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Alone and Suicidal.

August 31st, 2014by Katie.Roberts40

So I am new to this obviously. Um but I just wanted to tell my story to people who want to listen and who don’t feel the pressure to listen to me.

Anyways I have been depressed and suicidal for a while now. It all started with an English paper titled “This I Believe” and I was asked to write about what I truely believe in. In my essay I stated that I believed I would become this gilded girl, beautiful on the outside, but damaged and hallow on the inside. I believed that I would serve an existance of pain. Writing

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Failed at Death

August 31st, 2014by EvilKitten

Last week I slit my wrists, all the way up my arms, multiple times. Anywhere I saw a vein, I sliced hard and fast. Amazingly it didn’t hurt. Earlier that day I went to the store and bought a brand new kitchen knife, for exactly this purpose.

I’m still alive. I cut myself so badly that I turned my bathtub full of water dark red. I saw the blood spurting out of my veins. I wished for death. Irritatingly, my veins stopped bleeding after only a short time. So I found veins on my legs and ankles to slice up. I’m fair skinned, so finding them …

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Life is pointless

August 31st, 2014by secondlife

While I doubt anyone I know personally actually visits this site, I’m still going to be careful and generalize the details. So I’m sitting here with a serious medical problem I’ve never had in my life before, which causes severe pain. Fortunately it should heal on it’s own within a short period of time if it’s not more serious than I believe it to be.

This pain comes and goes but when it hits, it’s very excruciating around 8/10 if 10 was ‘kill me now I can’t bear it.’ Anyways, it’s just an example of how crappy my life is and there’s no reason to …

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Anyone Wanna Talk?

August 31st, 2014by AMaskOfLies

I’m just curious as to what brought all of you people here. If you wanna talk about yourself or just you need someone to listen to your problems, I’m here.

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The 13 Year Old Girls Who Cried “suicide”

August 31st, 2014by nihilist

Reminder that no one really cares about suicidal people these days. Why? Because no one takes them seriously. Why? Because if a mental condition is in your head, no one can see it and people have to take your word that it’s there. The perfect plan for attention whores, most frequently on this site. So I see 50 posts a night about killing yourselves and rarely does anyone do it. They come back saying “My attempt failed.” But honestly, it’s easy to kill yourself. I understand that it’s not always a hit and win, but still, the success rate has to be much higher than …

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Okay, I’m Sowwy! :’C

August 31st, 2014by TwistedSpace

I didn’t mean to seem so coldhearted. I actually love every one of you as you love me. It makes me cry to realize that I’m so mean to you guys. Please forgive me! Oh, and please don’t ban me. :3

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How do I know?

August 31st, 2014by iamerror73

How do I know that any of this is real? Why should I continue to suffer when nothing even matters? If I kill myself, what happens? What becomes of my thoughts? What am I made of? Why am I here alone? Why?

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I want to Disappear.

August 31st, 2014by nihilist

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My name is Randall Edwards and I am here because when I was 17 I google searched the words “I want to disappear” and found this site. I am now nineteen and I am suicidal because I am alone. I am away from my friends so much now that a part of me feels like I’m meeting them again for the first time when I see them. Tomorrow I’ll be seeing my best friend tomorrow for the first time in roughly a month and part of me doesn’t even want to see her due to how …

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The end feels near more than ever…

August 31st, 2014by Shawn11

I’ve been wanted to end my life even at a young age because of the loneliness I felt inside my heart. I use to get bullied when I was young and I was pushed around with no one to help me. I barely made friends because they found me weird and ugly. I made some a few years before high school who were good people but none could ever understand me. I always felt misunderstood and hopeless. High school was the worst time of my life for freshmen and softmore year. I couldn’t stand school and I felt so lonely I even just felt the urge …

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Dark and cold

August 31st, 2014by DarkestRaven

I’m not so sure I understand much anymore…. All I know is I feel like it can’t get much colder than this… Can’t sleep, can’t eat, and I’m wondering how I’m even able to breathe… Someone please please tell me how to get out of this hell I’m in… Or maybe just how to stop the flashbacks?….anything…anyone :’(

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Just an observation…

August 30th, 2014by nozmoking

I’ve noticed something about this site. Maybe it’s not so much the site but the people behind the aliases – when someone posts here and we pick up the notion that they are serious about going through with ending their life or at the least in very significant pain and anguish we rally around them like elephants do when a pack member is in distress.

