This is not directly linked to suicide, but it will be good if I could use this to organize my thoughts. I think it is better to do this than let this thing grow inside me untill it explodes someday. Today was a day that I thought I was going to explode, perhaps I did have a little explosion. I am living most of days inside my house, going out in very rare occasions. As a matter of fact, I wasnt even leaving my room for most of the time. I talk to some people through WhatsApp, though, and also my family, which […]
I feel like I want to die because everything I do will just disappear.
I keep hallucinating I fixed my life and I was able to live a life I felt was perfect.
As an adult I keep trying to find my own life but it keeps ending up being a hallucination.
I’m in so much mental pain I just want to die…but I don’t know how to break through the system…my parents have threatened to get me recommitted to the mental institution.
I just wish someone else would understand the pain I’m in…yet no one else can, because I’m the only one who can see it. I feel […]
I’m 14 years old, a high school freshman.
i finally gathered my thoughts and emotions and decided I was ready several weeks ago. i’ve been struggling with severe anxiety and depression for years now. shit, can’t even stand in front of my class at school without wanting to shrivel up and die. so i attempted.
my suicide was not impulsive. i planned and researched for weeks. i decided to do it on a friday, so i wouldn’t have to wake up early the next day for school. i did it. i took 31 tylenol, and some other random pills in our medicine cabinet. according to my […]
https://youtu.be/DceTFcT-iCM
Anyone who has emailed me before, it doesn’t work right now I guess. Trying to fix it. I have a gmail at the same email name so if anyone wanted to talk. I have 0 contacts on it so, I can’t actually email anyone first xc
devinbelver@gmail.com
*sad rawr
I am not doing good right now the obsessive ruminating thoughts are torturing me it’s all I can think right now I’ve been good for a few weeks and then I lost control of my mind I hate this feeling I have smoked a pack of cigarettes in 4 hours really not doing good I hate myself I hate my life I hate my mind anyone have advise on how to slow the thoughts down
I look in the mirror,
who are you that I see?
Only portrayed words,
of what you call me
Cheers! Tomorrow is my birthday. Every year for years now I never thought I’d make it another year older. But here I am. Unhappy and still wishing I was dead.
Cheers!
Why would i keep trying my life is a huge mess im almost turning 20 and i have achieved nothing in my life, I have been suffering from anxiety from young age and depression for the last 5 years and it only gets worse, i wish i had the balls to tell my parents how fucked up i am but i don’t want to disapoint them. So i just sit here alone again thinking how crap my life is and why i keep trying? normaly i had an amazing friend to go to about how i felt and it was just amazing to have somone […]
I drag you down..
I shouldnt tell you my story
I shouldnt make you fall in love with me
I regret everything..
The monster keep wanting you besides me
The monster keep wanting you to love me
I should let you go before..
I can see what happen next
Its not a good thing its not
This cant be undone..
I hate you
I hate myself
I hate..
1And just like that everything shut down. Im hurt and want to cry but i cant. I can barely move. Picking up my phone to write this pained me. I feel empty…hollow. and at the same time like im going to explode. I see no reason to continue. No reason to keep going. Im missimg a “happy” moment because of this. A christmas present for my husband and grandfather just got delivered. I was SO happy earlier. It made me realize how many happy moments i missed and how many im going to miss in the future.
i feel like a disease i need to cleanse for the rest of the world around me. I feel rejected here, to the very atoms of my being. Everything is so tragic, to the point where i question the universe. But at the same time, its all meaningless. I don’t want to experience any longer. I’m sick of wasting time.
Why do you feel too much? Why do you hurt too much? Why do you care too much? Why do you think too much? Why do you love beyond rationality? Why can’t you outrun your mind?
Why do you cry too much? Why does the tears fall from your heart instead of your eyes?
I invest hope in dumb shit that’s none of my business. Politics should be of no concern to me. However much my fellow citizens want to fuck things up is entirely up to them. It’s a reflection of how little I have going on in my own life that I let myself get hung up on the idea that external forces will somehow improve things.
The world is fucked, and I should be indifferent to that fact, instead of allowing myself to be hurt time and again by entirely predictable political outcomes.
i hate to be another statistic but…….fuuuuuuuuuck idk what else to say.
How many horrors have you seen, lived on tv or in real life? What are some that shocked you the most?
In the midst of another outbreak of depression, I found this website through the magical wonder that is Google Chrome. Apparently, searching terms idly such as, “can i just die” and, “does my life matter” actually aren’t completely useless. Let’s start with some basics. My name is Adam. I am 15 years old as of writing this. My mother passed away due to complications regarding lung cancer about a year and a half ago, leaving my already dysfunctional family fractured in an injury that seems beyond healing. I struggle with severe social anxiety, which I believe to contribute a great deal to my […]
Does anyone know why someone would commit suicide sitting down in the shower by a noose. It takes just 1 second to stand up. Is it a rare depression.
I look into the mirror. I’m already dead. I’ve been dead for a really long time. Maybe my folks don’t know it, or my “friends.” But I know it. My body is decrypted, my teeth are gone, my body is dying, my brain is going crazy if not braindead by the time I’m writing this. Life is over as I know it. I already set a date one month from today. If your wondering what the date is, it’s not with a hot girl, or even chillin with homeys. This is the day I’m going to kill myself and I’m going to tell you […]
Just a heads up. This is another of my rambling, somewhat unfocused, rambling posts I tend to do. Anyways:
It’s been a while. Few months since I’ve been lurking around here.
I have my own room now, which is good. Need a bed, but I have no money so, I sleep on a flat air up mattress. Fun.
Started college, for the like 4th time overall, last month. I guess that’s good.
It’s been 4 years and I still lurk around here.. Not sure how I feel about that tbh.
I’ve more or less busied myself with class and trying to once again find work. Employment woes should hopefully end […]