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The past is just practice

May 29th, 2015by Bonnie

I am the girl waiting patiently for her turn at the throne. I’m the girl that’s tired of feeling alone. I’m the girl who sits on the corner at parties, watching everyone as they go by. I feel like I’m already gone. Helping others as they go along. But then there’s another part of me. This girl is caged, waiting to be set free. She is tormented and controlled. Her body is shaky and cold. She screams but no one can hear. She is left in a room of despair. She takes to the needle like a baby with a bottle, the past ten years …

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When you feel like giving up, just remember the reason why you held on for so long

May 29th, 2015by little_fallen_angel

I’m here for the same reason most everyone is, I’ve given up and I thought suicide was the only way out. Just a few days ago I posted something, but since then I’ve done some thinking. If suicide is the only way to find peace, then why have we held on for so long? It’s not because we love the pain we are in, it’s because one day we hope we wake up and hope the world will treat us better. It might also be because we know if we go we will be hurting our friends and family. Things may never get much better, …

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Done

May 29th, 2015by swordchick

the only thing keeping me here is the knowledge that I would fuck up my little boyz forever. I resent them for keeping me alive.

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Let me die

May 28th, 2015by disgusting

If only I had a gun, I could have pulled the trigger already. That’s how much it hurts to know I can never be loved and will never get to hold or kiss someone who has ahold of my heart. I want to die now.

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Be My Escape

May 28th, 2015by Sammi6xoxo

I need to leave
But I’m scared to go
I need to breathe
But they’ll never know
I can’t get out
It’s starting to show
I’m screaming loud
My fuse has blown

Help me please
I need you now
I’m on my knees
I swear I’ll drown
Please don’t leave
Just pull me out
I need to leave
I have no doubt

Please Be my escape
Then you can leave
Be My gate
To a place of strength
I need a step up
Out of this place
Heal the cuts
That cover my face

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Facial deformity and want to die

May 28th, 2015by WantPeace

I’m 30 years old and a teacher.  I was born a normal child, and was a pretty girl up until the age of 6.   But from the ages of 6-9, my face became completely different than all the other kids my age.  I didn’t look like my parents, or siblings.  In my 4th grade photo, I look like a totally different person.   My face was longer than other kids, and had no chin and a big nose.  I was called ugly in high school.  I just ignored it.  I thought it was my big nose, the braces, etc that was ugly.  I had …

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Slave Trade

May 28th, 2015by Immurement

 

Exploited

Human beings

to fill the pockets
of the elite
They say you’re “valued”
They say they “care”
Machine feeding machines.
WE NEED REFORM
What is this
Slave trade you prefer?
Unionized to abuse our rights
Unjust actions
to fill that bank
till your money suffocates
from the guilt
of the blood it took
I’m screaming for reason
I’m screaming from rage
I’m screaming for Answers
You will not say
I’m screaming for justice
I’m screaming for peace
I’m screaming for action
with nothing but satisfaction

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why I want to die.

May 28th, 2015by I should die

ever since primary school I had been cutting. I dud it because all my ‘friends’ were horrible. One day they were all friendly the next day they would be holding me down and throwing footballs at me. Bow I’m in secondary school. And it just got worse. I was alone again. Then people started commenting on my appearance. I began starving myself to make ne skinnier than I am. I gate being ugly I hate it. One day I decided I was gonna do it. I had enough. But then this boy stayed up all night trying to stop me. He was the kindest person …

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hey guys wrote a song and thought i should share

May 28th, 2015by crying-inside

Her Blade
(Chorus)
Nobody sees behind her happy eyes
Nobody cares when she cries
Every night she gets out her blade
And she cries
Everyone says that that they care
But she doesn’t listen
Her voice tells her to not believe
To protect herself
(Chorus)
Nobody sees behind her happy eyes
Nobody cares when she cries
Every night she gets out her blade
And she cries
She says that she tries
But everyone knows that’s not true
She really doesn’t care anymore
She will be missed
Her mom walks in
To see her on the floor
With letters everywhere
And she cries
(Chorus)
Nobody saw behind her happy eyes
Nobody cared when she cried
Every night she got out her blade
X2 And she cried

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Becoming numb and feral

May 28th, 2015by sadboyneedshelp

I need serious help. I grew up to be nice and everything but I’m just not built for this world and I’ve been noticing I’ve become an absolute dick to people and in a way I kind of enjoy it. It makes me feel like I’m in control for once and I’m not the victim. I enjoy making my girlfriends cry over me and all that bullshit. But sometimes I go back to my older mind state and I just become suicidal. I feel like my time is only getting nearer before I snap and finally just do it. I can’t trust any of my …

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May 28th, 2015by Inane

I was thinking about writing something here for a while, in the meantime I’ve been reading other posts on here, the community seems friendly, so I don’t feel like too much of an idiot posting what’s in my head here, just a little bit.

