General

What is the key to our depression? Is it that we just need the following:

-self-love
-self confidence
-self acceptance
-basic needs (housing, food, steady income, etc)
-someone who really knows us, and loves us, despite how fucked up we are

If that’s the case (for me), then HOW in the fuck do I get get back self love, self confidence, and self acceptance? I used to have confidence and didn’t hate myself in the past. But now it’s all gone to sh*t and I hate how I haven’t been able to do a damn thing due to my depression and lack of self […]

I wish I knew how to ever be proud of anything I’ve done. I woke up this morning thinking about every place I’ve missed the mark on my goals;

the kind of family I wanted to have

the person I wanted to marry

the degrees I wanted to get

the place I wanted to live

Now here’s the weird thing; I have other things to fill those slots. On paper, it should be lovely. Yet, my heart aches in the suspicion that I will never see satisfaction in this life.

It isn’t so much that not existing would be better, given that I wouldn’t experience it. The thing I wish I […]

When you are an average joe and you dont have a legit reason why you want to put a hole through your head…

What kind of a person prides himself on never shedding a tear or really ever caring when their mother or father dies? This is the asshole I am married to.  His dad was a nice guy. He died yesterday and he just shrugged it off as if he deserved to die for believing in the wrong religion.  He suffered with COVID and then Pneumonia for three weeks and died struggling to take a breath.

My husband is a selfish person who believes he is smarter and better than everyone else.  He enjoys making everyone’s live just as miserable as possible.  He is one of many reasons […]

If one day you wake up and I’m gone don’t cry, don’t grieve, don’t write paragraphs about how much you loved me because when I was alone in my darkest hours, you weren’t the one that would stay up at night to make sure I was alright, don’t say I was a wonderful girl and wonder how people be so cruel because on some ways, you were the reason I might’ve took my own life away that night.. -TF

okay so im literally so afraid a killing myself but I think it would be better if I could myself with someone else so if there’s anyone out there and wants to die but is afraid to die on their own please email me… I only wish for death now I couldn’t ask for anything greater or less shattering glass and no one knows it just sits there on the ground for weeks, for months,then years. im slowly drowning and everyone around me doesn’t know.help please I don’t want to die alone

andriannamueller@gmail.com

Not suicide related

The world has gone to shit. It already was. I suppose I will throw the question out there, does anyone really think that governments and politicians actually care about you?
And question everything, and don’t believe everything the mainstream media tells you.
I wish I could be gone. But again, I help care for my mum. I really desire to be gone though. There’s nothing here for me. The world isn’t going to get better anytime soon, if ever. I’d never want to leave her really, nor would want her to discover me dead. But yeah, dying is too difficult anyway for me, […]

guys im having a hard time right now….i just want to give up…but dont we all

> andriannamueller@gmail.com

^email

I’m depressed. He left because he’s not “strong enough to help me” …I just wanted a happy life…I love him so much. I love him so much and I can’t function, i can’t smile, i don’t want to live anymore…he came yesterday and stayed the night and this morning he hugged me …and it was so perfect…untill he said “i’m so sorry I can’t offer you what you deserve”. “Nothing  has change, i don’t want to believe in us, that things could be different and then disappoint you, i’m sorry I can’t” ..It crushed me. I’m nothing but pain. I vomited right after he left, […]

that my only contact with humans these days is online through a suicide site?

I don’t really have friends. I don’t go anywhere, talk to anyone, etc. And no, covid isn’t an excuse. I’ve always been this way, except my depression is worse now.

All I do is watch videos and feel shit about my life. Yup, that’s pretty much my life.

What if there was like a city, or a whole village, of just us depressed people? Wouldn’t that be interesting?

Hey SP’ers, let’s fill in the blank. What words would describe yourself?

Me- Loser, defeated, hopeless

I know we cannot be unborn or un-exist, but man, wouldn’t it have been nice not to be here suffering in the first place?

And why do we have to suffer so much? Why can’t I just be a happy fucker like some of the people out there? Yeah sure, not everyone is happy. But not everyone is depressed and miserable either.

To be alive and have to either kill yourself or live a tormented life sucks. My own self and my mind is my worst enemy. Sigh. How terrible that knowing you yourself is your own worst enemy?

It really hurts that most people still ignore me as if i don’t exist anymore. It makes me even much more depressed now, spiraling downward to the lowest point. And to be very honest, it makes me also even more suicidal, it’s like my life & my existence doesn’t have any worth/value anymore, and that’s very depressing and it’s NOT easy at all.

Is all my mistakes really that bad, that most people now just can’t forgive me anymore? Even when i’ve already tried? I’ve tried to say hi first, I’ve tried to be warm & nice again, I’ve tried almost EVERYTHING, but WHY people are […]

I feel like garbage everyday, that I don’t belong where I live, that I am worthless of the good things that may happen to me during my life. Mainly, I feel like a fucking selfish person, or even worse, a narcissist. My intrusive thoughts never give me peace of mind and I have to try staying calm to not screaming… HELP.

He said I was too late for him. That I didn’t tell him in time, I hate myself for it. Everything hurts and all that can make it better is having him. He is all I could ever want and it sucks being in love and not having him hurts more then a death could ever, I’m starting to lose myself without him and it breaks my heart more and more everyday. He says one day in the future but what if im gone before i get a chance to be with him

I am pure evil. I put on a show for people but secretly I wish everyone would just leave me the hell alone. Many years ago when I was in my 20’s, I sold my soul to the devil. I had a seance’, complete with candles the pentagram, the whole thing. Initially I didn’t think anything had really happened, but now I’m convinced I did what I intended to do, and there is no going back.

I sold my soul in exchange for health wealth and happiness. I lost everything and gained nothing. I’m not healthy, certainly not rich, and I’m not happy either. I’m convinced […]

Hello everyone, sorry to do this on here but I have no other options, (I’ll make this short)I want to find someone like me so this site works….Anyway I am a male 44 years old and I’m looking for a female close to my age that I can go “through the struggle” with, someone that can cook and is depressed and anti-social like me, I have my own apt and live in the Midwest, please let me know if interested and please no rude/negative comments if you don’t like this just keep scrolling, thank you

I was born to die. I am literally the embodiment of everything that can drive a person to suicide. Mental illness. Genetics. Biology. Trauma (emotional / sexual). Grew up with a mentally ill parent. Bullied. 2 prior attempts. All the ingredients are there. I spent over a decade in college exhausting every avenue of possible things I could’ve done with my life. I finally found my calling and my passion as a first responder working in EMS. Now there’s all kind of stupid bullying going on and drama. I feel trapped. This job is all I have. It was my purpose. It’s the only thing […]