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a response to salts post “i tried to show you a way out”

April 29th, 2016by Procel

this is more to do with the comments than the post itself, i tried to write a comment but it didnt seem to post, so ill just put it here, as you can see its long, perhaps theres a word limit on comments? either way after writing so much i would be irritated to just delete it

Wow, this one really blew up didnt it? Just a couple of pints id like to add after reading all the comments.
Firstly is the discussion over ways to help, @salt you know i agree with what you say regarding more serious members need more serious help instead of lighthearted, …

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Why am I trying?

April 29th, 2016by The White Rabbit

I keep going, day after day, doing the same old bullshit while I wait to be crammed into a dorm with three other people for the next two years who will come and go and be replaced and whatnot. All so I can get a career in forestry to make me money while I go try to get a proper biology degree. For what? The only reason I do this is literally with the hope that humans will launch me off the planet to go die in space and maybe see some cool shit before I die. I have no hopes nor prospects for love, …

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I wish I could leave right now

April 29th, 2016by suicidalfreak

I wish I could runaway from all this pain I feel everyday I’m drowning in my own mind. I want to leave this stupid family behide and live a better life of my own if that’s even possible

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Alcohol

April 29th, 2016by dividebyzero

I self-medicate with alcohol quite a bit.

When I’m faced with stress, often the only thing I want is to put a big fucking wall around myself so that no one can bother me. All my life I’ve been told that it’s not OK to want that, so then I usually start feeling guilt and self-loathing and an urge to do something self-destructive. Plus the original anxiety is still there. Alcohol both numbs the anxiety and satisfies the self-destructive urge, and I haven’t figured out a better way to deal with that combination of feelings.

Plus, when I hear my father’s voice in my head telling me to get over it, …

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To disappear is my desire

April 28th, 2016by yixian

First off, I should perhaps give a short introduction. By this website only, I will go by the name of Yixian. I am a teenager (I will stop here, personal information does not suit me fancy). A pleasure to meet your acquaintance, and thank you for bothering to read these deeply embedded thoughts of mine.

Much like the many people out there in the world, I have been harassed (bullied) for roughly all my elementary years and middle school years. It was a tough time, I won’t lie. Back in my childhood years, I had an incredibly difficult time to learn. I can’t explain it, I …

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hello everybody

April 28th, 2016by noneedforaname

Hey everybody, this is going to be short for a change lol. I just want to say that when I post or comment I can be long winded, sorry for that. I hope at no time that my words are ever taken out of context, or come off as offensive. I tend to say what’s on my mind and here I try and take the time to word everything just right. I have met some of the most extraordinary people here who have talked me in from the edge and for that I’m so thankful. I just want …

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that sensation…

April 28th, 2016by Alan Ominous

The ropes around your neck. It’s good and tight. It’s, almost comfortable. You start feeling fuzzy. A pressure behind your eyes. It’s calming, it’s happening… the background noises start to sound weird. Like this “whah-whah-whah” sound. Calming. A heavy sleepiness. Tingles everywhere. It’s so beautiful.

Then your brain flips out, like oh fuck, stop stop stop, abort mission. You fumble around. Releasing the knot. Gasping. Your brain is relieved. Your mind is pissed.

Know what I’m talking about?

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16

“Hell is empty and all the devils are here”

April 28th, 2016by bloodstainedlips

I’m sitting here on my bedroom floor, blood dripping from my fingers, trying to convince myself to just end it all. It could all be over so quick. How can that not be tempting. I’ve often thought I’d wanna go painlessly, up until recently. My life has shattered around me, the people I cared about most have up and left. I decided that I didn’t give a fuck anymore. I decided “fuck love” and “fuck right and wrong. Nothing in my life has ever been right.” I’ve been wasting myself, losing myself. I hate myself for the things I’ve done, but I don’t care enough …

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4

I hate..

April 28th, 2016by mindlessgamer619

My job.
My place of birth.
My life.
Myself. The person I’ve become…

I hate the fact that I am unable to improve my situation no matter what I do.

I’m here listening to people dancing and having a good time, and I’m sitting in the back on break, absolutely fucking miserable..

