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Just a ride

March 5th, 2015by Randall

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Am i finally done yet??

March 5th, 2015by frikkinloser

So, to make this simple, i fucking hate myself. I am not (and will never be) content with who i am. Nothing is actually wrong with me, i would just thoroughly enjoy killing myself. I am only posting this to relieve myself of hatred, or at least attempt to. I don’t care for sympathy. I do not want help. Nothing will ever stop these thoughts, no matter what anyone tells you. I have more friends in my head than i do in real life, simply because we share the same interests; death. The absolute ONE reason i am still alive is my boyfriend. I don’t …

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friends

March 5th, 2015by lovemyshihtzu

i need friends to help me through this hard time and give me hope tawneesmommy@gmail.com

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If God decides when we are born & when we die then does he decide our fate by our own hands??

March 5th, 2015by lifeishorrible

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Confessions to an Old Friend

March 5th, 2015by Sammi6xoxo

“But sometimes, I can see myself sinking so far down. Getting so desperate for some sort of tangible stability or peace. I can see myself getting a gun and swallowing the barrel.. I can’t See myself ever pulling the trigger, but I can almost hear the defining silence that comes after the blast. And I just wonder. Is there anything after this? If so, could it be better? I just want to be stable. I want to be okay. I can picture this landscape. Tall grass and a weeping willow in the middle of the field. Mountains are barely visible against the cool summer sky. …

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What hurts more?

March 4th, 2015by perfect2bones

Does the depression or the results of the depression hurt more?

Does the cut or the fact that I can’t hold hands hurt more?

Does death or the hole caused by death hurt more?

I have OCD, depression, and a fear of weight. For a girl in a christian home, that is the stupidest thing ever. I feel so ungrateful when I think about why I am the way I am, but I can’t change, and I don’t want to. I will be like this forever… or as long as I live.

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I don’t want to live.

March 4th, 2015by redfox24

basically my life is hopeless no matter any situation, I’m always the one in the back corner by myself. I don’t want to live, I’ve been on and off suicidal for 2 years now, not one person in my family knows I am suicidal, and that I tied a noose and put it around my neck ready to jump one night. No one knows. Even in this moment I type, I want to stab myself in the throat every waking moment.

 

I just wanted to tell someone finally. Get it out after so long.

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so fuckin what

March 4th, 2015by youwillneverknowme

the world is a person who has caught multiple desieses: man, woman, etc. man and woman reproduced and had children, and so the virus spreads. earth is now living in hell. earth said he wanted to die because of this virus, the virus annoys him on a daily basis, fighting with itself, the virus only gets worse: more reproduction, more hell.

one last crisis is all we need.
one deadly explosion.

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First time since depressed, writing a note to a beautiful person

March 4th, 2015by IWishIWasI

Hey

So for the past few years I was dealing with a lot of family and life problems. I wasn’t enjoying life at all. Continuously studying, studying, and studying, I at times quit. It felt like I had fallen deeper and deeper sometimes, no matter how much I tried. It’s hard to describe, but I wasn’t living life. I didn’t feel anything for some times, and when I did feel something, it was my chest that was hurting when I felt terrible and sad. Just empty.

I started a new year last August. I tried to relax more, not care, and be a little more “free.” I …

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Keep Myself Alive from Get Scared

March 4th, 2015by freakthecreature

 

I always ask myself

How could this darker cloud make me stronger now.

I’ll always ask myself

When will this go away?

 

When will this change?

Oh! I don’t wanna, wanna wait.

All of this pain,

Oh! will it, will it go away?

I ask myself this everyday.

 

[Chorus:]

I just wanna leave this place behind.

Every time I see your face in mine.

I just wanna leave this place behind.

Every time I see your face in mine.

 

I sink and drink myself to sleep.

Of course I think I’m a lot stronger now.

I gotta catch myself

To kick this over, make it go away.

When will this change?

Oh! I don’t wanna, wanna wait.

Ohhh! of this pain!

