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coming clean

by Alan Ominous 5/26/2016

written by Alan Ominous

It appears as though I may have mislead some of you. I apologize. It was never my intent to represent myself in a manner in which would deceive any of you. So here it is, the honest truth….

I am not Steve Buscemi. He’s a great guy from stories I’ve heard. My avatar is just a great picture of him. Actually I choose that picture because the character ” crazy eyes ” is notorious for not visually seeing well. I think that represents me fairly. I tend to overlook obvious faults, not out of compassion, but because I simply don’t notice them.

Well, I’m not as brave […]

5/26/2016 40 comments

by Soco 5/26/2016

written by Soco

In the words of the late Frank Zappa…. “goodnight austin texas, wherever you are”.

5/26/2016 3 comments

… to drown

by Cold_Sleep 5/25/2016

written by Cold_Sleep

release the pressure of the soul

find a path for the hearth

just to drown in another…

5/25/2016 0 comment

I don’t know either.

by Cordless 5/25/2016

written by Cordless

What my brain apparently told me today:

1. Get a small coffee but refill it way more times than you should. Repeat until hands tremble, and blinking no longer makes logical sense.

2. Hold the nearest pencil without dropping it, and draw a picture of Alan Ominous’s avatar on the back of your receipt.
(His avatar is “Crazy Eyes” from the Adam Sandler movie “Mr. Deeds”. Google it to see a plethora of eyes going in separate directions.)

3. Stop after 40 minutes, no matter how BAD the drawing looks. Ignore the buzzing sound in your head as you take a picture of the drawing and post it […]

5/25/2016 42 comments

my mom withheld love from me

by sunshinestate90 5/22/2016

written by sunshinestate90

every time a relationship starts to deepen, my brain starts to protest and makes me feel pain I can’t understand. But I think tonight, I finally understand where all this pain stems from. My excuses for running away from someone I like are “they don’t really like me in that way” or “I am not good enough for them”. If I look back to my childhood, I realize that my mom gave me mixed signals about love. I was loved if I was obedient, and I was given the cold shoulder if I disobeyed. I was not taught how to love or what real love […]

5/22/2016 2 comments

……

by lostandconfused17 5/20/2016

written by lostandconfused17

I am not actively trying to die. I have just stopped trying to live……

5/20/2016 4 comments

I failed today

by reaver141 5/18/2016

written by reaver141

Today I tried taking my life, i left home after greeting my wife and kids, having them believe that i was off to work. Instead i had planned to go to the river pop as many pills as possible and pass out. I threw up everything. Not deterred, i pulled out a knife and started cutting at myself, the blade was too dull, now imagine the feeling of being cut without actually bleeding, hurts like a ************. Still undeterred, i went home, locked myself away in a room and proceeded to beat the living hell out of myself…(picture fight club). I passed out, and when […]

5/18/2016 3 comments

Gift or curse?

by vho 5/18/2016

written by vho

I never asked to be born
I never asked to look like this
I never asked to have this low intelligence
I never asked if I wanted to feel pain

I just got it…
Then everyone says it’s a “gift.” They say, “make the best of it. you only get one.” I feel like it’s more of a curse. I feel happy, then I feel sad. It is unpredictable what I will feel. Humans are errors.

5/18/2016 1 comment

Life…

by Iwantpeace2 5/18/2016

written by Iwantpeace2

If Something created life I just wanna ask why …. for us to live with our struggles with no way out is so cruel but when the day comes for me to take my own life I will do it with a smile for I made my own way out and the things that had me stuck to this reailty I wont care about that anymore I wont take part In this existence anymore!!!!

5/18/2016 1 comment

maybe I should start wearing a cup……

by noneedforaname 5/17/2016

written by noneedforaname

Life – 567,983,122……. Me – 0…. That’s how many times I’ve been kicked in the balls, it’s a rough estimate of course but I don’t think I’m off by much, just something else taken from me. Not another child or grandchild this time, another business, apparently I’m broke more than I figured and business partner and friend has been selling off equipment, and the rest is on it’s way. We never even got to get things up and running. $150,000. Worth of equipment has been sold for close to fuckin nothing, and all […]

5/17/2016 11 comments

Well…. im still alive

by The Advisor 5/17/2016

written by The Advisor

I guess only time will tell if this is the right decision.

