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I am so tired of re-living traumatizing experiences every single day for hours and hours

October 2nd, 2014by PureBlueLight

I have a hole in my chest that won’t close, and my head feels heavy all the time.

I feel like i’m crying in despair all the time.

The same horrible feelings torment me every day.

It takes aways my sleep, my comfort, gives me stress, i don’t know what to do, makes me feel like shit.

I wake up already feeling exhausted and sad for still being alive and alone.

To make it worse, i have memories of this woman i desired so much to be with, i cared so much about her, but she didn’t love me back.

I was left devastated.

She is imprinted in my mind, and i …

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I’m just fooling myself

October 2nd, 2014by nias

My suicidal thoughts come and go but I always feel down, I keep saying it will get better but it doesn’t, it gets worse. I have a problem I can’t talk about but has made me this way, unable to live a proper life, to suffer paranoia, to be alone. I need to be held, to be touched, to feel the warmth of another body, just once more. I’m going into London soon and I’ll try and find a woman to be with, just for a night, if I fail I’ll get drunk and perhaps I’ll try and jump into the Thames and drown my …

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October 2nd, 2014by frostbite

im to the point where im so tired that i really dont want help. i just want it to be over. i dont want to sound whiny but i dont know any other way to say this without sounding like it. after my last post i was pretty happy thinking about possibly feeling good but the good feeling is gone. the other thing that stopped me is what if the meds dont help. then i would be warning them that im suicidal. i just want to be gone. but that seems like to much to ask.

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It’s getting closer to my time to go

October 2nd, 2014by ihateeverything

So, this is my first time posting and I’ll try to keep it short.  My life has actually been pretty normal but i still have overwhelming darkness that over takes me somtimes.  It used to be triggered by big events but more and more it’s small and insignificant things that send me on a downward spiral.  I’ve read posts on this site off and on for my two years or so and sometimes it gives me enough perspective to realize that my life probably isn’t as bad as it feels or as i perceive it to be.  However, I still find myself contemplating ending it. …

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Why?

October 2nd, 2014by Stuie

I just have no drive or motivation in life anymore. Sure I could improve if I found another job or moved to a new location but whats the point? I’ll still spend the next 40-50 years paying off debts, kissing the arse of some twat so I don’t get fired and then eventually die anyway.

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Help Me..

October 2nd, 2014by lostnlonely3250

” Maybe less than an hour ago, I called my ex boyfriend, sobbing, feeling like I was having a panic attack.

I broke up with him last Friday because of a stupid reason. I couldn’t control that his dad was making him work when I made plans for us a week in advance to go whale watching. We had been dating for 8 months. He broke up with me two times before because of stress; I can be a hard person to deal with on top of work and expenses of diesel.

Anyways, I was his first girlfriend ever (I’m 16, junior, soon to be 17 and …

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fucking family

October 2nd, 2014by bluefeathers

you know what is SO fucked up?  is that after someone commits suicide EVERYONE around the person is saying things like “oh she was such a great person” and “if she had only called i would have been there to listen, to help”  but you know what?  it’s fucking bullshit.  i did what a suicide support website said – i reached out, far, on a limb and i thought hard of the smartest people i know, the people who have provided guidance and direction in the past.  i decided to reach out to my aunt who i haven’t spoken to in over 10 years.  i …

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ease the pain

October 2nd, 2014by lonelypep

Do i want to live any longer? no maybe not. I am tired of breathing this empty life. Can i die right now? no maybe not. There is something left undone and i think i might have to live for a couple of months more to complete that. The problem is i don’t know if i can take this any longer. I have a family. There are so many relatives around who care for me. I used to think i can’t kill myself because in case i do so people around would tell thier kids “You’ll end up like that girl, once so successful and …

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Anybody in London?

October 2nd, 2014by SE1

If there’s anybody in London (or anywhere in the UK) who wants to chat about anything, leave a comment.

