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My Suicide Note

A calming place

by ataria-coronaria 2/20/2018

written by ataria-coronaria

Woke up some time after 4pm again for the millionth time in a row when I could have been productive today. I know over sleeping makes your body feel worse but I just can’t will myself out of bed until I absolutely have to. Because of this, I eat one meal a day at most (the term meal used loosely).

Thinking about a commenters words of finding a calm place. I’m not really sure I have one. Sometimes sleep can be freeing, but tbh I am often plagued by reoccurring nightmares of traumatic experiences and will cry in my sleep. I never really feel well rested […]

2/20/2018 2 comments

new here, feeling lost, venting

by ataria-coronaria 2/20/2018

written by ataria-coronaria

Hi, “artaria” 21, gnc intersex/transgender and hating life

I’m almost 22 but I feel as if I am generations older from all of the messed up stuff that has happened in my life. Every year seems to have un-ending sadness and awful events. So many horrible things I couldn’t begin to list it all.

It is embarking on the anniversary of the last really big traumated thing to happen in my life last year. Months of intense emotional and physical abuse culminated to me finding myself in an even worse situation that I don’t really want to get into right now…

I still blame myself in a lot […]

2/20/2018 7 comments

death is inevitable

by hated_tedah 2/14/2018

written by hated_tedah

I came here to see ways of committing suicide that would make my death look like natural.But as the site rules are that we are not suppose to give people tips so this doesnt seem to be a right place.

I am suppose to tell my whole life and problems to people who are complete strangers and they will show empathy of some kind.As pathetic as it sounds my religious believe does tell me that suicide is an unpardonable sin by God.The here after will be hell for eternity which doesnt sound great as well.Your believes might be different.

The first thing I ask is I never […]

2/14/2018 6 comments

My Path… Your Path… My Dream… Your Dream… ?

by Itscolourlife 2/10/2018

written by Itscolourlife

Hello Im back again !
So.. this is what I feel right now..
I want to be loved by my parents.. I want them to hear my stories.. chatting and laughing with me..
Im stuck here..
The doctor said that I suffered from depresssion and stress right now..
I thought that they will understand and love me after what they heard..
But its still the same..
What makes me sad is..
I try to live like what my parents want since a kid..
I will try to live up to their expectation..
I even stop pursuing my hobby as what my parents told me.. Actually […]

2/10/2018 1 comment

Febuary 4th, 2018 wasnt my last day on earth after all.

by Elysianvinyl 2/6/2018

written by Elysianvinyl

two days ago, i attemped to take my life. If you remember, i made a post on it a few hours prior. so, heres how that day went and where i am now.

That day i had waken up around 9pm. By 10 i had my mind made up. I ate breakfast, watched TV for a little while. After a couple hours, i began to secure the rope (i had previously bought it) to my ceiling fan, then i tied a hangmans knot that would so just fine.

I chose a chair and placed it underneath, standing on it with the rope around my neck. My adrenaline […]

2/6/2018 12 comments

this is it.

by Elysianvinyl 2/4/2018

written by Elysianvinyl

If i do not delete this post before tomorrow, you will know that i have succeded in taking my life.

I am no longer able to keep going, i have lost all strive and will to keep going. Life has no meaning. I had one life and i had to spend it mentally fucked up and unable to function properly and im so done.

I wanted to make a long note, telling my story and how i got to this point, But i dont have the time.

I know people are going to be upset and sad. And i know this sounds selfish. But they should understand that […]

2/4/2018 6 comments

I’m Lost

by NorthTxn 2/3/2018

written by NorthTxn

https://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2018/02/Lord-Huron-The-Night-We-Met.mp3

I lost the love of my life. All she wanted was for me to tell her to stay. Now I go to bed hurting, wishing she was beside me. I dream she is next to me. I feel her touch me but wake up alone. I hurt and dont want to feel it any more. I lost my wife and she was my reason for living.

2/3/2018 7 comments

Gr8undhogs Day

by Dehahs 2/1/2018

written by Dehahs

Goodbye.

2/1/2018 2 comments

2018 is beautiful agony

by SuzieSalmon 1/31/2018

written by SuzieSalmon

1/31/2018 2 comments

third year

by Dehahs 1/30/2018

written by Dehahs

END IS FUCKIN NIGH

1/30/2018 1 comment

Hi Itscolourlife !

by Itscolourlife 1/30/2018

written by Itscolourlife

Hello my friend !

Im new here.. so.. I wish I can get some friend..
Maybe..?
I will post whats in my mind when Im down here..
I wish this place can help me to overcome my stressfull life..
See you again sometimes..
???

