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7/31/2018 9 comments

fourteen

by iamdarling 7/30/2018

written by iamdarling

i turned fourteen ten days ago.

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7/30/2018 6 comments

Yume Nikki (Dream Diary)

by WanderingDreamer91 7/29/2018

written by WanderingDreamer91

Yume Nikki (Dream Diary)

Sites

Madotsuki’s Closet

http://www.theneitherworld.com/yumenikki/links.htm

Yume Nikki Wiki

http://yumenikki.wikia.com/wiki/Yume_Nikki_Wiki

A really popular freeware rpg maker horror game, Yume Nikki is a story about a socially reclusive girl who never leaves her home and instead sleeps to live in a lucid world of dreams and nightmares, from the serene to the disturbing…

The game has no plot or dialogue to speak of, but instead a big open world with a lot of creative interactivity with these effects that you collect.

Many people have tried to come up with their own explanations on this game’s imagery, whether or not any symbolism actually exists, and have even made their own fan games, which there are many.

I’m not sure what to say other than that, sorry. 🙁 I have a description of this game in my profile too. :p

Yume Nikki: In a silent world, a lone girl who refuses to leave her home does nothing but sleep and play games all day and night… In her dreams, there are a number of interesting things, from the disturbing to the serene. What does it all mean? That is up for you to decide.

(A total classic, this game has gotten an entire plethora of fan games made in it’s name. The open world nature and surrealism draw in people a lot, if not the introversion.)

How to Play

Download the game, an RTP file (Rpg Maker 2003 I think), and a file extractor such as Winrar, then when you download the game, right click and extract the files through your file extractor and it should have it’s own folder and an icon somewhere for you to play it when you open it up. :p

I can’t really explain this… if you still need help, you could probably google or youtube it. :p

Anyways, I hope you enjoy Yume Nikki and it’s fan games. <3

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7/29/2018 5 comments

Social Anxiety (Anime)

by WanderingDreamer91 7/29/2018

written by WanderingDreamer91

Phew! I’ve been wanting to do this and a Yume Nikki post for a long time, but I’ve been pretty lazy and tired, these kind of take a long time to make and stuff, and I wasn’t sure if anyone would notice and care, and I could come up with a good description for the stuff I wanted to talk about…

I should probably talk about liking these somewhere on my profile, but meh… I’m probably pushing myself too hard with these things, but whatever. >_< (Though to be honest, their almost sort of uncomfortable to remember at the moment, they hit a little too close to home, and it’s hard to tell if that’s a good thing or a bad thing with these kind of themes…)

Anyways, there’s a few rare but noticeable anime/manga that actually seem to deal with social anxiety, either as a major theme or a minor theme, or something…

The most noticeable examples are ones that put a label on said anxiety calling it “hikikomori” which means a social recluse, such as someone who never leaves their home, and another one is “NEET”, which means someone who has no education or employment status.

Some of these actually tend to be a mix of drama and comedy, perhaps even black comedy. :p

Some of these are Welcome to the NHK, Watamote, and arguably Kotoura-san. :p

With that said, enjoy! <3

A. Welcome to the NHK

(Anime (Episodes): 24/26)

This is the big one, an anime that was originally a fairly realistic light novel, a somewhat lighter anime, and a rather… dark and kind of disturbing manga. o.O

The main heroine Misaki is a big contender for the atmosphere of the adaption, as her personality varies between them. :p

Anyways, the story basically revolves around the real life misadventures of a college dropout loner named Satou, as he claims at some point to have supposedly heard people talking bad about him behind his back one day at college which gave him huge self-esteem issues, if not other things you see in his flashbacks.

Over time he runs into a high school girl named Misaki who for unusual reasons becomes his self-proclaimed therapist/counselor, and an old friend named Yamazaki who helps him design a game.

Come to think of it, they both pretty much seem to help with his hikikomori and NEET status respectively. :p

This anime will probably have you both laughing and crying fairly often, it’s pretty out there… Soundtrack is really good too.

