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Coping Skills

For the kids

by ariusversea 5/1/2018

written by ariusversea

Tuesday May 1st 2018

Koralie. Or Koraly. Or Korallie. That’s your sister’s name, Maggy.

I like Koralie better.
I want to see you both.

A lot.

I’m not doing well now.

I took how many pills?

I feel pathetic.

Manilla asked me how I do it.

She’d kill herself if she were me.

If only she knew.

I love you two so much.

SO much.

I want to meet you both.

And your brother without a name.

I love you three so much.

Because you’re me.

And you’re mine.

And I’ll take care of you.

I want to walk to you.

Talk to you.

Feel your nappy hair rub against my chest as you sleep.

I have to stay alive.

Write my will.

To live.

I want to […]

5/1/2018 1 comment

I wonder whether I should retake my antidepressants because I know deep inside of me I don’t want to be a part of this world anymore. I feel like if i retake them again they will kinda give me false hopes and acte like a robot. Sorry for my broken english i’m not an english native speaker.

4/24/2018 1 comment

Hey you bunch of sad sleepy hooligans, lookie here

by Lutefisk 4/16/2018

written by Lutefisk

Hey! I was just thinking… Since depression generally makes us into a bunch of tired fools (or at least i certainly am always exhausted), why not have some fun and become a god of your own world while you sleep all day? I found a huge post on Tumblr about lucid dreaming (courtesy of the blog Audrey and the Whale, linked to below) that, as far as my experience goes, is pretty accurate. This is pretty much copied and pasted, but i’ve made a few annotations to it for any clarity I can offer. There are plenty of sources online dedicated to this phenomenon, and […]

4/16/2018 8 comments

It seems I’m going to do this.

by shatterediris 4/16/2018

written by shatterediris

I’m eyeing this blade that I pulled out of a pencil sharpener…. It sucks, I hate it and it sucks, it just doesn’t do enough for me. I tossed pretty much everything else I have into the trash a long time ago and never really bought anything back, my xacto blade broke so badly and is so dull that it can’t even do anything anymore, it’s just a dull piece of metal so all I have is this little blade from a pencil sharpener, hey at least my xacto served me one last time by unscrewing the scree on that pencil sharpener that the screwdriver […]

4/16/2018 2 comments

Decay

by gothinabox 4/6/2018

written by gothinabox

My life is going fine, but my mental state is deteriorating.

I feel myself getting more and more paranoid. I keep getting weirder and more horrific intrusive thoughts. Some of them I can’t even say. Some of them are ones that make me do odd things, like, “If you don’t wash your hands for exactly 20 seconds you will kill everyone in the world.”

My depression and anxiety are getting worse. I’m relapsing constantly in self harm. I want to cut deeper but I always end up pussying out of it, out of fear of receiving more pain than I want to give myself.

I feel like I’m […]

4/6/2018 1 comment

******

by fifth 4/5/2018

written by fifth

my girlfriend broke up with me.

she says she is scared to hurt me.
afraid I will get too close
but she said she couldn’t be in a relationship right now

her parents are making her pay for rent.
she is 16
I am hurting for her

I can see her childhood going
she is getting a second job to pay rent to her family
they are not poor

she is assembling documents and researching emancipation

I cant do anything

I can see her falling apart

she is seeing this guy.
they have a

thing

4/5/2018 1 comment

Update

by Eccedentesiastsoul 4/3/2018

written by Eccedentesiastsoul

It’s been a while since I’ve last been on here. As a matter of fact, it has been a while since I’ve confronted myself about what is going on around me. For the most part, I blame it on school. I have loads of work to do and having to balance it while also dealing with my parent’s bullshit takes up all my time. I guess part of the reason I have not been putting anything on here is also because I fear someone finding out that this account belongs to me. Anyways, things have been all over the place. I have relapsed twice last […]

4/3/2018 0 comment

She Flew Away

by firefly11291998 4/3/2018

written by firefly11291998

The sickness came

We didn’t know

what it was, or

if it would stay or go.

The doctors said,

“She won’t stay long”

but we still hoped

that the were wrong.

Then she went

she flew away

God took her home

She’s there to stay.

When she went

I fell apart

it pierced me through

just like a dart.

Picked up back habits

I knew they were bad

had no other explanation

other than that , “I’m sad.”

Changed my life

the way I lived

most of it

was not what I wanted.

My dad told me,

“Think about you Mom.”

‘When she’s looking down at you

is she proud of who you’ve become?’

My friends told me,

“Keep your head up,

You’ll be fine.”

How could they know

What’s next in line.

*just a poem I wrote […]

4/3/2018 4 comments

They ask

by Rosesareblue 3/31/2018

written by Rosesareblue

They asked me.

“Why do you cut yourself?”

They asked me.

“Why are there scars in your body?”

They asked me.

“Are you crazy?”

They told me.

“Attention seeker at its finest.”

And i sighed. Breathed heavily and walked away.

Whats the good in telling them what my demons tell me what to do, it’s better to keep my insanity to myself.

Because it’s better keeping everything inside rather than telling the world who doesn’t know how to listen.

