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Im dying now.

by Laaamb 5/25/2016

written by Laaamb

This site makes posting anything impossible.
1. Got nothing left, no family, no children, no grandchildren, because AI am an embarrassment, Got no job, because I’m popular and no one will hire me, got no money either,

I’m cooked and have been since my son was violently murdered 10yeats ago. They crushed my baby’sbskull and torn his ear ooh, I had to bury him with red hair from it being stained by blood. I’ll never get the image or feeling of kissing his void lips or seeing want they did to him, never.

Don’t be sbgry, I have deadly disease, and you’ve been wait g for it […]

5/25/2016 3 comments

my mom withheld love from me

by sunshinestate90 5/22/2016

written by sunshinestate90

every time a relationship starts to deepen, my brain starts to protest and makes me feel pain I can’t understand. But I think tonight, I finally understand where all this pain stems from. My excuses for running away from someone I like are “they don’t really like me in that way” or “I am not good enough for them”. If I look back to my childhood, I realize that my mom gave me mixed signals about love. I was loved if I was obedient, and I was given the cold shoulder if I disobeyed. I was not taught how to love or what real love […]

5/22/2016 2 comments

Pain and Pleasure (a quick true story of a kid who fucks with the minds of depressed girls…)

by emotional.monster 5/22/2016

written by emotional.monster

So I am a senior male in high school. I’m 17 going on 18 at the end of June. There’s this one kid Zack who is a freshman at my school and I fucking hate him. I haven’t really talked to him but knowing what he does makes me sick. He dates a girl and makes out with her and everything, he is all sweet and charming and everything (little does anybody know he’s really a ***** and extremely aggressive and violent with guys) but the catch about the girls he dates is that they all self-harm (usually cutting). Sounds like a sweet boy right? […]

5/22/2016 3 comments

“I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night”

by fox 5/17/2016

written by fox

I’ve been feeling very badly lately, and it has been amplified by how others treat me, what they do and don’t do is affecting me deeply.

Lately, I’ve been in so much pain that I can’t seem to be able to verbalize my thoughts. I’ve spent too long being closed. I feel I haven’t had anything positive to say about myself, so I stay away from people. I also feel very bad about myself, so I avoid seeing anyone. I’ve been a recluse for the last few years, and because of my circumstances, I will never change back.

The only person who truly has […]

5/17/2016 2 comments

I wish someone loved me

by haileewantstobehappy 5/14/2016

written by haileewantstobehappy

I wish someone loved me unconditionally. It seems that everyone loves someone and someone loves them, yet no one loves me, maybe I’m not worth loving.

5/14/2016 16 comments

Words, I Guess

by InteriusLight 5/1/2016

written by InteriusLight

Recently, I’ve began to feel entirely empty.
Even the one thing that I once loved to do and helped me not feel like a freak… I don’t feel different when doing said thing.
I’ve felt that I should die even more intensely, even to the point where from my last suicide attempt, I barely felt anything. Just vast emptiness.
I’ve also experienced even more self-hate for my body. I don’t like seeing my own face anymore. I’m beginning to not even like my own hair, the only thing that I was actually proud of about my body.

Well, I guess I shall end this post.

5/1/2016 1 comment

I miss you, part 2

by CaptainMarvelous 4/30/2016

written by CaptainMarvelous

She loved me. She loved that I was a doctor. She loved that I helped people. When she talked to her best friend about me, she gushed about how I was a kind, generous, caring person that l loved kids.

I loved her. I loved how full of life she was. I loved that she was always trying to better herself. When I told my friends about her, I told them she was perfect. Warm, sunny, gentle. The perfect girl for me.

We named our future kids. Picked out our future house. Chose our future dog. She wanted it all. I wanted it all. We both did, […]

4/30/2016 1 comment

Don’t Hurt Me

by GerbzBaby 4/24/2016

written by GerbzBaby

A vent drawing inspired by the man that hurt me! Thank you for doing that to me boy! :/

Not finished with it yet, still working out details. Might post the finished product later.

(It’s a tiger and a red panda if it’s to hard to tell, tiger obviously represents the one I once loved and the red panda at the bottom represents me.)

4/24/2016 9 comments

I’ve been through the storm, but where is my rainbow?

by Bri 4/19/2016

written by Bri

The past few weeks have been Hell, to say the least.

Since my ex boyfriend broke up with me he has been keeping me around, telling me he loves me even though he’s with this other girl. I refused to tell him I loved him, I still love him. Fuck I still love him. He tells her everything he ever told me… I find it kinda funny within a few days he was already with her too. Probably cheated on me. She’s so much prettier than I am too, probably gave him more than I could have. Yet he insists on saying he still loves me. […]

4/19/2016 6 comments

Time to Move On

by 13vida 4/8/2016

written by 13vida

I don’ feel any more butterflies in my stomach when I think of him anymore, all I really feel is pain and that makes me sad. This used to make my world, he brightened it and made it so beautiful. Now, it feels gray and dank and disgusting. Now, when I think about him, I wonder if he even loves me at all, and if he doesn’t then when did he stop. I wonder if it was easy for him to replace me and I pray to the Universe that it isn’t, that if he truly loved me then he won’t be able to -selfish, […]

4/8/2016 2 comments

It isn’t fair

by Brokengirl 4/4/2016

written by Brokengirl

Wow the last time I posted on here I was 14! I’m now 18 and I can’t really say that things are better. Well since 14 I’ve attempted suicide 2 and cut myself on numerous occasions.