1/30/2018 5 comments

by Dehahs 1/28/2018

written by Dehahs

no comment

1/28/2018 0 comment

I wish I live in movies, books, novels, comics, anime, video games. Real world / Real life / Reality is boring & depressing.

by niki 1/26/2018

written by niki

Honestly, I just can’t understand nor fathom why Most / Majority of people can go watch movies, read cool, creative, imaginative books / novels / anime / comics, or play super imaginative & fantasy video games, and then later on they just go back to reality, as if nothing happens, and they’re ok with everything.

I hate to say this, but Most people simply just lack Imaginations. Even worse, Most people are boring. All people care in the everyday’s reality & their lives is just the most superficial, mundane, boring, & stupid things. Which is very depressing, especially when you feel like you’re just alone & […]

1/26/2018 4 comments

suicide note..

by ughlife 1/21/2018

written by ughlife

People always tell me that they care about me, but when it comes to the time I need help no one cares. I’m 14 years old and I want my life to be over. I registered for this website because I’ve already been holding it in so long. A while ago I was slut shamed for making out with someone when I was drunk. It got around because my best friend told people. The slut shaming didn’t bother me at first, but after a while even if it isn’t true, you are told it so many times you start to believe it. I’ve just felt […]

1/21/2018 9 comments

Hello

by An orange 1/15/2018

written by An orange

I had a very hard childhood growing up, I grew up in a small cult and never knew a day of peace and stability, Ive been homeless and emotionally/ physically abused by my parents.

I left home at 19 to live with my long distance girl friend at the time, and was rejected by my family as a selfish traitor for leaving and not staying in poverty. My first relationship wasnt very healthy and my ex was very manipulative and passive aggressive. Later we moved to LA to pursue art in the animation industry. My ex dumped me the first week but gave the idea of […]

1/15/2018 2 comments

Hopeless

by CaptchaIsSlavery 1/11/2018

written by CaptchaIsSlavery

I was born into a family history of abuse. My female progenitor, “Louise”, (who I stopped calling mother years ago) was raped by siblings and step-parents and ignored by her female progenitor who favored the boys according to Louise. She got pregnant with me seemingly to “catch” her boyfriend, who didn’t take the bait and left. I suspect they were both damaged, shitty, selfish, childish people who couldn’t love. Louise then neglected me from birth and abused me mentally/emotionally for several years as a single mother on welfare.

As an example, when I was a boy of maybe 8-10 years old, I wrote Louise a poetic […]

1/11/2018 6 comments

I don’t know anymore.

by foreverinevitable18 1/8/2018

written by foreverinevitable18

Hi I’m an 18 year old college student who is going through a lifetime of stress, depression, and anxiety. Depression has always been a factor in my life, for I have been depressed for six years now and find no way out. Although I am a very smart individual and have a great circle of friends who care for me, I have issues with opening up with people. I struggle with telling others of how I truly feel because I believe that they truly wouldn’t care, is it wrong to believe that individuals only care for their self being? I am constantly abusing drugs and […]

1/8/2018 3 comments

“It might be better not to wish for such a thing”

by furid 12/29/2017

written by furid

Recently, I got called into the psychologist’s office at my high school for a consultation. One of my teachers told me that she’d been watching over me for two and a half years (I’m halfway through my third year of high school, seventeen and a half years old) and directed me to the office.

I initially had trouble opening up; mostly because of the shock I experienced when I got asked whether there was something wrong. It felt like lightning struck me on a clear sunny day. I was silent and awkward and smiley the first few times. In the past three years, I’ve never shown any […]

12/29/2017 8 comments

God has answered my prays, I was reborn-ed.

by Urm8451n 12/28/2017

written by Urm8451n

Hey, good day for all of you.
This will be my last post

, because I have changed, and I’m quit-ing this site.
For those who didn’t follow my posts, or read the last posts of mine, I wanted to wake up today, fearless and with out feelings.

Fully honest with all of you strangers: for the last days I have been fighting in my mind, over the control of this body. As if I fought with my “anxiety” persona, which fears failures. Today I guess my other persona won, because I’m fearless. I’m focused on what I want and when I want it.

I’m just a […]

12/28/2017 2 comments

I want to pull the fucking trigger

by Urm8451n 12/27/2017

written by Urm8451n

that is it. I had enough.
I had enough of this kind of life.
I screwed up a few times. other times I got screw over.
Im fucked up.

I want to be soulless. I want to be with out feelings
I want to be a fucking robot.

I don’t want to communicate. I don’t want to love, to cry, to be mad.

God. If you are out there, when I wake up tomorrow morning, please wake me up feeling less.
Please help me become this hollow shell.

Why would you take away from me so much, without taking my feelings too? […]

12/27/2017 0 comment

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