It’s hard to explain, but on Facebook at least, I’ve had a pretty big falling out with it’s fandom though, and now that I might be a hikikomori but no longer a NEET, I was wondering how much this anime even means to me anymore…

B. Watamote

(Anime (Episodes): 11/13)

Now this one is mostly black comedy, though I think there were some moments of being genuinely sad. 🙁

I could have sworn there’s a moment where she decides to start her own club and making friends who just mess around and don’t really do anything… until it turns out to be just her imagination. D:

Sometimes though, main character Tomoko sort of brings problems upon herself as her extreme paranoia also harbors a lot of jealousy and ill-will which kind of makes her a big jerk… but then sometimes you just feel really bad for her anyway and want to give her a big hug. :p

And yeah, she’s a rather oddly creepy yet adorable looking character, a rather tiny teenage girl. XD

C. Kotoura-san

(Anime (Episodes): 11/13)

It’s thanks to this anime that I knew or at least cared to learn about a mental illness called “Avoidant Personality Disorder”.

Anyways, I was expecting this to be a lot more dramatic and serious and feel more like Fruits Basket… but if I remember correctly, it’s humor actually has a lot of ecchi (perverted humor/fanservice) in it. ._. That was kind of weird… I mean, it’s nothing too explicit, but still. :p

Still, the few parts that got to me were pretty sad…

Basically, Kotoura-san uses a bit more of a fantastical approach on a reason for isolation but still manages to be pretty effective.

The story follows a teenage girl who has psychic powers. However, she can’t really control these powers, and often blurts out secrets another person may be hiding. People got so offended by this that everyone started to eventually reject her when she was initially a very cheerful child…

It even caused problems with her family, in which I think her parents are divorced and she lives with her wealthy grandpa instead, or like an apartment paid off by him or something. o.O Her mother is even considered to be the main antagonist hiding in the shadows of this manga…

After suffering from numerous traumatic events, Kotoura initially becomes withdrawn and isolates herself from the world with an empty stare… this lasts all but 1 or 2 episodes though. :p That being said, that doesn’t mean the anime still isn’t without some level of drama or conflict, but yeah…

Eventually though, in a gender flipped scenario similar to Watamote, she eventually runs into a boy that helps her open up a little.

And that’s basically all I got for these animes. :p

Hopefully you think their interesting too. ^_^

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7/29/2018 2 comments

Jordan Under(neath)

by WanderingDreamer91 7/28/2018

written by WanderingDreamer91

Jordan Under(neath)

“I’m Here to Help”.

(Length: 3m 32s)

Now for something more lighthearted (sort of). :p

So like, there’s this weird youtuber named Jordan Underneath, or Jodran Under (now known as Jordan’s House…? Idk. :p), who used to do all these game reviews like for Yume Nikki (a weird Japanese PC freeware meaning “Dream Diary”, about a girl who never leaves her home and just sleeps all the time, having bizarre dreams), but like, now he does all these… weird videos he made himself. :p

A lot of it is black comedy, from a purple man-eating monster, a dinosaur therapist, to this “emo” song called “Dark Red”, and… this one about insects and how one day you’ll be buried and die, and get eaten and assimilated by them. o.O Yeahhhh… XD

Anyways, I wanted to show off the dinosaur one, Idk. :p Apparently he’s a therapist BECAUSE he has no emotions, rather than because he’s some kind of empath who has a lot of them or is really emotional, or a sociopathic monster… 😕 That being said, he can be “innocently insensitive” when it comes to the one patient he got to help out, since he’s rather oblivious to them. :p It’s arguably he’s partly a therapist more on a level of trying to observe how they work…

But yeah, his videos are something else. XD

“Do you ever wake up in the morning, and just feel so depressed, you feel you can’t get up out of bed? I don’t. But don’t worry, I’m here to help. I’m a reptilian creature from a faraway dimension, who feels virtually no emotions, and it’s because I feel no emotions, that I have decided to become a therapist, and dedicate my life to helping you feel better.”

(…)

“The thoughts you have are directly linked to your quality of life. They are also linked to your mood. I don’t have a mood.”

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7/28/2018 0 comment

Petscop

by WanderingDreamer91 7/28/2018

written by WanderingDreamer91

Petscop

(Themes/Warnings: Child Abuse, Adoption)

“Do you remember being born?”