Heres my story I’ve been with my current partner for 14 months and it hasn’t been the greatest at all. He severely bashes me and makes me feel like nothing. He never trusts me and always calls me names I don’t feel loved or safe. I live with him at his parents place with his brother and sister also and they never seem to do anything when they hear me […]

4/4/2016 8 comments

Whats wrong with me?

by secret me 4/4/2016

written by secret me

I feel like shit. I went out on a date with a man 13 years older than me and all he wanted to do was touch me and kiss me. I didnt let him, as a matter of fact I walked away from him and went home. He treated me like an object. Anyway, I come home and my sister tells me “please dont get upset but our sister in law was flirting with your ex fiance”. I didnt say much i just brushed it off. but my ex fiance was my first love, and i have always loved him till this day and its […]

4/4/2016 2 comments

RIP my beloved BUSH

by wintersportnut 3/18/2016

written by wintersportnut

Many of you were here for one of the most amazing romances ever known to man… i was notified last night that my true love kaylee bush took her life… It was ironic because i told her our love was like romeo and juliet except we were going to save each other from suicide instead of cause it.. in her note she notified family that we would be eternally NUTBUSH, hense the name change… the last time i talked to her she said she wasnt sure if she was strong enough to make it.. i should be happy for her and i guess i am, […]

3/18/2016 92 comments

I can never win

by Hampshire_Girl 3/15/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

I never stood a chance. I think of his depression as ‘the other woman’. She had the prior claim and has the stronger hold over him. She makes him ignore me and treat me like shit. I no longer know how to reach him. He said he loved me once, now I’m lucky if he can even bear to look at me. I am rejected and broken. It’s been this way for nearly two years. I thought I was winning, I thought he was mine.

He’s not mine, he never was. She got there first and will never go away. I hate her. But I’ll […]

3/15/2016 6 comments

ah fuck

by insteadshesaid 3/14/2016

written by insteadshesaid

I once said in one of my earlier posts that I ‘longed for the feeling of not feeling at all’

Unknown to the fact how unbearable it is. I feel so numb. I don’t feel happy nor sad. I don’t get excited, nothing motivates me any more. I haven’t loved anything in a while: music, people, family, enjoyment.

It’s so shit.

3/14/2016 5 comments

Apologies for the long post!

by Hampshire_Girl 3/11/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

I’ve just read iamtheblues’ post about coping with the loss of a dearly loved pet terrier. In one one the responses to another SP’ers comment, the oft used expression “Time heals all wounds” was mentioned.

You’re quite correct, iamtheblues, in saying that this awful platitude is a load of bull’s poo. It’s used when people don’t know what else to say when faced with a bereaved person. Some people should just stay silent!

What I’ve experienced myself (so I’m in no way implying this applies to everyone) is that time eventually makes the sense of loss less all-consuming and raw. Every now and then though something brings […]

3/11/2016 1 comment

First time here, woke up this moring and the first thing I thought about was suicide

by dying.inside 3/2/2016

written by dying.inside

Hi to anyone who reads this. I won’t say a lot. But yesterday I lost everything, my bf broke up with me yesterday. This might sound stupid to some but it’s the truth. I was so attached to this boy we got into a stuipd fight yesterday and it escallated very fast. He started calling me a slut which I ain’t. I’m not the type to argue so I didn’t care what he called but it fucking hurt cause I thought he different he seemed so sweet but he just put on a front. Then yesterday he blasted me on fb saying I’m a slut […]

3/2/2016 7 comments

RANT

by blink_fighter 2/28/2016

written by blink_fighter

Everyone will let you down.
It sounds pessimistic, but it’s true. It’s sort of inevitable. When I was younger, I thought that if someone loved you, you automatically loved them back. I thought that everyone would have that perfect, fairy-tale ending. I thought everyone would find their soulmates and all the beautiful feelings of adoration would be reciprocated. Unfortunately for eight-year-old me, this isn’t the case. The sad truth is, you could love someone and give them the world and they could still not give a single damn about you. And you could do the same to them. It took me a long time to […]

2/28/2016 3 comments

Hope you don’t mind…

by Alan Ominous 2/26/2016

written by Alan Ominous

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/02/tmp_31933-rendition-requiem1220324555.mp3

This piece was composed by Cordless.
I just did some production editing.

No offense meant Cordless. I absolutely loved it. That’s why I wanted to work with it. If it upsets you at all, just say so I’ll take it down and bury it in the depths of hell forever.

2/26/2016 2 comments

Everyone goes away!

by iwant2_die 2/22/2016

written by iwant2_die

My best friend. He died. A couple of months ago he just said he’s head was hurting and then next thing you know, he’s in the hospital. Half his brain turned off and he went into coma. Two weeks later doctors told us he would never wake up. He’d been my best friend since I was five. How could he leave? Did he not realize how he would hurt not only me but the other ones that loved him as much as I did? I don’t like trusting anyone. I know thy’ll leave me behind and that will hurt. I just know it. Yet I […]

2/22/2016 3 comments

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