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Alone and Depressed

October 25th, 2014by Chad_heartbroken

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I came home from a 12 hour shift at work, and saw this old picture in my phone. We seemed so happy at the time, and all I can think about is how much we were in love, but now as the tears stre down my face, all I can think about is the pain. When I’m alone, I can’t help but have dark thoughts of ending it all because I couldn’t imagine my life without you. You were the one that made life worth living. I know that people say that I’ll get over it,

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What the hell should i do?

October 25th, 2014by DoneWithThisWorld

I just want to begin with that I am an atheist, science is my only faith. So DO NOT GIVE ME ANY RELIGIOUS BULLSH*T. But to get down to it, I can’t deal with this existence anymore. I am weak. I am not capable of being, I am nowhere near strong enough. I hate this world, I hate myself and who I have become. I don’t want to be a part of this bullsh*t anymore. I have had a wonderful upbringing. Every opportunity has been afforded to me. I have no reason to feel this way. I have a bright outlook, academically and professionally. I’ve …

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I’ve reached the end of my rope, i’ll be gone soon.

October 25th, 2014by adagiowolf

I don’t want to bore anyone with a tragic story, but I will say that my first suicide attempt was 10 years ago when I was 14 and there have been many since then. i’ve tried really hard to have a normal life, but i just can’t do it anymore.

I’ve decided how I’m going to do it, and I’m looking forward to being at peace soon but I’m also a bit sad. There are people I’d of wanted to say goodbye to, but they don’t speak to me and i’ve tried to get in touch for weeks now. It kills me that they could be …

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One Love

October 25th, 2014by kontinkatink

Only one love for me.  I’m devastated he’s gone…lost without him. Would do anything to get him back…anything.

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It’s not as easy being me as you might think

October 25th, 2014by SabrinaTheTeenagedWitch

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Models have feelings too. *cough* Aquamarine *cough*

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Plan for Dying

October 25th, 2014by Greenz

So. Here is my plan. I’d prefer to not be inundated with “we can help!” because nobody can.

I cannot put this into effect until January, unfortunately. But I have done some research, and apparently Kirkland is a good sleeping pill. You can buy them in 96 tablets. I figured that probably isn’t enough, so what you could probably do is, buy a few. Maybe over time, so nobody gets suspicious. Assuming these are water-soluble, make a solution with water and these things. Get into a bathtub. Go under.

And never come up.

Thoughts? Ideas? Criticism? …

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I guess there IS everything on the net

October 25th, 2014by putonahappyface

I’ve thought about it for years. Tried various ways. Failed (obviously) every time.  Lied my way out of hospital after hospital.  Spent years “reinventing” myself. But can’t escape the overwhelming need to die. Not to die just any way. I need something creative. It cannot look like a suicide. It can NEVER be questioned. My husband doesn’t know and can’t know i am like this. He didn’t know me when i was “depressed,” medicated. In therapy everyday. He knows the now me. That person works 60 hours a week. That person adores her children. That person is positive and upbeat. Fun loving and adventurous.  The …

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All i ever wanted was to feel loved

October 25th, 2014by Agm

I often found myself on this site, in my darkest days when i’d thought i didn’t want to live anymore. I have tried to kill myself 3 times by overdose. I just can’t describe the feeling i have to anyone, i literally battle every single day of my life with suicidal thoughts. Next year i will be 20 and i have never felt loved by anyone in my entire life, sure i have a boyfriend and to the outside world he probably seems caring and loving, yet somethings missing. I have told him the way i feel and the things that i feel would make …

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Paralyzed for 12 hours!!! & Need help?

October 25th, 2014by RiskTaker

Yesterday, I had a severe pain in the back of my head and was partially paralyzed.

This is called a TIA (Transient Ischemic Attack). I had it before but it never lasted for more than 2 hours and never paralyzed me “that much”. But this time it lasted for nearly 12 hours.

My body hurts all over since yesterday and I feel very week today.