Channel (15 Videos)

(About 2-3 hours long)

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZKQv0ZFHpeIUkOtNjtq4KA/featured

Man, I’ve been waiting all week to talk about this all week… I’ve been kind of lazy about it though because of all the links and photos I wanted to share and thought the story behind this might be kind of big. :p Hopefully I remember what I wanted to say and can compile something pretty good and worthwhile…

So like, Petscop is this creepypasta-esque “game” web series with as much interactivity and fame as Ben Drowned and NES Godzilla Creepypasta, an ARG (Alternate Reality Game) about some obscure, old school looking PS1 game, but over time it gets creepy and depressing with… themes of adoption and child abuse. o.O (This one’s interactivity is kind of simulating a “let’s play” with game commentary, but moving on…)

While most of the game is it’s own thing, it actually has a few references to this one real life terrible case back in 2000 or so, about this 10 year old girl that died in this wacked up therapy session. D:

The girl’s name is Candace Newmaker…

Supposedly, I think she was adopted and considered a problem child, so they tried to “rebirth” her in this messed up and alien way where they wrapped her up in blankets to simulate a “womb” where she had to try and push her way out, held down by adults. o.O Like, it’s seriously crazy… and she died from that. 🙁

I mean, I’m not an atheist (for reasons that I guess can be explained here: http://www.thethinkingatheist.com/page/bible-contradictions), but this kind of made me question the possibility of an afterlife, or just like another life like being a ghost or getting reincarnated…

Imagine only living to be 10, you don’t even live with your real parents if they even mean anything, or if your adopted parents mean anything either, or something, and then you also die in a horrible way with no real future…

That’s way too depressing. 🙁 A child like that should be able to get another chance… and heck, even if she was a problem child, I’m not sure if I’d even wish this on my worst enemies even if I often find myself wanting them dead… I think, idk… I’m trying not to focus on that kind of thing right now…

I remember making a facebook saved post on May 8, I put it down in a computer document so I remember too, and saying I wish I could avenge her by killing the people (though that would probably traumatize her… use non-lethal force then take her? Let the police handle the rest? Find a way for her to not be afraid of me? o.O I just wish I could have protected her… or help her ghost if she’s a ghost, idk. :p)

Heh, I feel like one of those older people taking care of a kid type of person in fiction or what not…

Lee/Kenny and Clementine from Telltale’s Walking Dead games, maybe even Joel and that other girl (Ellie?) from The Last of Us, etc… (I just watched the series on youtube, don’t usually play these, meh. :p).

Phew, anyways, I wanted to quote some random things from the game, idk. :p

Petscop 3 (7:35 – 9:30)

(Care’s Room – Note)

“Your wife says “Care isn’t growing eyebrows”.

You say “That’s a puzzle.”

You’re secretly very excited to hear this news.

You’re in the bathtub thinking about her.

I have a guess at which child you’ll pick next.

When you find her room, the passage to my right will lead to her.

She’ll appear from the darkness, limping, and I’ll shoot her in the head.

(Paul (Let’s Player): “… What am I reading?”)

Tiara says young people can be psychologically damaged “beyond rebirthing”.

A young person walks into your school building.

They walk in with you. You’re holding their hands.

They come out crying into their hands, because nobody will love them, not ever again.

“Nobody loves me!”

They wander the Newmaker Plane.”

Candace Newmaker

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Candace_Newmaker

Attachment (Rebirthing) Therapy

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attachment_therapy

Petscop Analysis (1-10) (Nightmare Expo)

(One of Many)

P.S. I just want to give Candace/Care NLM a big hug. 🙁

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7/28/2018 0 comment

What would you do as a Ghost?

by WanderingDreamer91 7/25/2018

written by WanderingDreamer91

What would you do as a ghost? :p

I’d like to do all sorts of things…

I can visit my neighbors, see what their lives are like, whose nice and who isn’t, who’d be scared of me and who wouldn’t, travel around the world, maybe pull some pranks and haunt some haunted places or take part in ouija board sessions, etc…

I wonder if goths are really nice about this kind of thing… I don’t want any weirdos trying to exorcise me. 🙁

P.S. This part is kind of random but I didn’t know where to put it unless I make a post about ruling the world or sonething. ^^;

What if you werr an evil overlord like Voldemort and you casted Imperio on everyone so they were under your control… and then you made them all dance to thriller. XD

Then you record it, take the spell off, then broadcast it live and make everyonr go “WTF?”. :p That would be funny. XD

