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I tried to kill myself this morning.

September 3rd, 2015by Delisnak

yup title says it all. swallowed 20 aprin i didnt even fucking cry i was shaking though after about 10 minutes i felt fine and went to school. when i got there i was already feeling sick so i laid my head on my friends lap. it hurt to move and talk i had no strength. i told him what i did but he didnt get the hint to go get the nurse.so me myself had to walk around school from my class i was in to the office to my locker back to the class to the office. didnt throw up untill …

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Nobody knows me…

September 3rd, 2015by Bluerose

Nobody knows what kind of hell i live in! People think im happy and ok… But im not! And so long as im in this hell… I will never be ok. Im sick and tired of crying… I just want it all to stop. I cant take anymore…

Nothing will change… No matter how hard i hope… No matter what i do… Nothing changes. And i cant take this anymore!!!!!

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My last post

September 3rd, 2015by SoonToBeDead

People on here dont really care about me at all, shame I never had a real friend in my life or had a girlfriend oh well, guess it’s time for me to leave this world. Unless anyone has a better idea?

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There’s no hope, and it’ll be soon.

September 3rd, 2015by disgusting

There’s no hope of my finding a place to live. My income isn’t enough for an SRO which is stricter than getting an apartment. Those are shitty jail cell sized rooms you pay as much for as an apartment, to share a bathroom with the building, having to eat all of your meals out as food isn’t allowed, and you can’t have visitors. Even worse is proving income. You can’t prove you have an income at all when everything is done over the internet. I get paid through online payroll services to an online (prepaid) bank account. No paper is exchanged and that’s what they …

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Help

September 3rd, 2015by Cabinessence63

It’s not something as dramatic as suicide but I want your help.

The last three years, I have been in a very weird phase of my life. When I go outside , alone, I feel that people are thinking bad things of me and I feel that there is a big cloud over my head and they can see whatever I have on my mind. I am overweight and I eat unhealthy food with big ammounts on my plate. It’s not like I am a glutton but it’s like I force myself to eat it. I have never had a real friend. Noone that I could

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Insignificant

September 3rd, 2015by Freakinblackhart

So everyday is a complete blur. It doesn’t feel like I’m living, it just feels like I’m enduring. I can’t get anything right. I have the help I need like counsellors and medication but it doesn’t make any difference. My dad and his gf think I should just fake a smile and slowly accept it as it will brighten up my day. No, because I always get the gut feeling that I’m not allowed to be happy. Not with funny incidents, not jokes, not happy with myself. Just not happy in general. I can’t be. Every time I am I seem to fuck something up …

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;;;

September 3rd, 2015by mranony

What is happiness?

Is it the money you have? Is it the food you eat? Is it the movies you watch? Is it the books you read? Is it the friends and family you have? Or is it the fire in your heart?

If it’s the fire, where can I find it? Can someone please tell me how to find it?

I don’t know where my little fire go. Is it lost? Or is it that I never truly had it.

 

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September 3rd, 2015by Darvin K. Duro

“What Light

If you feel like singing a song
And you want other people to sing along
Just sing what you feel 
Don’t let anyone say it’s wrong

And if you’re trying to paint a picture
But you’re not sure which colors belong
Just paint what you see 
Don’t let anyone say it’s wrong

And if you’re strung out like a kite
Or stung awake in the night
It’s alright to be frightened

When there’s a light (what light)
There’s a light (one light)
There’s a light (white light)
Inside of you

If you think you might need somebody
To pick you up when you drag
Don’t loose sight of yourself
Don’t let anyone change your bag

And if the whole world’s singing your songs
And …

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my dreams are taunting me.

September 3rd, 2015by Delisnak

they’re taunting me. i cant sleep without dreaming of him. the way he touched me. god i miss it so much. ive been restless for a few days now. cant grt over him if all i do is dream about him. WHY???!? he has moved on or so i think so. ive moved on but im still stuck.

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Don’t you just hate family birthdays?

September 3rd, 2015by Agony

It’s my uncle’s birthday, I have to go there today. I really hate him and my aunt. They are very pushy and obtrusive. I always have been forced to do things with them instead of with my parents, no matter how hard I begged them. My mom always said they were my favourite aunt and uncle. I never had favourites but if I did it would certainly not be them. I can’t even say that I’m not coming. I will be forced, it’s always been like that. I have no right to say no. If I say no they say yes, they’ll repeat that till …

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Any other ways of connecting?

