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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Can’t Talk About Suicidal Thoughts

by DogCat 10/15/2019

written by DogCat

I constantly think about dying – fantasizing. I am 42, and it has been this way as long as I can remember.

I have a daughter and a loving husband. I would never try to kill myself again – not right now. I have said I will revisit the issue when I am 50.

I stay for them, not for myself. My daughter’s dad is selfish and hardly talks to her anymore. He has his own drama filled life. She is only 17.

My husband is kind and understanding. He had a hard time with long-term relationships until we met – nice guy syndrome, I guess.

I can’t leave […]

10/15/2019 3 comments

i want her to live

by lostcase 10/13/2019

written by lostcase

i don’t know what to do anymore, so, i met this friend of mine last semester of my senior year. somehow we became close very close, however, she had to go forever to another country. we stayed in touch and we kept on talking every single day. she is now my best best friend, the best one i have ever had. At even sometimes thought i liked her even more but it’s not m topic. we both had our shit and every time we are there for each other she’d comfort me and calm me and id do the same for her. it’s been two […]

10/13/2019 2 comments

Love

by beautifulsinner 10/9/2019

written by beautifulsinner

I want to feel loved. I long the feeling of being desired by someone. I want to feel like people out there love me and want me to exist. I want to have a reason not to kill my self. I want people who show me I matter and that i will be missed. But I don’t have those people. I just have sadness and emptiness. I have people who don’t bother to reach out to me and shallow friends. Give me a reason to stay alive. Don’t make me regret not killing my self. Because right now, I regret not killing my self when […]

10/9/2019 3 comments

by kitty89 9/30/2019

written by kitty89

today i almost wanted to end it. i left school telling myself that i wouldn’t be coming back here. there’s times i think my pain will go away but things just keep getting worse. today was going to be my last day but i decided to stay for a little longer because my mom cooked my favorite meal for lunch. i felt like that was a sign. or maybe it wasn’t but if it keeps me going for another day i’ll take it.

9/30/2019 1 comment

dear n

by alone 1 9/26/2019

written by alone 1

Hey
Its be a while I guess
There was so many thing I would have wanted to say to to but I couldn’t
I won’t
I cant bear to loose you I guess
I was afraid
But now im not here
I guess its only fair and right for you to know these

I loved you
I always have

I know there were never a us
So I try my best to treat you well
Hiding my dark side from you
Try to be a good friend
Have you as a part of my own little family

But good thing can only last this long
Im getting tired

And […]

9/26/2019 3 comments

by iliketoeat 9/10/2019

written by iliketoeat

Those people who you’d die for, no they don’t care.

9/10/2019 2 comments

I need some serious advice.

by imserious 9/7/2019

written by imserious

Hi, I’m new here. Let’s cut to the chase, I’m a college student have been struggling with this stuff for a while. I’ve got in trouble two times in college for drinking the last 2 weeks. I’m never going to make the same mistake again but I can’t live with my pain plus this all going on. It’s going on my record and I can’t bear it anymore. This struggle of mine has been going on for years and it’s only made it worse. I feel alone and scared but I’m finally ready after all these years. How do I write my note to be […]

9/7/2019 8 comments

by lostmama 9/4/2019

written by lostmama

So, I posted on here about 10 years ago. When I felt I had no where to turn. I’m there again. 10 years later. I have two beautiful children, a third on the way… a husband who I am sure does love me very much.. but why can’t I just be happy????

If it wasn’t for this child I’m carrying I honestly think I would have put a bullet in my head tonight. I keep thinking, for hours now, that I’ll have him or her – nurse them for a year or so… just long enough to see them develop with the beginnings of their own […]

9/4/2019 8 comments

Actually, we are stronger than we think

by Itscolourlife 9/2/2019

written by Itscolourlife

The meaning of you still here and breathing
Means you are stronger than you think

With all your problems
With all your mental disorder
With all the scar on your wrist or body
But you still breathing
Means you are stronger than you think

We are not weak
Maybe we cry more than people out there
We are not weak
Maybe we try to kill ourself hundred times more than people out there
We are not weak

And when all of this pass
You will believe that you never lose
Its just our way
Our different way
To win

9/2/2019 3 comments

Well

by whytry2 9/1/2019

written by whytry2

That’s a deep subject..I’m at a loss right now..feeling like I have no good reason to be on this planet any longer but I don’t want to bring anymore unnecessary pain to my 4 beautiful children and their families. I hurt so much physically (fibromyalgia) and mentally. I really don’t know how much more I can take..I’ve always been the one to make the sacrifice..

9/1/2019 2 comments

Am I the only one?

by Stop1t 9/1/2019

written by Stop1t

first of, i am new here.

I have been thinking about suicide for quite a while now. Reading on this forum does help me a little bit, but every time I read motivating posts about not killing yourself, I get more depressed since my problems are not things like “no one likes/cares for me”.

