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nothing left

by 4beyondhelp 5/15/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

I don’t even know what to say. I told myself long ago that if I reached this point, I’d kill myself. I tried and it didn’t work, but now I have no way to do it, and since my mom is already apparently so crushed by just the tiny tidbit that I cut, I can’t make myself work up the strength to kill myself now anyway.

I’m not getting anything done, I barely show up to anything anymore, I don’t know how I’m getting away with all this. I’ve not been cutting even though I really deserve it now more than I have before because at […]

5/15/2016 5 comments

suicide is painless

by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany 5/13/2016

written by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany

The rope is here
I’ll find a use
I’ll kill myself
Put my head in a noose

Slowly loosing care.
Losing consciousness, I’m barely aware.
A promise that was broken.
My life is the key,
This time is a rollercoaster, oh
I wish you were here.

Divulge myself into loathe and hate.
I won’t last much at this rate.
Lying, dying, yet not one use.
The inevitable truth is forever my fate.

Goodbye cruel world, I wish you well.
I’ll take the clasp of the reaper,
And I’ll see you all in hell.

5/13/2016 3 comments

We were watching Tv….

by kismet 5/9/2016

written by kismet

The program showed scenes about assisted suicide. My 9yo daughter was watching. “Mummy, is that lady going to kill herself?” “Yes…..” Ok, I did not know that was going to happen all before 7.30pm. “Promise me you’ll never do that.” Me: “Ok…..”

5/9/2016 5 comments

kms

by jasal 5/9/2016

written by jasal

watch me try to kill myself and then fail again and cost my family another $10k in medical bills because our insurance is shit and the u.s. healthcare system fucking sucks

5/9/2016 1 comment

i dont know what to do

by haileewantstobehappy 5/7/2016

written by haileewantstobehappy

I’ve only posted on here so many times but I’ve never really gotten deep into how I feel or what my life is like, mainly because I know nobody cares, but right now, things are so hard and I just really really wanna kill myself. The days are emotions range, I’m never truly happy though. I don’t think I can be happy on this earth anymore. Not until I leave it but I’m just at a really awful point right now and I don’t know what I’m looking for I just want to kill myself and feel so incredibly alone it’s awful.

5/7/2016 11 comments

kill me pls

by wasd2333 5/7/2016

written by wasd2333

Here is me.

I am like the Great Attractor for bullies
Everybody around me are either sadists, bullies or a quiet bystander.
People accuse ME of something that I did NOTHING wrong.
I am suffering from severe depression.
I have thought about at least 3 suicidal thoughts when I go to school.
I HATE school.
99% of the time when I get bullied or when I fall down or get a cut NOBODY helps me.
Teachers do nothing about the bullying or sometimes even bully me.
People don’t quite understand me.
I get bullied AT LEAST 5 TIMES A DAY.
I am NOT exaggerating.
I just (by “just” I meant a week ago) took an online test, it said I am Type IV gifted! “The type IV gifted are the angry and […]

5/7/2016 1 comment

Eating habits

by Ali 5/6/2016

written by Ali

Don’t you just love it when you’re family, who you’re not with most the day, tell you that “you’re so fat! how much can you eat?! Just stop eating the entire house!” when you’re just making a egg sandwich and its the first thing you’ve eaten for 1 and half days. Now they’re telling me I’m wasteful for leaving a boiled egg in the fridge. why don’t I just don’t eat ever again. why don’t I just not eat anything so I’m never wasteful. How about I just die so I’m wasting any of your time, not wasting space in your house, not doing anything […]

5/6/2016 1 comment

I Really Am an Awful Person

by Zetsumei 5/2/2016

written by Zetsumei

My urges to kill are getting worse along with my apathy. So, I picked one of the worst days to escape. Yet, I find it amusing in a sadistic sort of way. For my sins, burning in Hell is a fate far too kind for me. I’m a monster… And I’m okay with that.

5/2/2016 5 comments

lazy & crazy

by 4beyondhelp 5/1/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

I am both of the above to the point that the best solution to every single problem I encounter seems to be to just kill myself. I have 7 hours of work due tomorrow and it is entirely because I didn’t start any of it until tonight. I am tired and all I want is to go to sleep and never wake up.

