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life lessons

December 22nd, 2014by LifelessAnatomy

we all have things we need to atone for, thats a fact of life. We live, we fuck shit up, we die. the only thing different is the trajectory of our lives. Mine is set on a course to which i cant seem to divert. I was born alone, lived most of my life alone, all i know about life is me, and my solitude. Im not always the best at socializing, in the surface i seem to be a pro, but when it comes to anything deeper i dont know how to connect. My circumstances in life have not been pretty, and there are …

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Biding My Time

December 22nd, 2014by IndigoMasquerade

Guess I’m on here a lot lately. I just have nowhere else to put these thoughts out there on…I’m hurting so bad. I can’t wait until January 5th, but I have to, in a way. It’s relieving to think about though. To think that my pain will end and I can just escape it all.

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A Humble Helper

December 22nd, 2014by Peace_Love

I was once a very active user on this sight, It was here I came when I was at my lowest point. I came here, like i believe many others did, in search of a good, solid method and also a partner. In my worst moments this sight was there for me, when nothing else was, when there was no one to talk to in my life this place offered a sympathetic ear that both understood my thoughts and offered no judgment, only advice, support and love. I have met some of the best people on the world here. Learned more about life and myself from them …

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December 22nd, 2014by LetItGo

you’re gonna stay home tonight. and the next night. and the night after that. but no matter what happens you’ll never think of me.

you won’t think of the late night conversations we had. the video calls we had that you fell asleep in because the night was pitch black will never cross your mind. you’ll busy yourself with work and won’t reply or message me for days or weeks.

then out of the blue you’ll message me. you’ll try to show you care even though i know that you don’t. you don’t care about the way i laugh or smile. the way i try to act …

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fears

December 22nd, 2014by tc13

the ex finally left again. that is a good thing, but that old feeling of loss and lonliness always return when she leaves. she was not the reason i tried to kill myself. i tried to kill myself because i do not know how to live in this world. i dont understand it. it dont understand me.evrything that was familiar and comfortable is gone. now, evrything is new and frightning. why is doing the right thing so hard?does the emptiness of loss ever go away? does the pain ever stop? each day i become more withdrawn and reclusive from society. hiding and hoping no one …

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what becomes of us?

December 22nd, 2014by LifelessAnatomy

what becomes of men like us? where do you suppose we end up?

The kind of men that yearn for love, family, companionship, but are denied it at every turn.

What becomes of us when all we want, all we need is constantly removed from us. i know what happens to all of us in the end, we die. But what happens to us before we die? how can someone live in a constant state of dispair because there not good enough, or are to good to achieve all it is that they want or need? there are tens of thousands on simple solutions to my every …

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Every Journey Ends

December 22nd, 2014by Cosmic Quest

Everyone dies.

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I Don’t Know Anymore

December 22nd, 2014by Lovebug4142

Haven’t gotten out of my bed all day today, only to use the restroom, but that’s it. Haven’t eaten all day, and I’ve been up since 6 a.m. trying to lose weight. I’m fat. I cut myself Tuesday and Wednesday and its not healed yet, usually I’ll have a scab, but I guess I cut myself deeper than usual cause the wounds still open. It sucks i have to hide it from my dad an step mom. I don’t know I’m in a weird place, been thinking this whole time while I’ve been in my room. If I killed myself right now, no one would …

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To my ex bf

December 22nd, 2014by LittleBead

Attention please – [18+]
Yo, bastard. I wish so much you read this post, but, obviously, you will never do it as you’re just a piece of shit. It’s been almost 3 weeks since you left me and I guess you don’t even give a fuck about me and how much I needed you that time. But your precious ego and “tending to your own illness” was so important that you left me alone. Your illness, ha. YOU ARE ILL BECAUSE YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE WITH IT. Stop being pathetic, everyone wants to help you but you are keeping slicing your veins and swallowing these meds …

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The Ignorance of ‘family’

December 22nd, 2014by Lsari

The absolute gall of my family members is atrocious. They berate me for everything I do (of which I do very little since I try to mind my on bloody business).

I went through absolute mental hell this year for my final year at uni, for some effed up reason, I managed to pass (seriously have no idea how), so imagine my utter disbelief when I get my uni assessment marks in the post and find out I passed everything, I was on the verge of disbelief, sorrow, joy and all other kinds of bewilderment but overall was generally approving of the situation. My ass hat family …

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The Verdict

December 22nd, 2014by xanadu

I work for an insane person. I really hope he’s not lying when he said he recommended me for the full-time track because if I do get asked to transition to full-time, I have to change shifts as a requirement for the transition. That means I get to pick my supervisor, and I already know which direction I’ll go.