I will actually die in less than 3 months due to my health problems alone; I don’t need to kill myself.
I don’t think my legal and “feeling-home” problems will be fixed at all (read my last post) it’s been 3 years of misery …

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my crush cuts

October 25th, 2014by Delisnak

It’s been looking at peoples wrists, arms, and legs to see if they were cutting like me. I haven’t seen anyone cutting or heard of anyone I know cutting tell one day at school. I was I P.E. at school and we went outside and the boys in the other gym were out there too. My friend Kobe (he’s my crush) was out there and asked me to come over. Once I got over to him I sat by him and he stuck out his wrist, I was cofusedy at first but then I saw the deep gash going down his arm. I would …

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It’s just one big cycle

October 25th, 2014by Roaming_Soul

I’ve been coming to this site for over 3 years now. I haven’t posted anything in over a year because I thought that I could fight this feeling of desperation, anxiety, loss and depression on my own. To be honest all I did was block everything out and I have become numb to the core. My world spun out of control last year with my mothers attempted suicide and her failed efforts to take my sister and I on the same journey to death (in simple terms: she tried killing as well by poisoning our dinner). This was the cherry on the cake that …

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Life goes on

October 25th, 2014by bipolary

When you are bipolar life is like a giant roller coaster. You go up and you go down… And if you’re really lucky you hit a plateau and you just sort of coast along for a while… I finally hit a plateau this morning. Yesterday I was so close to life being over… But this morning the fog lifted, and life goes on.

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Where do I start, when do I end?

October 25th, 2014by kindhurt

Yesterday was definitely the icing on it type of day. In a nutshell:

1. Still stuck in the world’s longest divorce.

2. Spouse had a baby with their new partner (I can’t have any more)

3. My new partner is an alcoholic and spent the day in a stupor

4. Had my previously good credit destroyed by ex’s credit card that has gone to collections

5. I was never joint on the card, yet it ended up on my record.

All of these above probably seem like nothing, yet these little hurts piled onto an already covered up person. The first, Le Divorce, came expected after I caught him texting a …

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I just can’t stop

October 25th, 2014by I_tried_

I tried to kill myself and they took me to inpatient. I got out like a week ago. Anyway I went to the highschool football game last night and one of my friends saw the shape of the pocket knife in my pocket. I wouldn’t give it to her so she went and got her brother. At that point I ran to hide. He later found me and threatened to hurt himself if I didn’t give it to him. I told him I couldn’t give it to him because my dad would notice it was missing. I kept smiling. Trying to smile out the tears …

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A bit too much

October 25th, 2014by TheGuy

Hey guys, so I’m new to this site but it seems like a good community. I don’t really know where to start so I guess I’ll just go for it.

When I was 15 my good friend from elementary school passed away from an asthma attack. I largely regard this as the beginning of it all. After that I became pretty depressed, it got pretty bad for a while but I got over it. Over the next few years it came and went on and off, a couple months depressed, a couple months happy, that sort of thing; though I’d always been too proud to actually …

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Purgatory In Paradise

October 25th, 2014by charlieregal

Damn. It’s Hot. I hate this island. Nothing ever makes sense here. Everyone is smoking and drinking and killing cursing and…is happy. Why do buses filled with white people come here? Who in their right mind would want to come here? Avoid the groid! It’s so hot! Is this hell? Because everyone torments me with their jubilee while I am just devastated. I thought that If I preserved my memories they preserve me but they are just a mental horror movie. My childhood wasted. The real me Lost somewhere in between the beatings and loneliness and alienation. Why here!? Haha. Maybe I should run to …

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what should I do?

October 25th, 2014by Winter girl

So.. I’ve beenn seriously contemplating suicide. I have so many support systems, but I’m just not sure if i can do this anymore. It’s too much

I have a weak heart because I had anorexia, and my doctor has to watch my potassium levels because of that. Too low, my heart stops beating. Too high and I have a heart attack. I’m incredibly depressed and I don’t know how to do this anymore. Should I kill myself? Is this suffering going to justify me checking out early? Does anyone know of your body will reject (throw up) an overdose on potassium? How do I make things …

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October 25th, 2014by Bisban

 

Needs a place to stay ; )

Seriously, though.

Please.

Where you at

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Who did it?

October 25th, 2014by nozmoking

Who posted my entire life on the internet?

 

 

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Decision

October 25th, 2014by secondlife

So I’ve thought long and hard about this, there’s a fork in the road leading to 3 paths, one is bringing this life to a close, the second is continuing with the status quo, persisting in my misery and self-loathing, brooding over my past mistakes, etc and the third path to try to make a change.

By which I mean to get back in shape and find a better job or start a business. I was worried I would’ve fallen into the rut I’m in now the last time I made a leap to change my life-I was hoping to keep the momentum going until I …

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