Archive for the 'General' Category

18 August 1987

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

IF I HAD A HAMMER If I had a hammer? I’d hammer all the people I’d hammer all the children I’d hammer away all care If I had a hammer I’d smash this world to pieces I’d crush away all reason You wouldn’t have a prayer!

Monkey Nightmare

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

I had the worst nightmare last night. Some of you remember a post about me having a stillborn baby girl. So beautiful. Anyways, I had a dream last night that the world was being overtaken by primates. Sounds crazy but hang in there. Primates of all kinds. Orangutans, monkeys, chimps, gorillas, etc. they ran around […]

Why one must be suicidal

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

1. Get a chance to think ” all suffering human beings on earth are foolish” 2. You become moonshot thinker ” either achieve big or do nothing” 3. One fine day you may suicide, which is awesome 4. Mozilla keeps suggesting “suicideproject.org” when you press ‘s’ in address bar

“in my cocoon”……..

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

Inside this room, In my cocoon. Lights are all out, What’s life about. The question I ask. Why should I last. Curled up in bed, I wish I was dead. Pillow all wet, From the love I don’t get. I have no voice, It’s not my choice. Under the sheet, I toss and turn. Fights […]

A Shattered Heart

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

If you are reading this, please listen with an open heart. My best friend committed suicide on March 14th. She had an account on this website that i just came across and she had posted asking about ways she could do it, and my already shattered heart broke a thousand times more as i read […]

Spirits of the night…..

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

Spirits in the night, Drift under moonlight. Spirits of the dead, Roam in my head. Shadows they make, Spirits not fake. The voices inside, From which I can’t hide. Spirits that burn, Awaiting their turn. To torment me, Them I can’t see. The spirits are right, Tonight is the night.

Billy Talent – Nothing To Lose

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

Need more friends with wings. All the angels I know put concrete in my veins. I’d always walk home alone. So I became lifeless just like my telephone. There’s nothing to lose. When no one knows your name. There’s nothing to gain. But the days don’t seem to change. ever played truth or dare I’d […]

The Road, as it were

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

The solo journey appeals to me sometimes. Stickin’ that thumb out in the springtime breeze and hitting the road like Kerouac did, so long ago. But here’s the problem, once I make it out there, everything and everyone conspires against me and my aspirations of “making it the pure way.” This is the USA, understand, […]

HATING THE MORNINGS OF HER

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

I just hate her. She’s ruining a life and that is mines. Wait let me correct myself, I don’t have a life. I woke up this morning at 7 and she just p!ss me off. I always wake up at 5 or 6 a.m. in the morning and leave the house at 6:30 a.m. She […]

Behind the smile

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

Every one thinks because i look happy means i have no problems like i dont deal with things. When i came back  to school last year after my suicide attempt everyone just gave me strange looks…. Behind this smile is pain and hard times… behind this smile is problems im dealing with.. Im NOT perfect… […]