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had a great dream…

September 1st, 2014by Hjerteblomst

…and sadly i woke up again to this shit life. I am sick of getting teased like this. Put me back in that dream!!!!!!!

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Rantings of a recovering crazy person

September 1st, 2014by LostOlHope

Hi everybody,

I’ve been on this site for a couple of years, posted a few times and attempted to kill myself several times. I don’t know if it was fate or if i was just too chicken to do it but somehow none of my attempts worked, I’m still alive and I’ve been given a second chance at life. After struggling with depression, alcohol abuse and suicidal tendencies/attempts for over 10 years, I’ve found a way to get out of my pathetic situation on my own without any doctors or therapists. I’ve decided to share my experiences and my journey to recovery in the form of …

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My First Post

September 1st, 2014by Jodytexas

Well, I just bought two 8.9 cu3 party time tanks, tubing and some old O2 lines. I intend to put it all together tonight and give it a try. I believe that I can make it work. I have no one to say good bye too. If anyone out there wouldn’t mind I sure would like to say goodbye to someone. God I am so depressed about this. Itht really is harder then you would think. Going that last bit seems much harder then I anticipated. I am going to do it though, even if I have to cry myself through it. Well, thanks for letting me wine a …

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Dead Love

September 1st, 2014by Tiny_One

All I ever wanted was love. As a child I would literally beg my parents for emotional support. Don’t get me wrong. I was well taken care of. I had every thing I could possibly ask for. Everything except for love of course. Every time they would pick me up from the psych ward they would just tell me, “Stop with the craziness.” I wasn’t crazy then and I am still not crazy. I am just an in depth thinker. I am just someone who is searching for love. Love is all that I have ever wanted but am I asking for too much? Am …

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I’m an Odd Person

September 1st, 2014by TwistedSpace

Yep. Maybe it’s because I have so many things wrong with me. I’m not hiding behind them, I like to think not, anyway. I’m true to my feelings, and am kind of brutal sometimes. Usually, I say what’s on other people’s minds. I feel bad. I can’t figure myself out. I’m mean to those who intimidate me, and sometimes, I’m just mean for no reason – usually when I’m manic – which is no excuse. I don’t forgive those who have hurt because I’m afraid they’ll only do it again. I’m afraid. I’m afraid of everything. I wish I was pre-rape me. I was super …

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The Beginning of the End

September 1st, 2014by Unlov3d

On 14 May 2014, I died. This was my 9th attempt and first success. I didn’t want to come back. But, yet again, I was denied of what I wanted most of all: to be free of all the pain, suffering, bipolar/PTSD and abuse I’ve endured for over 30 years. People called me selfish. Maybe so, but when you’ve lost everything that mattered, everyone you loved, even though they didn’t love you, being abandoned, rejected, your brain fucking with you on a daily basis, and you fight every single day to get through it, death is the only way out. I’m done with shrinks, the …

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September 1st, 2014by I_tried_

I always thought the hardest thing to do was to live, but now that I have death in my hand I’m realizing what I have. It’s too late for me and I’ll probably have to have my stomach pumed again , but for anyone who is serious about killing theirselves please stop and just for a mineut, stop thinking about the bad, and think about the good and see which one has more. Now don’t cheat yourself and say there’s nothing good, come on give yourself some credit. What about that best friend(in my case that one friend), or that person that’s going to find …

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I’m too depressed

September 1st, 2014by lovemyshihtzu

to be awake right now. or ever. I just want to die without him here:( I have never felt so hopeless in my 24 miserable years on this stupid planet. I want to take benadryl to sleep, but what if he calls me, asks me to come get him…. but who am I kidding I’m meant to be stuck in this stupid apartment all alone forever. I just wish I were never born

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Voiceless

September 1st, 2014by DarkWeasley

Hey there. Did you miss me? Probably not.

A friend of mine convinced me to talk to him rather than post stuff here… That worked out for about a day.. and then I realised that I had too much shit and too many problems to just dump it all on him. The offer was nice at first, but.. I don’t even know how to begin talking to him.

I don’t know how to talk to anyone any more.

