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A.R.

March 26th, 2015by Matt

A.R.

Those initials will haunt me forever.

When you hear about me, will you be sad?

Honestly, I don’t think you will.

You said you wanted to move on from me. So this will only make it easier to forget me.

That really does get me down. But that would depress anyone.

Someone with whom you’d shared such a close bond, such a strong relationship just up and decides one day that you don’t matter enough to even remember.

And sure, I fucked up. I did things I shouldn’t have. I made mistakes. But were they that bad?

There’s just one question I’m dying to know. Ironic choice of words.

Do you think of …

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does anybody remember barry evans

March 26th, 2015by jenbrown

does anybody remember barry evans the actor from mind your language as mr brown in the show.
his story was much like ours on this site who are lonely and want death. i read he commited suicide because of his loneliness and depression. imagine at the end of his days he was a cab driver i really felt sorry for him where life took him. i guess my life will end like that suicide cause of depression and loneliness

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About the plane crash…

March 26th, 2015by comomequieranllamar

- So, do you think the pilot crashed a plane with 150 people inside his because he didn’t want to live anymore?

– Maybe.

– But how can you live knowing that you are causing all that pain?

– That’s the point. You don’t. You die.

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Looking for a suicide partner

March 26th, 2015by golddust

I’m 30 yo female looking for a suicide partner in NY. I’m thinking about carbon monoxide poisoning by charcoal burning, but I don’t have a car. If you are interested and serious, please email me at aikokia12gmail

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does anyone else feel this way? (question below)

March 26th, 2015by jenbrown

does anyone else feel better after visiting this site with better i mean you feel that your not alone in this painful world of suffering and depression and loneliness or which ever other problems you are facing.. i feel everyone here are friends with me as i have no one else in this depressing world.
thanks for your comments on any of my previous posts. i indeed want my life to end and hope it does soon

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a new language???

March 26th, 2015by Hjerteblomst

I think i better go and learn Norwegian. English is getting boring (yes I know that English has words from different languages in it)…

and this time i really mean it. How far can i get in a month?

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On an Island all alone

March 26th, 2015by FeelingFunny

Standing on the shoreline looking out, all I see are blood red seas. The sun doesn’t shine here, so the sky is grey. The land doesn’t want me, so it makes it hard to live. Nature wants me dead. That’s why we all die anyways, it’s natural. But I have survived. Year after year I remain, but it’s just a flash of time anyway. Haha, this is such senseless shit. I’m bored and wish I were more intoxicated than I am

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Break Me

March 26th, 2015by Sammi6xoxo

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Break me down. Please. Disect me. Cut me open. Just tell me what’s wrong with me. I’ll give you all of the tools if you can just look inside. I’m down on my knees begging you to tell me what’s wrong with my mind. Why am I like this? Why do I want these horrible things? I don’t want to be your burden. But I wouldn’t mind being your little science project. I don’t want the drugs. I don’t want the alcohol. I just want to know why I see things the way I do. Please …

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people lie through their teeth…

March 26th, 2015by Hjerteblomst

…yeah, its especially ‘ok’ when you say that and start lying yourself!!!

‘Tom has not been able to call anyone for almost 5 weeks now, but he did anwser when you called one time of many

And he told us to get him him a new number and delete you from his phone

I really dont care about any of this, i just thougt you should know what was going on…..’

yeah. I would have trouble typing correctly too if i was lying my socks off.

you cant even say why he wants to change his number and delete me. You can’t even say that he doesn’t like me …

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I get it

March 26th, 2015by confused

I received the results today. It hurts so much.

I’m not allowed to cry. I’m not allowed to feel devastated over not getting what I worked my ass off for. I’m not allowed to dwell on the what ifs. I’m not allowed to be in pain because I just found out that those hours-days-months-years I spent was useless. I’m not allowed to feel bad for failing.

I’m supposed to be strong. I’m supposed to get the fuck up if I fall down and move on, move forward. I get it. I get what I’m supposed to do.

But I can’t.

I’m not the strong person you think I am.

I …

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you minus you plus you

March 26th, 2015by f1sleepf12loud

the internet. i’ve always invisioned going into a community and visualizing them face to face except we’re not really face to face. its just the illusion inside our minds. our bodies make the motion. so any time i enter a forum or whathaveyou, i imagine it a lot like entering into a room already chalked full of people, some you know and some you don’t. the ones that don’t know you happen to see you first, thus already altering an outcome.

stranger: hey, hello…i’m not sure why i’m drawn to you but i am and i just wanted to say hello.

me: plus you gave me a …

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Useless

March 26th, 2015by comomequieranllamar

Nothing’s fine. Never. But the worse thing is not seeing people. I don’t see people at work, and there’s only my mother at home.

