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A dugout in the mountains

by Sbilko
written by Sbilko

The world is getting worse and worse. I don’t think it’ll get better. Floods will come, more politics s**t. The world isn’t going to unify to combat floods, it’s bs, it’s everyone on their own and every country for itself.

I don’t want to be around during all this turmoil in the next decade. All I want is to have a small, nice house with solar panel roof and a small garden, in a pleasant suburb. No technology, no internet, no politics, no bs, but peace, just peace. A stable wife who’s my best friend, and free time to spend with our children.

I don’t want to […]

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96lbs is too fat

by BlueHell
written by BlueHell

Hi! This is something I want to tell someone but I don’t exactly have people that I trust enough to tell. Or maybe I’m looking for advice? I don’t know— But I’m kinda conflicted with my body image. I think that I look just fine with my stretch marks and all that. Then there’s society’s image and I’m afraid of people seeing my stomach or notice how my thighs are a lot thicker than the other girls my height. I don’t cook either, I rarely step into the kitchen because I’m a mess in there. My mom is the only one who cooks and basically […]

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<3 VIRUS LIKED YOUR POST

by Virus.Found
written by Virus.Found

This day was a rollercoaster of good and bad. In me trying to find sense in other people’s actions. I did okay. But you know what.? It took me the whole day, but there’s no fucking sense to be found. People are just assholes, end of story.!

“You should totally get that app or social media, I’ll love you for it, but secretly I just want you to like my posts and share my own mind in my staged-as-fuck stories. Oh, did you see my many gifts I wrapped for aaaaall of my many friends, look how fortunate I am. Oooh, what did you get […]

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Mountains Be My Resting Place

by Space-Cadet
written by Space-Cadet

I’m not sure what to do, I just want to die.

I’m being kicked out from the last family I have left. I escaped a four year, extremely abusive relationship, and begged to the last blood relatives I have for shelter. It’s been nearly a year since February, and they’ve decided I don’t “fit in with the family” and am “not getting better,” so they want me out. I have no health insurance, I’m on disability for major depression, BPD, and a myriad of physical health problems. I’m not able to navigate Medicare or anything, I honestly just have panic attacks when trying to do anything […]

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Cuts

by Unsheard
written by Unsheard

Cut again today for the first time in 6 months i think. It felt really good and i had to stop myself from going over board. I just am starting to get in a relationship and i feel awful because i know she deserves better. I don’t think i am ever supposed to get better.

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How do I know when its time.

by itistimeformetogoyet
written by itistimeformetogoyet

I am just so tired. I do not want to hurt my family or my friends, I do not want to become more of a burden dead than I am alive. But I do not want to be here anymore. No part of me wants to live and the only reason I am is to protect others. I can’t keep living just to make others happy. I haven’t wanted to live since I was in 3rd grade, I am now a sophomore in college. Yes, look at how far I have come. You can tell me to keep going. I don’t want to. I want […]

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Day by day….

by Tannalee
written by Tannalee

Its been a couple of days since I was so low that I considered it. Since then i made the decisions to go back to all my coping techniques instead of going back to anti depresents. Thanks to you guys who commented on my post. YOU made a differance in my outlook. I will persevere.

I have to remember that I have so much to be grateful for. I really do. I just wish I could stop living in my past. Put that shit away for good. Who knows what will be ahead of me if I just forgive, forget and move on. 1 day I […]

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Depressed City Boy

by Virus.Found
written by Virus.Found

I was trying so immensely to have ONE positive day once in a while. It worked for like 5 hours and then my head started to make up the worst possible scenarios again. And I overspilled with my words AGAIN. Nobody wants to hear my thoughts.

I’m starting to think I have mania, I’m going crazy man. I could pick up a school bus with this overflow of energy. And I can’t sleep. I could not f@cking sleep for days. I’m a sound sleeper, that’s extremely unusual to me.