5/17/2016 5 comments

by Whateverbell 5/17/2016

written by Whateverbell

I think the fact that I was raped and nobody (friends) believe me or support me is what’s going to make me pull the trigger. I told one of my close friends about it yesterday but I made it seem like it was a friend who got raped and not me. And he said “well was she flirting with him.” That pissed me off. Then I said does it matter, she said no and kept trying to push him off. Then he continues to say “Well I know how guys think. He probably thought she was playing hard to get.” “maybe in her mind […]

5/17/2016 5 comments

lost somewhere between heaven and hell…..

by noneedforaname 5/16/2016

written by noneedforaname

No rants today for a change, just stuck inside of my mind. The one place I despise the most. I wonder why there are people in this world that want to live, but die. There are people in this world that want to die, but yet they live. That’s seems cruel to me sometimes. I know for myself it has been a constant struggle, trying to keep it together for the people in my life, especially when I can’t remember a time when I didn’t have to deal with my so-called ” mental illness “. As […]

5/16/2016 23 comments

hey cordless……..

by noneedforaname 5/16/2016

written by noneedforaname

Hey cordless, I was reading some of the previous post and seen the one you did about your claw ring and had to say that it is a very cool ring, I had a close bro give me the exact same ring about 20 years ago, this one was made out of brass ( of all things ) the funny thing is that I still have it all this time later. When I read your post and seen the ring I looked for mine and found it, along with some other stuff I have forgotten about. Thanks bringing back some really cool […]

5/16/2016 7 comments

though my will shall never break, but it will bend…….

by noneedforaname 5/15/2016

written by noneedforaname

I have a friend, and our relationship had grown into something more. I have known that she has leukemia that has been in remission for a few years, but it’s back. After a long conversation she told me that she love’s me, and…. I have to say I love her too. Even with the things going on in our lives, I still assured her I was here for the long haul. I don’t want her to feel alone or like she has to face this alone like she did the first time. After a divorce that completely crushed me, I stayed alone […]

5/15/2016 6 comments

something happened last night

by Soco 5/14/2016

written by Soco

So I had a relapse last night. Ive struggled with heroin addiction for about ten or twelve years.
So I scored last night and the dealer accidentally gave me double what I asked for. His fuck up right…. good for me right…..
No. Not good for me. I had this messed up reaction. Ive od’ed a few times and just passed out. But this time I stayed awake. It felt like my heart was stopping. My breathing was getting shallower and shallower. Vision blurred and body was trembling all over. This is it I thought. Im going. Next comes eternal darkness. I was […]

5/14/2016 16 comments

I cant stop

by kupo95 5/14/2016

written by kupo95

I been cutting again I dont know why I thought I stoped but all of a sudden the razor blade was in my hand and I mad three small cuts no biggie. but becuase my body was acting before my brain I cut deep I was wearing a cardigan and I soaked the inside of it with blood . today I woke up to the devil yelling again Im shit Im lazy worthless I using her for money I am taking advantage her ……..I dont want me kids to be them wich I never said out of my mouth only on sp so What the […]

5/14/2016 2 comments

if u were able.

by Soco 5/13/2016

written by Soco

She walks through this life
Untouchable
Like sunlight through fog
Protractible
Shes kidnapped your heart
Impressionable
You’ll never break down her wall
Understandable
Its ‘cos of what she’s been through
Detestable
You wanna make it all right
Commendable
But shes got her own plan
Irreversible
And when its all done……forgivable.

5/13/2016 0 comment

Just need some advice

by secret me 5/11/2016

written by secret me

The only two friends that i have in college do not speak to me anymore.
I really liked them as my friends and i build a great friendly relationship with them but I’ve been noticing some strange behavior from them.
My two friends are guys and i’m a girl.
Anyways, we are all in the same class and I’ve been noticing that when i have a conversation with one of them- the other walks away.
And For example- we wrote a script individually for the class we are in and i asked both of them to be in it and one of them ask me […]

5/11/2016 5 comments

Trash day…

by Sui the Bunny 5/11/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

So today’s trash day… And then something random happened I somehow let myself think even just for 2 seconds and then I suddenly wanted to just jump in the truck when it comes or stand/sit in front of le truck and let nature take its course…. One truck has already been so its still slightly possible. But then I was fine like meh mkay. But seriously forcing myself to stay alive for a 5 year old I’m starting to regret making that post/promise (I promised IRL to mah nephew) I get random thoughts in my head its weird… I’m weird… But hey some of u […]

5/11/2016 0 comment

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