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7/25/2018 14 comments

Acceptance

by LoneRed17 7/25/2018

written by LoneRed17

This place makes me feel better. I finally have found some sort of acceptance in the fact that I am going to die. It’s nice to be able to just accept. I still feel this urge to fight and scream and holler at the sky with my pleas of hope and change, but I suppose that is only natural. There really is little to no point in this post. I was simply feeling incredibly alone and needed somewhere to type my thoughts out. This probably will get my post banned or something, but if anyone is willing to take in a 21 year old dude that simply wants to make you happy let me know. It sucks, you know. I’m not even that bad looking a guy, I’m broke, yeah, but all I want to do is love and give foot massages after seeing what a long day you’ve had at work. This post truly is a jumble of words all crammed together. My mind is a myriad of mazes with a never ending emptiness to them as well. So contradictory yet so understandable in a way. Anyways, if this does get posted and are interested let me know. Try not to get banned in the comment section so I can see it, haha.

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7/25/2018 3 comments

Erased (Isle of Solitude)

by WanderingDreamer91 7/23/2018

written by WanderingDreamer91

Erased (Isle of Solitude)

(Anime/Manga)

“I want to go to an island that has no pain or sadness.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-1Qhd87tdo

(Length: 1m, 5s)

Sorry for being one big otaku, talking a lot about anime and games and stuff. ^^; But it’s all still sort of relevant, as their pretty dark and sad… Plus one user (Agnostic Angel I think) was talking about Celeste and put the “Fun and Interesting” tag to it, so I thought I would to. :p

Who knows, maybe you’ll find all the things I share like a hurt/comfort fic, and I can help all of you find something nice to get into. ^^;

Anyways, I’ll probably do a lot more in the future… though I feel pretty anxious and numbed out right now, I’m kind of scared of said future and don’t really know what to do for fun anymore… I just wish I wasn’t lonely and had friends… but for those who are enemies, I also kind of feel like this, the girl in this scene…

Anyways, I was going to quote the whole thing too for the hell of it. :p

“”The Town Without Me”, by Kayo Hinazuki. When I get bigger, big enough to go somewhere by myself, I want to go to a land that’s far away. I want to go to a faraway island. I want to go to an island that has no people. I want to go to an island that has no pain or sadness. There are no adults, children, classmates, teachers or my mom on that island. On that island, I can climb a tree when I want to climb, swim in the sea when I want to swim, and sleep when I want to sleep. On the island, I think about the town that I left behind. Kids go to school, as if nothing has changed. Adults go to the office, as if nothing has changed. Mom eats, as if nothing has changed. When I think about the town without me, I feel a sense of relief. I want to go far, far away.”

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7/23/2018 5 comments

Oyasumi (Goodnight) Punpun

by WanderingDreamer91 7/23/2018

written by WanderingDreamer91

Oyasumi (Goodnight) Punpun

(Manga by Inio Asano)

(Demographic: Seinen (18+))

http://kissmanga.com/Manga/Oyasumi-Punpun

https://www.mangareader.net/oyasumi-punpun

So like, there’s this really good yet depressing and utterly nihilistic manga called Oysasumi Punpun… yet it’s BECAUSE it’s depressing that I also find it extremely relatable and can’t keep my mind off of it, no matter how soul crushing it can be at times…

In fact, the level of despair in this manga is so relatable at times, it’s actually kind of scary. o.O

I even got two physical copies of omnibuses even after reading the whole story last month, I think I finished on like June 10 or something…

I’d love to put down all sorts of stuff about this manga, but I don’t want to ramble or spoil too much…

You can find it on places like kissmanga or mangareader. :p

Anyways, here’s probably the most relevant part(s) I can think of right now.

Chapter 8

(Murder Confession Tape)

Page 8

“At this moment, I must make a very grave confession to you. I have just… killed my entire family. It’s not that I had any problems with my family life… In fact, I think you could say that I’m grateful to them…”

Page 9

“My father devoted the majority of his life to work, and my mother to the education and upbringing of her children. My sister is marrying a public servant next month… But I want you to think hard. It looks like a perfect, happy household, but that’s just a front. Sickness, accidents, disasters, betrayal… Only God can tell you when you’ll pick a card of misfortune. In his retirement year, my father told me, “Now I’ll enjoy my second life.” It was afterward that he learned he had cancer. Fighting to hold on to a small kernel of hope and fortune that can buck you off at any moment – can you really call that happiness?”

