General

Here it is again. I mentioned it earlier, but here comes the freeze. The time of year where I give up on everything and don’t move a muscle. Around this time I neglect everything and lose all motivation to do anything. It always happens around the last two months of the semester. I just feel like doing nothing. I have an assignment due by the end of the day and I’m not even a quarter done. I just don’t feel like doing it. I stare at it and stare at it, and I still feel like I […]

Lonely

dont you EVER talk to him again. he doesnt love you. he doesnt want you. he doesnt need you. you are worthless to him. whatever youre thinking, just forget it. you arent worth his time.

i forgot……someone like me…..really shouldnt get attached.

All I really do here is mostly complain. When you feel it inside, and question your existence… WHAT AM I DOING HERE?????
I was getting my eyebrows waxed the other day and the woman asked ‘so what have you been up to?’
I answered ‘not much’, and there was a brief pause.
I really haven’t been up to anything of note. It’s the truth. I’m sorry I didn’t have some super exciting story to tell.
-_-

i dont want to live. i dont want to die. i dont want to die but even if the pain was gone id still want to cease. im different and no one understands. ive tried to find people that understand but im just…….different i guess

Up and down, here we go.
I don’t know why but I seem to lose everyone. I am not good at building or keeping relationships and I don’t feel like I’m wanted anymore.
My husband puts up with me, he’s too good of a person, he would never willing abandon our daughter, so essentially I’ve built this trap and now he’s stuck with me. It wasn’t meant to be like that.
My friends…. what friends? Even the person I considered my best friend for years doesn’t talk to me much since they moved. Maybe I’m overthinking this, they invite me places sometimes, but idk, everything […]

I have destroyed my life. There is no one to blame but myself for the pain I am in. The tiny flicker of hope I had is fading and I’m afraid if it goes out, there will be catastrophic consequences. I’ve done so much wrong in my life, I have hurt my soulmate to the point our relationship is dissolving, and now I wait to see if the flames of hell will engulf me. The pain is more than I can bear. I am a monster of my own making. Poison to everyone I love. I have no more strength left. There is no one […]

Maybe one day the cuts will be deep enough/ I won’t be too much of a coward to do it.

This world or rather the people in it just keep on getting worse and worse and it’s just ridiculous now.

Am I a narcissist for wishing for a better world? Am I a narcissist for wanting people to do better, treat the world and each other better?
Empathy and compassion don’t cost a f*****g thing.

See the world for what it is and rise up instead of blindly following the governments of this world and playing out the agenda just as they intended? How many f*****g […]

Nobody cares if I die. Seriously.
It kinda sucks to not have people in your life that help you make the best life, people who understand your real self, your real problems and help you solve them

I don’t want to come off as sounding like a whiny ***** but I’m tired. I’m tired of being the only certainty in my children’s life. I don’t want to do it anymore. Everyone tells me that things get better but they never do. I’m trying my best but it never seems like its enough.

Someone please give me coals to burn, tape to be sure it stays within my room. If covid wasn’t here I would have done it months ago and succeeded. There’s just too many people in this house.

Technically I’m only around for my mum, she’s dependent on me to some degree. Yeah well, I have no SUBSTANCIAL interests, hobbies or talents. My life has been mostly crap but I have had some good moments.
Don’t agree with all the covid stuff (I’m not denying that covid exists though). Anyway I’ll leave it at that.
And I’m not made for this life (like many others) 🙂
EVERYTHING SUCKSSSSSSSSS

This despair will fade back into the background. Logically I know that. Tomorrow it will be covered over by anxiety, and distraction, and possibly even some brief excitement. But right now, it has me. And everything is wrong. And nothing will ever be ok again. But it’s fine, even though it’s not. Nothing to see here. Move along.

It’s come again. It’s winter. I have depression year round, but I can’t help but feel a bit more frigid during the winter. It is the season where things die. I should be working on my group project right now. I’m thinking about quitting it. It’s an extracurricular thing. I’ve been useless throughout the entire process. I’ve contributed next to nothing. I just show up to the meetings and say that I’ll try and do this and that, and I never do anything worth while. I should quit, but it will be another thing I […]

so a little overview i’m 27 year old gay British male.

I’ve already made up my mind to kill myself in the New year I wanted one more christmas you see I love Christmas.

I’m living with an as yet undiagnosed medical condition im in constant pain varying from annoying to agonisingly painful I also have brain damage the severity of which is yet to be worked out I have vacant episodes and i fall over a lot and completly lose sensation or control over my limbs and regularly mess myself .

I was also molested from a very early age by an older cousin who lived with […]