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“You don’t have any problems….Look, you’re so handsome, and famous, even a super star….” and he jumped off the building after hearing his best friend “consoling” at the other end of the mobile phone, and died.

He refused to talk….but his friend did quietly, the most important thing, taking care of his meals and accompanied him for 7 days, then he finally talked and released his feelings, and got medicated.

She got back office, looking weary, after holiday of baby-delivering. Her colleagues tried to cheer her up and joked that
“don’t be stupid into thinking worries are behind the deliverance period. We all lived through that.”
Then […]

I have one desire. Death. It’s been a while since i’ve posted anything but I guess everything has been building up lately. To really sum it up. Life is shit. That’s my way of putting it…but if you have the time here are some of the details.

I’m pretty sick of everybody right now. Sick of my family putting me down and getting into my business. I just wish they would leave me alone or kick me out of the house…not likely though considering I just turned thirteen but hey, a kid can dream on right? I hope so, because I’ve been doing quite a bit […]

Well I guess I have messed up alot during my life. Im 22 years old and live at home with my parents life is so so. I have friends and a family who love me but according to my friends I am too gullible and too nice for my own good I try my best to do everything for them but it just ends up backfireing on me. Like I know alot of people who constantly talk about eachother behind their backs and I listen to what they have to say and then they tell me not to tell anyone about what they have said. […]

so i’ll be 16 in one month. i just recently fell in love and all that stupid nonsense. i was dumped;;heartbroken. now im depressed and lonely. i try to move on…and i try to get other people to like/want me…not working for me. im not too ugly. i have pretty blue eyes…i used to be liked by a lot of people..but now, im not good enough for anyone i like?  i still love my ex. i gave him EVERYTHING you could think of. my heart,my love,my soul,my life, i gave up friends and family for him, and most of all, my virginity. it hurts so […]

These statements are true to the best of my ability

On March 13th,2010 while as client at St. Francis Hosp Psyche ward when around 08:30 to 09:00, I was attack from behind by another client in which he had kicked in the back of my left knee and lower back, I in turn defended myself and push the attacker into the wall and took him to the floor.

Before the attack I was speaking with my nurse (Judith) about a blood test for my Diabetes sugar levels, I did have to be restrained for a few minutes ( less then 3) after the attack once I was […]

Its been about a year since I stumbled upon this site. And like all of you reading this here right now, I had a reason. Basically why im posting this up, is cause I wanna know..

Whats your reason for coming to this.. depressing, emotion-filled website. For comparison reasons to myself.. and maybe to find some comfort.

I came to this site looking for a way out, yet here I am. Why did you?

My mother loves me, and would do anything for me. My father is distant, but he works constantly to support his family and he never complains about it. My sister hates me but she’s civil toward me and at times kind. On the surface my life is good. Nothing special but good. I have friends who I sit with at the lunch table. I get decent grades- not great, but enough for a decent college and a decent life, but I fear I won’t get that.

I’m completely confused and bored with my life and existance in general. I’m a sophomore in high school: I’ve never […]

I have never been able to work out why I cannot find happiness.  I come from a very wealthy family in NY, and yes I could easily be reffered to as spoilt but no matter what I get given and no matter where I go I am always severly depressed. There is no doubt that I am unlucky…my father had an affair which led to the end of my parents marriage and I havent seen him for two years now. I have never really been deeply affected by the exit my father made as I was always a ‘mummys girl’ its just when I come […]

When I tried to kill myself, I took pills. I took 60 some Tylenol. I ended up in the psych ward of St. Luke’s Hospital, feeling like such and idiot. I consider killing myself almost daily. I try to tell myself that I don’t want to die, but more often than not I do. Your family loves you, I know mine does but my mind won’t stop pushing me. I am getting to a stage where I have to sink or swim to be considered a man. I am failing and do not want to disappoint my dad.

Alexander R. K.

I am 39, almost 40. Married for 9 years to a wonderful man who was not my soulmate and we tore each other apart eventually.. verbally, emotionally. Grew up longing for nothing more than the perfect family, had it and threw it away. Let my daughter choose where to live and since I didn’t have a better more stable place (I jumped into an emotionally damaging and financially straining relationship before my marriage was even over), she now lives with her daddy. My own immediate family will always think of me as the black sheep; they are very conservative and religious; […]

I’ve recently been discharged from the military, i had a good job that i loved, i got paid a good amount and plus people, (generally) respected my sacrifices for the country and line of work. Until recently, i have been charged with sexual misconduct with a minor. Now before you start judging. The girl was 17, three weeks from her 18th birthday, and she came over to my place and it was all consensual. We had a couple drinks, and fooled around. Now I know what happened was wrong, and what I did (being the adult) was against the law. I’ve never been in trouble […]

I am fourteen right now, my birthday was pretty recently. I have been cutting myself for some time now. I do not know the exact date or year. I sometimes feel as if I am a sick person. I do not think I cut myself out of depression, it’s more of a way to relax and calm down. I talk to my friend, whom I am really close with, she assumes I have a blood fetish. I am sick. I cut myself. I drink my own blood. I do not think that I would kill myself because I do not have that kind of courage. […]

I’m on various antidepressants. And these pills take away my humanity.

On one hand, this is great. No more sadness, no more anger, no more self-loathing and no more suicidal thoughts.

On the other hand, no more happiness. No more joy. No more excitement or pride or energy or passion. I simply don’t care about anything anymore.

I want to make movies when I grow up (I use the phrase “grow up” lightly, since I’m already 20), but now I simply can’t find the drive to push my dreams further. I’m sitting on my ass, my mind completely empty, watching my life fly by at the speed […]

I made a list of reasons for killing myself and reasons against. I have about 30 for and 1 against, and the 1 against is pretty inconsequential. If this is a cry for anything, it’s a cry for someone to understand me. It’s like I’m the only outcast in the world, and I have this energy about me that repels others. I’ve been drinking a lot lately, and when I go, it will be because the pain inside of me has gotten so horrible that I’d have to convince myself not to kill myself, not the other way around. I’m […]