3/31/2018 1 comment

by Jean-bean102 3/20/2018

written by Jean-bean102

I am here. Simply as it is that. For few months, I was thinking that nothing is truly last. I lost someone, a good friend who I care and love very much. The last person, I would expect to lose. It takes me a while for me to recover from that loss. I didn’t want to believe it is my loss. Now I accept it happens to me and it does not matter if I deserve it or not. I simply lost someone and it affects my life in good and bad ways. I still have hard time to look at something I love such […]

3/20/2018 1 comment

fireflies

by darkwillow 3/19/2018

written by darkwillow

Don’t judge too harshly, I’m new at violin xc music in one of the only things that keep me wanting to live some days so I thought that I would share a quick video like I used to a year or so ago… I’m sorry I’m terrible at it, I’ll try to post another one when I get better at it! (This is also learned be ear so I doubt every note is correct..)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=jgL3BNJlKzg

DISCLAIMER

Darkwillow studios is not responsible for any burning, throbbing, or agonizing pain you may experience in this video. If you have experiences one of these symptoms in the course of this video, […]

3/19/2018 2 comments

Posting major coping skills that helped me:

by Urm8451n 3/16/2018

written by Urm8451n

Actions: (doing)

Sport: in specific times, and one who fits current physical state.
Writing: write your current state and goals.
Meditation.
Meet people/go outside.
Managing time right: taking in mind physical state, mental state and current attention level.

Cognitive: (thoughts and mind)

Focus on the knowledge that it is a re current state, and you had went through it before.
Think and imagine tools for solutions.
Accept what bothers you as a life obstacle that you can solve and solving it would give you great pleasure.
Imagine the way you have done and think of the achievements you gained so far.
Bring goals to consciousness, be aware of your reasons to do things 24/7.
Imagine an outside […]

3/16/2018 15 comments

Still not dead. Wish I was.

by johnwhogivesashit 3/6/2018

written by johnwhogivesashit

My story has gotten quite a bit worse since last May and my last post. Still on felony probation. I managed to fail upward and drop dirty for weed on another like 5 tests in the last year. Got a PTR for it. Been fighting that since December. The judge was actually a sorta decent human being and told me to stop getting high and he would let me complete my probation. Asking me to stop getting high is like asking me to stop breathing. So I quit weed and started snorting dope. Heroin… I got in a car accident a while back so […]

3/6/2018 4 comments

WARNING: not coherent

by Lostsoul_20 2/26/2018

written by Lostsoul_20

I wonder how my shitty friends and rapist are doing being able to go to school and finish their degrees and accomplish their dreams right now? They don’t care the depression they put me through one bit. I bet they’re happy poor little depressed girl is not there to put a damp to their party. I bet others that don’t know of all the struggles my life has put me through laugh at how much of a failure I am. I bet all their futures look so bright while I sit here dim and dull wishing an everlasting night. Oh if I had known that […]

2/26/2018 3 comments

No, Sandman won’t be back unless you let him to

by goodguy 2/24/2018

written by goodguy

Hi guys its goooodguyyy!:D

i know i said that i won’t be back until i do the exam. but i just checked sp i thought maybe its good if i talk about the way i was doing these months.

yeah i said i was trying to make a difference and a change in me and my life and since then i have failed 23 times(today is counted). i have tried and failed,tried and failed:D. well, i know im not perfect but i am forgiving, i may not be where i should be but im making progress, im moving forward im not where i used to be 🙂

since […]

2/24/2018 2 comments

Resigned To Suicide

by IronWolf 2/22/2018

written by IronWolf

Currently, I find myself resigned to the thought of killing myself. I have reached a point where I have come to accept that it will happen, it must happen, and it is the most beneficial course of action for me, and for those around me. I have the means, a plan, a general date and time, and a location which I have pre-prepared to make my attempt easier.

Does anyone else feel the way I do? Also, how does my explanation of my feelings towards my suicide resonate with you? I would very much like to discuss this with all of you.

2/22/2018 9 comments

To Clipped Wings

by Iucy 2/22/2018

written by Iucy

I don’t even know you Clipped wings. But I’ve seen you’re recent posts and i don’t even know if you’re still alive to read this, but I care about you. I know that sounds weird because I’m a total stranger but I really do care about you. You’ve been so encouraging and sweet to everyone on this site including me and I don’t want to see you go. You don’t deserve death. And I know you’re thinking that life right now is a fate worse than death and I think that too a lot of times but you were put on this earth for a […]

2/22/2018 2 comments

In need of help :’- |

by Urm8451n 2/22/2018

written by Urm8451n

It is striking me hard. I’m trying to hold on.

Why couldn’t I tell her what I wanted?

Why couldn’t I get mad at him for kissing my ex? Why didn’t I succeed at saying what I need and feel when I went through all those horrors.

This place is bad for me. it brings up the memories. I remember why I quit going with those friends. This f.. more like fuckers.

I’m….Im broken. I’m broken hearted, broken minded. I’m missing all the good things at life.

What will be the point at succeeding if I’ll end up friendless? If I’ll end up alone. If I’ll fail to […]

2/22/2018 1 comment

Looking for motivation

by ataria-coronaria 2/22/2018

written by ataria-coronaria

It’s 5am where I am and I’m embarking on another night of staying up late, alone.

I really need to fix my sleeping schedule but no matter how early I try to go to bed, my thoughts keep me awake.

When I do actually succeed in being in bed asleep by 2am, I still sleep until past 3pm anyway because I just can’t get out of bed. I wake up a few times but then feel a crushing weight of “I can’t do this” and I go back to bed. I swear I only wake up to pee or else I’d never get up.

Does anyone have any […]

2/22/2018 1 comment

Message to myself..

by nonexistingsoul 2/19/2018

written by nonexistingsoul

Hey you. You can still live that way. Living with a heavy heart, a chaotic mind, that’s fine. You can use it as your strength. Being like that pushes yourself to be better. You’re an artist. You can let out your demons in your drawings. You can draw your own world. You can express anything through your pen. If it hurts, draw! Drawing is a big part of your life, you know that without this, you’re useless! Being able to draw is a gift for you! It serves as your protector in life! Even if sometimes you can’t draw, remember that you draw to live. […]

2/19/2018 1 comment

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