As I am getting close to another decade milestone, one I hoped I never reached, I feel like giving up.
I don’t feel sad. I just feel empty. As from many years ago, I have come a long way from the severe depression I used to have. (http://suicideproject.org/2009/12/perfect-life/)
I know what it is like to hate living life every second.
I don’t feel that way anymore.
I want to love people more who care about me, and check up on me. I want to have more sympathy for those people and their hard times.
But I’m like the Benedict Cumberbatch Sherlock. He doesn’t care about […]
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The Crazy Pun Challenge (Put your best foot forward and jog down some puns. hehe)
written by Take a Deep Breath
Ok guys, I have a challenge for all of you. By posting this and having you guys post your favorite pun (whether you deem it punny or not) I am hoping to inspire so joy in the hearts of those who are having a less-than-stellar day. So owl hope to hear some awesome puns that make me hoot with laughter! (heh, more bird puns)
Just those typical brain clouds again, swirling around, filled with negativity, hopelessness, death. I’m fantasizing about something I shouldn’t be but I just can’t help it. It’s not about beating my thoughts anymore, I’ve come to the conclusion that they are simply just there, and they will stay there most likely. It’s almost a peaceful feeling knowing that something is out of your control and you just have to accept it. They come and go, I try not to dwell on them but there are those times where I am just consumed. That is when I feel the most lost, when I am a victim […]
I just wanted to say that if you’re someone who’s going through a really tough time right now…..don’t give up on life. Really… just don’t. Stay alive……..Also stop getting so caught up with the media. Stop staring at the screen so much. And give your ears a break with those ear buds and those big bulky headphones. There’s someone out there making a profit off your inner sadness with those things. Don’t get me wrong ….music is awesome but for those of you who use it as a crutch to get through your day need to stop doing that. Stop using that crutch and start […]
Never Back Down = One of my fave movies
Fort Minor “Remember The Name” = Killz Theme song
Together = ultimate audio/visual megazord of awesome
Damn, in the last couple months I have been: fired, arrested, evicted, quit opiates cold turkey, and whatever else has gone wrong. Despite it all I’m doing alright. Working 16hrs. a day processing fish making good money. Free room and board and have made a bunch of awesome friends. Me and the homie went to look at apartments today and to look for permanent jobs. Life could be worse for me is all I’m saying, and I know it is worse for many of you. I’m sorry if you are in pain. All I can say is when life gives you lemons make lemonade, and […]
I’m 27 years old, and at the age of 25, I was living the dream. Great career, awesome woman, finances in check, nice car, and nice house. Life for me was starting to settle down. Life took a turn around when I was betrayed by the love of my life. In the span of two years and up to this day, I am sitting with zero dollars to my name. I lost my career due to tardiness, as I couldn’t sleep due to the devastation that took over my mind after the betrayal. Because of that, I lost my car, and my house. Only option […]
Anyone else noticing all of the newer people with amazing taste in music? 40 days. ICantDrownMyDemons. Sickfromthemelt. Yeah. You guys are fucking awesome. Just putting that out there.
It’s been a rough night. My anxieties are getting the best of me again and I’m not sure how to handle it. Work sucked. But Friday nights always do. I don’t know what’s eating me today. Will someone please buy me food and tell me I’m pretty? >_<
I haven’t lost him but he’s no loner mine, and that kills me. Out of all the people I have loved, envied and lost, he has made me cry more than any of them. The past week or so had been rough, quiet, vague. Then out of the blue he talks, blames me for what I’ve done, what can I say, he’s right. He doesn’t feel the same, of course he doesn’t. He gets over things so quickly. He still cares, but not the same way. He left because I was a shitty person and I hate myself for that. He won’t dare say it but […]
I don’t really have problems. My life is pretty awesome. I am surrounded by people who love me, I am likable, I am cute, and I make other people happy. I can’t really ask for more.
But there is a hollowness to all of it. An emptiness that I have felt for many years. And under that, a pain that I have been pushing down and burying deep, deep inside.
I don’t know why it hurts, just that it always has. When I think about it, I can feel it. I’m always aware of it. This terrible sucking, aching, vacuous throbbing that beats inside my chest and […]
Well, I don’t know what I am doing here. I have officially ruined everyone I am close to’s life. I had a best friend, the only one I’ve ever had, and I ruined it by being an ass. No surprise here. My family is so awesome, and I keep messing it up for them. I can’t stop, either. I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time, and I’ve basically lost all control of myself. I ruined my life a long time ago, but I deserved that. I don’t know how to stop. How does […]
There’s something that has been bugging me lately, and I would like some of your advices here.
One of my biggest problems is that I’m a nobody (or at least I feel like it). If I died today no one would know who the hell I was or they would forget about me pretty quickly. I have friends, but I often feel like I’m left apart, or that I don’t fit in. And there are a lot of people who I’d like to talk to or I would have liked to, but they don’t even know I exist. People who […]
I am so mad at myself that I feel this way! Why should I suffer when most people have it so much worse. I have a family that loves me, a boyfriend that is awesome, and friends that have my back. It’s just that lately my grades have dropped and I worry that I’m not fitting in. I cut like crazy, and I spend most of my time looking at percabeth fanfictions. I think that I might be going insane! My brothers are so much older than me, and they are amazing at everything. I think that it might be too late for me to […]
I’m tired of my life and don’t want to live any more. I used to be very much afraid that others might think I’m weird or stupid. That kept me from trying new things because I did not know how to behave in unknown situations. So my life is pretty much the same and very boring.
I tried killing myself but wasn’t able to give myself that little last push to actually do it. What I’m wondering now is, why I’m still not able to do the things I want. I mean I have no reason to be afraid of any consequences. I will die anyway. […]
Does anyone here take an antipsychotic? I have some personal questions I don’t want to post here. If you can kik me at darkestraven1218 that’d be awesome thanks
Which is not an easy thing to say, since it was about this same time last year that I was feeling the same way. My “Bete Noir” {Black Beast…it’s what I call my depressed self. I’m bipolar and my depressed self is NOT ME. This much I know to be true…} has surfaced and I’m in worse shape this year. I’ve lost my home; was fired from my job; lost everything I owned that was in storage for the past few years because I couldn’t afford the fees. Still have my old car but haven’t been able to afford insurance, so my license is probably […]
The dictators forced me to get a haircut so that I wouldn’t look like a long-haired stoner dude. Hey, not my fault I’m tall and and shaped like a rod. Plus they took my button-down shirts
Yay, the lady chopped off my hair to my chin, so now my hair curves at the end. My grandma says it’s “cute” and “brings out the color of my eyes.”
Yay, my aunt said I look tacky and that I was just trying to piss off my conservative grandmother, and that this was for attention because I (sullenly) endured dresses when I was five.
I’m a selfish piece of shit for […]
I think falling prey to a madman on a mass shooting spree would be pretty badass, or some hot girl to rip my heart out like in a mortal combat fatality. Either of those would be awesome.
21 years old.
A bowler
I failed out of college and my parents do not know. As of right now they could care less for me because I have recently told them I was gay and had a boyfriend who makes me very happy. But I failed. I tried getting back into college but it’s a hopeless cause. It was a snowball effect that started one day when I rode my bike home from campus last April and I got hit by a car. I missed two weeks of school and this semester my knee was in constant pain even after having surgery. I’m tired of […]