Being all day alone is killing me. I try to call someone, just that I forget that other people actually have a life and won’t be available just because the world suddenly seems so hard to me.

I want a life too. I don’t want to spend the day with this sad me, thinking about how nothing is fine, stopping myself to call again, just swallowing the anxiety.

Uhm. Luckily I’ve got Fridays, when I’m with people for two hours, so I can …

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Spring Break is almost here

March 26th, 2015by majesticwalrus

Just one more day before I can stop worrying about school for a full week.  I’m going to go visit some family, which is weird considering the fact that my relationships with them are….strained (for lack of a better word) at the best, and potentially homicidal at the worst.  You may think I’m exaggerating, but my brother has attempted to kill me on several occasions.  Pretty much the only reason I’m going is to visit my youngest sister, the only family member I have that I really consider family.  Seeing everyone else is going to suck, though.  I’m just trading the stress of school for …

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Broken

March 25th, 2015by HereticBlood

Heart wide open
I’m am the chosen
Lost and broken
So many words left unspoken
Oh how I wish I was more outspoken
I try to sleep but I’m always awoken
Nightmares, eating at my soul, an empty soulless erosion
I have nothing left, I am emotionless
Make no motions
My mind reopens
Racing thoughts it’ll soon be an explosion

Self destruct in 3……2…….1….

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I don’t trust psychiatrists or most physicians anymore.

March 25th, 2015by Patrick Anarchy

Psychiatrists and physicians always have tons of money invested into malpractice insurance because they know that their toxic treatments can sometimes in fact deform or harm people into permanent disability. If I really wanted to. I could always go back to school to learn a marketable job skill. However, I cannot do that if I should somehow become permanently & painfully disabled by risking my health to toxic psychiatric drugs.  I don’t trust psychiatrists or even most physicians anymore because they don’t care if they should harm their own patients, because they can easily get away with spreading misinformation and  are not always held accountable for …

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Still riding the wave…

March 25th, 2015by DrVix

Howdy!

so this is my first post. I’ve stumbled across this site a few times but never posted. I’m currently an inpatient on line of sight in a psychiatric hospital. I’m 30, I’m a doctor and I’m married with two kids. So plenty to live for. I’ve a hold load of baggage which I’m not even going to go into.

ive been in hospital sectioned for 18 months. On Friday I nearly died. Despite being on line of sight (1:1 obs all the time) I tied a ligature to asphyxiate myself. I used a bed sheet and it was very quick. I was resuscitated and …

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its too hard…

March 25th, 2015by Hjerteblomst

But i just want to tell you that I am sorry at the very least. So i hope you can contact me again in a few months, if you are able to.

they really need to change it so that phones with no credit can receive calls and sms… Not that i could call you now. I don’t want to talk to your family, i presume they have your phone… Hope they will give it back to you sometime. They wouldn’t pass anything i say onto you so I wont even bother asking. We don’t get along.

it would be better if i was dead then i …

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turn wrath into love

March 25th, 2015by LifelessAnatomy

love anger

i really like this photo i found, because it is true. some of us get so caught up in the moment with the angry feelings we have we dont caution the words we speak or the actions we take. We dont look to the future and see the fall out from one simple word, from one hour out of the day. Some can be cataclysmic others not some bad. I still think it would be wise to caution the words we say and actions we take as not to damage another persons heart. At the …

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‘Til Now I Always Got By On My Own

March 25th, 2015by Matt

I’ve just realised something today. Something truly horrible. To me at least.

In nearly 5 months the only people I have seen are my family. Literally the only people I’ve interacted with are the four members of my family.

5 months ago I probably saw 20 different people a day.

It’s funny how things change.

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Run Rambo Run

March 25th, 2015by killswitchon

Run ready. Today, no matter how fucking depressed you are. I challenge you to do ONE thing to change your state. Today I felt SUCH shit. Just blasted and destroyed. Epitome of apathy. Yet I mustered strength to go for a run. Not the farthest but I got out there. Run! Do it! Work it! Cheers! Go!

Run 4 Your Life

Run 4 Your Life

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