For those who have passed on.
At 38,i feel like a loser, like somebody who hasn’t accomplish anything in life except savings and an apartment right outside NYC
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Stories of Loss
so yeah here goes, okay I’ve just turned 18 days ago, had the worst Christmas ever. I’m not here for sympothy or anything like that i just need to tell my story. Well i haven’t had a bad life, I’ve a mummy and family who i love but they just don’t understand, well enough off my rambling. 12th of June – the day i met HIM. I was at a concert and it was just by chance that we met, we were strangers, litterally bumped into eachother…we just got talking you know just asked where he was from his age(17) you know just small talk […]
Hello.
I am 20 years old and I have a 2 year old son.
First, I’d like to state that my son is the most beautiful and important person in my life, I love him very much. Even as a teen I have had issues with clinical depression, bipolar disorder and borderline personality. My mother had me admitted for a suicide attempt when I was 14 and there they diagnosed me and had me put on meds. I haven’t been on them since I was 15, I stopped taking them because at the time I believed I was cured and I felt like a happier person. As […]
hey i’m (mylo) and i have been diagnosed with clinical depression and ocd, and suffer greatly from them daily. its a constant bother and can become horrible especially when one disorder feeds the other.
the disorders interfere with my life to the point that i’ve used numerous legal, prescription, and illegal drugs to feel relief from them and am medicated with effexor 75mg and risperidone .5mg daily. i’ve also had a history of suicide attempts ranging from overdose to wrist-cutting. i feel like i can’t really live a normal life. i have very few friends and constantly get in trouble with my family because of the […]
Im a 13 year girl. I live in Puerto Rico. I go to school. My Family: Mom, Dad, Brother(older)and my grandparents(divorced)ect… My Mission is helping other that have been through the same pain, anger, hatred, and sadness which that cause Depression or Suicide Attempts. The most important thing is to reach them out and say ”Never Give Up” because you are not alone, If you need someone to talk to, to hear you, I’ll be here. Remember ”Never Give Up”
Today has been interesting, I’m in a funny mood. I just got home from school and had oatmeal with banana and cinnamon and vanilla yogurt in it, It was really good. I feel very full now, and I ate lunch today as well, I had a rice cake, two crackers, and some carrots and some pumpkin seeds, not too much, but filling.
Im afraid, I have work in about an hour, and I don’t want to binge, I binge at work usually, and it helps the time go by faster, but it ruins my day. I dont know how to control it. I work at a […]
I’ve been thinking about this for awhile, but it makes sense as to why I have to end everything.
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For a little background on me, my father also committed suicide when I was seven years old. I wasn’t awake to hear the sirens, but my mother told me that it was done by hanging himself in our garage after both of us had gone to sleep. She also told me that after she found him she performed CPR on him endlessly while he continued to throw up directly in her mouth. This is probably why I cringe at the thought of hanging myself.
But anyways…
I never quite […]
On here we all talk about how this place has helped us so much and how these people uderstand us. we should start an organization. With all these people on here it could spread so FAST! help people see tha light come out of he dark and make bliss seem more reachable.
ifyou think it’s a good idea and would like to help me ge this going email me at:
the more the better!
lets make a diffrence!
This note is to Kerry Ranney♥ R.i.P
i never really thought about death.
i’v thought about how much pain it would cause a person.
…..i wonder how much pain you have to feel,
how many tears you have to cry,
how many trys of overdosing,
how many hart breaking memories, that replay in ur mind.
not feeling enough love.
Everyday i look at ur pictures, && wonder. why.
&& could i of stoped you.
talked you out of it,
could i prevented it?
anything?
Everyday those questions run thou my head.
Butt Kerry im not mad, im just happy for yu..i guess.
I hope all ur pain is gone.
I’m the friend who they go to when the need to be cheered up or when they need someone to listen… when will they realize that I need somebody I can talk to?