I don’t know what state I’m in, I feel like killing myself, I’ve had the feeling on and off for years, in case I did do it any time soon I wanted to leave something somewhere, and a note for my family would be pointless due to their endless self-indulgence, and my pure hatred for them, they’ve not helped me at all, only made …

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What’s your kick-ass catchphrase?

May 28th, 2015by Salt

Ok everyone, each of you has to have a certain phrase that cuts through the worst darkness & stokes you to fight back. If you don’t, then now’s your chance to come up with one.

A little while ago I posted one of my boo-hoo pity party posts. The replies were awesome. And I realized that there are a few phrases that will always get me to pick my butt off the ground and (at least attempt to) fight back as long as I have a butt to pick up. For example:

“You are more than your depression” – Sammi6xoxo
“fuck you, I’m not breaking” – Procel

and I’ll …

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Memories they haunt me

May 28th, 2015by Beast

I woke up quite early today, thought I’d grab the chance to enjoy The Witcher 3.. Turns out I should of slept away half the day instead. I dont know how but my most recent ex came into mind, its been over half a year but still.. Such happy memories, how can I possibly stop comparing what I am now, what I have now, with what I once had… Im over her, but I would like.. this kind of happiness again, with someone else.. anyway I know throughout our lifetime on this miserable planet we have our ups and downs, I’d like an elevator lift …

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Being adult… yipes! (just venting)

May 28th, 2015by violet5

I’m moving out.

I’m terrified that taking 10 credits in college and working 35-40 hours a week will be too much.

I have had panic attacks before, but now I’m fighting them off. It feels like fighting off a grisly bear with a fly swatter. I have a mere 2 months before the shit gets real… too much time on my hands, to many opportunities to panic. (at the moment I’m not panicking, but they come out of nowhere.) I may need another job too.

I know it can be done. I just don’t know if I can do it.

Paying all my bills, and managing my time, and …

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Name Change

May 28th, 2015by Terrible

Hello, I was previously known as Tina571, but I have changed my name. Thanks.

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Ask.fm

May 28th, 2015by Terrible

If any of you know who I am, you know that when I was 14, last year, I tried to kill myself by swallowing 60+ pills. I was in the hospital for a week. Besides that, I want to tell you what it was like going back to school, and back to social media.

Being back to school was different. I was different. I was much more different than I give credit for. Either way, people took notice of me. I was the talk of the school for a whole month. People watched me like halks. Sympathetic looks? I’ve seen a million. People could be mean, …

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Things not so bad anymore

May 28th, 2015by Nobody915

While being depressed, I was working on this prosthetic for a 6 year old kid. It turned out that i won the competition! I was on lots of  news coverage. Here’s one of them:

Thanks for the support guys.

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Just venting

May 28th, 2015by nobodysperfecttt

Always been the person to be there for everyone else. No matter what I went thru I pushed that aside to help the ones who couldn’t ever offer help me when I feel the same pain or in my opinion worse.. But what happens when I feel I need someone to be there? When I feel like I’m falling apart or becoming weak who other than myself can I talk too..clearly I know the answer to that, I just don’t want to believe it. So stressed out and wish that being my only friend and only comfort was enough. Sometimes it has been but that’s …

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lie

May 28th, 2015by silvermoon

it is very tiring to feel like the only one, to blame yourself for everything, to see choices that you made that are set in stone in a cruel world. it is very tiring to now have physical symptoms due to stress and feel it is your fault, it is very tiring to be alone and constantly struggling to get around seen by no one in this cruel ass world

ptsd and sexual abuse and no family and loneliness and self-blame and no way to get around and no one who truly cares is a recipe for going home

god doesnt care either b/c god has never …

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I’m so screwed.

May 28th, 2015by HannahGort99

So I’ve done something that I’m not proud of at all. Being a Christian makes it worse. It also makes me a phony.

Ive been caught for doing this once before. Once I get a hold on internet connection, there is no limits for me. I get out of control, obsessed and desperate. It’s embarrassing for me really.

I went on something called ‘Meowchat’ and I started talking to some guy. He asked for dirty talk, and I gave it to him. I got nothing out of it, really. He then asked for nudes. I said ‘no’.

I sort of pressured me into sending one picture to him, …

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