I don’t know how to begin telling my story, or even where to. I don’t know who’d care enough to listen or who’d just laugh in my face. I don’t …

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I love you :)

September 1st, 2014by PeelASquid

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Oh yea, you know who you are. :) And you are my world. I love you a lot!!!! :)

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Call Me Weak

September 1st, 2014by DarkestRaven

Just another slice at a slow soothing pace
Just another pill to drown that horrid face

Just another life, just another feast
I can not escape the ugly beast

It’s all reality, some say a thrilling ride
But there’s nothing thrilling about wanting to die…

Call me bleak
Call me blind
Call me weak
But you see I’ve been caught up in a daunting bind..

In this hole far to deep

80feet under I try to escape
Can’t escape a hole that never changes shape…

 

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death

September 1st, 2014by meganers26513

https://groups.google.com/d/msgid/help-nembutal/dd0367cf-f827-40e1-acbc-3fb0540d5b36%40googlegroups.com

Hi i am looking for nembutal. I cant afford to travel or afford to purchase the drug.ive tried sleeping tablets mixed with painkillers but this didnt work. Could some1 please send me some nembutal please. I beg anyone for their help. Pinksliprs4@gmail.com please help anyone.i will b forever greatful

Po box 19987
Ashburton
South Africa
Pmburg
3213
Been to doctors and church etc. Just want out now

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challenged

September 1st, 2014by soonerthecosmos

You feel lonely and depressed and that one person you count on to understand you tells you: “There you go PRETENDING to be all sad again” and “Fine. If you want to wallow in your miserable self-pitying then be my f*cking guest.” Just no words right now for how pissed and CRUSHED I am. This challenges me more to show him that I AM NOT PRETENDING, I want to prove that to him so bad. I am so tempted to off myself…Has someone undergone something similar? :(

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Tonight’s the night.

September 1st, 2014by anomR

I’m not really a touchy feely kind of guy but since she left I feel as I can’t continue. I’ve got 96 pills and two bottles of wine. I feel bad about doing it at my mothers but there’s really no other option. Gave the house to my ex. The last ten months and three weeks have been torture. I’ve only survived that long because of my son but I can’t do it any more. Imagine what it feels like to want to die but having to push on, I can’t go on any longer. I went to the doctors today. They told me to …

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Sick of myself and everything that happens.

September 1st, 2014by BrokenClock

The past seven years for me were filled with promises, hope and trust. Only to end with betrayal, distrust and pain. Then more repetitions. Now I’m so scared it’ll happen again. And Im also made to feel bad for being insecure and afraid. Everything somehow becomes my ‘fault’.

It’s not so fucking easy.

I’m so fed up with hurting. Can I just please lie down and die in my sleep?

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I hate my self.

September 1st, 2014by Shannon Ashton

I just want a easy and painless way out.

My first and only attempt I took 100, 500mg sleeping tablets and 27, 200mg painkiller tablets to slowly drift away and all that happened was I passed out in my bed then spewed all over myself while I was still passed out then when I regained consciousness my mum had found me and took me to my nearby hospital then I went out to it again and they sent me to another bigger hospital witch they put stuff down into my guts to make me spew the remainder of tablets out.

Note, I attempted on the night before …

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kill me right now

September 1st, 2014by Hjerteblomst

Can i just die right now? I cant stand being emotionally exhausted. I fucking hate my pathetic self!!!!!

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Dreading a hellhole

September 1st, 2014by Fantasyscope

This is so short but seriously, I Hate School. I don’t want to go back to the place which is borderline jail. Who wants to wake up and be constantly judged for 7 whole long hours of the day? I’m fine without thank you.
Also it smells of sweat. Gross or what? I don’t know.

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Our tormented, lonely platypus is…gone?

September 1st, 2014by Shephard

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This cannot be…

Edit: To clarify (just in case) – the screenshot was taken from an autoreply generated by her email service.

Edit 2: Title fix.

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012305 Sept 14.

September 1st, 2014by Shephard

(^ That fella needs a haircut. Either that or a good hiding from Prince for pinching his ‘do.)

I know what questions to ask; I just don’t have the answers.

A thought train like the one I’ve been experiencing this past week will keep chugging along until it pulls up to its final station or derails somewhere down the line. It’s not so much the fact that, yes, I’m a lot more suicidal than I have been in recent months – it’s the fact that I don’t give two hoots about it. Yeah, I’m going to try and do something about it (too little, too late?) …

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