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Why I think I feel the way I do.

November 23rd, 2014by JustAnotherGuy11

I feel emotionally disconected.  There is no reason for me to feel depressed or sad, because I don’t have what anyone would consider a bad life. I feel disgusting, because other people have real reasons to be sad and depressed, yet here I am.  There is nothing special about me.  There is no reason for anyone to extend an effort to help me out because I don’t feel like I contribute to society in the slightest.  The only reason why I feel any guilt is that I do not want my few friends and my small family to feel like they failed.  No one failed …

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The circle of hope and despair

November 23rd, 2014by rivertany

Since Labor Day weekend, I’ve been walking a track circle; on one end is glorious hope and love, on the other is despair, hopelessness, heartbreak. I’ve been researching suicide methods over the weeks, not often, but when I slide down the rabbit hole. Today I began a more in depth search into methods; I have several on my mind. Thinking I will commit to a plan once Thanksgiving is over. Always, once this, once that….I’m so tired. I wish I could just end it once and for all. Life is too overwhelming, too heartbreaking, too tiring. Hope is tiring.

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I’m done

November 23rd, 2014by All_Time_Low

People always say ‘ there are reasons for being alive, stay here, we need you’ yeah, you need me do you? Well tell that to me the next time you ditch me for someone better. Everyone is better than me. I don’t see the point of being here; I don’t think there is one. I self harm. People tell me to stop but others tell me to keep going. But I have made up my mind. I’m leaving, no one needs me nor do they want me . My own mother has disowned me. She says it’s my falut my sister is dead. She says …

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No one really cares

November 23rd, 2014by aven

I would be a fool to think that anyone cares for me but what they can get from me.  I don’t know what I did but this– it is not fixable.

So much pain is deep with-in …so much agony and suffering.   I have stopped eating  almost completely …am a shell of bones that uses someones discarded used smile as a facade because of fear of being found out…my secret of planning to die soon. The pain I feel from starvation is comforting some how.   I isolated myself and people don’t miss me any more. In fact I believe they have forgotten I am alive.  Even …

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Please

November 23rd, 2014by BuscettiByGianna

I know I barely post here anymore, but I still come back every now and then to read your stories. I recently read Shephard’s goodbye. He was a great friend to me a while back and I lost contact with him for a while. I need to know if any of you have had contact with him since his final post. I sent him an email, but haven’t had any response. And I know I may not hear from him for different reasons… But I just need some closure. It’s killing me. Please, if anyone has heard from him, or knows if he’s still with …

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We can help each other

November 23rd, 2014by charlieregal

Lets do it. Lets start a trust fund. We all sell some pf our things then put it in a trust and agree to all meet someplace and use the tust money to pay the fair for who ever wants to come. Then we buy a bomb and just hold hands and sing a prayer or a hymn or something and just wait for it to us all up. Don’t you see that this is your chance!? Stop procastinating! We can do this together don’t you see! we can help each other. We’re all in the same boat so lets just punch a hole in …

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Nonexistent

November 23rd, 2014by FeelingFunny

I dont even care enough to want to die. Repetitive practiced motions propel me through my days. Mind numb and thoughts stagnant. The real me died a long time ago and the creature left in my place is weak. Slowly dissipating to nothing is more than I deserve and exactly what I’ll get. I’ve made peace with this.

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November 23rd, 2014by KickYouWhenUrDown

So pain told you to take her
Well I learned to accept that feeling
‘Cause I found how to numb it
If only for just a short while
I’d get so high I’d forget my name
I scarred my fists, I scarred my brain
I think that I’m going insane
I think that I’m going insane

So drink up, so shoot in
Why must this feeling end
I crawled in my narcotic shell
Was crucified in my own hell
A gutter’s where I found myself
Among the waste I chose to dwell
I chose to dwell

So now I’m in your system
And I’m what helps you numb your pain
With time you will confide in me
So lonely my friend, I’ve made …

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November 23rd, 2014by alexislaufranco

you can never fully be happy in life. for most, we’re born with the bad things in life. some of us grow up without a mother or father, of both. some of us grow up in the terrible parts of the world. without a home, without a family, without clothes, food, an education. some of us just grow up different. these terrible things are what tell us to be appreciative of what we have.. to not be sorry for ourselves and how we feel. I grew up with a family, a roof over my head, food on the table, a mother, father, in a good …

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November 23rd, 2014by IndigoMasquerade

There probably isn’t any meaning in life. Perhaps you can find something interesting while you’re alive. Like how you found that flower. Like how I found you. – Orochimaru

This quote & someone on here once telling me to “be strong, have resolve”…those are the only two things keeping me here. Pathetic, I know.