It’s sad because I like the people I work with, but I hate this fucking restaurant… And I hate faking my happiness and smiles..

I love your smile, you’re always so happy….

Fml, fucking bullshit. I’m drained from just coming in to work.. Smh.

Can’t find a different job, can’t not work.. Fml. I don’t want to be working at a …

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5

I miss you

April 28th, 2016by CaptainMarvelous

It was almost magical, the way we met. We had talked online occasionally for a few months before, on and off. The day before she went back to school from spring break, she told me where her home was. Only a 30 minute drive from where I lived. We immediately decided to meet. When we met we exchanged stuffed animals. She thought I was going to take her to Taco Bell. I ended up sharing a plate of pasta with her in a restaurant, then brought her home where we watched a movie. Her head was in my lap, and looking deep in each others’ …

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I have to stop putting make up on

April 28th, 2016by kupo95

So like every time I put on make up I end up crying it all off. Why am I crying today well it started off ok. The house was fliped the girl I live with refuses to clean the bathroom properly but whatever. Im crying because it my fucking husband mother fucking birthday and I have barely any money to buy him somthing . but keep in mind I the spouse that makes money. He buys me somthing with  my money in his pocket. Or he brought what ever it is on a credit card which I pay …won it at the casino my

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Life isn’t horrible

April 28th, 2016by shatterediris

Welp things have been treating me decently well…. Been spending time with friends and stuffs, kind of been mostly okay with things. My art class has been most of the source of my stress lately (it is stressful, which is surprising) as it has a fairly intense workload and I suck at visual arts. Just shaved again this mourning, I guess I hate myself…. I have still clearly not learned how to shave without getting irritation, I’ve tried everything too. However thinking it may mostly be the cheap aloe that my father buys (is from rite aid I think) as I got rashes up on …

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blue

April 28th, 2016by Soco

Call it aftermath shes turing blue
Such a lovely colour for you
Call it aftermath shes turning blue
Such a lovely colour for your eyes
Call it aftermath shes turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you.

Woke up with this song in my head. Was playing the album last night but fell asleep at the first song. Subliminal listening. Cool.
Have a good day everyone.

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Inertia

April 28th, 2016by whiskered-fish

I used to believe that my greatest flaw was selfishness. But it isn’t. It’s laziness.

I do want to get better. I do want to not be suicidal. And from all of the advice I’ve received on here, there seem to be ways that I could recover. But I know that I won’t end up going down any of those unfamiliar paths. Because I’m a lead slug in a slough of mud. I fear change and toil more than death.

So I’m going to die. Just as sure as the sun rises every morning. And it will be nobody’s fault but my own.

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I don’t like people anymore

April 28th, 2016by MissDysphoria

Might possibly even hate.

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Roseate Spoonbills at Dusk

April 28th, 2016by Hazy Day Sunflower

roseate spoonbills

The breeze smells of the last
Touch of daylight and you
Walked quietly towards a
Sunrise uniquely your own.

Comments are off. I’m OK.

Love yourself, be kind.

HDS

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been fun

April 28th, 2016by Alan Ominous

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none of it matters

April 28th, 2016by demolitionlover

i’ve missed a whole sixteen days of school in a row. my classmates and teachers haven’t the slightest clue as to my true whereabouts-“he’s come down with a case of the flu,” the school has been informed. i can’t even begin to imagine the homework i’ve missed and the tests i’ll have to make up.

but, when i think about it, it just doesn’t matter to me. in the grand scheme of things, all of existence and the universe’s weight, it doesn’t matter. and i wish that i could care, because if i did, i imagine i’d be somewhere important in this moment, inventing my future.

instead, …

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Bluebells

April 28th, 2016by king nothing

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Aha, they appeared!  Here are my bluebells.

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hello

April 28th, 2016by demolitionlover

i’ve never been on suicideproject before, i’ve only been vaguely aware of its existence up until now. with hesitantly shaky fingers, i’m here to belong. now more than ever, i think what i need is a place to belong. this seems like it may be the place for me.

hello, and if i don’t wake up tomorrow, goodbye.

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