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suicide

July 31st, 2014by suicidal.bunny

theres just no point in living.. i dont wake up in the morning and thin “hmm what a great day!” I hate my life i really do. and nobody seems to see it. i just want to go somewhere and cry forever because thats the only thing I seem to be doing now. crying. i just want to get in a car and flip ten times.. i wish that would happen.

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The worst thing

July 31st, 2014by Donn

Giving birth. I don’t know how many times I’ve wished I was never born. There are so many other possible chromosome combinations that would have made someone else but no I was born. Born to spend my days trying to kill myself. So I go to the hospital and see people happy with their babies. Gosh in this horrible world you can have everything perfect but still feel depressed. I just don’t understand I don’t. I used to be happy but then I changed and I hate how horrible the whole world is. I keep trying to kill myself and I keep failing. I have …

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Mommy?

July 31st, 2014by HippieGurl

I don’t want to cut anymore I don’t want to smoke But what reason do I need to stop for? You wanted me to change and I did I became a whole new person just so you would be proud of me and where did that get me? It got me nowhere your still not proud, I don’t want to be a mini Jasmine or Laura Jr. I want to be Mya and Mya wants to dance, sing, run away with her guitar and write music. I was happy in Oregon I had a bunch of friends and almost had a boyfriend But you dated …

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Today is just like the rest

July 31st, 2014by Infectious208

Yet another day that I woke up alone. No missed texts or calls from anyone. No one to talk to except my personal demons telling me your not worthy of experiencing this day. Just the same mundane routine that plagues me every day. Wake up exhausted because I cant sleep well anymore. Its 6 am. I hit snooze hoping an extra 5 minutes will make me feel a little better yet I never seem to be able to take that extra 5 minutes. Its like a tease.

Stand in the shower looking at the cuts on my arm and crying wishing I could smell her cooking breakfast again and …

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Everything is you

July 31st, 2014by alovesinksmedeep

A love

I wish I could handle well so that my smile could be real

I am sorry but I want to have a contract which lasts forever

If you are the one, if you were the one

This tablet does not do to me at all today

I will take one more to see if everything changes

If you were the one

Attention please attention pleaaaaaassszzzu

You know that, you know who I love

My mask is not old, I can still use it

Everything is for you

 

 

 

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friend

July 31st, 2014by thelostgirl1499

I just need someone too talk too.

ANYONE .

I just need someone who can’t use my problems or past against me.

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i think this is goodbye

July 31st, 2014by noir

well, mhh, lets get this started, im 22 yo male and i have been trought depresion since i was 15 yeah this have been very hard 7 years, im not goig to give details about that because if you are here you may know how i feel rigth now, the fact is that im a transgender, so yes im kind of a girl in the body of a boy and i have knew since i was 12 that is like the age when you can ge treatment and stuff to “solve” that trouble so rigth now im in a dead end i can either become …

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Applied structure in the void

July 31st, 2014by Moro D

Well, people have to start somewhere i guess. Some way to speak, say something in this place. For a long time now (not sure how much anymore, months for sure, years probably) i have only one clear thought in my mind – dying. Any way, any how. I came to the point in life when i realized i’m broken without any way to repair my remaining time. Will state right away that it has been more then strange journey for me, full of sickness, suffering and violence, both in mental and physical way.

I’m 30 in couple months, but feel like i’m ancient. I live in …

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3rd attempt = success

July 31st, 2014by Grim Reaper

Hey, i want to share my story and ask few questions..

soo my first attempt was cutting my hand.. i wanted to bleed to death, but it was very painful so i stopped that shit..

second attempt was overdose.. ive ate around 50 antidepresive pills and drunk sum beers.. well i lost my memory, it was pretty fast and not even painful or smthing.. ive woke up in hospital with thos fuckin doctors all around.. god damn why i failed again?..

ive waited 1 year to things get better, to get some chance for fucking better life.. but no, nothing changed it just get worse so now im going …

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Am I the only one?

July 31st, 2014by RagingPeace

Is anyone out there in the same boat as me?

