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Dont care anymore

November 4th, 2009by vbenja

im a 21 female in college. i have been dealing with depression since i was 14. i recently have gone through some emotional battles. i have developed insomnia due to the amount of stress i have encumbered. i recently had a failed suicide attempt. i thought i was strong enought to deal with my emotions, since i have been in therapy and medications for some time. I guess not. I hate being in this dark world and the light feels like it is a thousand miles away. i just want to give up on everything so i dont have to deal with life anymore. i …

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Here to talk to you

November 4th, 2009by Dandalf

This is to anyone, anywhere, anytime – feel free to message me if you need to talk about anything – whether its help with your problems, if you want to confide in someone, or just a chat to keep your mind occupied – I’ll be here.

dan_372@hotmail.co.uk

Hope to be hearing from you soon 🙂

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I don’t know what to do anymore.

November 3rd, 2009by Zakulover101

I’ve been feeling so bad for a while now like  just awful… and this happens when school starts. I just get really deppresed and I get really bad grades because I don’t want to do my homwork becasue I just can’t I mentally and physically can’t. I hate it, because that’s not who I am. I want to go to school and get a good education without having all this fucking stress. I mean I do have deppresion, but my counsler says my deppresion isn’t big enough to take medication. I try to be happy and I just can’t. Like my mind has wiped Happy …

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13, depressed, and maybe bipolar. please help me/

November 3rd, 2009by jmnr

I’m thirteen years old. And i’m depressed. I know i am. I havent been tested or going to therapy, because i havent told anyone because i dont have anyone that would keep my secret a secret. lately, i’ve been contemplating whether im bipolar or not. I’ve never noticed it until recently. How can i tell?? I cut myself, drink when i cant take it anymore, and constantly try to get high-like feeling off of excedrine. I lost the one person that cared for me. And everytime i think of how he doesnt talk to me anymore, i get really depressed and quiet. I want to …

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Do you really think God will help EVERYBODY?

November 2nd, 2009by Amy3m

No offence, I just don’t think so.  Not that I don’t believe in God, on the contrary, I believe there is God and I’m sure he helps a lot of people.  I just don’t think EVERYBODY can be saved.  I know some good people, really really good people experienced some really bad experience, some of them even killed themselved.  If they were saved, how come they succeeded in killing themselves?  Why?

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PLEASE let me help

November 2nd, 2009by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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So confussed.

November 2nd, 2009by kari

I’m 18 year’s old..i’ve always had suicidal thought, i was a cutter for 3 year’s then started doing cocaine to try to fix the fucked up feeling’s in me. I stopped cutting and doing drug’s and got onto anti-depressent’s they seemed to work really well i finally felt what i assumed normal people feel like, but because im going to be 19 in a week or so im going to be cut off my mom’s drug plan witch is making the anti-depressents way to expensive to afford so im slowly being weined off them and im back to feeling my old self, and i hate it. …

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November 2nd, 2009by California86

I’m new here, but I’ve felt suicidal on and off for as long as I can remember. I used to think it was my imagination, that it would go away with time, a book, meeting new people, so I used my imagination, and pretended I was okay.
But every year my birthday comes and I surprise myself, thinking, wow, I’ve lived this long, and secretly, I regret it.

With every year I have learned to imitate being okay, but everyday I go home and turn into me. Me, who was abused and raped repeatedly as a child and teen, me who couldn’t afford to be “pro-life” and …

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I’m 17 and wanna kill myself

November 2nd, 2009by heidamin

I’ve been reading posts on this site for a while now, but I never thought about posting myself. But things have gone out of hand, and I maybe just need this.

Soon I’ll be moving back to England (I’ve been living in Spain for 15 years now) but my father won’t be coming with us. I’ve resently discovered that he’s got a drinking problem (alcoholic) and if he doesn’t stop drinking he will die in less than 10 years. I’m scared.

Also because it will be me and my mum alone, and if I did what I planed to do since I was 13 (kill myself when …

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I dont know anymore.

