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something for today,

by quietcheep 4/29/2016

written by quietcheep

“I fell in love with the smile she hid behind her hands, the one that flashed up and waved with brilliant colors when caught by surprise. It was the purest point of joy–the laugh that bubbled up and the creases at the corners of her eyes–her hair and hands rushing to her face to contain it all. But she was never fast enough, her happiness too much to be quelled so easily, and just enough would slip through to soothe the deep ache my yearning had burned into my heart.”

i thought about someone who isn’t here anymore. i felt i should write how she was and put it […]

4/29/2016 3 comments

Hay guys

by Drowning 4/25/2016

written by Drowning

Hay guys how’s r things going I haven’t been here in a wile been trying to keep busy just checking up on u guy

i can’t remember all the names

cordless

alan

darktide

phanton the names I no of the top of my head how is everyone doing ?

4/25/2016 4 comments

wandering idea #1

by wandering.ideal_ 4/25/2016

written by wandering.ideal_

Hello.

I’m not very sure why I made this account, but you all seem nice enough. I don’t have a bad life. I have loving parents, an annoying brother, and many friends that love and care about me. So it isn’t really fair for me to complain, right? But every single day is filled with anxiety and fear that I will do something wrong. I am a perfectionist and someone who worries a little bit too much. My hands are shaking as I type this because I fear that it will be something that I will regret starting for the rest of my life. Oh. How […]

4/25/2016 3 comments

first post.

by Soco 4/22/2016

written by Soco

whats on my mind…..well suicide. It has been for as long as I can remember, in one form or another. The last month it has gotten stronger tho. I watched “the bridge”, and now cant stop watching the footage of people jumping off the bridge. The thought of the release of pain when at last u get to fly must be beautiful. I think thats why people choose that method. Anyway I opened up and told my wife about what ive been watching and my thoughts on it and she was shocked and worried. I do suffer mental illness and we both have […]

4/22/2016 6 comments

First Half-Baked Attempt

by J Doe 4/19/2016

written by J Doe

Hello. Lately I’ve been feeling less like a piece of shit than usual. However, I’m positive that I’ll have a freak out sooner or later. Since I’ve been on SP for a week I might as well talk about the first and only time I’ve ever attempted suicide. And by that I mean a half-baked attempt that would have just landed me in the hospital with a stomach ache or not even that. So this was a few years ago and my depression was the worse it had ever been. My parents had just got done yelling at me for a $20 dollar fee I […]

4/19/2016 1 comment

perception of time/reality

by 4beyondhelp 4/19/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

I’m not sure if the way I perceive it is normal, so can you all let me know on this? I usually don’t have an innate sense of if something that happened was 3 days ago or 3 weeks ago. I have to go by numerical dates, or if I don’t have those, I have to carefully go through the logical sequence of events and match up specific events before and after whatever I’m thinking of, and find numerical dates for those so that I can come up with a range and figure out when it was.

I can mostly remember things that happened yesterday as definitely having been yesterday, […]

4/19/2016 2 comments

Late night vent

by Ijustwanttoendit 4/14/2016

written by Ijustwanttoendit

For as long as I can remember, I didn’t think life was worth living because everything in my eyes was absurd, then I met a guy, started talking to him and he made me feel loved, he gave me a reason to smile again, But on October 20th I got word that my nephew had committed suicide. I hit a new low. I was at ROCK BOTTOM. Getting that news was paralyzing. I felt like my dreams were ripped from my very hands, torn, and thrown in my face. I started to shut everyone out including the guy who was my light for several months. […]

4/14/2016 1 comment

To him

by lonelyroses 4/7/2016

written by lonelyroses

I always want to remember how we would walk down that trail to look at the river and how we left school a couple times just to go there. I want to remember how one time you took me to the little store by your house through the woods, and how you would cancel plans just to be with me. I want to remember when we were laying under the blankets on your bed (which we would do often) and we would just lay there in each others arms under the blankets. I want to remember how you smell, how you had that certain cologne […]

4/7/2016 1 comment

The Accident

by Cordless 4/4/2016

written by Cordless

Most of you are probably gone now, and maybe it’s better that way, since I don’t know if this is a very good side of me.

I was in high school back in the 1980’s.
I was driving on one of the highways into town, and I was listening to a tape of Howard Jones’ “Little Bit Of Snow”.
The song is a plea against suicide. It begs people not to destroy themselves.

I remember listening to the song over and over, loving the poignant music but disagreeing with the message (because of how depressed I was).

