I’m  26 years old, smart, interesting, beautiful, and lately every guy I go out with falls in love with me. Even my ex-boyfriend leaves love letters and roses on my doorstep more days than not. I get exercise, and sunshine. I have a nice apartment and some decent friends. I was accepted recently to a presitigious graduate school. Yesterday I was supposed to meet with my advisor and choose my fall classes and then head back out to the woods where I am teaching at a wilderness survival summer camp for teenage boys and girls, but I found myself unable to enter the building. Wracked with indecision, I walked around […]

I’ve felt low. I’ve felt empty. I’ve felt alone. I’ve even felt like I wanted to end my life. But it wasn’t until a few days ago I actually felt the need and…preparation to kill myself.

 

Lately I’ve felt hollow. Like I’m watching my life play out on auto-pilot without me interfering. I’ve been lying to my therapist and parents, slapping on a happy face and saying I’m alright when really I feel more low than I’ve ever imagined one could feel.

 

The reason is a girl […]

Is it normal to be having suicidal thoughts?

I’m 18, And I don’t think I’d act on the thoughts, But when I start to think about my future, I see me failing, And sometimes think it would be better to end things now. I want to go to school, And be able to have a future, But I’m so self conscious about my body I don’t want to go to school, Because I don’t like people seeing me like this.

My dad died when I was younger, My brother and the rest of my family dislikes me. Besides my mom, She is all I have but she […]

i have always hated myself and everything to do with me i cant even look at a photo of myself and i cant seem to do anything right and everyone keeps quitting on me so whats the point in living? sure im only 14 but thats 14 years of pain let me help you understand a little i am a 14 year old girl living in care i have had 6 different placements in seven years and to top it off im bi so nothing seems to be going very well my therapist quit on me today so that makes three  of them  i have […]

For years all I’ve been wanting is to die. I never thought I’d kill myself, but I just wished that I’d get into a car accident and die. But lately I’ve just been feeling worse and worse. Today, I actually sat down and tried to decided what the best way to kill myself would be. I can’t believe I’ve got to this point.

My life isn’t bad; nothing earth shattering has ever happened to me. Except for some molestation issues when I was younger, but I barely remember it and can’t think it’s affected me all that much. I just think about my future and can’t […]

i dont know wat da bloody hell i m doing here but it hardly matters to me know as i dont think nething is personal in ma life………
But i do wana express my feelings to so let it be here only.
I m frm Delhi,India i hav had a alot of friends but i dont like any of them know the babe who loved me has only played with my heart nd knw my parents nd sis hates me…..dad thinks i m a dopist which i m nt nd he doesnt let a single moment to skip from his hands to abuse me …… […]

I’m going to apologize, to begin with, in case anyone sees the next few paragraphs as ridiculous (you probably will).

I absolutely cannot go on. What was keeping me back before has now dissipated, and I have no doubt in my mind this is what I am going to do.

Yesterday, I was lucky enough to look into my brothers email account. There I found all the elicit emails between him and his horrible girlfriend. Their topic of choice? How they detest me for making them part. Emails to all my former friends, as well. Every single email. Just looking at the words she wrote gave me […]

I really never wanted to write a post on this website.  Or I guess I do it’s just that I hate it when people judge me but oh well.  It’s not like I have anything more to lose anyway so here goes…

I just don’t understand why dying is such a bad thing.  I really don’t get it.  Like why does everyone act like I’m such a freak just because I don’t want to live anymore?  Is it because life really is supposed to be this wonderful perfect happy gift that never stops giving?  Well if thats the case then I should really kill myself because […]

I have experienced too much pain and to little joy in my young life.

i have always feelt unease with myself since aslong as i remember but 3 years ago i had enough, enough of people mocking me or making me a laughing stock, i started to do something i never thought i’d do and that was planing my own suicide and even writing a big letter to people (Family at most) and 4 people that i have keep in touch with thanks to a suicidal chat.