The guy I work for right now is an asshat supreme. He fires people arbitrarily (based on his personal liking of that person – not based on performance on the job), and makes a point to fire tenured people right before the holidays, every year. This …

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Love is killing me

December 22nd, 2014by Rose_kate

It’s over. I lost the only one who was able to save me from my loss. I am definitely a monster I destroyed him and his life. I know he loved me, he cared about me, he was so good to me. I screwed up every thing.. I wish I could be another person, a normal person without depressed reactions.  Want to die so hard right now. Please kill me..

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Untitled

December 22nd, 2014by heavymetalunicorn

No one ever said that suicide is morally good. Failing the ones you love isn’t morally good also.

I don’t care about my songs and the shit I wrote. I can’t leave it behind as some sort of legacy, like that is some accomplishment of mine. I don’t care about my son or my family. There is nothing that I can leave behind that would be destroyed by my death. They would all be relieved.

She cheated and found a better man for her and my son. That isn’t morally good? Or is it? They will live a much happier life without me.

Suicide is probably the only …

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I’m completely lost…Now I’m afraid of death and I hate it!I really need help!

December 22nd, 2014by ryuunosuke

I’m lost right now…I have no idea what I should do because my life is very fucked up so I hope posting this would possibly help.

Please read till the end…

I’m a 15 years old boy and I live in Romania at the moment.I’ve always had big problems with socialization and with society itself and,well…with almost everything around me! I simply dislike most (if not all) people that I know because I always see the worse in them (and they generally show me that I’m right),I hate society because of various reasons (mostly because society never accepted me),I dislike my family,my colleagues etc.

At my highschool (a …

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Escapism

December 22nd, 2014by heavymetalunicorn

No one ever said that decisions you make must be morally good to make you happy.

I tried to combat my thoughts for years. I am worthless. No one loves me. No one cares. I really did try. I tried to live the ideal that I am emotionally independent. I don’t need other people to feel good, right? I tried Satanism as a religion, without those bullshit rituals of course. I tried tarot readings on myself. I even believed that I had a purpose given to me by the Almighty Universe.

And you know what? It would all expire after a few weeks.

Escapism? Cigarettes, booze, Youtube, videogames, …

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warning : you dont seem ok killer

December 22nd, 2014by killswitchon

You can be me and I will be you.
You can live just like a star.
I’ll take my sanity, you take the fame.
I’m under and over it all.
(I’m under and over it.) — FFDP

Kills are you ok?? Everything fine you dont seem ok…? No shit sherlock. I’ve never been more fucking filled with pain than I am today. Facing an insurmountable unbeatable mental cancer. Completely desolate wasteland of the forgotten. A leader of the broken hearts and minds. NO SHIT IM NOT OK. im in inordinate amounts of pain — emotional and mental every goddamn fucking day. I have a fucking stalker. I’m warning you right …

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Plz help

December 22nd, 2014by flipnflap

Any idea about what to take or do to relax to not think too much? Like a special drink or something? I really need to know.

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Scribbles(The only thing i seem to be gd at)

December 22nd, 2014by confusedboy

What is life when u dont know its meaning..

i cant look for the future when my present is trembling..

Trembling with fear of not knowing..

This fear just keeps on growing.

Every hope life gave me was misleading..

Every happy start led to a sad ending..

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Anxious,Depressed but now mostly Confused (Is cracking up n going crazy the only thing left for me..)..

December 22nd, 2014by confusedboy

Hello i am a 21 year old boy with depression and anxiety problem.Wish i had known about this page years ago but no worries.ok here we go.I have always been a depressed kid since i can remember.i was kept in a school hostel since the age of 6 cause my parents had to go abroad to work.The hostel was worst.They gave bad food (worms in food,burnt,always potato) and on top of that they charged more money.The person incharge of looking after us was the most miserable person i have ever met,always beating us and taking whatever stuff our parents had sent via parcel.I can still …

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The touch of a woman

December 22nd, 2014by empty glass

I long for the touch of a woman, a woman near my own age. I don’t understand people who say that age doesn’t matter. Age does matter. If you are in it for young sex or the money perhaps that is different. I am not that kind of man. I do not want any younger women lets say under 45 because I am 57. It is not fair to the woman since I will not be alive for a long time like her. I would not want her to deal with the sadness and heartbreak that may come with a dead boyfriend/husband. She may also …