June 29th, 2016by thehusk
DISCLAIMER: This is just my usual attempt to untangle the mess in my head. Much of it is probably rambling bullshit.
I don’t know what I’m doing here. My mind is dominated by the negative. All I can think of is the things that are wrong with my life. The physical discomfort I’m in. The way my body should look. The things I should’ve done. How alone I am.
I don’t want to die. I’m far too self-involved for that. Who would the universe revolve around if I disappeared?
I just don’t know how to live in a way that doesn’t spread misery. Maybe I’m addicted to being miserable. But …