There was a car which had stopped in the middle […]

4/4/2016 22 comments

Protected: The longest post you’ll ever read, so just don’t read it.

by whiskered-fish 4/4/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/4/2016 23 comments

Ylem :)

by Drowning 4/4/2016

written by Drowning

your still with us 🙂

now it’s kind of creepy because I had a dream on Friday that someone did something to them self I think they stabbed them self with something I can’t remember what happened but now I know the dream was about Ylem weird

it was great to hear from u

my twin 🙂 it put a smile on my face

4/4/2016 14 comments

Xanax and alcohol

by sherlame 4/4/2016

written by sherlame

Have you guys ever gone on benders? like you want to get so fucked up so much so all you have to worry about tomorrow is that hangover?

well i did that on saturday, and i dragged along my 2 bestfriends. we had a crazy fun night. we watched movies, ate pizza, had beers and had alprazolam. basically, i was happy i was fucked up with these people.

but on sunday i was still so high that i autopiloted my whole sunday. like i woke up and did shit. even had family lunch. they said that i looked sleep af, they didnt know about my bender the […]

4/4/2016 1 comment

My boyfriend showed me attention…

by sugarfreeheartless 4/1/2016

written by sugarfreeheartless

… and I felt elated. I felt like maybe we had a chance, maybe I had a chance to get out of this hell that is bipolar and somehow make it work. I felt like my old self. I actually laughed. A two week anger/mania streak just lifted. But I have to remember all that I went through, and put him through for weeks. Funny how bipolar makes you focus on the current thing and feel like it was forever. but I know that time-wise, I have been miserable or way more than I have been happy. It does not add up. I know the […]

4/1/2016 1 comment

Happy Anniversary My Friend

by BlueEyes 4/1/2016

written by BlueEyes

Dearest, dearest MC,

April 1, a year ago, it all changed.

One year ago you felt the fresh air again after 3 agonizing months. And I was there for you in spirit, as I had been all along. But I soon, sadly, discovered “we” were gone.

But on this anniversary I still send you all my love my friend; I send you best wishes. I wish things were different, but I try to trust this is where we should be right now.

Maybe someday… Maybe someday you’ll remember that feeling we shared and have the courage to want to try again.

I hold onto hope; I hold you in love; […]

4/1/2016 0 comment

Sad and Mad

by MaybeElena 3/31/2016

written by MaybeElena

Those are the only two emotions I feel anymore..

When I’m mad I turn into a monster, and feel like I have zero control over myself. This rage is like a hurricane destroying everything, and everyone in my way.

When I’m sad I cry about every little thing, and I mean EVERYTHING.. Someone looks at me the wrong way, and I start tearing up. Something very minor happens in a T.V show, I start balling my eyes out.

My mother is always saying that I need to get out of this “funk” I’m in. What she doesn’t realize is that I honestly cannot remember a time where I […]

3/31/2016 5 comments

Dear Jordan,

by beaubri 3/28/2016

written by beaubri

Dear Jordan,

I thought about you again today. I talked about you. It was quite a mess. I couldn’t gather up the words to say. There is just too much to share.

Good times and bad, you were always there. As I was for you. Memories we shared I will forever cherish. Our connection, our ups, and downs. What we’ve been through, what I put you through, what you went through, and those the same for me.

My most precious memory of us together was the night at Rock Fest. The only band we came to see was HURT and Blue October. I remember when you got to […]

3/28/2016 3 comments

2 Years Later

by 13vida 3/28/2016

written by 13vida

Oh my gosh, I have been trying to remember the name of this site for the life of me! I’ve looked every where for it for the past two years and then *BAM* I finally found it! No, I just went back through some of what I wrote and I feel bad for my past self; I was not a positive person, but I know it wasn’t my fault that I was depressed. No, here’s what’s happened the past couple years – p.s. sorry for the long story.

My best friend moved to Arizona in December of 2014; I missed her like crazy. I went out […]

3/28/2016 7 comments

Untitled

by imokaybutnotreally 3/25/2016

written by imokaybutnotreally

“You have so much to live for.”

I don’t know how may more times I can listen to that. Anytime I talk to any friends or family it’s the same thing. They start by telling me how I am going through a rough patch and that it will all get better. They don’t offer any real advice. They half ass their responses and tell me how my future is going to be just fantastic. I am getting frustrated even thinking of it now. A severe case of anxiety and depression is no “rough patch”. I have been dealing with these issues since before I can remember. […]

3/25/2016 1 comment

Night guys!

by Sui the Bunny 3/23/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

Night guys! Thank you all for being supportive of me. I am tired as fuck I’ve had a long day after all the events I’ve done…

Remember always embrace your inner weirdo (the weirdo inside will love you for it)

Be who you are don’t be anyone else you’ll feel much better as a person for it.

All of your support has kept me alive today which I thank you for you guys to me a superheroes to me so go on and save some more peoples lives <— hopefully that all sense

See you guys tomorrow!

-Suicide

3/23/2016 1 comment

After Yesterday.

by GTSuicide_6 3/19/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

After yesterday, being directly rushed to the E.R. by ambulance for suicidal thoughts, knowing how my family treated me (please read “No Emergency”) when they said I was over exaggerating, when my mom complained saying she could’ve bought shoes instead of paying for parking at the hospital, when my father complained about missing work, where my sister told me I was making things up,

Fuck I don’t even remember the point to this post.

Urgh I’m wasting everyones time.

But I feel I have to let this out.

I have no one.

3/19/2016 8 comments

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