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why didn’t the poison hemlock work?

October 31st, 2014by dancininnovember

On October 26th, last Thursday, I ate a handful of poison hemlock seeds I had researched thoroughly. I was so ready. I had prepared all summer. Ready for peace, or nothingness, or heaven, or hell, or my next life, or a reset. I want to die, and I’ve wanted to die for a very very long time. My chest and gut physicaly hurt when I think of having to push on for 60 or so years living only for my friends and family. ..the seeds are from a camping trip. I know hemlock. The leaves, the flowers, the colors, the smell, and yes, the taste. …

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My Apologies

October 31st, 2014by Koji

I am deeply remorseful for the incosideration and carelessness of my previous post. I did not mean to distress or worry anyone, and looking back I realized it was rather open-ended and should have been cautious regarding the detail of my intentions.

None the less, I am thankful for all those who responded and greatly appreciate each and every response left.

Thank you. You are all awesome and one of the main reasons why I can never really shake this place.

Even though it has only been a few days since my last visit, I can confidently say old habits die really hard. But as for now, …

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I’m Lost

October 30th, 2014by AJokeOfFate

I honestly don’t know what to do. Everything’s slowly coming apart at the seams. I’m falling behind in all of my classes and hardly paying attention to my parents. I’m unattractive and most of the people that I hang out with just think of me as really annoying. I bet there’s a line of people waiting to try and kill me. Hell, I’ve even stopped reading books as much as i used to. And it’s not just that I feel unmotivated. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I suppose that’s what it’s like when you live your whole life doing what people tell …

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Serious shazam

October 30th, 2014by Bisban

We need to get a hold of Jim Carrey. Hit me up for this. Pilgrimage.

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Anyone from the uk? south east?

October 30th, 2014by Londondan

just wondering whos from these areas? i currently reside in kent but am from london.

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Death is Unavoidable

October 30th, 2014by JustWatingToDie

you know your born into this world and for the first copal of years of your life you think hey what could go wrong? sadly you soon start to open your eyes and see the world for what it really is i don’t know much about any of you just anonymous bloggers like me i guess but i know one thing death is unavoidable wether it is from natural causes a tragic accident or self inflected. sometimes you don’t want to die other times you know your ready like me i know i want to die i know that theres nothing anyone can do to …

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selfish

October 30th, 2014by witl

Is it possible that there is a force bigger an even more capable of destroying me than just the society, the world and human beings this planet is.. Like the saying I have heard and used so many times before ‘the universe is against me’  Maybe yes it is yes it really is. I have tried so many times through my life to try and figure out why…. why me, why is this it, why was I born. what is the point of all this the point of life well maybe there is really no point who ever came up with everyone has a purpose …

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“No matter how hard you try there will always be someone better´´

October 30th, 2014by GeoPin

“No matter how hard you try there will always be someone better´´ This statement is to do with girls ovcourse, Its something a family member of my age said to me when I told him my story. He said that’s a lesson he’d learnt from his very sad love life story. But i’m not here to tell you his, I’m here to tell you mine and maybe find some confort between all us injured men.

I dont knw where to start… its a very long story (arent they all!..), so i’ll try and summarise: I’d know this girl for  12 years, for two of those we …

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never thought i’d be here

October 30th, 2014by imdonewithit

but this is the last straw,

its my birthday in a couple weeks (27), i should be excited and i have alot of things i still enjoy. i can walk, talk, see, smell and hear. and that alone should be enough. I made a list of all the things i appreciate in life, but i look at my list and i dont feel grateful, maybe its the media or the 1st world society problems that i think are so terrible. but im just done with it. every day i wake up and i raise my hand to my head and “pull the trigger” just hoping that …

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back to who I was? I was already broken

October 30th, 2014by 89hash

Not sure if this was her trying to tell me she loved me or if this was goodbye. I’ve told her I loved her before and she acts like she doesn’t deserve it. I felt the same way about myself but totally broke character because I wanted to be more than friends, Am I really this dumb for not letting go. If only I knew the right words, it’s been tearing me apart since the first time I held her in my arms. I don’t care what any of our friends say, I love you.

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Just need to share…

October 30th, 2014by no.head.chicken

My dads’ cousin just hung himself. I’m not going to the funeral – I met him maybe once and barely remember him. Yet it makes me feel… I’m not even sure what. Sad doesn’t quite cover it.

I’ve been thinking about suicide myself for several months now (have considered it many times before, but this is the longest prolonged period where it has seemed the only solution). I guess that just always makes me feel sympathetic to those who do go through with it. More than a year ago an actor, rather famous in my country, killed himself. I wasn’t all that much of a fan of …

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Jammy.

October 30th, 2014by Jammy.

My name is Jammy, I used to write a lot, i used to read a lot, i used to draw, paint and climb everything i looked, I also used to pull my hair, crash my head against the wall or fight my siblings when i was mad, and all nights i used to cry until i felt asleep, Mom couldn’t look at me when she came tired from work so she used to send me to the backyard at nights, first I was scared (just as every kid would) but then I start it to like, i enjoyed it being there but that wasn’t normal …

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October 30th, 2014by Bisban

 

Where’s the Halloween party be at. Hit me up

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feeling down

October 30th, 2014by jellybeanz28

I hate this day completely.

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Don’t know if I can deal with all of this anymore…

October 30th, 2014by tigerlily96

I quit my job and moved across the country so that I could afford living without a job while I apply to grad programs. At the same time as studying for the GRE, I got engaged to be married. You’d think it would be a really exciting time in my life, but the same two months I was going to use for improving my GRE score ended up being dedicated to wedding planning. Wedding planning was a nightmare, I felt extremely depressed, and then I would beat myself up for feeling depressed during a time I was supposed to be happy. Oh yeah, I forgot …

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So Stupid.

October 30th, 2014by tctc

So useless.
Can’t do anything right, can’t do anything well.
Good-for-nothing.
Filled with envy.
Filled with hatred for oneself.

I just want to sleep, sleep forever.

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A Flawed Fairytale

October 30th, 2014by fallenstars101

Once upon a time ago, there was a little girl that honestly couldn’t have pictured a more perfect life. She was a successful athlete, had friends, a great girlfriend, but apparently that just wasn’t enough to help her survive. Where she grew up, if you were a good athlete you were automatically popular, so she was popular. But she didn’t like feeling superior to others, so she kept the friends she grew up with. However, they weren’t athletic so this girl that once had it made was now getting talked shit on by the whole high school. Why would they spread such harsh things about …

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Need funeral advice

October 30th, 2014by Lost2many

This is a request for advice from those who have had a family member commit suicide.  I am attempting to finalize my funeral arrangements so that I can prepay for the services.  I have already purchased a burial lot in the small town where my father is buried, about 2 hours from my home town.   That town is about 4 1/2 hrs away from where all my in-laws live.  I have some distant family members who reside near where I will be buried.  I have little contact with my family members in my hometown, and no friends who will miss me.  I will soon have …

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me…

October 30th, 2014by kateralia

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i want to punch a wall

October 30th, 2014by starsign

i realised that my days of being treated like crap by half of my friends ends right now. They don’t give a shit about me.. and guess what? i don’t give a fucking shit about them either
they can all fuck themselves.
in other news, i’ve been listening to the smiths basically non-stop and right now my life is just a blended mix of anger and pure sadness. idk for some reason for the past 3 days i’ve just had this unspeakable rage.. and there’s nothing exactly that has caused it ?
i don’t really know if this is better than the “being too sad …

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