I sincerely apologize if all that i sound like is im complainin but life keeps on comlicatin , and im debating on leaving this world this evening(8)
written by needsomebodytoloveme
so; i’m about to tell my whole life story to a bunch of people i dont know. thats a good start. shows i have no one else to talk to. no family no friends. no. no one. well i do have friends and family. but they wouldnt understand.
so im 14. yes you will probarbly critisize me, maybe call me a drama queen for wanting to end my life, but i’m not just your average teenage girl. im different. i’m suffering.
when i was 4 my dad left me, my younger brother and my mum and i didnt see him for 7 years, then he […]
am here to talk
well lets see… my name is Eric. i’ve never really had good social skills throughout my life i’ve always been the more quiet type who needs a little extra motivation to come out and talk to people. Im 16 years old, im on the high school wrestling team, i have a good amount of friends i could say, im not bad looking but i have always been very self consious about myself with small things such as not being very tall (5’5″) , having bony wrists and being rather slender due to my metabolism, and some minor acne that just wont seem to go away […]
I’m 18.. Been through things that at certain ages, I shouldn’t have had to worry over. Been on the streets, been starving with no food, my dad has never been in my life. child protective services in my life my entire 18 years. Lost the only person I lived for which was my mom at the age of 13. I’ve basically been to hell and back more the a couple of times.It doesn’t get easier to live without her. I’m tired of being angry at the world for her not being here.. I’m so exhausted from being so mad all the time. I just can’t […]
I hate who I am. I have no friends. The only people that care about me is my family. The “friends” I have will say hi to me sometimes and what not, but im always by myself. Nobody wants to hang out with me. I’ll admit I am shy sometimes. I just hate who I am. I have felt this way ever since my family moved from the house I grew up in. We didn’t move far, but I just hated the fact that we moved and everything has seem to have been shit since then. Since we have moved, I have lost my grandma who used […]
So, I’m tired of life. All I do is daydream because life is so dull. I feel like I fucked up my life and my brain. I have depression, my stepmom/stepbitch (as i like to call her) is a *****, my dads a moron, my brother’s annoying and my friends are more like enemies. I fell in love with this perfect girl since 3rd grade and would think about her all the time. she rejected me on myspace. it devastated me. i tried marijuana and theres a chance it fucked my brain up, maybe im just paranoid. now i sit and dream as i stare […]
i wish i could be somewhere els , i really want to be happy iv tryed for so long ,im only young but i’v been through so much and its stupid coss i dont want to be that depressed girl anymore i love haveing fun but at the end of the day , happyness fades and reality kick’s in .
i have no friends , only 2 members of my familey actually talk to me . iv been raped beaten by guys , heart broken bullied for what i look like . every day is the same . i dont want to die i just […]
So I lived in a foster home for all of my life…I remember the day when I was sent there with my brothers and sister…I was scared…I thought my mother gave me away…
Things were never good after that…There were children in the homes with me…Some times they would make me do things with them…I to be honest cant tell if it was rape or not…because they were not much older then me…maybe they we nine and I was like six or seven…But Kids shouldnt know about that stuff…
Anyways…
My mother was a horrible one…she didn’t call for over a year…Maybe it was to hard for her…I […]
I know I haven’t been on here in ages, and there is a very good reason for this. The Love of my life is dead. After un-bearable news, I am forced to believe that there is nothing anymore to truly live for. Yet this festering hate for all living things and happy people is not enough for me to end my life. I don’t expect it to come back on this site, a lot of you have more pressing things and more problematic issues going on in your lives, in which I understand any criticism that you wish to feed me. Long storry short though, […]
I get this stupid question all the frecken time. I’ve tried to kill myself more than ten times and people always ask this, “Why die so young?” “You’ve barley lived a day much less a life to end?” And so many more pointless questions. I first tried when I was thirteen to kill myself, I cut my arms so deep and in so many places that they had to do a blood transfusion. I was in treatment for ten months and now I am out but I still want to die. How easy it was to lie my way out of the stupid system. There’s […]