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My suicide note

September 28th, 2016by WeAllGoALittleMad

Hey, i’m planning on killing myself the day after tomorrow. I wasn’t originally going to write a note but I’ve decided to leave one to give some people closure. Can you read what i’ve done and tell me what you think please? Feedback would be appreciated. Thanks.

To whom it may concern,

If you are reading this, then I am already gone and somebody has had the unfortunate experience of finding my body. I am extremely sorry to the person that had to be the one to find me like they have, but it was the only way I could guarantee a way out without failing again.

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He Doesn’t Move, He Doesn’t Stay

September 28th, 2016by Kninea

Depression is a state of mind
but remember my dear
it is a crime
to cut the throat of a beloved soul
and suck the life from within the whole
cross out the lies that left your lips
and drink the blood with thirsty lips.
Snap her bones into shattered glass
hold your breath until the screaming passes
shout her name from miles away
he doesn’t move, he doesn’t stay

Rip the wound with foolish tears
and cover the scar with dreaded fears.
Taste the pain on your own bandaged tongue
and drip the tears into her precious lungs.
Shoot the smile from her face
and bring her to a forbidden place.
Screaming, she runs away
he doesn’t move, he doesn’t stay.

~E.N.G

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i fucking did it fucking again fucking fuck

September 28th, 2016by BL98

i have failed my driver license … i just gave it a chance but i knew i had none … yesterday i got rejected , had a fight with my parents , spent the night crying , now i failed this shit again … tommorow will be no different …

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I’m Insane

September 28th, 2016by Ylem31

Twenty cuts. The blood is beautiful. And I’m not done.

I’VE MISSED MY BLADES

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Update…

September 28th, 2016by Still wandering

I’m okay. ūüôā
Things are going okay lately.

Probably I am not gonna visit here for some time.
I decided a new course of life for myself.
I left my job 2 months ago. Started something new which is quit exciting. I earn more and I have more time for myself. And most importantly I like what I do.

For next 30 days, I am gonna be somewhere else. They call it ‘a healing place’. I hope, I will be much better after a month.
And I am not sure whether I will ever visit here again or not.
&
It was great knowing you all guys.

It’s was such an inspirational experience.
You …

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Am I ready for goodbye?

September 28th, 2016by Very.Very.Miserable

I’m at the lowest point of my life, despite only being eighteen years of age. For years I’ve struggled with severe suicidal depression, but I had friends, house parties to go to, and the ability to put smiles on people’s faces to distract me from the lingering pain that swelled in my heart.
I don’t have any of that now. I’ve been alone for months dwelling on my insignificance as a human.

I don’t have value anymore, I don’t have anything…I only desire to cease existing in an endeavor to suffice a swift end to this horrendous emptiness that lurks within me…I’m not particularly intelligent, …

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Friends

September 28th, 2016by babypanda

Friends. He said it twice, maybe three times, his friend, I’m not quite sure. All I know is that the first time he said it, it just started clamoring inside my head, almost drowning out anything else he was saying. The second time he said it, my heart dropped and it was all I could fucking hear. I know, I fucking¬†know,¬†that he likes me, but it still hit me like a shit ton of bricks and scared me witless when he said that word.¬†Friend.

I’m afraid. Afraid that even after all we’ve done that he’ll see me, really¬†see me, and drop me like the bag of …

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Thought Provoking Quotes

September 28th, 2016by EyeOfHorus

“For all the happiness you wish for someone, someone else gets cursed with equal misery”

-Sayaka Miki

“Remember this… and take it to heart: kindness sometimes leads to even greater tradgedy.”

-Homura Akemi

“Have I gone mad?

I’m afraid so. You’re entirely bonkers. But I’ll tell you a secret. All the best people are.”

-The Mad Hatter and Alice

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I think I am losing it

September 27th, 2016by Forevertorn

I’m losing. I’m losing and there’s no one no one who can save me. I’m going insane with insanity. I don’t care who dies I’m at such a stage where anger has overpowered my human mind. I’m done with all the mfuckers and their shit. How to calm down how do I find peace without twisting all their heads in one go.

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Dying over time

September 27th, 2016by Forevertorn

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The first cut looks disgusting in real the second one is stabbed with my teeth because I literally had gone insane.. utter shit. My mom said it will heal and nothing more my father saw this and shunned me like an attention whore. Ofcourse Iam a whore for him.. his own whore.

