10-7-10 is todays date…sometimes i wonder why or even how ive lived this long. with all the pain and sorrow i’ve been through; with all the help that has come to me. but yet hasnt even cracked my shell. 20 years of my life time spent in misery but all i can do for now is live day by day with a fake smile on my face. A new home. a new living inviroment. the past is now gone and now i live for the present. with all the stress i deal with the only way to get through life is by using drugs. Drugs […]
So I fell asleep with thoughts of ending my life on my birthday. I contemplated on how Id do it, the things Id use and how long it would take…. Then sleep fell upon me. I ended up dreaming of rain followed by gray charcoal skies. Im not sure what it meant or what it was trying to get at, but I woke up hoping for the best of my day. I get to school and yea my thoughts of loosing hope fade as they do every morning, untill I get to english. My teacher says “well arent you looking “kinda” cute. I followed by a […]
Seems strange at my age to be at a site like this, at 13 I was told it would pass, simply grow out of it. Instead hear I sit as I always have late in the night, pondering the “yes or no” question of tomorrow. I’ve toured around this site and seen alot of young writers out there scratching at this same itch and it has pained me. I wouldn’t doubt that most here would agree its a state of mind one would not wish on their worst enemy.
So in my hopes to help at least a single person out there with my experience I […]
Hello,
I am new to this, so I am posting my first thing.
I am a person. My outer appearance is nothing like the words that I type. My exterior is a costume. An act, a show. Yet, I am confused if that person of what the others percieve of me, is what I percieve of myself. I am a fourteen year old teenager. My thoughts wonder. I think I am going insane. I am always analysing the differant views and perspectives of everything. Mostly my situations. I have so much to deal with, but it’s not my problem. It’s other problems of others that surround me. […]
I don’t know who you (reader) are or what your deal is, but I’ve got a very simple idea. Everyone on this site feels more or less fucked. EVERYONE feels worthless. Pain, sadness, suffering – we all share these feelings.
So why on earth do we all feel alone?
My idea is that we – all of us who have ever considered suicide, people who know what pain is, or even people who just want the world to change – should get together as a community, even if it’s only an online community to start. We should share our ideas, but not like we do on this […]
Im 17 and completly lost. My birthday isnt too far. My life isnt as hard as others might have it. Everythin in it is fine, but myself. I dont have a clue to why I often feel so alone and helpless. Even in the days that I wake up happy and feeling great: behind everything im feeling overhelmed. Im very emotional but I try my beat to control it. Ive overdose twice in my life but have failed only to make myself look stupid. I dont have many friends but the few I have i am grateful for. They know of my atempts to kill […]
any point to continue? I think I’ve set myself up for too much and have a hard time continuing, glad I found this site and am able to read, at least, that others have problems too, very difficult……..I think I f@c$%d up my life so bad that there is not a lot of hope for me, I want to be married, children, etc. but I’ve screwed up, don’t know if it’s possible for me……I’m in a very lonely place, I hate this feeling, I don’t want to be alone forever, but have a hard time getting things right in relationship and I’m getting older so […]
So, I’ve been feeling like shit for the past 15 years of my life.. that’s since I was about 6 or 7. I have a mum who puts me down constantly, I was bullied at school and made to feel constantly not good enough by everyone. I know it’s just my way of thinking, but I seriously think my friends would be better off without me moping around feeling sorry for myself. Up until now it has been my friends that have kept me alive, that convinced me to go to University and do something with my life.
I chose clinical psychology as my course, […]
im 14 and i tried slitting my wrists but it didnt work……..i even took a REALLY hot bath before i did and…well……yea didnt work. my moms a ***** she calls me names all the time and hits me, my dad raped me when i was 5 then left i have litterally no friends everyone calls me “sooty suicide” because of my large scars on my wrists, i just wanna die so i dont have to dream of all the horror and shitty-ass memories i had. my boyfriend of 3 months cheated on me, with my best friend…. im uglier than the child of rosie o’donnel […]
i’ve been having suicidle thoughts.. and im only 14.. i just want to hang myself and its done. i have a online boyfriend. family doesnt support me at all for that.. he is 14 also.. i feel as if im just not speacial fo him.. at school im just ‘Caroline’.. just a Caroline… I suck at gym.. no one wants me.. and for him hes athletic, has alot of friends ..and he doesnt know this side of me.. the suicidal side of me.. anyways, as if they would care if i was gone forever and i know my mom cares about me because once i was really […]
I’ve been there and return there sometimes, like today. With all the abundant advice, I’ll just add what worked for me and I don’t pretend, like brainwashed religious nuts, that it works for even the majority of you.
[hey christian zombie, why are you here promoting a god who commits suicide?]
Anyway, this worked for me, an aging crone who’ll likely never be loved again and is bullied by christians all her life–try to move where it’s sunny and warm year-round, learn to ride a big bike, work up to a heavy one (like harley) and join those of us who now ride to live and […]
There’s something I fail to understand about suicide, but I don’t mean to confuse anyone. I’ve been depressed for quite some time, and I, like so many others, see no point in life – any life at all. I understand what it’s like to yearn for death. So please understand that I know what pain is. I have a very important question for anyone who has ever felt this way.
Why us?
Well, I guess I’ll explain the question.
We are the sufferers in silence. We are the brothers and sisters who share a very important thing with one another: truth. We see the world for what it […]
to much pains of all kinds.bad doctor did bad malpratice now i,m very ill i nearly died it took all the life i had left ,i,m always thinking i,m a flux a mistake or why pples are so evil towards me,when i,m only trying to wake up eacht day to suffer more and more ,physivall pains mental painns heart pains all over pains but yet still a lot of terrible illnesses makes me incapable of living a simple life
i think im ugly and i know everyone else does too but what do you think?
I have slowly but surely been getting my helium hood together so when that day comes when I really have had enough, I can just do it and be free from all the suffering. I was lucky enough to discover that even after you are unconscious, your body will still try to live so you can remove the bag from your head and live (NOT the intended result) so I had to start improvising and figure out a way to hand cuff myself to a chair AND restrain my neck so that I can’t pull the bag off. I am glad that I know to […]
I just recently turned 16 and I’ve never told anyone what goes running through my mind. I am always thinking, and during those major breakdowns that I’ve constantly been having, I have many suicidal thoughts. During my breakdowns, I cry and think and ALWAYS, cry as low as possible. I’ve never cried out loud. I feel the need to SCREAM until I’ve lost my breath or maybe pass out because of lack of oxygen, but I can’t. I fear my younger siblings will hear me. I don’t want them to see me cry. I’ve always kept myself from crying in front of them, even during […]
Most of you who will read this post will most likely think i’m not thinking straight or advise me to look at other problems that others are suffering then look at myself but it’s not about that. I just really wonder if there is anyone that could relate to me or even slightly understand me without any judgements. I am a senior in high school this year. About my life, well i’m a good student with good grades and i have friends, a family that cares and i’m also an athlete. But my problem is something different that combines all. I am really tired of […]
The tumor that took my vision, did so, by smashing and thus killing my optical nerves. So that means that if you look at me, my eyes appear fine (as they are) so I have to make a really quick decision as to how I want to deal with who ever it is I am talking to…….do I want to try to nutshell the fact that I was blinded by a HUGE brain tumor and tell them that I can’t see real well OR just act as though I am fine (even though I am clearly not ok) So when people see me texting or […]