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An old song on cold metal

December 7th, 2016by Salt

Splitting mind’s thread got me thinking about what material possession matters to me the most. Not including my dogs, a handful of people and some abstract concepts, I couldn’t think of anything I’d save if the place caught on fire. Everything I have can be replaced. Except this aluminum guitar I had built about 10 years ago.

There have been a few aluminum body/wood neck guitars in the past (Fender strat around the mid 90s I think), and 1 or 2 aluminum neck/wood body guitars (Kramer?). But, at least at the time, I hadn’t heard of a guitar that was completely aluminum. So I got …

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Caught

December 7th, 2016by gemini

I just got caught hurting myself knew I was going to be caught sooner or later damn!

The worst thing is the last time I talked about hurting myself I got a palm to the head from my partner, he told me he did it because I’m so stupid and he can’t see me going through this and I need my head sorting and he’s getting desperate as I won’t accept help (so he can hurt me but I can’t?) dunno what’s that about, I can see why he did it and I don’t blame him at all as he just wants to get through to …

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Pieces are fitting

December 7th, 2016by kamidaka

I have a list of things I want to do before I die, and more than 70% of it is already done or in the process of making it. Even those things that I thought I would never be able to make. Is this a sign that I’ll really die in January?

God for once wants me to leave. After so long, you sick and twisted entity.

I don’t want to start a new semester in the uni, I’ll kill myself before that happens. I fucking hate that place.

But for now I’m at peace.

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resolute

December 7th, 2016by Alexander

I’m calm and feel slightly detached. It’s getting dark and I’m losing my senses, on to the next life I guess.

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I’m a piece of shit

December 7th, 2016by numba

I can’t have friends. my existence is a joke.

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What to do with loneliness

December 7th, 2016by Atintofgreen

How do you cope with loneliness? There are things I wasn’t ready to talk about when I was six or seven and it has taken 12 years. I’m ready to face the past but don’t know were to begin. I feel like I should seek out help but were? How munch is one session with a psychologist?

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What do you feel as you imagine the end?

December 7th, 2016by Atintofgreen

Maybe its true that I don’t want to die. Maybe that’s why I keep looking for things to anchor me down. Something that I’ve realised is no matter how many things I find and seek I still feel sad and empty. When you picture yourself ending it what do you feel? Is it normal to feel nothing?

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How Invisible Am I?

December 6th, 2016by J Doe

Hello. After I came back from break, I did my best to avoid a particular person. It wasn’t hard seeing as this person doesn’t even know I existed. Today they called me over as I was sitting on the bench and asked if they could braid my hair. I have long hair for a guy. Their hands ran through my hair. They made a few comments about how soft my hair was. All of a sudden they stopped. My hair wasn’t braided. They looked down at one of their friends phones and said nothing to me. …

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Loneliness

December 6th, 2016by Luci94

Loneliness is the barbed wire that stretches across the plains and take roots into the veins . Like broken glass it peels the skin and takes root again. It’s the scars that are ugly, never the glass and as much as you hate it , it’s going to last.

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December 6th, 2016by Luci94

” Don’t act like I didn’t care ”
– a person who truly doesn’t care .

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Just Existing

December 6th, 2016by Thebadguy

I feel like all of my life all I have really done is exist. I have been numb for years. I just dont know if I remember how to feel anything. At an early age my dad almost killed me. My mom to this day hates the person that saved my life. Great, both of my parents (the two people that should always care) want me dead. How bad was I? What kind of child I must have been that they wanted rid of me this bad. How do you trust anyone after this? I don’t… Following this was my Mom getting re-married. Now to …

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That moment

December 6th, 2016by joeld

Gotta love the moment you realize you’re to chicken to actually end it but realize life is gonna absolutely suck for at least the next ten years if not longer.

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Hit with nonstop anxiety and depression

December 6th, 2016by Mokutan

I just can’t stop worrying over every little thing and it’s starting to take over my life. At the end of the day I’m exhausted yet my mind won’t shut off so I can’t even sleep well either.
Then I can be hit with sadness/depression that makes me want to die right there on the spot.
I’m just so tired and want to go back to how I used to be when I was so carefree.
I’m considering seeing a doctor but that’s only if I have no other choice and so I wanted to ask for advice here first.
Does anyone here take any anti-anxiety or antidepressant pills? …

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I’m planning the end and I don’t want a funeral

December 6th, 2016by bbt

Long story short I haven been planning to kill myself for many years, I believe the time has come for it to happen and I want it to go right. This isn’t a plea for help I’m 19 now and have been planning to since I was 13, I have got a method and know when to do it on the basis that my body won’t be found for at least 3 weeks after it has happened. I was just wondering if there was any way I could put in place to not have a funeral. I don’t want to have some sort of ceremony …

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update

December 6th, 2016by adecoy95

idk if anyone remembers me or not but i just wanted to post an update since my last posting.

i made an attempt about a month ago, since then i have been getting help and more therapy, as well as new medicine.

for a few weeks it was helping really well, i started showering regularly, losing weight, going to the gym, trying to get out there. i tried a fake it till you make it approach. but its not working.

i would think that after nearly a month and a half now i would start seeing improvements, but putting my past distractions behind has ended up with me …

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Sick of wasting my life.

December 6th, 2016by Wolfenstein626

I’ve grown tired of wasting my life. Get up at 11am, eat, watch tv, waste time online, walk around the house, take a nap, play some guitar, eat again, take another nap, listen to music, smoke some weed, check email again, contemplate doing something, decide not to do it, watch some boring shit on tv, Fuck it’s only 3PM??!!? Repeat the whole thing again. Eat dinner, listen to more music, post rant on sp, watch amp reviews on youtube, check email again for no reason, think about going for a walk, but decide not to, stretch, go to sleep. Repeat the next day. As you …

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Which are you: Introvert or Extrovert?

December 6th, 2016by Wittie

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Thinking about ending it, no reasons to live

December 6th, 2016by TheDude119

I’m new to this site, like a hour old but I’d thought I’d post something. Not sure how to start this off but yeah. I’m a sophomore in highschool in this old shitty town in a 98% white state, I’ve lived here for a while now (8-9 years, 15 rn) but ever since freshman year I guess I became depressed. It wasn’t bad in the beginning but now a year later it sucks, alot. Most days I get up and it’s hard, I think about suicide most days, in school I zone out with thought of it. Some mornings it’s really bad and idk. Well …

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Feel Like Dreaming While Awake. Awake While Asleep.

I re-read this comment I made while replying to The Last Snorlax on another post, and suddenly realized how much sense it made. And just like that, Sala Samobójców (aka. Suicide Room, 2011) came to mind, not sure why. Can you help me reason this? I mean the lyrics and theme don’t really match my […]

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How it usually goes

December 6th, 2016by J

RICHARD CORY 
BY EDWIN ARLINGTON ROBINSON
Whenever Richard Cory went down town,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean favored, and imperially slim.
And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
“Good-morning,” and he glittered when he walked.
And he was rich—yes, richer than a king—
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we