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Whats everybody up too tonight?

October 21st, 2014by BrokenAngel8

Hi, Thought I’d post this and see what other users are up to on this chilly night.

Me I just got home from a long day of college classes from 9-9 now I’m just resting checking email and sipping on hot cider.:)

 

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i’m not going to fight anymore…goodbye…

October 21st, 2014by copelessness

Why do we hope?  Is it because we think things will get better?  Is it because of some stupid survival instinct that causes us to struggle on despite every indication that there is no good reason to do so?
I don’t know.  All I know is that I’m exhausted.  I’m tired of fighting against what I already know to be true, that I just need to let the tides of emotion pull me out to sea and let nature run its course.
My first post here way back when was a poem I wrote many years ago and it was about emotionally drowning.  I’ve been trying to …

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Come take a walk on the wild side with me?

October 21st, 2014by PerfectlyImperfect

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I hate myself

October 21st, 2014by The_Stressed_One

I hate myself.

I hate myself because I know that others have it way way worse than me and they aren’t complaining. I hate myself because I am not skinny enough. I am not smart enough. I am not pretty enough. I’m not nice enough. I’m not friendly enough. I’m not out-going enough. I’m not talkative enough. I’m not open enough. I’m not perfect enough. I’m just…. not enough. I hate that I’m such… an attention whore. I hate that a lot of people have it way worse than me and I’m here just cry a river and thinking of ending it, but it ending because …

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MARLA PARIS JADE IS A FUCKIN DUMB SLUT WITH A HORRENDOUS SMELL BETWEEN HER LEGS.

October 21st, 2014by marlajade

Marla paris jade will die.
Dont worry about me. I’m sure I’ll be fine in the afterlife, it cant be that bad.
I did something bad.
Then I did something bad again, unrelated to the first bad thing.
I wanna dance for dad.
I wanna dance to cyndi lauper but I’m sadistically playing out my funeral march as slipknots finest. I hate slipknot, but then so does everybody else thats why we used to mosh to it, because nobody liked each other and i DID SOMETHING BAD.
Guys this will be my last post ever anywhere. I’ve taken a few acid tabs and started working on the phenylethylamines I stole off …

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I hate my life.

October 21st, 2014by The_Stressed_One

I hate my life.

I hate my life because I am too stressed. I have been pouring over textbooks my whole life and I have been judge by my peers many many times. I can tell you ,any educational facts, but I cannot tell you the value of security and/or kindness. I can tell you many people have attempted to take their lives because of school. I can tell you that mistakes are viewed as failures in many hallways.  A wrong answer is a sin you must atone to, not a human error, but a flaw so grand it defines your life course. When I get …

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Tonight?

October 21st, 2014by JustLauren

Hello SP,

Well…I thought someone should know. Maybe that way, someone could care. Perhaps.

I had planned my suicide for the end of November, but current circumstances has bumped the date up to tonight. The plan is to overdose. Now in case this doesn’t work out, I have a school paper I have to finish and email to my professor so if I do fail, I don’t screw up the rest of my life (such as school). But I can only hope that this works. I took off of work tomorrow morning so that, in case I fail, I don’t have to come in. I’ll be too …

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Fuck it right?

October 21st, 2014by alina_01

The guy I thought I loved, well I didn’t love him. That guy I considered my best friend, he wasn’t ever truly my best friend. The relationship I thought I had the one that felt like magic, I didn’t have one it was all an illusion. I had hope, faith, I still fucken believed like some idiot. I still had feelings for him, now that part of me, that hope, those dreams and beliefs are all dead and gone. He cheated on me with her who knows for how long and they are dating. All I can do is laugh because he couldn’t let me …

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Any spanish speakers in here?

October 21st, 2014by ninelives

I need to talk or something.

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reasonless feelings…

October 21st, 2014by Freak231

I reasonlessly feel backstabbed, and I feel again that I can’t trust anybody but I know she has reasons not telling me how she feel. she’s in pain and her self esteem is so wrong. if I only could show her that its not how she see it… I asked her to promise me to text me when she feels low, or tell me if she felt low. She of course promised it, but she didn’t. I know it s not that easy to tell someone “I was cutting again” , but I counted on it. I counted on it. I counted on someone for …

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almost…

October 21st, 2014by kateralia

Its days like this I feel almost human, almost visible, almost a part of life. Days like this, although its too early & I’m on a crowded bus, I don’t want to die. I want to live & enjoy life. But I have to remind myself that this is only a fleeting glance. I am cursed, in pain, unlovable, poor & soon to be homeless. & that is not gonna change.

