For those who have survived suicide.
Lately I’ve ben having these migraines that take everything that’s in me to stand. It’s not new, I used to have them daily until they somehow, the same pain transferred to my stomach. I got it checked out by a doctor long back and he gave me pills and said I was fine to go. Now the pain is back and it’s stronger than ever. I’m not being over dramatic or anything but it hurts to the point where I actually think there’s something wrong with me. Before I got back to my country I got a strong one and I literally cried myself to sleep because of it. Going to the doctor isn’t as easy as everyone preserves it to be. I told my mom the other day that I needed to visit the doctor and she said she’d take me but of course like always she’ll keep trying to make me forget about it. Just like last time. I knew there was something wrong and I told her that I wanted to get a blood test, she pushed it back a year until she finally took me and it turned out my vitamin levels were low. There were other things wrong to, just not important to discuss. I want to tell the doctor how I’ve been feeling for the past years but I just can’t. I don’t know if she’s going to take me to see a doctor but even if she does I don’t know how to describe what’s happening to me to the doctor.