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Complaint

February 8th, 2016by garbageass

Step 1: Take positive thoughts

Step 2: Replace negative thoughts

 

Do live in euphoria. Make yourself insane. It is okay if you direct your thoughts towards realistic positive change. The best things are at first abstract. Hope will bring you forward with a good framework, but you have to choose. Work out the vauge, and the real. Start here:

Velvet Underground: Black Angels Death Song

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Random Ramblings…

February 8th, 2016by bah

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It seems my reasons for wanting to die are petty, but are they?

February 8th, 2016by headupunderdarkcloud

Suicide runs in the family. Dad killed himself almost 8 years ago, then my cousin who most identified with did the same a year later.
I know have had some form of bi-polar with major depressive episodes throughout life, and for sure major anxiety, but somehow have always been able to pull through when times got bad.
I have faced the darkness and abyss of just wanting to die and slowly pulled myself out of it, maybe it was easier back then, being younger, in college, more involved in people’s lives, my mother still cognizant and father still alive.
Mom has alzheimers now, I uprooted my entire life …

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Is It That Bad?

February 8th, 2016by Metalgore

I was on the brink of turning to self harm once again for the second time this week (I’ve been trying extremely hard not to only because warmer seasons are coming up and its annoying when I get weird looks from people -.-) and i noticed how many fucking razor blades i have………..35…..idk…..i have a ton…..o-o…is this bad?? I know i need help but i just don’t want to get any let alone make my parents even more angry at me because they have to pay for therapy for their worthless little daughter.

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Wasn’t Me

February 8th, 2016by ToTrees

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My Story (mothers suicide, mental disorders & much more)

February 8th, 2016by Magik

I’ve lived anything but a normal life & I just turned 20. My parents were both abused. My dad was physically beaten by his father. My mother was raped many times during her childhood by her step dad. My parents hooked up (drunk) at a party & 9 months later I was born. I am a bastard. My parents got married when I was 3. My mom was addicted to crack until I was in kindergarten. My dad physically & emotionally abused her until she left him (moved out) when I was in 7th grade. My mom stayed with him that long because she wanted …

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They’re Lying

February 8th, 2016by JiminyCrispies

Lately I’ve been terrified. I don’t want to go downstairs, I don’t want to see anyone. And I most definitely don’t want to leave the house.

I missed college, again. That wasn’t entirely due to the fact that everyone is trying to kill me outside. No. Saturday morning I was forced to restart my medication because my moods have been ridiculous. An hour after taking it I had awful pains in my stomach and I was throwing up, and another hour later shooting pains were going through my chest.

Within a few hours I was burning up and I was hurting everywhere. My temperature was high enough …

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Of this endless journey, of this war born trail, through darkness and obscurity, through our loss we will prevail.

February 8th, 2016by Immurement

Set our sights on the horizon
A grip of stone and a stare of steel
Eyes awakened, now determined

We…

Ride
Carve our name
At the start of this path
And never look behind

This conquest
Is all that really matters
This will, wont shatter
Underneath the weight

Of this endless journey
Of this war born trail
Through darkness and obscuri-
ty and loss we will prevail

One last
Chance to prove to struggle on
And to conquer
The ground on which we walk upon

COLLIDE

With every hindrance in sight
And stoke these flames that
Burn, in-side

(Chorus)
This will, be remembered
A heart, filled with, vindication
This won’t, be forgotten
VOLITION
Through hell we battle on

Strip yourself of apathy
Take everything you don’t need
And throw it all away

No one can shake this

Now I …

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February 8th, 2016by ToTrees

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hopeless

February 8th, 2016by Alan Ominous

Really just feel stuck against a wall. I’m joined to someone who wants to fix me. Sure my emotions can be intense. Ups and downs, but I’m OK with that. I have my vices and quirks. I’m OK with those too. They continually force me into shoes that don’t fit, then go off when I express discomfort. They bleed all the joy from the little things in life, they work diligently to prevent the bigger ones. Then mock my misery.

They sit me down for “serious time” to get to a deeper level of understanding. History has proven that just refills their arsenal to use against …

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Do you have to be mad to want to die?

February 8th, 2016by Batterypowered

A friend of mine said to me, “You don’t want to kill yourself boy. You have to be mad to do that.” It made me laugh, firstly because he has known me for years and still can’t accept I am not always the jovial, erudite man he meets down the pub. Secondly, I think suicide, far from being mad as a concept, is a totally logical response the the distress, disfunction and depression I experience.

Here is the argument. I have swung between depression and total mania since birth. The depression makes me agoraphobic, professionally and socially unreliable, totally disassociated and lacking all motivation. Depression destroys …

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Why was I even fucking born?

February 8th, 2016by bah

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What’s the point?

February 8th, 2016by Lost1111

I’m not saying my life experience was the worst, but at this point I feel there is no point in staying around. Side note:My maternal uncle committed suicide, my paternal grandmother’s sister committed suicide, and my paternal grandfather died from alcoholism related issues. I feel like my family is a family who tries to be perfect, but hides many secrets because it seems like I’m outwardly the only screw up. I have struggled with anxiety my whole life. I’ve always been terrified of everything. Often had insane temper tantrums. I don’t remember exactly how young I was when I first went to therapy, but I was young.. …

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I don’t even know…

February 8th, 2016by rocketeer0996

I usually stay up at night and question whether I have a future or not… honestly, I do not know. I am a failure. In my own family, people whom are supposed to love and protect me, I get abused physically, verbally and emotionally. I don’t know what to feel anymore because in all honesty, I can’t even love my own parents. I wake up everyday inside this madhouse and I’m slowly losing my grip on reality. Truthfully, I have lost all my respects for humanity. People can change, but they usually choose not to. Only the cruel and greedy ones ever win in this …

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Doesn’t make sense

February 8th, 2016by disgusting

I saw my friend again for the first time in forever (like 2 months!) which is the longest it’s gone without seeing him. And he says the same old thing, that it’s not all about looks to him but it clearly is, because no one is up to the very high standards he sets for girls. If she couldn’t be a supermodel or a hot stripper or porn star, or is too many additional 1lb increments over the 100 lb limit, then there’s not a chance in hell they could get with him. And that’s how he is whether he will admit it or not.

So anyway, he …

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Weakness

February 8th, 2016by Moneypenny

So I am the laziest person ever. I have been trying to convince my self of sitting down and write my tesis or to even read some articles as a basis. I don’t want to do it. I can’t do it. I hate having to do it. I really hate it.

I skip work today too. And even fail to do my part in a group I was trying to organize. The people are nice there, but they are getting tired of me. I just don’t want to do anything.

Last Monday I went to the doctor to ask for a remission for psychiatry  (it’s necessary to …

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What people say and what they really mean

February 8th, 2016by bah

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crazy

I have quitsmoking and drinking so i can b baptised. But everything is so fucked. I have zero hope. Zero desire. I dont even know if God exists. If he does y doesnt he intervene? Answer prayer? My son is probably schitzophrenic. I have tried to help him. Its impossible to get good metal health […]

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Stupid biatch

February 8th, 2016by NiDDA

I feel stupid. I said good bye and I couldn’t do it. Took all my meds, tied the rope, had the noose around my neck but the pain was so strong, I couldn’t do it. Ended up sleeping for 2 days again and with a sore throat. How the fuck can depressed teenagers hang themselves from doorknobs and in closets? HOW?

Why can’t I just sleep forever? Sleeping feels so good. Everytime I wake up I think ‘Oh, fuck, again, a new day to survive’.

I am so fucking stupid.