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Totally screwed up…I feel like suicide is my only option…

October 21st, 2014by warren41604

I have student loans. A personal loan. Attorneys fees for a divorce I’m going through. I have NO JOB. No income. I’ve applied to every job available here including fast food jobs and nobody will hire me. I’ve suffered from depression and bipolar disorder. I have no idea what I’m doing anymore. I’m lost. I have no hope. I can’t even see myself making it to next month because I can’t afford to pay anything. I don’t want to die, but I feel like it’s my only option. I’m just so sad and depressed and scared about my finances. I wish I could just go …

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so this is the end i guess

October 21st, 2014by ndt998

Been suffering from asebergers, PTSD, BPD, severe social anxiety and extreme guilt for ages….. my gulit, combined wiith asebergers just made it so i’m broken socially, which furthers the degree of my BPD and loneliness pretty much by the day. my BPD overlaps with asebergers and i just lose it over little things… and everybody thinks i’m insane. i can’t even go outside and walk around because i’m afraid of what people will think. even my own family thinks i’m crazy!!! my mom has locked me up so many times over the littlest shit… and the funny thing is that pretty much everybody agrees that …

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Until Whimsical Hell

October 21st, 2014by Bisban

 

“I Don’t Eat Chocolate”

 

Can I roll over
Can I buy you a skateboard
Do you want to be a raver
A dying planet, can I die and fly
With the galaxy, too
Even though I’m so ugly
Can you still be my friend
You don’t have to hold my hand
Do you have a nice place
What about the air, does it smell
I use my own plates and utensils
Like a half-stage Ebola
Can you be the Balboa

.

 

 

 

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Ending It

October 21st, 2014by randyg

After months of soul searching and great pain, I have decided to end it and need help in finding the most reliable source of drugs that will assist me in my final decision, including nembutal. This is how I have chosen to die.

Having said that, I am afraid of all the scams and websites that rip people off.

This decision did not come fast, not did it come without understanding the final consequences of my decision. Now, I just need help. Please.

Thanks

 

 

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Dead skin cells

October 21st, 2014by Bisban

 

D_Binary

 

Damn, the high-end sound
And a deepest under
Severely developed
To my comrades, I lost it all
I am the Elephant-Whale
Defected nature has failed
Is it a game, it will continue
Flora and Fauna, run away
But so that I can come back
Can you fathom for me please
I am the backward and you the Sacred Clown
What can be done for the binary
Only with you does my story begin
Aquarius, the victim, what can
Rotting celebacy to replenish
Where are you, magic enchantress
Take me to go die, my beautiful child

 

 

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I dunno

October 21st, 2014by DeathDreamer

dfde

..Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of freaks..

They slit our throats
Like we were flowers
And our milk has been devoured

When you want it, goes away too fast
Times you hate it, always seem to last.

I wanna outrace the speed of pain

 

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I Believe All Kinds Of Strange Things

October 21st, 2014by harikiri

Anyone else?

Like that many gods are currently walking the earth, with special powers bringing about miraculous change in the world.

You dear reader, may be one for all I know.

My life on this planet so far has sucked in a big way and I frequently want out, but I have committed myself instead to trying to create a new world from the ashes of the old.

I have seen many visions and dreamed many dreams. My ‘crazy’ reality is way realer than what this mundane existence would indicate.

I’m here because I want out of all of this shit every bit as much as any of you. But …

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I hate her

October 21st, 2014by angelp

I feel nothing anymore. I just want my old life back i want to kill myself now and I want everyone to know that I hate my life I want her to know that I’m fucking done with her bullshit I want her to know I’m a fucking idiot I hate the fact that she makes me look bad that she kisses another guy and thinks it’s ok that fact that you doesn’t really love me the fact that I’m nothing to her that she likes guys looking at her that she doesn’t  tell me shit I fucking hate my life why can’t I fucking …

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With This Knife

October 21st, 2014by Deleted.from.society

“With This Knife”

I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how i try i don’t know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain

With this knife i’ll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife i’ll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you

I can’t believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million broken miles
Like poison for my veins

The hate and the fear
The nightmares …

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