November 2nd, 2009by Ashleigh

Ok, I apologize at how mixed up this all is, I dont really no how to order it properly, so its just gonna change around alot. And i’m not really even sure if i want to write all this stuff up here, But it seems a few people are getting help from this sight, So i thought maybe it could help me too. Maybe. Allthough i kinda doubt it. But i cant talk about any of this kinda stuff with my friends or family or anyone i know. So yeah, Soz. I’m 14, a girl, And I just cant concentrate on anything anymore, Im failing …

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My final days

November 2nd, 2009by Daniel21

Im a 14 year old guy and have been depressed for 6 years. I cut, i had’nt eaten in a week until my parents forced me 2 last night(no i am not anarexic, i am just not hungry anymore), i only sleep wen i pass out from exaustion and i wake up every few minutes because of sum very fucked up nightmares, and i am starting 2 hallucinate things. I have missed school for months at a time because i have been way 2 depressed 2 even go there, and the only way that i got out of school 4 so long is because i lied and made it …

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Cutter

November 2nd, 2009by JordanJennifer

I’m 19 years old and I’m a cutter.

I’ve never kept friends very long and I can’t remember my last real ‘happy’ day.

My brother died on me five years ago and today wou’dve been his 21st birthday.

I currently have one true ond only friend only she gets angry and completely shuts down when she sees my cuts. I don’t do it for attention and I don’t even mean for her to see them. It just happens. Like when I’m changing or If I’ve just gotten out of the shower.

I just need someone to understand I guess.

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My Final Goodbye

November 1st, 2009by canttakethepain

I had it all, I really had it all. For so many years I thought i was the luckiest person in the world. I loved playing football, I loved school and most of all i loved my beautiful mother and my family. What was once a dream turned into a nightmare that just wont stop? I’m a good and quiet kid, why won’t this demon like me alone. The day I lost my mother my whole life has changed. my heart is like a puzzle. I needed my mother to complete it. All my pieces are gone now. I watched my own mother die in …

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Dream

November 1st, 2009by battle89

I dream a dream where all is well.
I dream a dream where I am understood, I am not called hard-hearted or proud or selfish.
In my dream I am not afraid. I am not in pain. I am not ashamed. I am not alone.

I am not in darkness, but light.

I am loved and loving.
I am free.

Ahh…but reality beckons and the shadow swells.
The pills look more and more alluring.
THINK. If I take these pills I won’t ever have to wake up and maybe…..just maybe…I’ll dream a dream, forever.

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Teenagers… the facts…

November 1st, 2009by SiLvEr_PoIsOn

Okay so… most adults think that teens are like… “that kid who went and got drunk and went off driving for the fun of it…”. That we’re just over reacting to things and that we don’t understand how lucky we are or whatever. But you know what, i do know, well, not entirely but i’ve heard, i’ve seen, i’ve thought. I may not be in other situations , but i know. I AM lucky, but there are also things that aren’t happy in my life, as there is in probaly everyones. Teens aren’t just “dumb kids” or foolish. I wonder how many adults actually think …

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Still Dealing with Depression & Suicidal thoughts

November 1st, 2009by CSimpson0031

Since then I have attempted suicide 3 times

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please let me help

November 1st, 2009by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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i’m in major depression . crititical stage .

November 1st, 2009by RunningInHeels

i wanna die, dear peoples.

i’ve been abused emotionally and physically by my brother whom now i didn’t consider him as part of my siblings anymore.

i’ve lost my beloved and loving father in 2006. and i felt like he took away my happiness with him too.

i hate seeing my mother keep back ups that bloody brother even though he didn’t finish his studies and now he still unemployed and he’s staying with my mother’s money!

i feel like i wanna shoot him!

i feel like i wanna kill him right now!

i wanna see him die!

my bf also just left me.

i’m alone and i hate life.

life is so unfair.

i …

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hate life

November 1st, 2009by Razorbladekiss

im 17,lesbian.This halloween was the 1st i felt i had absolutly nothing.I hate like,i hate liveing. Nothing matters anymore.I try to smile to please other, its all fake.I hate wakeing up every morning,wishing for death..attempted 8 suicides already. idk what to do now

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My First Empty Halloween

October 31st, 2009by steveagain

This is the first Halloween of my life I spend alone. No friends, no girl…just me. Alone.

I fear for Thanksgiving. And Christmas. How will all of these holidays work out? Personally, I just can’t wait for the new year. A new year is a new beginning, I hope.

Someone email me. I’m not suicidal…I guess…but I’m alone. I need someone.

variousartists_ftw@yahoo.com

 

Happy halloween…I guess.

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