Page 10

“I couldn’t stand to see it anymore… Everything became so sad to me… so I killed them… It was the release of their souls. I want to say… that my actions were a form of love… But… But Still…”

Page 11

“My father comes to me every night… In my dreams… staring at me with such sadness… Did I make a mistake? Is this just guilt? … I don’t understand… I must do something. I must express myself through dance… Three, Four!! I-Don’t-Un-der-STAND! I-Don’t-Un-der-STAND! I-Don’t-Under-Stand, HEY! I-Don’t-Un-Der-STAND!”

Page 12

“(Music Note) I-Don’t-Un-Der-STAND! I-Don’t-Un-Der-STAND! (Music Note) (X2) … No, (dang) it! You’re not supposed to dance along with me!! Look, I can’t take it anymore… By exposing this crime to the world, I want to ask everyone just what happiness truly is.”

Page 13

“I’ve hidden all three bodies in the old unused miso factory on the outskirts of the main K-Town Drive. There’s also an amount of cash equivalent to the courage to find it… So I want you to find their bodies and tell the media. By the time you’ve seen this video, I will have left a will behind and departed from this world… I’m expecting much of your courage and curiosity…”

Chapter 45

(Punpun Chapter)

Page 13

(While doing homework at night and listening to a strange radio station.)

“(…) At this time, Punpun was studying very hard. There was no real reason why, it just seemed to help calm him down. Maybe he’ll study extra extra hard, enter Tokyo University, and then become a nuclear physicist of a secret underground organization…

Page 14

“And then he’d destroy mankind… Hahaha! Just kidding! What a funny child!! Hi, I’m a 7th Grade male student. Due to domestic violence, my parents have divorced and my mom drinks all the time now. And at night, I hear my uncle have sex with his girlfriend in the room beside mine. I have no dreams and I have no girlfriend. How should I live on from now? From, a listener with the alias “Angel Pie”.”

Page 17

“Even though it should be Spring soon, winds cold enough to freeze a town over, were still blowing throughout the night.”

Page 18

“But Spring will still definitely come. There’s no such thing as a never-ending Winter. Punpun thought to himself that if today was a tough day, that a tomorrow filled with joy would be waiting. If not tomorrow, then next week. If not next week, then next month. If not next month, then next year. But happy times were sure to come again… that’s what he wanted to believe.”

Page 19

“… But that was just his wish like fantasy… but so what? In any case, that was it for today. Goodnight, Punpun.”

Chapter 52

(Seki Chapter)

Page 2

“Humans are free. Although we can’t fly through the skies all alone, if we can think it, we can do almost anything. We can sleep when we’re sleepy. We are free to start or stop anything whenever we wish. Of course, it is a bit hindered by common sense, moralities, and the rules of society.”

Page 3

“Walking nude out in the streets, stealing from the eldery, and even killing, we can do all of this as long as we throw out our morals. Which is why they drill these laws in our head when we are children. And yet people continue to fight, deceive, and steal from each other. And so, people suffer because they live. Even now, there are events of happiness and unhappiness going on all over the world… What can we do to make everyone happy?”

Page 4

“Of course, that’s impossible for me to know. If the answer to that could be found in the shallow wisdoms of a kid, wars would have stopped long ago. After all, a great person is just one who follows the popular will of the people. In this world, the essence of a frank honest human is just an idealization. I’m sure that there’s nothing that can make everyone happy. Happiness is relative. And that’s how people want it. Evil is also relative. Mothers can become demons when they do anything to protect their child. Yet it’s usually seen as admirable. But when a person does anything for the country he loves, wars break out. Isn’t it all the same thing?”

Page 5

“No matter how much a person pretends to be good and kind, he will still have negative aspects. But no one really tries to notice that fact. Why is that? They all try to place the blame on others, and never even consider the possibility that they themselves may have played part in the problem. (…)”

Chapter 132

Page 15

Punpun: “(…) I wonder when it was… that I realized talking with God was merely talking to my own self.”