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The person is not coming for me

October 2nd, 2014by Bisban

 

I really need to get out, tonight

God and goddess, can you be

One, two, three, never alright

Take me to Lugia, today

Let me, let me die

And you can go back

 

 

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whats the point..

October 2nd, 2014by bored2death

ughh my life sucks. recently got sober from bad drug addiction..again. went to rehab 6 months, when i get out my ‘gf’ is 5 months pregnant (ya, not mine obviously].. end up relapsing…i still love this girl, she got me on the drugs in the first place….she’s had the kid now, she only calls when she needs something..i always help her out [always been the case]. now shes sober, or so she says… as am i, and she wont talk to me.. i got a new job, she came in the restaurant i manage with her baby daddy not knowing i worked there…just sent me …

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Anyone here from Brisbane, Australia

October 1st, 2014by victa

Hi, I am new and suicidle, i want to feel better and I guess the best way is to know some people to talk to, or perhaps do the exit thing together, want something to change in my life, I guess friend matters a lot, been by myself for too long……. Anyone?

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Hey Alice! Are you still there?

October 1st, 2014by ToniKuusela

Hey! Does anyone know if Alice Wagner still hangs around and reads these posts? Her email adress is thatdaydreamer@outlook.com I’ve emailed her and asked her how shes doing, but shes not responding to my emails. Any change of people here contacting her to see if she is still alright?

 

If you find out anything about her at all please email me at Tonikuusela@outlook.com, thank you very much!

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Break-up letter to my mother

October 1st, 2014by Engie

I’ve been trying to write a break-up letter to my mother for at least a week now. The week before, I waited to make sure I was making the right choice and was not acting uncharacteristically emotional.

I want to write this letter, but I just can’t be bothered. It seems like too much effort. Maybe I need to write down the main points and then flesh it out. Don’t really know why I’m doing it though. I mean, if I’m never going to speak to her or any of her siblings again, do I really care what she thinks? Maybe I’m doing it so she …

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Dont care

October 1st, 2014by whyyyy

My destiny is suicide.

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I’m going to end my life eventually.

October 1st, 2014by newmind86

Rereading the title of this post almost makes me chuckle. The passivity inherent in it, that eventually I will do something, is the way i’ve been living my life up until this point. It’s part of the reason I want to end my life. But not the only reason.

The reason is, I have always felt outside of the norm. I’ve always felt rejected and set aside, despite being told I was loved, I felt somehow dismissed. I know that in school I was indeed rejected and set aside. I was a wierd kid. I can’t let go of the idea of what I used to be, …

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If I ever had a reason, the time is now.

October 1st, 2014by nozmoking

I am too fucking old to go through losing my home and going down the ghetto life’s road with welfare, being homeless and all that shit. I’ve done this too many times. In the last week I’ve lost my job of over ten years, crashed my car and lost my medical insurance. Believe it or not the loss of medical coverage is the most devastating. COBRA costs almost $1000 a month to continue my coverage – not a viable option without a job. So now I sit, waiting for my medications to run out and decisions on unemployment insurance, O’ Blotto Care and the like. …

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October 1st, 2014by Bisban

 

Ready to go die if you are.

 

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I don’t know anymore

October 1st, 2014by anaboyred24

I just don’t know anymore I’m lost and beaten down I’m tired off fighting this it never gets better and if it doses it’s sort lived. I want to live in my dreams I don’t want to wake-up and face another day.

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The so-called collateral damage of an exit

October 1st, 2014by lexthompson6

There is this belief that when you attempt or successfully exit, you leave behind a league of people sad, distraught, angry, hurt and so on.

I think that’s a load of horse-shit.

First, let’s examine the facts: tomorrow will arrive, so will the day after, and the day after that. Whether I’m here or not, this planet – and all it’s faults – will keep turning.

It means that ordinary, happy and successful life for everyone else will continue. Sure, there may be a few tears shed for a day or two. But everyone – everyone – will move on, as they do. I know I personally will not be missed …

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