I thought I was okay for today, I really did think so. But then there was […]

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the universe is against me

by anastasia1040
written by anastasia1040

Nothing ever works in my favor. I started losing friends one by one every fucking year and blamed myself for not being good enough, barely getting through my childhood with once used-to-be abusive father. I’m glad he’s changed now but the effects never really went away. Nothing in my life works in my way. I am desperately clinging on to the job that I am suffering in because I have to support my family, my mom is really sick but I cant go back because of the pandemic, and every fucking day I have to go through a whole anxiety attack before I start work. […]

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Time to get back on track

by Tannalee
written by Tannalee

I am going to use this forum just to vent and get these thoughts out of my mind. I literally have no friends, my family use me for their problems and I cannot burden my son. I got a fright when the thought popped into my head after so many years. I know that 2020 is hard for everyone. We are all struggling with mental health but I am scared. You see I stopped doing all the drugs, I even stopped drinking this year and its all come crashing down. I cannot see a way out anymore. You know when you get into the cycle […]

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I wish i could use religion to justify myself

by effin god
written by effin god

I’m not religious but sometimes i wish i were because then i imagine how i was born with sicknesses because i wasnt ever supposed to live for as long as i do and modern medicine ruined ‘the plan’. So the reason i feel wrong is because i am wrong and if i died it would be right again. i know there’s a dozen ways to turn this and choose a different conclusion. I just want to feel like it would be okay for me to make the choice to die myself, and that i wouldnt actually hurt others with it

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All Roads Lead Out.

by Shephard
written by Shephard

Three years.

That’s how long I’ve been away from home. Part of me will always remain in NZ – but right here, across the ditch, I’m right where I should be.

As a person, my emotions no longer dictate how I carry myself. Logic is what guides me in all that I do, yet what I feel in the world around me is what helps me stay true to myself. In my line of work there’s a severe shortage of empathy – of people who do give two hoots about those we support and the work that we perform. Rather than end up like the rest of […]

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Tortured… I know it well , Terry A Davis.

by TorturedAndExiled
written by TorturedAndExiled

Ive been betrayed, abused, mentally fucked, cheated, lied to , spied on, stolen from, robbed of happyness and all my belongings, caged in psych wards, my entire life… But it occured to me, a few years ago… That I too, live in some kind of floating box CIA prison , the same as Terry A Davis claimed he did, and explained… For over 20 years. Even in my youth, people shit on me, talk down to me, betray me. .. fuck me over… The suicide attempts, the depression, the pain i went through, the betrayals…. I never knew I lived in some kind of prison […]

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lately

by c-ta
written by c-ta

lately i’m in constant turmoil. i need attention. i’m not getting it.  i feel worn and dry, failure after failure.

the good news is i finally got diagnosed; persistent depression, generalized anxiety, and social anxiety. i’ve been a little obsessed with my diagnoses but they have been so close to me all these years without ever being fully present or known. and now they are.

i’m trying but i’m so close to hurting myself again. i don’t want to bother others with it. i feel like it’s not cared for, anyways, or if i even do resort to that i’ll only be met with anger. i feel […]

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I said a lot, they said nothing

by Virus.Found
written by Virus.Found

Fact: Nobody likes a downer.

There’s just so much I don’t share with people. I could do way worse, than budging every once in a while and sound like a total pessimist, especially badmouthing myself. And if I ever do, people probably think, I’m being dramatic. Well, if only you could look into my head, you’d know that it’s just an inch of what I’m feeling daily.

I can’t pull these ridiculous jokes anymore and act, like everything is alright. I just can’t. Do you ever send something depressing to your ‘friends’ and go to bed and think: Shit, I’ll probably regret this tomorrow. And […]

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People always tell me that I’m privileged, spoiled, and have a good life, that I should be grateful. But what if that is still not enough? What if I want so much more in life?

by niki
written by niki

I’m an idealist. I have big dreams, and even visions to change the world. But sadly, in reality, there are still so many factors that limit me from achieving all my dreams. Instead, here I am just being another normal, ordinary, average Joe on the street that just only do mundane, boring, & meaningless job everyday. Even worse now, this all has led me to experience an existential crisis (or existential depression), that honestly, now I don’t even have any motivation, or basically zero energy to wake up every morning, because what’s the point? What is the point of living, and what is the purpose […]

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I am my own worst enemy.

by trulymindless1
written by trulymindless1

As I sat there, a young man, broke, unable to pay his own bills and still being supported by loving parents who believe that I just don’t care, when in reality, I just feel like everything and anything I attempt in any capacity is just pointless because of my sheer inability to do anything of note of value; it’s hit me.

Granted I’ve felt this for years at this point but still.

I’m my own worst enemy.

My disgusting obesity and overeating, constantly pissed off at everything I do incorrectly, always angry when parents, even when they say things out of love and support, or try to joke […]

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