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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

On asking for help

by tentoone 12/1/2019

written by tentoone

What kind of person criticizes you for finding it difficult to ask for help, emotes anger and frustration with you for not coming to them, then rejects you when you finally work up the courage to ask?

And, if you have the nerve to remind them they said you should ask, are offended that you would bring up something like that and throw it in their face to make them feel bad.

What kind of person accuses you of expressing genuine pain as a means of hurting them, instead of asking you what’s wrong?

People don’t ask for help for the same reason they don’t seek love and […]

12/1/2019 2 comments

Is it worth the pain?

by Jaeline 11/27/2019

written by Jaeline

I’m not sure how to describe this feelings, but if you’re here, is almost certain that you understand, I’ve been here since two years ago but I never took the courage to write until today that I just felt the necessity, I take antidepressants and people tell me I’m doing better, but I just feel that I have my emotions on stand by, it just doesn’t feel right.

11/27/2019 5 comments

A miracle.

by anonyy 11/18/2019

written by anonyy

May 15, 12:44AM

it’s a school night, i was supposed to sleep early to work on my important project, but something happened. i took 7 tablets of (?), i don’t know why i took them, shoved them down my throat and casually went to bed, after 10 minutes i felt this terrible pain in my stomach and my eyes were about to burst “it’s nothing” i said, and tried to sleep, but it only got worse so i decided to ask for help. searched the tablets name on google, “the lethal dosage could be as low as 4 tablets for a grown-up” “Do not […]

11/18/2019 1 comment

What You Put Here

by DogCat 11/12/2019

written by DogCat

I’m just bored. You know?

I knows it sounds stupid, “I want to kill myself because I am bored.”

I also know it is always more to it than that. I have a 4 year degree in psychology.

I want to get my masters, but I have to pay off the state from my previous failed attempt at a Master’s before they will release my transcript and allow me to try again. One of thousands of dollars I owe people.

That’s the thing. I fail at everything. Well, not really. I don’t fail…I quit. I am a quitter.

I just can’t do things. I can’t stick with things. Either chronic […]

11/12/2019 4 comments

19:49

by plasticflower 11/4/2019

written by plasticflower

to say i’m stressed would be an understatement.
these days have been so hectic, i feel like i can’t keep up with everything, but everyone is constantly telling me to keep up, to cheer up, to calm down, to just stop feeling stressed. mental health has been a mess lately, and today is just not working for me. sometimes i wish i caught a cold so i could rest in bed, but then i remember that even if i’m too ill to get out of bed, i’ll still have to do everything.
the problem isn’t having stuff to do, the problem is having to do […]

11/4/2019 1 comment

Light

by LightWillow 10/20/2019

written by LightWillow

She hugged me today.

She’s hugged me twice before. On my birthday, and again, on a day when I was miserable.

But today… I wasn’t turning a year older, or falling apart inside.

She just, hugged me. For no reason. Because, she wanted to? Because she thought I would want her to?

I don’t know. But for once, there wasn’t a clear reason..

Maybe now I’ll finally be brave enough to hug her. And not feel restrained by the necessity of needing a reason.

10/20/2019 5 comments

Its so sad how I like you

by Itscolourlife 10/20/2019

written by Itscolourlife

Today you save me again

Why you always come and save me when im at my limit
Why you always give me hope and light
Why I cant let you go

Even tho I always try to forget you
Even tho I try to suppress this feeling
At the end I always end up reaching you

Sometimes you look like you dont care about me
Sometimes you chat and ask about me
You keep gping back and forth

Why we have different principal and life
But why we like each other
Why I just lke you more and more
Why you like me
And we know if we are […]

10/20/2019 0 comment

Am I as messed up as I think I am?

by icaaa123 10/16/2019

written by icaaa123

Ok so I’ll try and keep this as un dramatic as possible, as I hate melodrama. I guess I’m a pretty normal girl from a pretty normal English family, but lately I’ve been feeling like I don’t want to go on and it’s tough. Anyways, when I was 15, I was probs living my best life and starting to blossom out of my awkward pre teen all girls school nerdyness into a pretty social being. That summer my dad started to get pretty ill, he’d had depression all his life. I would be a bit dramatic to my then boyfriend I guess for attention, speculating […]

10/16/2019 3 comments

Funny

by genesis0987 10/16/2019

written by genesis0987

I try to take others from the edge but

I’ve learned a lot about myself during the 6 years I’ve been away from this site and I’ve learned things that sometimes make me want to stop moving forward and instead give in to what once was a gentle craving to what is now a frequent temptation.
The more life I live the more death pulls me back.

I wanna cry for the life a version of me could’ve had but I won’t ,. I’ll cry for my parents as I should’ve done this sooner and let them live more life to themselves.

10/16/2019 1 comment

Can’t Talk About Suicidal Thoughts

by DogCat 10/15/2019

written by DogCat

I constantly think about dying – fantasizing. I am 42, and it has been this way as long as I can remember.