5/1/2016 25 comments

first post… i finally accepted I’m suicidal

by soulost 5/1/2016

written by soulost

can someone help me? if you come across this post, please read the whole thing. i feel really stuck.

theres a lot of reasons why i finally accepted I’m suicidal. I’ve tried to kill myself before but i was too weak to do it. i was scared and i couldn’t stop thinking about my mom finding me. i feel like it would be the easiest way to deal with life, i honestly feel like if i was dead everything would be so much better and specially i wouldn’t have to worry about anything. if i died i don’t care what happens i just hope that i […]

5/1/2016 4 comments

Protected: “One week isn’t going to kill you.”

by whiskered-fish 4/25/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/25/2016 32 comments

Depression&Suicidal Thoughts

by magnolia 4/25/2016

written by magnolia

So I’m a freshmen in a collage prep high school. I’ve suffered from depression since 6th or 7th grade. I have really bad anxiety and I’m extremely self conscious. IVe just been under a lot of stress and stuff and been thinking about self-harm and suicide. I think both are terrible things and I would never put my family through it but yet almost everyday I’ve been thinking of ways to kill my self. I know I haven’t got the guts to do it but I can’t stop my self from thinking about it. Nobody knows I suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts and I’m […]

4/25/2016 2 comments

What if?

by kupo95 4/19/2016

written by kupo95

I am sitting here wondering if I cut again what will they do If they see and I told them the fact i did it on purpose…or if I try to kill myself and I fail what on earth will they do?

Before me husband threaten to to tell my dad and brother but he not talking to my family but have to live with his . I really dont give two flying fucks if he tells his parents I would love to see there recations.

they talk about it….it would look bad on there part becuse every one we know ..knows im not like that or […]

4/19/2016 4 comments

a lot of Bad things

by jasal 4/15/2016

written by jasal

i don’t know what to write here. i just feel bad. angry, bitter, the works. nothing makes me happy these days. i’ve fallen back on a lot of old, terrible habits. i’ve gained more weight from binge eating. i’m stressed because the weather is getting warmer, but i have new scars littering my arm that prevent me from wearing short sleeves. my brother still hates me. my best friend doesn’t feel like a friend anymore. i majorly fucked up my gpa and my standing in school, which means my chances of transferring to another university, never mind a good one, have become incredibly slim. my […]

4/15/2016 3 comments

here I go again

by 4beyondhelp 4/12/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

Today someone was talking about suicide and he said no matter how bad it was it would get better. He then offered an anecdote of how he had a friend who had a friend who wanted to kill herself, and when she called up the friend and told him she wanted to kill herself and listed all the reasons why, he told her she was right but that she should wait a year, and then she did, and within a year her life had turned around, she was happy, etc. I want to know, where do people even come up with this bullsh*t?? do they just assume […]

4/12/2016 11 comments

I really want to kill myself instead

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 4/12/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

Of waiting. I tried hanging myself countless times to no avail last year. I may try again next week. We move and ill have my own room again. I’ll have the space to do it. My mom is talking about moving and the things we have to do. Im to old to care how it will affect her or any family. Before my breakdown last year we had barely talked for 5 years. I dont care a anymore. There wasnt a me before this pain. This is who i am. I am depressed and suicidal. I am also tired and old. Ive had countless attempts, […]

4/12/2016 10 comments

Simply no reason

by jjosephmm 4/12/2016

written by jjosephmm

So, I am being kicked out of my house at a bad point in time and honestly i do not see a very good future for me, and i guess ive given up, im about to be homeless and id rather kill myself than be homeless. Ive spent the past 2 hours looking up painless ways to doe, there arent really any which kinda sucks, i dont have a gun i might just get super high and cut my wrist up to my forearm. i hope i wont feel it too much, i wish i could just end it right now intantly, i would be […]

4/12/2016 14 comments

Protected: I know I’ve already said it a million times…

by whiskered-fish 4/7/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/7/2016 13 comments

Suicide Checklist

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 4/6/2016

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

4/6/2016 19 comments

the cycle

by Alan Ominous 4/5/2016

written by Alan Ominous

So, as usual, I got 400 ideas, plans etc. I got at least a dozen projects going. Half a dozen deals. On top of work, family obligations.

Why do I do this? Constantly emulating progress. As if the next step will finally fill this void…

I find myself daily thinking if I could just “X” then it’d be better. Then I remind myself it won’t. It’ll be the same just different, so I should kill myself.

Pretty much my inner voice lately, yeah I could do…. or you know, just die.

4/5/2016 18 comments

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