26 years old

I’m unemployed now for about 1.5 years

I can’t afford the repayments on my unit

I’m fat

I’m ugly

I’ve not a cent to my name

Oh, yes, and I don’t have a drivers licence

I’d just like to know if there is anyone going through the same thing. I guess it feels good to know you are not alone. I don’t know.

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Thank you

July 31st, 2014by osmith

Today marks the first day i wrote my first entry on this website. I read through all my entrys and cried at who the person i was a year ago. i still feel horrible, but im slowly learning how to deal with these emotions, and beginning to become a happier and grateful person. most definitly i wake up some day wishing i wasnt alive but at the end of the day i some how find some sunshine in the grey days.

The thing what really made my cry while reading over my entries, was the comments from such amazing people that i have no connection …

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Suicide by chocolate

July 31st, 2014by sadspectralgiraffe

What a lovely way to die. But i guess nobody has died that way, just ended up with an illness or disease from the sugar…

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Was contacted by someone to C T.B

July 31st, 2014by crazymonkey

Posted in here weeks ago, had severe depression from chronic pain and could see no end.
Out of the blue I was contacted by someone who wants the same as me, but for different reasons.
Was a total shock to me to even get a response and to speak to someone so determined to go through with it.
They are interstate and will be travelling up tomorrow to work out the details of how/when etc.

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I lost all hope now

July 31st, 2014by TheCorpsePrincess

So I posted a few night ago about my situation and now I feel worse. I stood up to my bf and he admitted to me that he was no longer in love with me anymore after 2 months of hiding it from me. And I knew something was wrong and he kept calling me crazy. And I’ve been depressed for so long now I’m sitting at home locked in my room staring at a bottle of pills wondering if I should swallow them or not. And it’s not because of my now ex bf. It’s because I’ve had so many fucked up things in …

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Shit Excuse of A Life

July 31st, 2014by homesickangel

So Hey my names Kris or actually that’s my nickname I’m 15 years old and am suicidal a cutter bulimic anorexic mentally unstable girl. Let’s start at the beginning shall we? My shit storm of a life started in 7th grade where I was verbally and physically bullied by a 8th grader by the name of Leo it started out with the name calling teasing of my weight then it escalated to pushing shoving tripping sometimes kicking and punching but I endured it cause no one would believe me or so much as lift a finger to Stop it and then 8th grade came he

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PLEASE READ!!!! i want to change your life. text me for help (# at bottom)

July 31st, 2014by insecure angel

Hello everybody! My name is Matt and I am a (now happy) 16 year old living in California, USA. I know exactly what it is like to be suicidal, to attempt it, to be a cutter (6 years of self harm), to be bullied, to have family problems (mom died when I was 2), to […]

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Chelsea.

July 31st, 2014by ChelMelx

Hello, my name  is Chelsea.. I’m 12. My whole life I have been told I have a gift. That i was special and smart and the total opposite of average. It doesn’t matter anymore, i havent made an impact yet and other kids younger than me already have. Everything hs gone downhill since my parents divorced when I was 3. I’ve lived with my mom in a cheap apartment until a drunk driver + an 18-wheeler totaled our car in an accident. I turned 10, My mom quit her job to care for me, since she couldn’t drive to her job. We finally moved into …

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LIFE

July 31st, 2014by justanotherkid

What is the purpose of life? Why was i born out of all those sperm cells? Was it god who chose it? Not suicidal but at times question why i was chosen? I do believe there probably is a god but just dont know

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One Try Left

July 31st, 2014by TheAngelInChains

So after the end of last summer, my life turned around….

So I’m off to 7th grade, my first year of middle school. During that time I was bullied a lot. My brother also made this new friend who didn’t like me very much. After that my brother was also kinda a bully to me. And the things they would say and do to me made me feel sad and angry and  never deal with it.

So the stress and depression builds. It’s just sitting inside of me like a bo going to blow up. I also have this 7 year old sister who won’t ever leave …

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I Was Robbed at Gunpoint Last Night

July 30th, 2014by MoreThanMyThoughts

I just need someone to talk to… I’m clinically depressed / recovering suicidal, and everything feels terrible now.

 

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