Oh! will it, will it …

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My plan

March 4th, 2015by Streamers

I wrote it in a notebook, and I accidentally left that notebook in school. Hopefully, no one will look inside to see who it belongs to, because I didn’t write a name, the first page only has my plan. Followed by details and observations.

I’m gonna get in so much trouble.

I might need to make a new plan.

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A song worth living for

March 4th, 2015by WillP.

Please don’t hesitate to talk to me tinyurl.com/m9zdb2b

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Am I a bad person for not going out for dinner on my moms birthday?

March 4th, 2015by Agony

I just don’t want to feel awful. Here at home it doesn’t matter if they don’t say a word to me or ignore me, but in a restaurant I’m forced to sit on a table with them for an hour or two surrounded by nice looking families. I already feel awful thinking about it. My mom won’t even notice it if I’m not there but she does want me to go. Even if I do have something to say I’m not allowed to, or they ignore me. They won’t even bet an eye on me, I’m not going.

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??

March 4th, 2015by HereticBlood

Anyone here been on Effexor or Remeron? What are your experiences? Anyone care to say what they have seen most affective for bipolar, anxiety and PTSD?…

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Something Worth Pondering

March 4th, 2015by L4Y

“I’m not depressed and I’m not unhappy, because I believe that happiness is not a destination to reach and set up camp at, it’s a place you visit every once in a while when the stars are aligned just right or something along those lines.”

This was sent to me by someone in an E-mail a couple of weeks ago and it got me thinking. I (like many other people here, I’m sure) have not been happy in many years and I wonder if constant, true happiness is common even for those who possess all of the things many of us relate to happiness – money, …

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For Anyone Who Just Wants Something to Read

March 4th, 2015by MattCSidd

Maybe you just come here for the stories?

Well here’s one, maybe it’s fiction or maybe not, all good memories become stories when they’re lost to the ocean of time.

It was summer. Last summer had been so warm his days were mostly spent shirtless. That was the summer before he met that one person who would change his life forever. But this isn’t like some soppy love story, instead of perfectly timed kisses and theatrical dialogue, it’s filled with awkward silences and fights. But they made it work. Until they didn’t.

He’d asked him to come and visit him while they weren’t living together. He’d checked with …

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back again

March 4th, 2015by munckin

It has been 11 months since I got cheated on the day before my birthday. I made a date with the weekend of the 4th of april; I just need to book the hotel.. so far all my plans were about being silent, calm, alone so that my body would be discovered only by the amount of concern people have for me.

Now, I plan to jump down from the highest hotel this city has to offer me with enough pills to make sure that I will be K.O. during the free fall…

The reason? Partly the fact that this girl cheated on me over and over …

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the disassociated self

March 4th, 2015by macd123

Perhaps it was the ghostly feel of it all as I walked the streets. Perhaps it was the guy who had the sign “help I’ve disappeared”. I looked in the mirror once again. The traffic, the people, the buildings all belonged in a different dimension. I was in a dream, I was in a nightmare, I was in my life. Hello, I said but was ignored. Don’t they know I’m here, scream, you must scream. Scurry, scurry, they can’t feel you but you want their attention. Couples walk hand and hand, a man smokes a joint, another person screams at everyone and everything – …

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Time to move on…

March 4th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

I spent two years here on this website. Twenty six years on this network known as earth. Eight years too long. Two years in inordinate amounts of pain. Three months in the thralls of the deepest despair anybody has ever felt. It is time. Time to move on from this fuckin’ website. I will miss it. The dark blue of the webpage and the project that we never quite seem to figure out. If it’s a group project we utterly failed it. Good thing the teacher has been gone since its creation. Being god. Cause he doesn’t exist.

I’m going to kill myself soon. Today? …

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March 4th, 2015by MattCSidd

ive lost them all pushed away all of the friends i had left

the shit thing is i couldnt stop it

i had only two choices fuck over my friends or attempt to pay for something with money i dont have

ive told them i dont want to do this and ive tried to put it off for as long as possible

they say they understand but theyre not paying

they dont realise they have less choice in this than i do

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