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Shell

September 27th, 2016by rich51bruhh

I remember telling my brother that I won’t end up lonely because I will start work and school soon and meet people. Well here I am in class looking at the many girls I would like to talk to but I know I wont. I just got back from work too. Where there I quietly open boxes all day. My boss is a talkative person but I tend to just chuckle and agree to what he says or smile and say “oh.” Thats all I can ever say. I never know what to say. At work all I hear are happy songs or love song. …

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Feelings

September 27th, 2016by wishingthiswasover

It hurts, that I can’t be what everyone wants. Or what anyone needs. And it hurts that I can’t be what I want, what I need. Because I’m not enough. I wont ever be enough. And I’ll never even be close to enough. And it hurts. It hurts, so damn bad.

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shame

September 27th, 2016by lonewolf23

I wish I never discovered porn. It’s destroying my life. I can see how it’s kinda f***ed up…..yet I allow myself to watch it when I’m stressed. I’m not even religious and I know how damaging it can be. If you take religion out of the picture your left with basic human morals. And if you take that out then I don’t know what you are. I know this is a very controversial topic but f*** it. I’m gonna admit the truth on how I feel about this….after all it affects all of us in different and similar ways. For me….it makes me lose confidence …

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I just want to disappear…

September 27th, 2016by mindlessgamer619

I know for a fact that someone else would have done so much better in my place. If I could give someone more deserving, my life, so that they could be something amazing, then I would. If I could disappear, I would. I’m already in debt, and I’m desperate to leave here. There’s nothing here for me anymore. I can’t keep up this everyday bullshit. I’m not working, not in school, I just feel like my life is stagnant and sad and pitiful. Worst thing is my poor parents putting up with my bullshit. I just want to give up. These past 2

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The stolen pencil case

September 27th, 2016by They Call Me Amy

 

So today was the day that I was looking forward to. I was going to bake some cookies, have a nice Bbq ribs for dinner, do 3 diys that I wanted to do for the longest time, and some other stuff.

I had an horrible month, and I was expecting this day to be perfect, because I studied so hard these last weeks for some exams, and since they ended this morning, I deserved a little reward, right?

Everyday something bad happens to me. I am not even kidding. But I thought today was gonna be the greatest day I could have. And I woke up with a …

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It’s been a while and I still want to die…

September 27th, 2016by TheHandle

It’s been a minute since I posted here. I was seeing a psychologist, which no big surprise, didn’t help. He kept wanting to prescribe anti-depressants I’ve already tried and didn’t help me. He wasn’t familiar with existential depression either. A couple months in my healthcare coverage lapsed so I stopped going to see him, which I was going to do anyway. Just a waste of time. My b-day is coming up in the next week and a half. I’m thinking about killing myself on my b-day. Everyday is filled with depression and existential angst, I hate waking up and being conscious. Nothing about life excites …

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3am help?! Uh No!!!

September 27th, 2016by brxken._.lxcks

I didn’t go to sleep until 3 in the morning because my mom had called someone to help me about my depression. This is the second time I’m going to get help, and may be going back to the hospital again. There is no way that I’m going back to the hospital, putting me in a room won’t keep me away from the voices in my head.

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Hi…

September 27th, 2016by frozen9770

Hi everyone. I’m new here, this is my first post, but I’ve been reading posts and stuff for a few months now. I don’t really know why I am even posting anything, my story isn’t nearly as sad as everyone else’s. I have had depression, anxiety, pts for almost four years now. In about the last year, the depression has gotten really bad. It got so bad that I had to stop driving because I couldn’t concentrate. I would just think about how I wanted to just steer the car off the edge. I got really scared of what I could do to myself. I …

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Anyone wants to talk ?

September 27th, 2016by Forevertorn

Hey.. does anyone want to talk about their day ? I’m listening to slave only dreams to be king by MM. These pills that I have taken now have stopped bothering my body I hope It hasn’t done much liver damage. I just wanna sleep tonight there are countless accidental deaths from this kind of overdose I wish this be my last night but no man it is just a thought it just won’t happen. Peaceful deaths are not easily affordable.

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Dear God

September 27th, 2016by DarkTide

Dear God.

As a person who devoted himself to you for years on end I have a question. Is it a sin to commit suicide? I ask for a friend(who is really myself)… I know many Christians believe that suicide is a sin. That you will never forgive me for killing myself. I know it is a taboo question in the church. Judas committed suicide and many people believe it is what he deserved but it also says a spirit possessed him to betray Jesus and then from guilt he killed himself, wasn’t that a desperate plea for you to forgive him? I don’t know if …

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