im lonely and im desperate for any kind of affection or attention
I just feel stuck and disconnected from everything and I just want to talk to someone but there’s nobody here for me to talk to
it feels like I’m just a bother to people
I wish I was loved like those perfect girls
Over the years I have gone from being optimistic and joyful, to completely dead inside. The few friends I had are now gone, and the failures in my life continue to increase in number as I get older. I constantly feel sharp chest pain from my depression, and I am unable to let out how I feel, unable to cry and unable to strongly feel anything emotionally anymore. My depression gets worse everyday as I have found everything in life to be no fun anymore resulting in myself staying in my bed all day whenever I get the chance. I can’t tell anyone how I […]
Afterthought
‘I’m fine’ the mantra in my head
The lie I speak everyday
‘I’m not fine’ words you don’t say
But I hear them anyway
Carving more of what little is left within
To be there for you
Because I’ll always be there for you
I’ll always elevate you above myself
Sacrifice my needs to meet your own
And I know it’s not balanced
I know it’s not healthy
But this is the friendship paradigm
I’ve grown up believing
The issue is others don’t see that
They see a good person to talk too
So, they keep doing it
They see someone whose handling everything
So, I keep doing it
Except I’m not
I’m slowly cracking from within
Depression seeping under my skin
Infecting old scars, I […]
today’s been rough. not sure why, honestly, it’s just been a hard day
i’m pretty frustrated with myself; kinda want attention but also i don’t want to inconvenience people by asking for it. eh, i don’t know
rough couple of days
I’m having a hard time lately. Dropped a bomb on my best friend of 7 years that I had feelings for her. We talked extensively every night afterwards for a couple months. Broke up with her boyfriend, gave me JUST ENOUGH to stay optimistic and now she’s with my friend because she feels that he is the one. I only want what’s best for her and so I brought up my friend (E) to my best friend (D) and they went on their first date yesterday. I don’t know what I was thinking but I did it to myself. I bought a genesis coupe before […]
My name is Niki Wonoto. I am from Jakarta, Indonesia.
I am severely depressed & suicidal. I feel so alone, nobody cares, even if I die.
I’m 38 years old loser & failure. Maybe better to just die.
I feel like the biggest waste of space. I feel like I am unwanted. I just want to be accepted. I just want to have friends that always want to hang out. I want to be the one in the picture, not the one taking the photo. I don’t want to be the fifth member, or the other one. I wish I was different. I wish I was happy.
Lyrics:
You might be the loneliest person in the world
You’ll never be as lonely as me
Yes, you might be the loneliest person in the world
You’ll never be as lonely as me
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All the sky it seems dark
As I’m walking through a park
But the face it is too bright to see
Or the sun might rise high
On an orange kind of sky
But the day it seems too dark for me
–
Yes, you might be the loneliest person in the world
You’ll […]
Taken from Robert Crumb’s Plunge Into The […]
Feeling like I’m going insane.
Everyone’s delusional.
And I gotta play this game.
Alone and nobody gives a damn.
She said she’s my best friend but what?
Nobody hits up my phone up.
Everybody say they have depression and they’re all alone but it’s all just a facade. Like it’s trendy now to wear it as a badge of honor. When in fact you’re charged guilty pleading your honor.
Fk why I gotta bottle
Everything up inside
Gambling with my life like a lotto.
It’s past midnight.
Gotta sleep.
Dreams of waking up to a better life, resting in peace.
Lyrics:
Ah, look at all the lonely people…
Ah, look at all the lonely people…
–
Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice
In the church where a wedding has been,
Lives in a dream…
Waits at the window, wearing the face
That she keeps in a jar by the door,
Who is it for…
–
All the lonely people,
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people,
Where do they all belong?
–
Father McKenzie writing the words
Of a sermon that no one will hear,
No one comes near…
Look at him working, darning his socks
In the night when there’s nobody there,
What does he care…
–
All the lonely […]
I don’t really know where to start with this. The school year’s just begun but I already feel like I’m dying. Like, I really just want it to end and I feel all alone and I dunno. I know that people would miss me if I died but now I just can’t bring myself to really care as much. I’m just empty and numb and I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. Like, why can’t I just move out and go to college already so that I can fuck up my life without anyone here to see. Like, why was I born. Why […]
it’s okay that everyone turn missing for a little, for a short, for long, for ever.pretending soon or close to have born alone, to be raised alone, to learned alone and to loved alone, cried alone and married alone.
to have fucked alone, till I found myself in a lie, one of which the wreck turned to recover and inserted in this world alone that suddenly I turned insane to not been at all alone.
but all I meet, anyone there is getting me to know is fading out life.
the world is yet not close to understand, healed. corruption is raised and cultivated. any declaration destroyed and […]
I wish everyone would love me so I wouldn’t havw to be hurt anymore…
Their wouldn’t be any misunderstandings, or disagreements, or avoidance, or hatred and so on…
People would understsnd me and love.me forever…
I… what was it agsin that some people said in my last post about a girlfriend?
I should wsit for the girl to come to.me? How? Why? This isn’t Welcome to the NHK, there is no Misaki, I’m trying to be realistic.
How am I going to find people atrracted to.me just by natural persona? Or shoukd I some friendship into something more eith a girl I find?
Well how do you find and make friends…?
I […]
Sigh… I hate my mom…
I can’t really show pics for proof so I guess you’ll have to take my word for it, and I guess it’s up to you if I reacted wrong and if my mom sucks or not, but yeah, I’ll try to find enough time to post on this on a work day, I hate waiting to type out something important…
Also, no offense, but… I think Primal One posted like 15 posts in a row and buried some otherd including mine so I’m not sure if people saw them but whatever…
Here we go. :p
Me
“I want a girlfriend. 🙁 It feels weird saying […]
I don’t know what to do or anything….I’m lonely, alone, worthless, not anything but a waste of space, time, effort…anything. I would give my life story but have so many times, would also be a book…i type too much. I annoy others I just gwt in the way. I have tourettes, as well as many mental issues some self diagnosed, others not,
I have many health problems like celiac disease, back issues, jaw messed up, etc.
I try to make friends, but everyone gets tired of the way I talk or I’m plain boring. I’m married and trying to get divorces…middle of it. He is extremely narsisistic […]
Why do I go on?
I did everything right. I stayed on at school, went first to college then to university. I was good to people I met and was friendly to everyone. SO WHAT WENT WRONG?
I don’t know. Once I finished university I saw a great future ahead for me, that was 2006.
Since then I have had a huge number of dead end jobs the longest lasting a year the shortest only weeks.
Though I like women I haven’t been in a relationship in that time. In the last few months I have been talking to a younger woman, yesterday I asked […]
Lets see…
…where to start
. . .
Soooo im ok i was bad for a long time im not reallly ok i change my mind will somebody talk to me
🙂 sorry about the bad talking im trying not to delete anything to make it genuine but really maybe we could become friends?? im not sure you don’t have to reply and don’t feel bad for me because you are probably worse of don’t inconvenince yourself
People may view me as outgoing, kind, obnoxious, bitchy, annoying, funny, weird, loud, extrovert, smart or stupid. That how I am in public. In reality i’m lonely, broken, hurt, scared, shy and quiet. No one knows how I truly feel. I don’t trust anyone because I’m always betrayed. I am broken and won’t ask for help.
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