home.

I saw an awesome concert though! I also got to listen to some live music while eating amazing pizza […]

There is an incalculable amount of eternities and infinities outside of time.

But, There is to much inner work that needs to be worked through and dealt with, as a human being in this point and time (especially when feeling heavy and depressed), to die.

If i commit the act of suicide my soul will be forced back in time against my will by Higher Forces, and i will be in the same situation i am now, but i will not have known my Soul was sent back after killing myself. I would have split into a new timeline, but one where i stay alive. The Inner […]

Leona Lewis- Run

so hauntingly beautiful…and so sad
the lyrics hits deep

If only I had that someone who care that much for me…