Today its gone 3 years since i planed my suicide but i still havnt done it, im overwhelmed with guilt […]

this is getting posted here because if any one apart from my family actualy give 2 fucks
they would find it and know who it was from. First i want to clear this up i have been a complete dick to people
that have no problem with me, i have been a dick becuase i try to impress people and try to belittle them and you
know the rest i try to fit in but it dosnt work instead of making friends i make enemies my insecurities could
destroy me in a flash i try to look “hard” by looking like i have none but […]

I can’t live this way anymore. My best friend gave me a lecture about me killing myself, and now hates me. My one friend, Paige, doesn’t even ACT like she cares. I’m probably depressed, I wanna kill myself, and I have thought of running away multiple times (I would have nowhere to go….). My life is one big hell. My dad hit me when I was three, has been verbally abusive since, hit me again when I was seven, and juSt plain pisses me off. My parents argue often now, and I’ve decided next time they get in a fight, I’m running and not coming […]

I’ve been “struggling” with depression since I was nine; I’m thirty-three now. I have been on hundreds of medications and finished sixteen rounds of ECT (8 unilateral, 8 bilateral) in May. Long story short, things are not better.

I feel a huge amount of guilt and fear about leaving my husband behind, but I can no longer distract myself from the fact that I want it to end and it doesn’t seem that is going to happen. I have been severely depressed, unable to go to school, unable to even bathe, for three and a half years now. I love my husband more than I knew […]

I have spent the entire day in a fight. A fight with myself, with my boyfriend, with my life. I don’t want to do this anymore. I am so filled with anger and hate that I can’t stand to be around myself. This has been going on for a long time. I am a college graduate and looking at med school, but right now I don’t feel like I am good enough to even get in. I am taking science prereq’s and I just got a C on my last A & P exam. I feel so stupid. It doesn’t help that I have an […]

I’m so tired and so confused. Everyday, I find myself worrying and trying to keep up with my smiles. It’s been difficult and tiring that I don’t know what to do anymore. During the day, with my family and with my friends, I’d be happy and always smiling. I would just laugh with everyone and generally feel so happy. I profess love to this guy everyday. I laugh with my friends at every joke. I play with my dog and have fun.

But when I’m all alone, I’ve always find it hard to stop myself from crying. I don’t know nor understand why I feel so […]

I really don’t know what to do anymore. My life is going downhill. My few friends are turning against me. It feels like nobody wants me here, so if I ended my life, everyone would be happier. I want to end my life, but I am too afraid to take the necessary actions to do so. I sleep eleven hours a night, which is three hours longer than I used to sleep, plus i wake up at 4 am and cant go back to sleep for about twenty minutes. I am rarely hungry and last night i felt really dizzy for about two hours. I […]

i just got out of long term on july 2. i was in long term for 3 months. it helped for the first week when i got out but now its way worse than before. i cut everyday multiple times, i bite myself, i scratch myself, i even burn myself. i dont know what to do. i dont want to go back to the hospital. im not crazy. i dont have a problem. i do this because i need to.

Okay well I know I’m young but i constantly have this thought I shouldnt be here anymore. I try to be happy, I try to be myself but deep down I just feel like being alone and crying. I have no idea what I want anymore. I see myself going nowhere In life. Ive thought about killing myself and everytime I try to I cant bring myself to do it because I think of how other people would feel. I dont know I’m just ranting, I’m sorry.

I’m not suicidal, but I used to be. I wish I knew five years ago what I know now, and I feel like I have to share it– So I’m sorry if this sounds preachy, because I really don’t mean for it to be.

When I was five my sister, Jen, killed herself with an intentional drug overdose. A decade later I was thinking about doing the same. I’d sit on the floor of my room every day after school and try to think of reasons not to end my life, with no luck. A couple of times I held a knife to my wrist, even […]

Well, to be honest I don’t know why I’m here. To be blunt some random guy in a gaming community suddenly linked me to this site out of the blue and I decided that what the heck, I’d share my story since I’ve had self-destructive if not suicidal thoughts lately.

My mother was my world, I was not close to any of my other immediate family members. She’d had cancer for nearly nine years when she finally passed away. My world and life collapsed. I spent a whole week doing nothing but lying in my room, I didn’t eat, I barely slept; I simply laid on […]

all i can think about lately is ending my life. these thoughts went away for awhile. i used to have them all the time when i was little, probably about 7 or 8. i don’t know why i’ve never been able to have happiness. the clues are that my mom worked all the time and i never knew my dad. i didn’t have friends or family growing up. i was very much a loner. i was raped when i was in high school and again, a few years ago. it’s my own fault both times–drinking and being around people who don’t care about you at […]