September 3rd, 2015by Matel

Do we have any other way of connecting to people from SP? Like a chat room or channel? I thought I saw something like that a couple months ago here. Or maybe it is illegal or something, I don’t know.

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I’m not me anymore

September 3rd, 2015by chelle428

I don’t really know what I’m doing posting on here, I guess I’m just tired of holding it all inside. I’m not even sure if I’m making this post correctly, or if I’m doing anything correctly at all. I guess I just couldn’t all this any longer.

I’m 19 years old and I’ve attempted suicide 4 times, once when I was 11 and 3 when I was 19. I want my next one, to be my last. I’ve been abused by my parents my whole life and when I moved all it turned into was abusive relationships, and people using me, but I was handling it. …

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Societies “Monster”

September 3rd, 2015by Im-so-done-here

I’ve lost everything, my friends, my sister, my happiness. I use to be the happy person that would high five everyone in the hallway, the person you could count on. “Your the problem” “your not good enough” “why would I wanna hang out with a freak like you’ is all I hear now. Rejection and misery welcome me like my blanket at night. My friend’s all turned their back on me, and my sister, the only family I felt I could actually talk to and enjoy, is gone from this world, now all I have is my yorkie, I went into homeschool because the bullying got so bad, its sad that as such a young age I wanna give up hope, and cave in to my dark thoughts. I wasn’t always like this, society made me out to be this way.

I just found this site. I hope something on here will give me a spark of hope, and maybe a reason to smile again.

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boom

September 3rd, 2015by gladiolusanemone

honestly i’m just so fucking tired of everything.

i’ve gone past the stage of feeling depressed, to the feeling empty and numb inside. everyday, i’m walking around like a zombie, my mind blank and not really listening to anything, yet on the outer side, i seem to be laughing and socialising. and it wows me just how much a smile can hide. haha.

what future do i have in life? everyday, it’s just the same thing over and over again, if you’re a student, going to school, coming back home, occasional trips out with your friends, if you’re a working adult, going to work, coming back home, …

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I jst wanna die

September 3rd, 2015by Cratiha

Here….i had a bf whom i loved soooo very much. He alsoo loved me a lot. But i shifted to some other city bcs of my parents. We both had done a lot of things…nd nw he said he ws not comfortable from the starting and that he cannot be in a relationship with me or anyone else. I feel lost coz i trusted him a lot. We had a lot of fights and now i jst dnt want to be happy as i am afraid of being happy. My family wants me to become a doctor…i am their only child nd i have a …

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shitty. pointless plan

September 3rd, 2015by no more of this please

yeah like if i get a passport my online boyfriend can pay for the flight. hopefully the airports dont waste my time etc. its pointless because i could only stay 3 months there without a visa. hassle hassle hassle hassle. just makes me want to die truly… yet all these boat people can seek asylum, i could never do that, i’m not from a ‘third-world country’. as much as poverty, violence, rape, etc in those countries is very prevalent, with little opportunities for study or work, well i don’t want to go to Europe and think i’m entitled like these people are, even though i …

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Time For Me to Go

September 2nd, 2015by maybeishouldgo

The weight of this pathetic excuse for a life is bearing down upon my shoulders. Every problem falls like a raindrop, but is heavy as a boulder.

I have no friends left. I’m officially and utterly alone. Things will be better off when I’m gone.

A part of me whispers, “Remember the promises you’ve made?” I promised to finish a coloring page with a little girl at my daycare job. I promised to take up a twelve hour shift at my second job. I promised my parents I would hold on.

A part of me wants to see what life is like if I hold on. Will he and I get back …

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“holes”

September 2nd, 2015by wndozh8er

Holes in the front, holes in the back

Pink holes, brown holes, and even black

Some holes are smelly, hidden benethe

Oher holes peck your cute little cheeks 

intake, outtake, holes can do it all

Some holes feel good, and some are very small

We came from a hole, and will be buried in one too

In the grand scheme of things, holes are me and you.

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So…

September 2nd, 2015by wallflower

I’m testing tomorrow to graduate, sure it’s with a GED, but it’s more than I’ve ever expected to do in life.

Like I’ve said before, I never imagined living past a certain age… But to be turning 17 next month, and to be graduating this month… It feels so unreal. I’ve already been asked so many times what I plan to major in, but honestly I’m not sure what I want to do with a life I didn’t even want to keep. I want to make a difference, I really do, but I’m just one person y’know? and I don’t know exactly how I’m going to …

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ironman22

September 2nd, 2015by Mark_1981

Any word on Ironman22?

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