I have a daughter and a loving husband. I would never try to kill myself again – not right now. I have said I will revisit the issue when I am 50.

I stay for them, not for myself. My daughter’s dad is selfish and hardly talks to her anymore. He has his own drama filled life. She is only 17.

My husband is kind and understanding. He had a hard time with long-term relationships until we met – nice guy syndrome, I guess.

I can’t leave […]

10/15/2019 3 comments

i want her to live

by lostcase 10/13/2019

written by lostcase

i don’t know what to do anymore, so, i met this friend of mine last semester of my senior year. somehow we became close very close, however, she had to go forever to another country. we stayed in touch and we kept on talking every single day. she is now my best best friend, the best one i have ever had. At even sometimes thought i liked her even more but it’s not m topic. we both had our shit and every time we are there for each other she’d comfort me and calm me and id do the same for her. it’s been two […]

10/13/2019 2 comments

Love

by beautifulsinner 10/9/2019

written by beautifulsinner

I want to feel loved. I long the feeling of being desired by someone. I want to feel like people out there love me and want me to exist. I want to have a reason not to kill my self. I want people who show me I matter and that i will be missed. But I don’t have those people. I just have sadness and emptiness. I have people who don’t bother to reach out to me and shallow friends. Give me a reason to stay alive. Don’t make me regret not killing my self. Because right now, I regret not killing my self when […]

10/9/2019 3 comments

by kitty89 9/30/2019

written by kitty89

today i almost wanted to end it. i left school telling myself that i wouldn’t be coming back here. there’s times i think my pain will go away but things just keep getting worse. today was going to be my last day but i decided to stay for a little longer because my mom cooked my favorite meal for lunch. i felt like that was a sign. or maybe it wasn’t but if it keeps me going for another day i’ll take it.

9/30/2019 1 comment

dear n

by alone 1 9/26/2019

written by alone 1

Hey
Its be a while I guess
There was so many thing I would have wanted to say to to but I couldn’t
I won’t
I cant bear to loose you I guess
I was afraid
But now im not here
I guess its only fair and right for you to know these

I loved you
I always have

I know there were never a us
So I try my best to treat you well
Hiding my dark side from you
Try to be a good friend
Have you as a part of my own little family

But good thing can only last this long
Im getting tired

And […]

9/26/2019 3 comments

by iliketoeat 9/10/2019

written by iliketoeat

Those people who you’d die for, no they don’t care.

9/10/2019 2 comments

I need some serious advice.

by imserious 9/7/2019

written by imserious

Hi, I’m new here. Let’s cut to the chase, I’m a college student have been struggling with this stuff for a while. I’ve got in trouble two times in college for drinking the last 2 weeks. I’m never going to make the same mistake again but I can’t live with my pain plus this all going on. It’s going on my record and I can’t bear it anymore. This struggle of mine has been going on for years and it’s only made it worse. I feel alone and scared but I’m finally ready after all these years. How do I write my note to be […]

9/7/2019 8 comments

by lostmama 9/4/2019

written by lostmama

So, I posted on here about 10 years ago. When I felt I had no where to turn. I’m there again. 10 years later. I have two beautiful children, a third on the way… a husband who I am sure does love me very much.. but why can’t I just be happy????

If it wasn’t for this child I’m carrying I honestly think I would have put a bullet in my head tonight. I keep thinking, for hours now, that I’ll have him or her – nurse them for a year or so… just long enough to see them develop with the beginnings of their own […]

9/4/2019 8 comments

Actually, we are stronger than we think

by Itscolourlife 9/2/2019

written by Itscolourlife

The meaning of you still here and breathing
Means you are stronger than you think

With all your problems
With all your mental disorder
With all the scar on your wrist or body
But you still breathing
Means you are stronger than you think

We are not weak
Maybe we cry more than people out there
We are not weak
Maybe we try to kill ourself hundred times more than people out there
We are not weak

And when all of this pass
You will believe that you never lose
Its just our way
Our different way
To win

9/2/2019 3 comments

Well

by whytry2 9/1/2019

written by whytry2

That’s a deep subject..I’m at a loss right now..feeling like I have no good reason to be on this planet any longer but I don’t want to bring anymore unnecessary pain to my 4 beautiful children and their families. I hurt so much physically (fibromyalgia) and mentally. I really don’t know how much more I can take..I’ve always been the one to make the sacrifice..

9/1/2019 2 comments

Am I the only one?

by Stop1t 9/1/2019

written by Stop1t

first of, i am new here.

I have been thinking about suicide for quite a while now. Reading on this forum does help me a little bit, but every time I read motivating posts about not killing yourself, I get more depressed since my problems are not things like “no one likes/cares for me”.

I am struggling with myself as a person in the last few months. i’ve been doing many things that i’m not proud of, additionaly i ended up in a situatuon where i am alone with myself. No one, even if they wanted to can help me now. feeling like im locked inside a […]

9/1/2019 3 comments

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