I don’t use the analogy of elephants in a negative way – in fact to the contrary. What they do is born of compassion, of high intuition and empathy; it is a matter of survival for all. Most of us are …

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Hopeless

August 30th, 2014by gr8fulls

After so many years, probably 8, I really can’t believe things will get better.  The joy I used to have is gone.  I just get through my days.  I can’t picture how it will ever get better.  And it’s not for lack of trying.  I try so hard.  I keep trying new ways to feel better.  Everyone thinks I’ve got it all together.  But every day, I think about how much easier it would be to not keep trying.  I can’t imagine I could do this life for 40 more years.  And I’m well aware that a lot of people have it worse off than …

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Finality

August 30th, 2014by nozmoking

I’ve wasted much of the past fourteen years being lost in the pain of losing someone I cherished more than anyone. Some of you have seen the details puked out here on SP and I won’t go into them again – suffice it to say I gave my life to someone who decided it was more in their best interest to dump me in the gutter and run off with a child molester.

I’ve not had any contact with her for several years, at which time she got in touch with me for reasons still unknown. I made it clear I knew all the secrets, even …

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Shedding Attachments

August 30th, 2014by C4

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There she is. My last fling. One of the greatest things I’ve ever put between my legs.
I had to let her go because I wanted to be more mobile. I wanted to be able to skip town within minutes. No packing, no moving furniture, just stick whatever I own in the trunk of my car and go.
She wouldn’t fit in the trunk of my car. I only had her for 3 months. Lost about $4500 on her. Oh well.
She never spent a single night outdoors. I put a Yoshimura exhaust (slip on muffler) …

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Living with a secret? Tell someone -Heres why…

August 30th, 2014by cagedtiger

I recently had someone reach out to me and tho they didn’t have to, they did. I have made a huge mess out of my life, allowed myself to be abused and taken advantage of and am too ashamed to tell anyone.

 

Now your problem or “secret” could be anything. Maybe you harm yourself, maybe you’re being abused, or maybe like me you’ve somehow gotten yourself into some huge mess. What I realized today is how much it helps to have someone else’s opinion on your situation. They see things that you won’t see. Steps that you can take that you may not think of. Personally, …

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Lost,Empty, and Hopless

August 30th, 2014by DarkestRaven

No idea where to turn to anymore..

Everyday feels like I only am left to waste away more. Tired of people telling me “there’s so much to be thankful for” “think of the positives”.. Only how can I be so positive when the nightmares and flashbacks are a movie stuck on repeat. So vivid so clear.. The anger rushes over me and I quickly return to the blade . The one thing I know will never judge me. The one thing I know will never leave me or betray me. Suddenly feeling ashamed. Who am I?.. Where has all this gone. Why did I die the …

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Going to end it tonight

August 30th, 2014by Jake

I was put on a experimental antidepressant  witch has shown positive signs on teens but I have been on it for two mouths and nothing but because it is meant for adults it is easy to OD on so tonight I am going to take all of it because my foster parents don’t keep it hidden like they are supposed to is definitely is enough to kill me so I am going to try tonight

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Useless

August 30th, 2014by Visual

I don’t know why I keep going unless it’s out of habit.  I long ago passed the point where I can even pretend to be dealing with the daily pain.  Raised in an abusive home, sexually abused in high school, and HIV+.  I’ve struggled for decades to deal with my depression.  I’ve struggled to maintain an occupation for which I’ve sometimes received professional recognition, but now no one’s interested.  I’m ignored.  Never a word when I respond to a job posting…or they want to humiliate me further by paying me Burger King wages.  As a Boomer, I guess I’m now too old.  As productive as …

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Sad but true

August 30th, 2014by A_Shoe_In

I force myself to go out alone. It is a feeble attempt to pretend I have a life. Everyone always says go out meet people do your own thing. Blah Blah Blah. I do freaking everything alone what I miss is human companionship. So, I am out having a beer watching football. I am surrounded by groups of friends and families. I am jealous and sad. I look and wonder what it is they have I don’t that. I can’t be that bad, my therapist always said everyone deserves love as is. As is in the sense of big small issues or no issues. It’s …

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I’m Not Very Intelligent

August 30th, 2014by TwistedSpace

I wish I was a Blonde, that way I’d have something to match my stupidity down to a tee. I feel that people wouldn’t expect as much from me if they saw I was Blonde. I also wish I was a trust fund baby who didn’t need to work a day in her life. I wouldn’t mind taking shit for it, because I’d be too rich to care. People say I can be pretty smart, but I don’t see it. My grammar sucks; I don’t know a thing about it, honestly. I just repeat what I see from reading. And about reading, it takes me …

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