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Anyone else lately..

November 23rd, 2014by Mentaloid

About a few weeks ago I felt this alarming depressed like feeling or simply a depression… feeling that I want to escape it all, felt like a heavy wave of everything and everyones feelings.. I began to read about suicide in details – methods, reasons, experiences and so on (I got myself a 4 meter long and 24 mm thick hemp rope for drop hanging, storing it in my car for now).. and  then at some point I just collapsed and cried …last time I cried like that was in my teens maybe, I am male and 29 now.

 

There is still some remains of this …

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My stupid reasons for staying alive.

November 23rd, 2014by JoeytheGreat

In younger days, when I thought my life was truly bad and even wasted, I casually thought of killing myself. Of course, I wasn’t being realistic. I had never experienced loss. I was alone but healthy, I was in debt but employed, and most importantly, I couldn’t leave my daughter alone with my death.

My daughter kept me alive for 24 years. She was my best reason to stay alive.

“You can have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt.” – Hurt, Trent Reznor

I used to cry when I heard that song, thinking I could relate. I never needed ‘stuff’. Thinking I could do everything on my own. …

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I think I am just a waste.

November 23rd, 2014by Sharinatraveler

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It’s gotten worse.

November 23rd, 2014by Cjohnson33

I made one of these yesterday, and I thank everyone on here for being so supportive. But, it’s really gotten to me now, I have a suicide plan. I’m going to get a bottle of my heart medication and take it all. I’m probably going to do it before Christmas. I know I shouldn’t and that there is help out there for people like me. I guess I’m just not sure if I want help anymore. I mean, there is always going to be someone who hates me for being me, right? How am I supposed to know I will find someone else like me anyways? That I …

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Goodbye

November 23rd, 2014by JevansEvans

Decided i’m going to go all out on a final attempt tonight, “double the dose and half the space”.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on this forum, I didnt create this account until very recently but I have been reading your posts for a very long time. They have given me strength and kept me going throughout the worst moments of my life to date.

I wish all of you well in the future, I hope that the pain dissipates for anyone that is sufferring, and to all of you who provide selfless support to others, I salute you.

Thanks again.

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Unforgivable

November 23rd, 2014by sage311

About a year ago I was had a casual relationship with the best person I have ever met and probably the only person I have loved in my 22 years. One night we hung out and got really drunk and I did a couple of lines of cocaine and smoked some pot and we ended up having sex not for the first time. I got way to exploratory and tried anal with her she said it hurts and then later stop but I didn’t because I am a **** human being. She forgave me and was more angry after I cut myself out of her …

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getting that package soon

November 23rd, 2014by Hjerteblomst

That soft toy (faerie dragon) And it wont make me happier at all. Just a mistake buying it. Being born is also a mistake. Not anyone’s fault i was born… Its not like i could be asked.
that’s toy will just be another thing collecting dust. No material object is going to make me happy.
i might as well just have thrown money in the bin.
well maybe this faerie dragon will be my friend…
i have a toy tiger as well… I like to cuddle it and kiss it… I must be stupid. Only kids do that, right?

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pleh

November 23rd, 2014by Toruda

I’m disgusted with the idea that i might want your attention, but it’s your attention that helps and your help is disgusting because i’m disgusting for needing help. Help!

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Always the nihilist

November 23rd, 2014by GalaxyEyesXx

I have felt so distant lately even though I know my isolation could ruin the few relationships I have, I can’t stop myself. Do they really care? I hope not. So many times I have heard people say that they only want to be loved but all I ever wanted was to be forgotten COMPLETELY. Not in this stagnant state of conditional love. It would make the transcendence so much easier. I linger in the shadows so that I am overlooked and I won’t have to answer questions or ask them. I inquired for help in a moment of weakness, of fear. I have come …

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I need help right now?

November 23rd, 2014by rich51bruhh

Can someone please kik me, well can a girl kik me. I have some questions and I need a girls perspective on my questions. Comment your email and I will email my kik to you.

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