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7/23/2018 0 comment

What’s on your mind?

by ELECTRICAT 6/28/2018

written by ELECTRICAT

Surviving another day
Going to work
Keep up with a smile
Try to be positive
Can’t wait for the week to end (but it’s never ending)
My cat, Sora (she means the world to me)
I just want my day to end earlier so I can go back home
I want to be on my bed
Drawing and painting helps me relax
Listen to FKJ all day (helps me to calm sometimes) I love Amsterjam
Happy thoughts happy thoughts happy thoughts think happy
Self love

I just hope tomorrow gets better even if it doesn’t I hope I will survive tomorrow

Coping Skills Fun & Interesting Stories of Hope

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6/28/2018 3 comments

A beautiful game that’s helped me cope

by Agnostic Angel 6/23/2018

written by Agnostic Angel

Heya, it’s been awhile since I posted on here.

So, a few weeks ago, I heard about this game that got released at the start of the year called Celeste. While it does have high difficulty, the relaxing music and encouraging words of the game help the player to persevere. But what really got to me was the way it handled dark subject matter such as anxiety and depression. Not just through the story and characters, but through the very MUSIC as well.

I’m not going to be reviewing the game in-depth here. Both because I don’t want to spoil anything for those who haven’t played it. What I will say is that you should at least watch a playthrough of it. I came out of the experience feeling like I got to explore more of myself, and come to terms with the parts of myself that I don’t like very much.

Who knows, maybe some of you will find Celeste as relatable and personal as I have.

Fun & Interesting General Poetry & Art Stories of Hope

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6/23/2018 7 comments

In Parting.

by WickedApparition 6/20/2018

written by WickedApparition

I came to share a story, and ended up staying a few days longer than expected. I am proud to have encountered each and every person that I’ve spoken with; regardless of what may, or may not, have been said.

My goal in life is simply to leave things better than the way I found them, yet I can not say with any certainty that I achieved that; though, I can, in one last effort, leave you with a few songs that may do what I could not.

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6/20/2018 4 comments

It’s just a ride…

by Taf Taf 6/1/2018

written by Taf Taf

In the mood for some Hicks today…

quotes, atheism, Bill Hicks - desktop wallpaper

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6/1/2018 1 comment

Dark Humor

by imsosorry2468 5/25/2018

written by imsosorry2468

“I’m sorry” and “I apologize” mean the same thing. Except at a funeral.

—Demetri Martin

Fun & Interesting General Poetry & Art

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5/25/2018 1 comment

if not the best

by iamdarling 5/18/2018

written by iamdarling

my two favourite youtubers are on tour together. yeah, so…

last night, i went to one of their shows.
it was so fun and so incredible.
it might’ve been one of the best nights of my life, if not the best.

Chronic Pain Fun & Interesting General Rants Stories of Loss

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5/18/2018 4 comments

history

by iamdarling 5/15/2018

written by iamdarling

each and everyday is a part of my history, a history that will be with me forever. unfortunately, i know that forever, i am going to look back on these years of my life and all i’m going to see will be an ugly kid with mental illnesses and no friends, just, wasting her life away. i want my history, i want my past, present, and future, to be happy, i want to do something worthwhile rather than just doing this wasting. uhm, yeah… this is not really what i imagined my life would be like.

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5/15/2018 4 comments

Depression jokes?

by annon111 5/8/2018

written by annon111

Just curious how other people feel about depression jokes. Personally, it’s the only way I’m alive lol. The day I can’t laugh at my own problems is the day I die. So yes or no to jokes?

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5/8/2018 23 comments

If you had a choice about your accidental death..

by Oldone 5/4/2018

written by Oldone

It’s probably a silly question, but suppose you got to choose the way you could die from a complete accident, something out of the blue at some random point in time.
I chose something really dramatic and yet quick and painless and quite unexpected at the time. (even though I’m choosing the method)

I’ve decided that I want to be walking down a busy downtown street not paying attention to anything other than maybe some beautiful woman walking by and a 10,000 pound giant safe is dropped on me from the 40th floor of the building I’m walking by . Of course this is very cartoonish and EXTREMELY unlikely, but it’s the way I want to go.
Further, I want somebody 15 blocks away to have one of my eyeballs land right on their freshly cleaned shirt and they have absolutely no idea what it is or where it came from, just a little bloody splotch and my eye..

On the other hand, I’m not so lucky. Knowing my crummy luck the safe will land just a little off and only crush my foot, maybe an arm and nothing more .

What’s your ideal way to die accidentally ?