I am struggling with myself as a person in the last few months. i’ve been doing many things that i’m not proud of, additionaly i ended up in a situatuon where i am alone with myself. No one, even if they wanted to can help me now. feeling like im locked inside a […]

9/1/2019 3 comments

Weak

by softfeather10 8/28/2019

written by softfeather10

My heart aches every morning, it makes me feel week. Most of time is from the loneliness of being alone on a double sized bed every day. Other mornings its from the stress of my problems or problems my family places on me to resolve. I wish didn’t feel so weak every morning. The times I’m truly happy are when I sleep. The sound of eternal sleep gets better every morning I face. No more lonely nights, no more stressing over my financial problems, no more disappointing plans for the future. I could be myself without being tide down to the wrong people and sinking […]

8/28/2019 3 comments

My family just forsake me

by deathberry 8/15/2019

written by deathberry

I finally confessed to my family about my depression and suicidal attempts. I always try to pretend to be okay around them and for five years I did my best trying to strengthen our bonds. I always did my best to keep planning activities together, slending more time, helping them with their troubles. I expected to have built up a little bit of good will. But they expresed apathy towards my depresion. They could no believe nor understand what I was talking about. Is like everything until now was a lie. Is painful. My confesion just destroyed my connection to them. I will never be […]

8/15/2019 3 comments

He is too sweet…

by Itscolourlife 8/8/2019

written by Itscolourlife

So I just got home today after I didnt go home last night

Too much.. my head cant contain it
I dont want to go home
Then he come to save me
I cry in his shoulder and he pat my head gently
I go to his place and it took 1 hour to arrive
He try booking another room
But we ended sleeping in the same room
He said he usually playing game and sleep on the floor
I know he was lying
He fall asleep and often wake up to change his position
So I told him to sleep beside me on the bed

8/8/2019 6 comments

Your problem wont affect my life

by Itscolourlife 8/4/2019

written by Itscolourlife

He told me “Your problem wont affect my life”
And it makes me think 1 day full about it
Still a week.. 2 weeks.. and I still wondering what that means
One said I started liking him
One said he really doesnt care about it
One said no matter what happened its okay for him
Its a matter for me
Its a big problem for me
Im here feeling depressed want to die
And my mom will leave me first
Im here still hating myself
Im here cant accept this cruel world
Im here afraid to start something
Im afraid of my minds and feelings

8/4/2019 2 comments

How I scared someone.

by ScaryButHarmless 8/3/2019

written by ScaryButHarmless

It first stated at the beginning of summer break. My friend from New York told me that goodbye meant she was going to kill herself. She said goodbye to me. I always had the mindset that I was the weak link in every type of relationship I’ve ever been in,whether it’s an unauthorized soccer team or just me meeting someone new. So when I was told that she was going to kill herself, I blamed myself for not being good enough, So I texted a friend, the kindest person from my class, she would always greet me, and would ask me stuff from time to […]

8/3/2019 2 comments

Erasure

by unsuperwoman 8/1/2019

written by unsuperwoman

I’m 28, and I want to die. The only thing that stops me is the pain it will leave behind. There’s no way to escape it. I don’t know how I could get these people that I care about out of my life without hurting them. How do you just stop well formed relationships? Recently, I’ve tried to take a detailed look into my past, into the type of person I have been. For 28 years I have felt sad and worthless with occasional moments of reprieve. I’ve tried a dozen different pills, psychiatrists, therapists, and I’m always right where I started in the depths […]

8/1/2019 3 comments

today

by applepie2929 7/28/2019

written by applepie2929

my father and my mother was arguing.
i stopped getting in the way due to my mom always being on his side.

today, she snapped.

i felt bad. she was screaming and it made sense. before that, he was towering over her on the couch, telling her how she was wrong about how he “didn’t” cheat on her(if you read my last post he did, he has a mistress to this day and talks to her while all three of us are at work{my brother, mom and i}), how shes a liar, and an idiot. an imbecile etc.

and she snapped, she said “FUCK YOU ALL” and “YOU […]

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7/28/2019 2 comments

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I hate my “friends”

by deathberry 7/21/2019

written by deathberry

1. I was bullied all my school life (from elementary to high school ). In my last year I manage to make some friends through lies and deceit. When I am with them I have to act like a diferent person, I have to laught every time they make a joke, I have to listen to their problems and offer advice because that’s the kind of person they think I am and as soon as i start to show my true self they always get freaked out, so I can never share my hobbies or my troubles. It was nice in the beggining being part […]

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7/21/2019 2 comments

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I dont really feel anything

by Kisser 7/20/2019

written by Kisser

Maybe is more than a month sice i posted something here. Maybe anyone remember me, i dont care actually. I dont think anyone goes when i die. I ll just explain the title for now. I dont really feel anything anymore. Wrath, angryness, happiness or love, oh i almost forgot the most important one, pain. There was a week since i feel some pain in my heart what is bad. Bcs i dont feel anything, so there is nothing that i wll like…. right?
When i m with my gf i have some joy and im a bit happy. But is just […]

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7/20/2019 2 comments

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